Tuesday, 31 December 2013

Happy New Year...

I would like to wish all of my readers a Happy New Year, I will try my best to get the blog back on track and will hopefully have something new to write about soon... like maybe the vibrating butt plug that arrived this morning!


Seems there is a new aggregate site from the makers of Keyheld, my blog isn't on it, but maybe it doesn't suit the criteria... fair enough. It's still probably of interest to most all of you since it promotes FLR's and Femdom sites. Visit She-held HERE

Saturday, 28 December 2013

Tuesday, 24 December 2013

A pre-Christmas present...

Traditionally my work closes early on Christmas Eve, so I was home by midday today. Mistress and I took the opportunity for some bed-time, since tomorrow we will be seeing relatives and by the time we get home we shall most likely be very tired and very full!
Mistress had a really wonderful orgasm on my tongue and then she started stroking my cock until it was rock hard. As she sucked and stroked my cock I used my fingers to gently tease her asshole. After giving my cock a few slaps she straddled me and impaled herself on my throbbing cockmeat.
I'd been pretty close to cumming when she was stroking me to tell the truth, but I somehow managed to control myself as she started to ride me. The way she was riding my cock I kind of suspected she was going to let me cum, but of course I couldn't be sure until she told me. She was really pounding down on me and it felt really intense as she milked my cock dry.
Afterwards she lifted herself off me, moved up the bed and straddled my face so that I could lick my cum out of her stretched pussy. It was superhot! As early Christmas presents go you can't really get much better than that, can you?

Oh yes, I lost another pound on Monday (making me 217 pounds), so I get to choose another reward! Can't see me losing any weight next week though, but I don't want to put too much on either.

Sunday, 22 December 2013

Femdom Session 22nd December...

As I said, I'm not going to give a blow by blow of today's Femdom session, because there's already twenty or more posts which will give you the gist, and there wasn't anything dramatically different in today's session which merits an in depth review.
That said, it was jolly good! Mistress didn't let me cum, but she did let me lick her ass and my cock was rock hard for a lot of the session. I had the glass butt plug in my ass twice (actually the second time I asked for it...) and I would have loved for Mistress to have fucked me with her RodeoH strap on, I think that will have to be on my reward list for next time I lose some weight... perhaps Mistress can combine it with my last reward which I haven't had yet.
We both noticed a difference since the last session, in that I felt and looked a fair bit slimmer. I have lost six pounds since the last session after all... I am getting weighed tomorrow night, last week I stayed the same, this week I am hopeful of losing something. My next weigh in will be next Monday... that's going to be a tough one for sure!
Most importantly, Mistress had a really good orgasm and we are feeling very close and content right now.

Saturday, 21 December 2013

Now I have an answer at least...

I have discussed things with my Mistress and she does not want to change anything, she says she is perfectly happy the way things are, she just decided that she wanted me to fuck her so that's what she did! Which is what I said right at the start, she can decide whatever she wants, whatever pleases her... so this is perhaps a step further in the right direction.
Our Femdom session is scheduled for tomorrow, if anything unusual happens I will post about it.

Friday, 13 December 2013

What the hell just happened???

So, if ever there was something that would break my break from blogging, I guess this would have to be pretty dramatic, and so it transpired... I went to bed about an hour and a half ago, Mistress followed about 1AM. As soon as she got into bed she went straight for my cock, I didn't know what the hell was happening and I reached down to touch her pussy and found she was soaking wet.
"I want you to forget about being in chastity," she said. "I want you to fuck me."
My cock was rock hard now and Mistress was pulling me on top of her, I was a little confused, not to mention half asleep... was I supposed to tell her when I got close or what? I slid easily inside her and Mistress groaned as my cock filled her up, it felt fucking incredible to feel that again, it's been a long, long time since I got to fuck my Mistress in the early hours of the morning.
"You have permission to cum, just fuck me and fill me up with your cum."
Oh......kay! At least now we were clear what was happening here.
Well, considering I hadn't come for a couple of weeks I managed to last a few minutes before erupting inside Mistress's beautiful pussy, it felt slightly surreal after, well, it must be getting on for three years...!
The strange thing is I have been thinking lately about whether we need a break from this chastity game, I mean we've been sticking to this rigidly for over 30 months now... which is a long time. A lot of people only do this for shorter periods after all, and I was beginning to wonder if it was becoming a rut in itself?
I guess that's something Mistress and I will need to discuss to tomorrow, because right now I'm not sure what's going to happen. Maybe Mistress has just taken another step in taking control, deciding that the 'rules' are hers to break as and when she wants to. Or maybe this will be the start of a new chapter altogether? I really don't know...

Saturday, 7 December 2013


I guess (I hope...) some of you will have noticed that I am posting less and less frequently of late. The thing is, things have been pretty static for quite a while now and while I am very happy with Mistress R and I's arrangement, it doesn't really inspire a lot of posting. I'm sure you are as bored of reading the same things over and over as I am becoming writing about them. So I'm giving myself a blogging holiday. I don't know if it will be a couple of weeks or a couple of months, but I will be back sooner or later, I just need a break.

Sunday, 1 December 2013

Why I am the slave...

As you may remember, on Tuesday I reached my second weight loss target: 2 Stone (28lbs). This entitled me to some treats from Mistress R, including a £50 shopping voucher and more importantly the opportunity to cum all over her sexy ass! When I got home from my slimming club and told Mistress R she asked me when I wanted my reward, which I wasn't really expecting because I don't get to decide when I can cum. I said that it's not for me to decide, and having just recently been allowed to cum (the 23rd of November) I wasn't expecting it to happen anytime soon.
This week has been a bit lacking in the sex department, I seem to have so much to do and seem so tired at the end of the day that we haven't added to Mistress's orgasm count since Monday night (which explains the rather dismal '9' for November, the worst since February!).
Yesterday we had to go Christmas shopping, which meant a visit to town. Mistress and I are of the opinion that if you're going shopping you get up early, you get there when the doors open and you get on with it, before all the dithering fuckwits arrive. And so that's exactly what we did. I didn't get everything, but I certainly broke the back of it and got the difficult stuff that can only be got in town.
We were both pretty beat when we got home, but later we made time for some fun and Mistress had her first orgasm for five days... and it was spectacular. When I looked up she was grinning from ear to ear. My face was covered in pussy juice and she reached down and used her finger to scoop it off my face and feed it to me. That was a nice touch, I love that she has come to believe me when I tell her how much I adore her taste.
Somehow, although it had been several days, I wasn't really expecting my reward yet, after all it had only been seven days since I had cum, so I was a little surprised when Mistress told me that she had decided to give me my reward. When she said it she was kneeling up beside me stroking my cock and it was only then that the practicalities of the situation became apparent.
Mistress seemed to think that I could 'fire' my cum up at her ass, but I was not convinced. Sometimes cum flies and hits your pillow, but mostly it really doesn't. I had always imagined standing or kneeling behind Mistress R, as if I had just pulled out from behind... but then it occurred to me that it could well just drip off her ass. In the end I asked Mistress to lay flat on her front and I kneeled behind her, between her legs. It didn't take very long at all and just as Mistress asked if I was getting close I spurted a load of cum between her cheeks. As I continued stroking I just kept cumming and cumming, it wasn't a particularly intense orgasm, but there was certainly a lot of cum.
Miraculously most of it had reached it's intended target and after only the briefest of pauses I lay down on the bed behind her and buried my face in her ass. How many times had I fantasised about licking my cum from between her cheeks? Thousands, probably. And now here I was, finally getting to lick her asshole clean. It was fucking HOT!
As I probed her ass with my tongue and started swallowing my cum, it seemed to be all I could taste and smell, my cum and Mistress's musky ass... it pushed me deep into sub-space. When I had finished cleaning her ass, Mistress turned over and lay in front of me for a short while, she looked so gorgeous with her legs open, displaying her beautiful pussy for me. I bent down and kissed her silky inner thighs, wondering when I might get the chance to worship her ass like that again.
Feeling so submissive at that moment it was wonderful the way Mistress showed her body off to me like that, as if showing me exactly why she has all the power and why I am the slave. She looked so stunningly beautiful right then... I could look at her for hours.

Tuesday, 26 November 2013

Thirty pounds down...

