Those of you who have read a lot of this blog will have noticed that from time to time I have made various disparaging remarks about the CB-3000. I bought my first one (a clear one) about six months ago now, and right from the moment I got it I thought, this is never going to work. The tube was too small for my cock, the rings were too tight, and when I did manage to get it on it stuck out a mile, there was no way it was ever going to be worn under clothes. Rather disappointed, and it must be said, annoyed, I sold it on within a few weeks (and actually made a profit on it!).
Naturally, chastity being a big interest of mine, I visit a number of sites where people talk about their chastity devices, and sure enough this always makes me gnash my teeth as I remember the frustration of trying to get that stupid thing on. See, although I know selling it was the best thing to do, not least because it was a bit of a cheap crappy one, I can't help but still want one. I want to know what it feels like to be physically unable to touch your cock and to be totally at your Mistress's mercy, I really do.
And so it was with crushing inevitability that a few weeks ago, late one night I purchased another one, still a CB-3000 but a black one this time. It was a different design to the first one, with a pivoted rather than solid ring and the seam running round the edge of the tube rather than top and bottom. I didn't tell Mistress R at the time because she knew why I had sold the other one and so she was bound to say 'what's the point' you've already tried it.
But I just had a feeling that it had to be me, because I've never seen anyone else complain about the rings or the tube being too small, and it's not like I'm hung like a donkey or anything (well, maybe a small donkey... no, not really). Sure they complain about them breaking (especially the top and bottom seam ones) and chafing and other things, but not about them being too small. So I was determined to try again. Also since I had sold mine I had read that you need to use lube to get the tube on, which I had never tried, so I thought, fuck it, I've got to try this again and if it still doesn't work then I'll give up.
So a few days later it arrived and what do you know, I couldn't get it on. Right, I thought, perhaps it's because of my weight, I'll keep this one and try it again when I've lost some weight. This was a couple of weeks ago...
So last night Mistress R went to visit her friend and I was left alone for the evening, ostensibly to write my book (which I did manage to do - 2,300 words in fact), but as I had this free time to myself I thought, why not have a proper go and see if you can get it on or not. So I dug it out and after a while I managed to get the largest ring to close and quickly secured it with the pin. So far so good. Then I squirted some lube on my cock and after a bit of wincing and manipulation, I managed to get the tube on and quickly locked the padlock to hold it on.
Of course I then realised that I'd used the longest pin and it was too long, so I took it off again, swapped it for the shortest pin and put it all back again. Of course I forgot the spacers and now it was a little too close (should have used the medium pin), but it was on and I thought, okay let's try this for a few minutes.
It certainly fits much better than the first one, and once it's on it's not uncomfortable, in fact I can quite understand a comment I read the other day (can't remember where, sorry) about feeling safe in it and missing it when it's not there. It sits better and definitely hangs closer to the body than the other one did, and when I've lost some weight I could maybe picture it fitting under clothes.
My next thought of course was, I wonder what it feels like when you try to get hard? So I looked at some porn on the internet and my cock started to harden a bit (trying to get hard without being able to touch your cock, not as easy as you might think...) and basically what happens is that rather than swelling inside the tube (which is how they break) it pushed the tube forward, which in turn pulled the base ring forward and started to cause some discomfort to my balls. This was not entirely unexpected as I've heard other people say that this is what happens to them.
After this I decided to take it off and put it away, but not before I noted just how much different it is being actually physically unable to touch your cock, rather than it just not being allowed. Suddenly my appreciation for the experience of chastity belt wearers has just gone off the chart. I only had it on for maybe ten minutes, and my mind was totally overwhelmed by the thought of not being able to touch my cock at all for days or weeks, the sense of frustration must be so many times more intense, and it is at once terrifying and enormously appealing. I can't imagine how grateful I would be to be released and stroked after wearing this for a while, I think I would quickly submit to just about anything, which again is terrifying and enormously appealing all at once.
And of course I haven't actually tried it with what I think is the correct pin in yet, or the Kali's teeth which came with it, and as it stands I know my balls are probably too tight to wear it for any length of time (hence why I have just spent the last 20 minutes in the Oxballs Cocksling and am now just putting it back on again for another 20 minutes) but, there is hope, because now I know I can get it on and that it is quite comfortable.
But still I'm not entirely convinced, I don't quite see how hygiene is going to be maintained, unless the thing is taken off for showering every day and I'm not at all sure about peeing with this thing on, though other people must manage.. and yet the psychological pull of being completely at Mistress R's mercy is so strong and persuasive.
What would perhaps be realistic in the short term would perhaps be for Mistress R to have me wear it at the start of our Femdom sessions, so that she gets to 'unlock' me, even if it's only actually been on for a few minutes (it could be a bit longer I suppose, depending on how long she makes me wait during the session). At least it would be a symbolic act if nothing else. Or maybe she might have me wear it while I'm going down on her sometimes, never sure whether she will release me for teasing or not... (I like that idea a lot!).
And of course, maybe Mistress might want to lock me up on certain occasions, like perhaps when she goes to see her friend and leaves me alone for the evening... because once I'd taken it off I'm sure you can guess what happened next. Oh yes, and rest assured I'm going to be punished for those edges soon enough...
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