A rather pleasant surprise tonight, after last weeks rather depressing half-pound weight loss, tonight I pulled four pounds!!! Which takes me well over two stone (28lbs) and means I got my shopping vouchers from Mistress R and more importantly, some time soon I'm going to be cumming all over her ass!
That means I've dropped from 250lbs to 220lbs, in about 20 weeks... which I guess is 1.5lbs a week.
I was hoping for two, which would have been enough. But somehow today I just got kind of optimistic and I feel kinda thinner, even so I wasn't expecting to lose four pounds... that's what I lost the first two weeks I started at the club!
Needless to say Mistress R was ecstatic when I got home, and I got 'Slimmer of the Week' too, which was hard fought because no end of people lost 3.5lbs this week! Hopefully I can get to 2.1/2stone (35lbs) before Christmas, that should be perfectly doable.

Sunday, 24 November 2013

Saturday, 23 November 2013

Femdom Session 23rd November 2013...

It's a little over an hour since our session finished and despite having eaten lunch I can still taste Mistress's delicious pussy. Even more amazing since I had to swallow 29 days of cum as well, but more on that later.
Mistress had me wear the rubber cockring instead of the Oxballs this time and Mistress also decided that since she couldn't punish me for touching my cock without permission she was instead going to 'punish' me for touching her without permission. (Ye Gads, where will this end!) At least it was only the whip and not the paddle, but that being said, it seemed an usually robust whipping!
Thankfully it didn't last too long and then Mistress had me worshipping her beautiful feet while she toyed herself with her glass dildo, I wasn't blindfolded and managed to sneak one look without being caught. Meanwhile Mistress was teasing me about whether I'd be allowed to cum or not, and if so where and how...
When she'd had enough of that she tied me down on the bed and stood over me, fucking herself with the dildo and then having me suck it clean for her. Then she sat on my face and had me lick her gorgeous pussy. She tasted wonderful and very 'silky', I take this to usually indicate that Mistress is very turned on.
Mistress teased and punished my cock as she flaunted her pussy and ass in my face, before briefly sinking down onto my cock and allowing me an inch or so of entry. It was very frustrating, but fortunately she did allow me to slide fully inside her for a few seconds later on. She also spent a couple of minutes teasing my cock and around my ass with a small vibrator, which was pretty good actually, especially around my ass - definitely wishing we'd bought that vibrating butt plug at Erotica now!
It wasn't then long before my ass was filled and my nipples were pegged and I was left to stew in my own juice for a little while. When Mistress returned she had removed the PVC skirt she had worn earlier, but retained the black bra. She removed the dildo from my ass and the pegs from my nipples before allowing me up to remove my cock ring.
Then she stood on the bed in front of me and pulled me head between her legs and moaned as I started to lick her pussy. She pushed me away and then lay down in front of me, she looked absolutely gorgeous and I couldn't resist kissing her beautiful smooth thighs on the way up to begin worshipping her.
This 'silkiness' I mentioned earlier is always a good sign, and I could just tell that Mistress was going to cum really well. Right from the start there were little signs, just little muscle spasms that told me she was really wound up, and sure enough when she came Mistress came really hard, pulling my head down between her legs as she bucked against me. After she had finished I felt so content and happy, I love it when Mistress cums like that, it is so rewarding. Mistress stood on the bed and had me lick her clean and then as I licked her juices off the PVC sheet she reached between my legs and stroked my cock.
She tied me down again and then she started teasing me with her ass again, she made me beg for her asshole and then allowed me to tongue it as she stroked my cock. Earlier in the session she had mentioned something about me having a choice to make and I assumed that it would be a choice between cumming or being allowed to lick her ass. So I was confused now, since I was already being allowed to lick her ass.
Then came the question, she asked me if I wanted to cum like this, licking her ass while she pumped my cock, or did I want to cum inside her. Mistress allowed me only seconds to think before demanding an answer one way or another, warning that if I didn't chose I wouldn't be cumming at all.
In the heat of the moment, and with Mistress's gorgeous ass right in front of my face I chose to continue as we were, even though I had been fantasising about cumming inside Mistress's pussy all week. I had already decided that I would chose licking Mistress's ass over being allowed to cum, and this just threw me.
Needless to say, after 29 days I came incredibly hard and I can't help wondering if the smooth as silk walls of Mistress's pussy teasing the cum from my cock might not have been a better choice for my poor, tender cock... but as it was Mistress pumped me hard and fast until I covered her fingers in cum, cum which was then fed to me (and there seemed an awful lot of it - hardly surprisingly!).
I have to confess to a slight pang of regret at not choosing to fill Mistress's pussy, but the grass is always greener and if she will insist on asking these questions while her pussy and ass are right in front of my face... what can I do?

Friday, 22 November 2013

Has your Mistress ever pissed on you...

A perfectly reasonable question I suppose, from an Anonymous reader...

The answer is no, and it's not something that's likely to happen either. Mistress R is definitely not into the idea and I have no strong feelings about it either way. I do remember there was a story I read on Literotica which was a Femdom cuckolding story and there was a really hot bit in it which was related to the subject. Of course I can't find it right now, but the gist of it was that the wife had the husband lick her pussy clean after she had pee'd and she said something like...

"We are so far beyond this, next time I'm just going to piss in your mouth."

Considering I really don't have any watersport fantasies, I can only assume it was the dominant tone of the dialogue which did it for me.

Thursday, 21 November 2013

Begging to be inside her...

Last night I finally begged Mistress to allow me inside her gorgeous pussy. She seemed a little surprised at first, after all I haven't been allowed to ask for about the last thirty months...
After a few seconds thought she told me she would allow it, but only briefly. Then as she climbed on top of me and grabbed my cock she told me she was just going to allow me a taste of what I might be allowed in Saturday's Femdom session.
She slowly inserted the tip of my cock inside her and then stopped, just holding me there. Instinctively I started to push up, but each time I did Mistress lifted herself in unison with my movement, keeping just the tip inside her...it was so frustrating  but super HOT at the same time.

Tuesday, 19 November 2013

UK Porn Filters...

So, those of you outside the UK will probably not be aware of this but here in Blighty our esteemed leader Mr Cameron has announced that he has got the internet service providers to agree to implement an opt-in porn filter on our internet system. What this means is that everyone in the UK will receive a letter sometime in the next 18 months (I think) which will give the billpayer the option to opt 'in' to being able to access porn. If the billpayer does not opt in then your account will be filtered and porn will be blocked on your server.
I'm sure this is well intentioned... it's being sold on the idea that we should be protecting our children from seeing porn, and on the face of it you can't really argue because it's undeniable that children can access some pretty bad stuff on the internet these days. Yes their parents should implement filters on their PCs, but the kids aren't stupid, they'll probably find a way to turn them off and what about on their iPhones, tablets, etc, etc, etc?
Where I work we tend to have the radio on and today on Radio 2 there was a phone in about this very subject, or rather the 'difficult' conversation that's going to have to happen when this letter arrives on the nation's collective doormat. Their take on it was something like this:
The letter arrives and the 'wife' wants to keep the filters on (curiously there was no mention of children in this argument) because she doesn't want to watch porn and the 'husband' says he doesn't watch porn... this then leads to the husband protesting on the grounds of freedom of speech/expression or whatever and eventually having to confess that actually he wants the filters off because he does indeed watch porn.
Now, leaving aside what this says about the state of their relationship, I can see that this scenario will not be uncommon amongst the wider vanilla community. But interestingly, the feature threw up many more scenarios and unexpected problems with this scheme.
Firstly, the presenter was surprised to find a lot of women calling in saying that they are watching porn and they don't want their husbands to find out. Then there was a woman who called up to say that she lives with her mother (she's 23 and with housing the way it is in the UK there is a lot of people living at home well into the twenties these days) and she wants to be able to view porn and her Mother does not want to opt-in.
Then there was a scenario where several couples living in a large shared house with one internet provider would have to agree one way or the other, and what about people who rent... what if their internet service is provided by the landlord?
It really does seem that this is set to stimulate an awful lot of arguments and to my mind, with severely limited success. Humans are incredibly curious and inventive, and if you try to take something away from us you will find people will go to incredible lengths to beat the system, you only have to look at prohibition to see that. I can well imagine the most Googled phrase on the internet being 'how can I beat the internet porn filters?', and of course if you look hard enough you will find the answer.
The other thing that crossed my mind is that even a semi-luddite such as myself has worked out how to use an app to download content from the internet, and in particular 'You-tube' and similar sites to be able to watch later with no internet connection. Surely the kids will soon establish just who's parents house has the filter free internet and they will all be regularly visiting with their tablets to stock up on porn for viewing later at home? I know that's what I would have done when I was a kid, as it was in my day I made friends with a guy on the market and he loaned my VHS tapes in return for minding his stall for a few hours every Saturday.
The other thing that crossed my mind was that surely, this will provide a welcome boost for the hard hit Porn DVD companies, because you can bet your bottom dollar that the 'husbands/wives' who lose their internet porn will soon be looking for alternative ways to feed their need. So if anyone knows how to set up a webstore... now's probably the time to do it!

A lesson well and truly learned...

I am a habitual weigher, I suspect most people who are dieting find it difficult to stay off the scales and I am no different. I have found that my bathroom scales and the scales at Slimming World tend to have some differences, but this week really has taken the biscuit. On Saturday morning my scales were telling me I had lost a pound, but I knew I was going out to dinner that night and so wouldn't be sticking to the regime. By Monday morning I had seemingly transformed my one pound loss into a two pound gain and I was royally pissed off. It doesn't matter what I ate on Saturday night, there is no way on earth I could gain three pounds from one meal out.
So I've spent the last couple of days stressed out and irritated, not least when this morning my scales again assured me that I was still two pounds heavier than last week. Naturally I wasn't expecting to be smiling come weighing time this evening, and yet somehow when I stood on the SW scales I registered a 1/2lb loss.
I damned near skipped out of there tonight, despite the fact that half a pound really wasn't a fair result for the effort put in (sixty minutes on the treadmill, sixty minutes walking, thirty minutes on the stationary bike and half an hour of free weights over the weekend alone!). So looking at it that way you could say that it wasn't entirely negative, but in truth it was because I've spent the last two days feeling utterly irate and that is the last thing you need when you are trying to stick to a diet.
So as I skipped back to my car, chuckling to myself (as you do) I decided those fucking scales need to go. The second I got home I took them out to the garage and that should be enough to keep me off them since I always weigh first thing in the morning and no way will I be going out to the garage to weigh.
So now I am just two pounds away from my two stone target, so maybe, just maybe I could have a really good week next week and walk out of the meeting with my next certificate (and all the extra goodies that leads to!), God knows it's been long enough coming.

Saturday, 16 November 2013

Is John Ricke's ass broken?

John Ricke poses an interesting (if not entirely literal) question on his BLOG today: 'Is my ass broken?' I must admit it was the rather intriguing title that piqued my interest, but actually what he's really asking is why he doesn't 'enjoy' anal play as much as he thinks he ought to.
My own rather limited experience with pegging and butt plugs etc has been mixed. I can kind of see what he says about butt plugs, I actually find the glass nobbly kind much more enjoyable than the tapered rubber type, since I prefer the 'stimulation' of the shape rather than the 'fullness' of the other type.
As for pegging, well occasionally it's physically pleasurable, often it's just very intense...not painful, but too intense to be 'pleasurable' as such. Actually I still remember the best pegging I ever had, and it was one time when we had just got our previous harness and we decided to try it out outside of a session. I don't know whether it was the angle or what but it just felt exquisite and I really didn't want it to stop.
Mostly though I enjoy pegging because it makes me feel very submissive, I just accept it in the same way that I accept being whipped and paddled even though I don't actually 'like' pain. Like many things involved in Femdom it's more of a 'need' than a 'want' sometimes, a craving. Like I don't really 'like' the taste of cum, but that doesn't stop me craving being made to lick it up from wherever Mistress decides.
So I guess the answer is, not necessarily... some people derive great pleasure from the physical sensation of being penetrated, some derive satisfaction from the psychological side effects, and if you don't get off on either of these or you don't derive some satisfaction from pleasing your Mistress by taking your pegging, then there's probably not much point in bothering.

Wednesday, 13 November 2013

A brief taste of heaven...

You may have noticed there has been a bit of a lull here lately, that has been in part because of a decorating project that I have undertaken and which is now (almost) completed... well it should have been completed last night, but there was an unfortunate mishap which means it will drag on until the weekend. Ah well, never mind, it will look great in a few days!
So tonight has been our first real opportunity for a few days and it did not disappoint. Mistress had a lovely orgasm and then she set about making my cock throb and ache with her fingers and mouth. It's been twenty days since I was allowed to cum and Mistress really hasn't shown any sign of being about to let me cum yet.
At one point I told her how badly I wanted to lick her gorgeous ass and Mistress allowed me to do so, albeit I had to keep my eyes closed. As she lowered her ass over my face she told me that if she let me do it, it might mean that she extends my release date, was I willing to take the risk? I told her I was and plunged my tongue into her asshole as she jerked my cock hard. It was heavenly, but all too brief... I really hope I get to do that again soon.
My cock was ludicrously hard tonight, Mistress commented on it once again, saying how much she loves seeing it so hard and red and desperate for her touch. Oh yes!

Tuesday, 12 November 2013

Edging ever closer...

According to my bathroom scales I've done it, but yet I haven't done it. Weigh in tonight and I lost a further pound, which means I am still 2.5lbs away from my two stone (28lb) target. I don't understand how when I was 1lb away last time I weighed 217lbs on my scales, but now that I'm back down to 2.5lbs away from my target I weigh 216lbs! It's very, very annoying, to say the least. Surely to goodness I will get there next week, because I'm beginning to wonder if Mistress is going to let me cum again before she lets me cum all over her ass...

Saturday, 9 November 2013

Princess Leia...

Word is there's going to be a new Star Wars film in 2015, and they are bringing back all the old gang... probably a bit late, maybe they should have made the sequels before the prequels, no? (Actually maybe they should have not bothered with the prequels at all). Harrison Ford is hardly going to be up for running around a new Death Star with (a now slightly portly) Carrie Fischer thrown over his shoulder is he?
But what has this to do with Femdom or Chastity I hear you ask?
Well nothing really, except that it's kind of accepted that every man of my age is forever enraptured by the image of Carrie in her famous gold bikini, except... I was never that struck somehow. Princess Leia in chains at the foot of Jabba the Hut wasn't really pushing my buttons as much as it probably should have. Perhaps this should have been an early sign of my future proclivities?
No, aside from the fact that the third film was pretty shit (Ewoks....seriously!) I much preferred Princess Leia in the first two films, well mainly the first one except her hair was so much better in the second one.

Beautiful, aloof and with dominance oozing from every pore, tell me you wouldn't like to see her in a leather basque or something similar, preferably holding a whip and sporting a strap-on. Princess Leia wasn't even scared of Darth Vader, she'd spit in his face rather than tell him the location of the rebel base... she'd probably have rubbed Deep Heat on his balls for fun if 'Star Wars' hadn't been aimed at children.
I'm not for one minute suggesting that Princess Leia 'turned' me submissive, but it's interesting to speculate where I might have encountered dominant female personalities early on. I think there was something particularly appealing about her condescending tone as well, if I remember. And the way her lipstick made her lips stick together ever so slightly when she spoke...
It's probably for the best that Luke turned out to be her brother, no way was Leia going to be satisfied with that whiny little bitch. I would lay odds that within months she would have cucked him with Han Solo, probably sat on his face afterwards too... 

Wednesday, 6 November 2013

Femdom Session 6th November 2013...

I can't ever remember planning a Femdom session for a work night, I know we've had them on weekdays before but I'm pretty sure they were during holidays or on Bank Holiday Mondays. Truth be told I don't think we'll be rushing to do it again... I'm not sure why but it isn't quite the same, we usually plan them for Sunday mornings because it's the most relaxing time to do it, plus you don't have to worry about the postman arriving at an inopportune moment, plus you've then got the post session chill out of a Sunday. That aside the session was successful, albeit it didn't quite end as we would have liked it to.
Having confessed to some cock touching earlier in October, Mistress took the opportunity to punish me with the whip and the paddle. I think she was pretty lenient actually, although I wouldn't have said so at the time, that paddle really smarts! After this she had me worshipping her feet for quite a while as she described to me how she was teasing her pussy with her glass dildo (I was blindfolded of course, so unable to see). I love worshipping her feet so much... they are gorgeous. She seemed to be enjoying it too.
Eventually she had me up on the bed on my back and almost immediately sat on my face and allowed me to worship her pussy for a short while. My cock had been fairly unresponsive up until now (even with the Oxballs in place), but this gave it a bit of a kickstart, then she turned around and stroked my cock while teasing me by pressing her ass against my face.
Mistress soon removed my blindfold to reveal her standing over me wearing her leather skirt and a leather open bra which showed off her beautiful breasts perfectly. She lifted her skirt to show me her pussy and then she sank down onto my face once again. She lifted up and I thought she might be going to slide down my body and impale herself on my cock, but instead she turned around and teased me with her ass again a few times before letting me lick it for about three seconds.
She continued working my cock, slapping it, stroking it hard and fast and using the little cock whip on it until it was very hard indeed. She bent over and took my cock into her mouth before moving up the bed and kissing me.
"You like tasting your cock on my tongue, don't you..."
I told her I do, and added that I would love to taste my cum on her tongue too. She said that maybe I should think about that for a while, and that maybe one day she would make that wish come true. Then she said that whatever, I love to taste my cum from any part of her... her feet, her pussy, her breasts and of course her ass...don't I?
After this she filled my ass with a dildo and pegged my nipples before leaving me alone for a short while. The Oxballs started to sting again a little bit, though not as bad as last time. I wish I knew why it was doing that all of a sudden.
She returned after only four or five minutes, and removed the dildo and replaced it with a glass butt plug. Then she offered the strap-on dildo to my mouth before sliding the RodeoH pants on. She removed the glass butt plug and released me from my bonds, before telling me to turn over and stick my ass in the air. I felt her move behind me and within seconds she was inside my ass.
It was very intense and she fucked me quite hard and fast, after a while she asked me if I could take any more or had I had enough. It didn't hurt but it was quite intense and made me feel very submissive as Mistress delighted in fucking me. I said I could take more, and Mistress continued fucking me a little while longer. Afterwards she told me that I had pleased her greatly, I assume she meant because I took more... but I'm not 100% sure.
Mistress had me turn back over and then knelt next to me on the bed, she asked me if I liked how she looked in the RodeoH pants, if I liked how she looked with a hard cock, I thought she looked fantastic. Mistress had me suck her strap-on very briefly, before she moved off the bed and peeled the RodeoH's off.
Then she had me kneel on the bed and she laid back before me with her legs spread, she reached forward and stroked my cock some more. Earlier in the session I had commented how much I love watching her touch herself, especially when she has me lick her fingers clean, and now she made a show of teasing her pussy with her slender fingers before offering them to me to lick clean.
Now it was time for me to worship her gorgeous pussy, and I slowly sank down between her legs and kissed her silky smooth thighs (I adore Mistress's thigh's they are fucking sensational, that's somewhere else I would love to lick my cum from, and I always make sure I spend a little time worshipping them before I move on to her pussy proper). At first everything seemed okay, but as time went on it became apparent that Mistress wasn't really engaging 100%, she was fidgeting with the buckle on her open bra (it was digging into her back a bit) and I felt like I wasn't at quite the right angle somehow, or that I wasn't doing it right.
Eventually Mistress did cum, and she said it was fantastic when it did happen, but it was a rather hard-won and stressful orgasm for her. As Mistress stood up and told me to lick her clean it became apparent just how much pussy juice there was all over her ass, down the backs of of her legs and all over the PVC sheet. I diligently licked up every single drop of juice that I could find, and it was totally delicious.
Having ensured that I had cleaned up every drop, Mistress had me lay on my back and started stroking my cock again, which was now not responding that well. Unfortunately I was still feeling like I had performed poorly for her and could not really concentrate fully on what she was doing. She got my cock reasonably hard and allowed me a very brief lick of her ass and then slapped my cock and told me the session was over. It was a bit of a shame it ended like that really because up until then it had been a great session, but at least Mistress did cum in the end, it would have been awful if she hadn't.
Like I said, it was an interesting experiment to try a session on a work-night, but I don't think we'll be rushing to do it again.

Tuesday, 5 November 2013

Getting closer...

It was my weigh day again today, and I thought I'd lost 3-3.5lbs (according to my scales) but in the end I only lost 2.5lbs. Which is half of what I put on over my holiday. So I'm still 3.5lbs away from my two stone target and the awesome treat that awaits courtesy of Mistress R. I'm hopeful of achieving that next week, but even if I don't I am at least pretty sure that I should be able to lose 3.5lbs over the next two weeks. After that it's a case of trying to lose another half-stone (7lbs) before Christmas really. At least our meetings are continuing right through the Christmas period so there won't be any 'weeks-off' and I'll be getting weighed on the 23rd and 30th of December, which should help keep me on track through that most difficult of times.
Last night Mistress enjoyed a rather unusual orgasm, in that it seemed to stop and start several times. She seemed to enjoy it though, I know I enjoyed getting her there. :) Afterwards Mistress teased my cock and after she had finished and my cock had softened a little I noticed a couple of drops of pre-cum glistening on the end of my poor denied meat. We have our next Femdom session scheduled for tomorrow night. I'm hoping for some ass-worship (of course), maybe some RodeoH action... and I guess whatever else Mistress decides she wants from me. Bound to be some foot worship (which I love doing), and obviously I will be tasting Mistress's gorgeous pussy again.

Sunday, 3 November 2013

Reading and Writing...

You may or may not remember that I reviewed (and very much enjoyed) a trilogy of books called 'Journey Into Chastity' by Stanley Jeffries (HERE). Well a few days ago, Mr Jeffries contacted me and asked me if I would read through the unfinished manuscript for his next book, which I was more than happy to do (really, flattery will get you everywhere!). It is nowhere near finished, but there's definitely the bones of a good read there and I am looking forward to reading the finished article when it's done.

I'm currently reading another book by the same author (though it was published under the name Marcus Andrews) called 'The Slow Seduction of Claire McDonald', admittedly I'm not too far into it yet, but so far it's proving a good bedtime read. Having flicked through the book when I received it, I suspect it will become a little more 'challenging', as did 'Journey Into Chastity', but we'll see.
If nothing else, reading someone else's unfinished manuscript (and being asked to offer my opinion on it) certainly lit the spark inside me that needs to be creative, and I'm starting to think about returning to the book that I was plotting and hoping to have ready for Christmas.
No one actually believed that did they? I thought not...neither did I. Whether that actually comes to pass it remains to be seen, I should probably try writing a shorter story for Mistress R first.

Today was supposed to be our Femdom session, but I woke up with some very uncomfortable 'pre-cramp' type pains in my legs today, like when you know you're about to get cramp and you start moving your legs about and jump out of bed to try and stave it off, even though you know it's not going to work, and really all day the muscles in my legs have been aching. The thought of being tied up and cramping really does not appeal to me very much, so we have decided to reschedule for Wednesday. Hopefully we will initiate Mistress R's November orgasm count tomorrow night.

Just uploaded my next tease...

Just uploaded my next tease on the Milovana site. You can view it HERE

Saturday, 2 November 2013

A turn up for the books...

In the end October finished up with twelve orgasms for Mistress R, which was a real turn up for the books. That meant in the last thirteen days she came nine times... which is unheard of! 
Last night I went to bed before Mistress and when she came to bed I woke up as usual with the hardest, closest hard-on... when she got into bed I cuddled her and my cock felt like it would literally explode merely from pressing against her skin. It's our Femdom session tomorrow, I hope I've calmed down by then or it could be over rather quickly!!

Here's a very good caption for you...

Wednesday, 30 October 2013

And one more makes eleven...

Last night Mistress decided that she wanted some more pussy worship, which resulted in another lovely orgasm for her. That means, despite the barren first half of October, in the end she came eleven times...just the same as September and August! 
Also she came eight times in the last eleven days which has got to be a new record for us!
After Mistress came she allowed me to gently stroke her asshole with my fingertip while she verbally and physically teased me until I was about ready to burst. Femdom session planned for Sunday, I can't wait!

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Big mistake...

Not last week, the week before, Mistress and I were off work so I decided that I would book a week of from Slimming World (we are allowed six 'holidays' a year), in my infinite wisdom I had a plan, which went like this:
I'm off work for a week, it's my birthday, we're going here there and everywhere and I'm going to put on weight, no doubt. And that was before I decided to start baking... then my brilliant mind followed it up with the idea that, going back the next week was a waste of time and money since I was bound to have put on, what was the point of paying £4.95 to be told I'd put on ?lbs. No, instead I would book two weeks off and the second week I would make sure I lost all the weight I put on in the first week.
It all sounded perfectly plausible at the time of course.... however, as the weigh-in inevitably approached it was clear that I hadn't lost all the weight I'd put on, or anything close to it really. And so it was with considerable trepidation that I attended the meeting this evening. You may remember that I had lost 27lbs (a tantalising 1lb short of my two stone reward...) before my week off, and as I mounted the scale this evening I was fully expecting a gain of 6lbs, putting my right back to 1.5stones lost. Worse than that I was worried that it may even be more, since our bathroom scales and the fancy digital ones they have don't seem to correlate in any conceivably accurate fashion. What if it was 7lbs or even 8lbs???
In the event I had actually gained 5lbs, which while not being in any way positive, is not as bad as it could have been. Which means my reward is now 6lbs away. Which, I think, if I am 100% focussed and by the book, is achievable within the next two weeks. Three at the most. And that still leaves another 4-5 weeks before Christmas to potentially lose another half stone.
Missing the meetings was a really, really, really terrible idea and I won't be doing that again in a hurry. Indeed, if at all possible I will be attending even when I am on holiday in future.

On a brighter note, after a disastrous start to October, Mistress R and I turned things around and last night Mistress enjoyed her tenth orgasm of the month. I knew we could make double figures if we tried hard enough, I am very happy about that. Tomorrow I am off to see a few bands with a friend, so hopefully we can start November with a bang on Thursday!

Sunday, 27 October 2013

Ass worship is so fucking HOT!

This afternoon was just fantastic, obviously after our day out in London yesterday Mistress and I didn't get around to having any 'fun' last night... we were beat, all we wanted was to shower, watch TV and go to bed. So today we made up for it...
It started like the last few times really, me laying on my side gently teasing Mistress's gorgeous inner thighs while we kissed until she pushed me down between her legs. I must have been doing something right because when Mistress's orgasm hit it seemed to last a really long time, she certainly seemed extremely satisfied anyway.
After she recovered she had me lie on my back and she started stroking me until I was rock hard. Almost immediately she slapped my cock and balls a couple of times and then caught me off guard a bit with an very firm ball slap while my cock was in her mouth! She continued stroking, slapping and sucking my throbbing cock for a while and then she started using her teeth on the head which was really intense and verging on painful, but so hot!
She continued teasing me as I reached around her and squeezed her ass, dreaming about plunging my tongue into her delicious asshole as she continued to jerk my cock hard. I told her how bad I wanted to lick her ass and she said...
"Well, you still have a reward owed to you. Maybe you should choose that."
I told her I definitely wanted to choose that, to which she replied...
"Do you want it now or do you want to wait?"
I told her I wanted it right now and she manoeuvred herself on top of me, giving me a good look at her pink little rosebud and making my cock throb even harder. She made me beg for it each of the three times she allowed me to worship her ass, and I fucking loved every last second of it.
Each time Mistress lifted her ass away from my mouth she looked so happy and sexy, I don't know how my cock didn't explode in her hand.
The third time I pushed my tongue as deep as I could and it felt and tasted so good, I absolutely love worshipping my Mistress's beautiful ass, it really cannot be emphasised enough just how much I fucking adore it! I just want it to go on and on, I just cannot get enough of it.
Then Mistress turned around but continued stroking my aching pole. And started telling me how badly she wants me to get to my two-stone goal, telling me how badly she wants me to get my reward, and all the time she was stroking, stroking, stroking...
She told me over and over to think about how it's going to feel to jerk my cock until I shoot my cum all over her gorgeous ass, how it's going to look and how it's going to taste as I use my tongue to clean up every last drop of my cum off her ass. Over and over, until I was about ready to agree to anything she wanted just so I could do exactly that. I want so bad to lick my cum off her beautiful asshole, I know it's going to be even better than licking it over her gorgeous breasts.
But in the meantime, making her cum so well today and then getting to worship her delicious asshole was just a spectacularly good end to the weekend. Roll on next weekend and our Femdom session!

Check this out...

You guys know how much I rate the Oxballs Cocksling, well Thumper has written a review of the Oxballs 'Dude' Sheath which sounds pretty damn cool if you ask me, you can read all about it on his blog HERE. I must admit the idea of really stretching Mistress R's pussy out with that once in a while really appeals to me!

Saturday, 26 October 2013

Some random 'sex facts' from the Erotica programme...

1. A third of all divorce filings in 2011 contained the word 'Facebook'.
Just one more reason to avoid it like the plague.

2. The largest penis on record is 9.5 inches flacid and 13.5 inches erect, owner claims it is more of a curse than a blessing.
I bet it is, I really wouldn't know.

3. For 75% of men, ejaculation occurs within three minutes of penetration.

4. Ithyphallophobia is a morbid fear of seeing, thinking about or having an erect penis.
Seriously? Are they making this shit up?

5. A woman once had sex with 919 men in a single day.
And not one of them gave her their real phone number.

6. There are about 1000 recognised euphemisms for 'vagina' in the English language.
I can manage about ten, maybe...?

7. Having sex when you are ill can reduce fever due to the sweat produced.
That's one to keep on stand-by.

8. The founder of Match.com lost his girlfriend to a man she met on Match.com
Well that's just funny.

9. In Jamaica an erotic dance called 'daggering' was banned from TV after causing broken penises.
Eh, what???

10. At an annual masturbatathon in Japan a man broke the record for continually masturbating. He managed 9 hours and 57 minutes.
So close, could he not just manage another three minutes?

Erotica 2013...

I have literally, literally just got home from London and Erotica 2013. I thought I would get down my thoughts while they are still fresh in the memory, and while Mistress R gets a shower. Of course, the thought of Mistress R dripping wet is bound to a be a huge distraction but I will do my best!
First impressions of the new venue (Tobacco Dock) were quite good, it's a very cool building with vaulted ceilings in the lower floor. It did seem a little cramped in some of the individual 'shops', something which was not a problem in Olympia because it was more set up like a trade show with 'stands'. I would say the lower ceilings and less spacious surroundings did create more of an atmosphere though and no sooner had we walked in than we looked to the right and there was a woman with her tits out getting a photograph taken as she stood against a wall.

The first shop we went in was Bondura and we were tempted by a vibrating butt plug, but after some deliberation I decided that since we already have more than one butt plug, and we have a small vibrator we could probably achieve the same effect that way. I do find the glass products to be far superior and so I'm trying to get away from the crappy, rubber stuff if possible. It shouldn't be too difficult to attach the small vibe to the ring on the end of my glass butt plug I don't think, maybe we'll try that out soon.
I have to say, predictable though it may be, there were rather too many places selling corsets, burlesque outfittery and those shit masks that are on the cover of 50 Shades of Grey (possibly). In fact there was really only one place selling the kind of PVC stuff that Mistress was looking for and sadly there was nothing that really tickled her fancy so we left empty handed on that score.


There was a Spearmint Rhino lounge in one corner, which we entered and discovered a very bored and rather unsexy looking blonde going through her very uninspired looking moves on the pole while two 'official' photographers took pictures of her arse (which had Spearmint Rhino rather unsubtly written on it, well actually not her arse, obviously... rather her bikini bottoms). Elsewhere there were two or three other rather less than animated 'S/R' girls sitting on a motorbike. I have to say, I have never really been remotely tempted by the allure of a pole-dancing club, I just think it's so... fake and cynical, I suppose. Plus, these girls were just not sexy to me in the slightest. Yes they were slim and they had the big hair and all that, but being sexy is way more than that and this after all is supposed to be their job! I don't know, I would be interested to know if any of you have ever been to one of these clubs, what was it like?
At 3:00pm we managed to grab a seat in front of the Erotica Stage, ready for... you guessed it 'Natural Born Thrillers'. Which, basically is two very hunky guys and one guy who looks a bit like Lee Mack. No really.

Which was entertaining in itself, as he seemed to treat the whole thing as a giant piss-take. I got the impression that he was the 'boss' and perhaps he's getting close to packing it in, cos he looks a little bit older than the other two, certainly old enough to know better anyway. Bless him. It was rather amateurish (a bit like last time actually, lots of awkward pauses in the music etc etc) but pretty funny though, and once again Mistress R did manage to have an 'encounter' with a half naked stripper (not the one who looked like Lee Mack unfortunately), though this time she didn't have to rub oil all over his chest...he just kind of well... gyrated on her lap, though I think she was mainly concerned with him not getting baby oil on her Radley handbag.
After the show Mistress and I headed back into the throng and Mistress tried on the aforementioned PVC tops, and then we kind of realised that we'd seen pretty much everything we wanted to see. Which was fortunate as the Torture Garden show was about to start back on the main stage. Unfortunately we didn't manage to get there in time to bag a seat, but it wasn't too bad standing around the back, we could still see very well. I have to say, I've seen quite a few Torture Garden shows over the years (at various Eroticas) and when I saw the keyboard on stage and clapped eyes on the hosts (Eastend Cabaret) I was not particularly inspired, but...I was wrong. They were genuinely funny, especially the shorter girl who played the keyboard.


After that there was Miss Poly Rae (quite good striptease/burlesque...and I don't put 'good' and 'burlesque' in the same sentence lightly, believe me), Marnie Scarlet (weird latex person...not entirely sure whether it's a woman or a man...probably a man), Chrisalys (a weird oversized Pierrot doll who fired staples into his arm and then rubbed the blood onto a teddy bear, no I'm not making this up), and finally a Japanese lady called Yusura who had a very impressive full back tattoo and who was a kind of Geisha stripper with added wax play.


Oh yes and there was Beatrix Von Bourbon (a Britain's Got Talent semi-finalist apparently), who was the worst of all the burlesque dancers I've seen yet, indeed I spent the whole performance trying to figure out who the music was by that she was using. I still don't know... it's very bleepy. At first I thought it was Depeche Mode but it wasn't. Definitely not. I know all Depeche Mode's stuff, but I feel like I should know who it was anyway... maybe it's Craig Armstrong?
After that we rushed downstairs to catch a rope bondage workshop. I've read about these sorts of things before and people always say that until you see it being done you don't really 'get it'. Well, I'm prepared to agree with that, although it's really not the fact that it looks amazing or anything, although plenty of people think it does. To me what was most striking about it was the effect it had on the girl being tied up. She looked totally blissed out, indeed the demonstrator called it 'rope space', which having experienced deep sub-space a few times I can totally relate to.
So that was it then, my experience of Erotica 2013. Though I may sound rather scathing, it was quite enjoyable overall, it's just a pity there wasn't a wider selection of clothing for sale. Never mind, it was a fun day. It was worth it just to see the hilarious male strippers.

Friday, 25 October 2013

Totally intense and just fantastic...

Tonight the unexpected happened, and it was incredible! Since Mistress and I are determined to make up for lost time this week, once again we headed for the bedroom around 8pm. I lay next to my beautiful Mistress and we started to kiss and I gently stroked her thighs and around her pussy. My cock was soon rock hard and Mistress reached down to grab it and stroke it. I licked my fingers and gently began teasing her slit and it wasn't long before she indicated that she wanted me down between her legs and licking her pussy.
I moved down the bed and once again tried to get comfortable laying on my throbbing cock. She tasted wonderful as always and I gently kissed and licked her pussy before adding my index finger and eventually bringing her to a lovely climax. As she recovered I gently kissed her inner thighs and breathed in her scent, but was unprepared for what happened next.
She reached down, pulled me up the bed and started stroking my cock as I leant over her to kiss her again. Was she going to let me slide into her slippery, wet pussy right now? I hadn't cum for twenty one days and the thought of being allowed inside her, maybe even to cum inside her made my cock really throb and ache.
After a short while she pulled me nearer and fed my cock into her hot, slippery hole. It felt absolutely amazing, the way that it only can when you are only allowed something sporadically, and perhaps crucially, at another's whim. I started to slide my cock in and out of Mistress, enjoying each and every stroke as if it was the last, but then as I started to stroke deeper and deeper I almost fell out. She told me to just hold it inside her for a minute, which I did... and then she started to push against me, indicating that she wanted me to thrust inside her again.
After a couple of minutes I was starting to get close and I told Mistress I couldn't take much more, she asked me if I wanted to cum inside her. Usually my answer would be 'if it pleases you Mistress', but in this instance I didn't want to give her that answer and I told her I did want to be allowed to cum inside her. She asked me how bad I wanted it, but before I could really follow through I felt myself getting really close and had to warn her again because if she had any intention of brinksmanship* then I was about to fail - big time!
She told me she was allowing me to cum and as I felt the edge building and growing ever closer she repeated her demand that I should tell her how bad I wanted it, more urgently this time. I felt my cock starting to strain and I have no idea what I actually said in that moment, I just remember my cock pumping over and over as I filled my gorgeous Mistress's pussy full of cum. It seemed to go on and on like it was never going to stop, truly one of the best orgasms I've had since we started this blog I'm sure.
After a short period of recovery and kissing Mistress intensely, and with no sign of her ordering me to clean her, I decided to move back down the bed and lick her pussy. I figured, Mistress Marie said I needed to take the incentive to worship her feet until it became normal for her to 'order' me to do it, so why should this be any different. It was lovely to lick her pussy of course, but surprisingly there wasn't a single drop of cum there for me to clean up. Once again I seem to have pumped it too damned deep, I really need to try and rectify this, but it's kind of difficult to think about that in the heat of the moment. Of course Mistress laying on her back wasn't prompting any cum to appear and she didn't seem inclined to sit on my face either. Even when she got up it was somewhat reluctant...
After a short while she moved my mouth away from her pussy and we lay together on the bed, holding each other as she told me about her day. I must admit it is a tiny bit disappointing that the last two times I've got to cum has been inside my gorgeous Mistress and neither has resulted in a proper cream pie, but really... the sex this evening was so fucking good, I really can't bring myself to be unhappy about that. Besides, hopefully it won't be too much longer before I get to spray my cum all over her wonderful ass and lick it clean.
In the meantime, it's amazing to realize just how amazing basic, vanilla, missionary position, PIV sex can be... at least when it's set against a backdrop of three weeks of chastity and teasing, and several orgasms for my beautiful Mistress. It seems obvious to me that you can have too much of a good thing, and this lifestyle has a wonderful way of charging even the most basic of lovemaking with some serious intensity. I am so glad my Mistress is totally on board with this now, I realy can't imagine ever going back to being a 'free' man again.

*Mistress hasn't done this in quite a while actually, when she first let me go on top she would stop me when I got close... I'm not sure if this is simply because she gets to a point where she wants me to cum inside her or what, but it's her decision so if she lets me edge inside her and then tells me to stop I will, just as I will gladly finish inside her if that's what she decides.

Thursday, 24 October 2013

Four orgasms in five days, not for me...obviously!

Finally the text box is working again, so I've been able to reinstate the 'Most Recent Orgasms' box on the front page. It's been a good week so far, with four orgasms in five days for Mistress R and three lovely sessions of teasing for me. Mistress is really starting to get into slapping my balls and doing it without being asked, she's also started doing it a bit harder too. I've certainly felt a little ache now and again today, but I don't mind, it's a lovely reminder of last night's fun.

We are going to London on Saturday, it's Erotica again and we need to replace Mistress R's PVC top, which sadly lost it's shape a few months ago.

I guess she has had it quite a few years now, must have seen a fair few sessions... probably ten years since we bought it. It was always a favourite of mine and I was sorry to see it go. I really hope we can find a suitable replacement.
According to the website the new venue has a 'fully working dungeon with demonstrations', which sounds promising. I always thought that Erotica lacked a certain something. For one thing there was no atmosphere because the venue was ridiculously inappropriate, a huge hall with a glass roof capable of hosting show jumping... does that really sound like a nice intimate place? Hardly. It sounds like the new place is a lot more suitable, I guess we'll see in a couple of days.
The new venue is on the outskirts of London at the newly refurbished Tobacco Dock, let's hope the train service is better than the one to Olympia which was always completely hopeless and unreliable. There are shows every hour alternating between Torture Garden and a collection of Dream Boy types.... which is usually pretty amusing. I remember a couple of years ago Mistress R had me sitting in the front row with her and there was this black guy who looked like 'Blade' doing his thing, and he had her rubbing oil onto his six pack right in front of me. At least he didn't ask me to do it!
Another funny memory was there was this show on the main stage and there was a mixture of guys and girls dancing and stripping, and there was this one guy who was absolutely shit, he was out of time with everyone else and he couldn't rip his trousers of when he was supposed to. So come the end of the show and you're really wondering what this guy was doing up there, cos he was a bit rubbish. Next minute he rips what little clothing he still had on off and his cock is just standing out straight in front of him about a foot!
Talk about a show-stopper! I was scared... hahaha.

Back on the diet after our week off, think I've lost a couple of pounds so far, I reckon I put on five or six so still a little way to go, but I don't have to weigh in until next Tuesday, and I've still got a treat in hand. Gotta get to that two stone reward though, really need it soon.... the mere thought of jerking off over Mistress R's ass and licking it up is enough to drive me crazy. When I finally get there I know it's going to be awesome!

Tuesday, 22 October 2013

New Milovana tease...

Today I have submitted a new tease at Milovana, if you would like to view it you can do so by clicking HERE.

Currently it has a score of 3.9/5 and getting on for 20,000 views!

Sunday, 20 October 2013

More lovely pussy worship and teasing...

More wonderful teasing for me tonight and a slightly strange orgasm for Mistress R. She kind of go there... and then nothing happened... and then it hit, really intense! Afterwards Mistress stroked and slapped my cock and balls and then rode me for a while, grinding herself down on my throbbing cock while I played with her gorgeous breasts. I would love to see those breasts covered in cum again, mmmmmm....
After a while Mistress rose up off my cock and lay next to me, kissing me hard while she continued stroking and slapping my cock and balls. Several times I got so close to warning her that I was close, but each time she just slowed down and pulled me back, it was incredible. Gradually Mistress started to scale back the stimulation, which was massively frustrating in itself. It's one thing to be left throbbing and aching, but even more frustrating to feel your cock start to soften simply because your Mistress isn't giving it what it needs to stay hard. All the same I love that she decides how much pleasure I get and having her totally control my cock like that really shows me who's in charge (I'd still rather be left throbbing though).
So that's two in a row, and I still have a treat from two weeks ago that I haven't claimed yet!

Getting back to normal...

Yesterday, after another six day wait I finally got to worship Mistress R's beautiful pussy again. It was so good feeling her cum on my tongue, I missed it so fucking much. Immediately I felt so much happier, I really do not function well if I am not able to worship my Mistress, I just feel kind of down until I can make her cum again. It really sucks.
After I made her cum Mistress teased me wonderfully and I begged her to slap my balls. She did, several times. She hit them maybe five times in a row about three times...  it felt fantastic, just the right hardness, i.e- just a little harder than I could have done it. :)
Mistress pumped my cock pretty hard and several times I thought I was getting close but she slowed down each time and kept me just the right side of exploding. I was really wondering if she was trying to make me cum just so she could ruin it...I don't know, but she was definitely pumping me hard.
My cock was unbelievably hard when I was going down on her, it was actually quite uncomfortable laying on it! Not that I'm complaining of course!
Needless to say Mistress ultimately didn't let me cum, she left me throbbing hard and looked extremely happy to do so, she slapped my cock pretty good too.
Neither of us is happy that she's only cum four times in twenty days, Mistress was looking at the calendar yesterday and said she reckoned another ten were possible. I think that's optimistic, but I'm more than happy to try, I reckon we could at least save the month and get into double figures. The second I had made her cum I just wanted to start over, so I'm more than happy to push for a good result.
Maybe we can beat our previous record of five consecutive days in a row, that would be pretty cool.

Later in the evening it was quite warm and I noticed that Mistress had taken her socks off, actually I had been massaging her feet while she lay on the sofa earlier...hoping that she might tell me to worship her beautiful feet or ring the bell . I was just about to go to bed and I decided that I had to seize the initiative and so I lay down on the floor in front of her and started to kiss her gorgeous, soft instep. She said she had been about to ring the bell...
Mistress responded very well to my foot worship, she was much more involved than normal, usually she just relaxes while I do what I think, but this time she was much more pro-active about which foot she wanted worshipping and where. I loved it, anything which makes her more dominant is good in my book. Eventually she relaxed and when I looked up I saw her laying back on the sofa with her eyes closed looking like she was loving every second of it, that made me feel so happy. Mistress R really does have sensationally beautiful feet, I absolutely love to kiss and worship them.

It's the last day of our holiday today, back to reality tomorrow... which is good for my weight at least. I reckon I've put on about four pounds this week. But now I have about 8 days until I have to face the scales, and I'm really hoping I can take those four pounds off and another one and get my two stone certificate. I really want my two stone reward now, you remember Mistress said that she would let me cum on her ass and lick it all off... so ready for that!

Friday, 18 October 2013

An interesting email...

From a reader who will remain anonymous...

"I watched one of the videos you posted, I wasn't sure what it would be to start with, then it became apparent that it was targeted at 'sissies' so I felt quite comfortable that I could watch it without any concern and be detached from it's purpose. The head fuck was that as the video progressed and I saw the hot girls kissing and tonguing cum between their mouths I just wanted to join in! Or seeing a pretty girl's face covered in spunk I found myself wanting to lick the screen."

Let the viewer beware indeed!

Monday, 14 October 2013


Last night I finally got to make Mistress R cum again, and it felt wonderful. Afterwards she teased me really well and I was so hard and desperate to cum, I was totally craving the taste and told her how much I love licking my cum off her body. Didn't get me anywhere though, she left me totally denied and aching... my cock was incredibly hard, felt so fucking good though.
Not sure if it's a new record or not, but that was nine days for Mistress without an orgasm. Not good. Three orgasms in fourteen days, and she hasn't had her period yet this month.... double figures is looking unlikely, but not impossible.

A fair few new videos added last night and this morning, a couple of special ones for those of you who are also craving cum.... :)   HERE  and  HERE

Saturday, 12 October 2013


It's been a week... a whole week since Mistress R and I both came after a lovely, hard, me on top fuck. Since then, nothing. I've been ill and now I'm starting to come out the other side Mistress R is getting ill. Life just pisses on you like that sometimes I guess. But still... a week, isn't really that long, it just seems a long time when you are used to having sex two, three, four times a week. This happened last year around the same time and we still managed to set a new record for the year overall, so really... annoying as it is, this really isn't the end of the world.
I hope Mistress R's cold doesn't get too bad, she doesn't seem to get them as bad as I do, probably because she's so fit. We've got quite a busy week ahead anyway, so let's hope it doesn't interfere with our plans. Mistress seems to think that her period may not be too far off either, so this week could conceivably turn into two, which would be pretty unusual for us, but well... like I said, we just have to take it on the chin.
The only thing worse than no sex, is bad sex. This is something that we've learned over the last few years. Especially if you're the kind of person like us who dwell on things too much. Like when I had ED problems before, I could have had no problems for a month and then one bad experience and until the next time it was okay all I could think about was 'what if it won't work', and of course that kind of pressure is the LAST thing you need in that situation.
Most times, a little tiredness is quickly overcome, or even feeling a little unwell... but if you feel crap, then trying to force yourself into it (for us at least) is really not a recipe for success. So we'll wait and see how things go. We have a lunch out tomorrow and then a whole day and evening out on Monday so maybe Tuesday there's a possibility, albeit we are going to be extremely tired no doubt, I don't see us getting home until the early hours after a three hour drive.
If nothing else, trying to look on the brightside, a period of abstinence usually makes Mistress cum really hard, so if it does end up being two weeks I can't wait to feel her bucking like crazy at the end of it!

Tuesday, 8 October 2013

Very quick update...

Not been feeling well the past few days, took one Night Nurse tablet last night and it totally zonked me for today. Got weighed tonight and lost another 2.5lbs though, which is 2lbs of new weight so I get to choose a treat! Obviously that's not going to get used for a few days I don't think. Need one more pound to lost two stone and get the vouchers and my second milestone treat. Only thing is the next couple of weeks are going to be tough, it's my birthday and we are off work and going to all sorts of places which means eating out...
Plus when I go back it's going to be nearly November and my jeans weigh a lot more than my shorts!

Sunday, 6 October 2013

Update on the Ratio of Mistress R's orgasms to mine graph...

Sorry for the shitty looking graph, the website I usually use is down because it's run by the US Government!

Friday, 4 October 2013

A new record...

Sorry for the lack of posts this week, it's been a busy one... first of all Tuesday was my weigh-day and I was pleased to have lost 2lbs, which means that I am now only 1/2lb off my lowest weight again (having gained 2.5lbs on my week off). October is a bit of a problem, it's my birthday soon and we have another week off too, so I'm kind of thinking that if I can get to the end of the month while maintaining the weight I've already lost, then I have a couple of months to kick ass before Christmas.
We had some fun on Tuesday, Mistress had a nice orgasm while I was rather tired and so didn't enjoy my teasing quite as much as I should have, since mostly I was trying to concentrate on staying hard. Wednesday was our 20th wedding anniversary so we went out for dinner after which I got a really sore throat which meant I didn't get much quality sleep, therefore last night I wasn't feeling great or have much energy really. So we didn't do anything last night really apart from watch 'Potiche' which is a really good French film starring Catherine Deneuve and Gerard Depardieu.
I still wasn't feeling 100% this evening, but I was determined not to let another day pass by without an orgasm for Mistress R, so we went to bed about 8:00. Mistress lay back on the pillows while I was in my usual waiting position, kneeling at the end of the bed. She bid me to move forward and I straddled her right leg as I kissed her, gently stroking her silky smooth thighs as she stroked my cock until it was rock hard. As we continued to kiss I gently pushed a finger into her pussy and found her very wet and ready, maybe tonight I would get to go on top and perhaps maybe, possibly cum inside her???
Eventually she pushed me back so that I was between her legs, with my cock still really hard and hopeful... but even though I thought I might be about to get a treat, she wasn't having any of it and used her foot to push me back until it became clear that I was not getting anything more until she'd cum.
So I sank down onto the mattress and tried to ignore the fact that my cock was extremely hard and squashed under me. It took Mistress quite a long while to cum, in fact she seemed to be teetering on the edge for ages, but she did say afterwards that when she did finally go over it was great, so that's okay!
After she came Mistress pulled me up between her legs and stroked my cock briefly before feeding me into her slippery, wet pussy. It felt amazing and I gently started to stroke in and out of her, enjoying every last second of this infrequent experience. After a while Mistress told me to hold still and proceeded to wriggle under me until she was on her side, a position we used to love and use a lot back when I still got to be on top regularly.
I particularly love this position because it means I can see my cock sliding into Mistress R's beautiful pussy and see Mistress's gorgeous ass at the same time. Mistress knows all too well how much I love this position (and why) and teased me about it as I was sliding in and out of her. This position is also really good for getting a really good rhythm going and soon Mistress had my cock deep inside her and I was fucking her fairly hard.
She told me she wanted me to cum inside her, and for once I didn't take that cue to instantly explode...instead I took the opportunity to really enjoy myself and pounded her pussy as hard and long as I could before erupting inside her. It had been 28 days since my last orgasm, and 90 since the last time I had been allowed to cum inside her, and it felt fucking incredible. Afterwards Mistress stood on the bed so that I could lick her pussy, but there was almost no cum to swallow, I think it was just too deep inside her!
Incredible to think that I went just shy of thirteen weeks without cumming inside her, the previous record was just over ten... I guess this is inevitable though, if I'm going to be allowed fewer orgasms then most likely fewer of the ones I do get will be inside Mistress's delicious pussy... and if the first six months are anything to go by this year will see quite a reduction in orgasms from last.

Blogger seems to be playing up again, I can't edit the Recent Orgasms box at the moment so it still says 301 for Mistress R, when actually it's now 303 and 55 for me, not 54.

Sunday, 29 September 2013


I don't often post videos on the main pages, there is after all a Video section... but this one is pretty exceptional and deserves a wider audience. What an intense handjob, and she's either a great actress or she was having a lot of fun mistreating that guy's cock! That guy's balls must be really loose, no way would mine stretch like that...well, not without a lot of warming up.

Great weekend...

Another wonderful and hard orgasm for Mistress R this afternoon, she tasted so good... afterwards I thought maybe Mistress was going to let me cum inside her! After stroking my cock for a while she really went to town on it, slapping and biting it and then swung herself on top. I thought, this is it, she's going to tell me to cum inside her and then she's going to sit on my face and have me lick her cum filled pussy clean...
Well, that didn't happen.
After a short time I begged her to take her bra off, she made me beg several times but eventually relented and slipped it off, exposing her gorgeous breasts. She looked so, so good. I reached up and squeezed them as she started riding my cock, pushing up to meet her as she rode me hard, it felt wonderful, her hot, wet pussy sliding up and down my long denied cock, though I never felt like I was going to spill my twenty-two days denied load.
Suddenly, she told me to stay still and started riding me slower, then she got off and lay down next to me stroking my slippery cock again. Then she knelt over me and rubbed my cock all over her breasts as she continued jerking it. She stroked it hard and fast but still I wasn't really getting close, more slaps followed and then I begged her to let me taste her pussy again.
Initially she said 'No more today', but I begged more and she straddled my face again and I eagerly licked her sopping wet pussy, she was so wet and tasted so fucking good, but that was the end of the play for today. No orgasm for me, and no cream pie.
Still I was more than satisfied, having given my beautiful Mistress another good orgasm. What a great weekend it's been.

300 Orgasms...

Last night Mistress R had her 300th orgasm since April 1st 2011, and it was a bloody good one as well! Which was extra important seeing as it was an important milestone, would hate it to have been mediocre, or one of those that are really hard to achieve and seem to be over before they even start.
But no, this was really good and Mistress R responded by giving me some fantastic teasing. She was really working the head of my cock with her tongue and then she started with her teeth which was so intense. She gave my cock and balls some really good slaps too... I'm getting hard now just thinking about it.
When I could tell she was starting to wind down I begged her to let me taste her pussy again. She got up on her knees and told me that I could but that there would be no more teasing. I didn't know if that was a statement or an option, I took it as a statement... since I would have chosen it anyway it really didn't matter too much.
Mistress straddled my face and I plunged my tongue into her soaking pussy. She tasted so incredible, I could have happily laid there for hours. Mistress started working her clit against my tongue but after a short while she climbed off me and knelt beside me. Still eager I lifted myself up and gave her another few licks and gentle sucks before she pulled away and we lay down together, my cock still rock hard and rubbing frustratedly against her stomach.
Since I started this blog and started keeping records of Mistress R's orgasms she's had 300 orgasms, the first 100 took 312 days, the second 100 took 327 days and the most recent 100 took 275 days. I'm surprised the second hundred took longer than the first, but then there was some shitty periods of illness last year leading up to Christmas where we didn't really feel like much at all.
I'm very happy that the third 100 have come so much quicker though, that's real progress! In contrast of course, I'm pleased to say that my orgasms are becoming less frequent. I can't do a 100 comparison because I probably won't get there for another two years, maybe more... but in the first year I was allowed 23 orgasms, in the second it was 22 and so far this year (half way through) it's been just 9. Although I have had five ruined ones. Also, while I was allowed to cum inside Mistress nine times in the first year, and a whopping twelve times in the second year (once a month!), this year it's only been three times so far.
Anyway by way of celebration, here's a little graph illustrating Mistress R's quarterly results (I've assumed one more orgasm for Sept 13 since there's still two days left to go).

Just say no, to ads on blogs...

You may remember that I mentioned that I would no longer provide links to blogs which had annoying pop-up adverts all over them, well I'm not sure whether it was the same one and I didn't clear it out of my personal reading list, but 'MyManySubmissions' or 'ALifeOfSubmission' has definitely gone now.
I was going to leave him a comment telling him that his advertising probably won't help his numbers (and actually not being able to click on his captions and actually read them probably isn't helping either!) but really it's pretty obvious from the shape of the views graph on his page that adverts on your blog are a bad idea.

Thursday, 26 September 2013

In the midst of a new record...

It was almost exactly a year ago that a record of seventy two days was set, between instances of being allowed to cum inside my Mistress's gorgeous pussy. I noticed earlier today that we are currently setting a new record with each passing day as I have not been allowed to do this since early July... I think we are up to about 82 days as of today. I have no idea when this will come to an end, obviously it is not up to me, I just hope that when it does eventually happen Mistress has me lick every drop of cum out of her delicious pussy. Now that's something to really look forward to!

Wednesday, 25 September 2013

So frustrating. So hot. So good...

Mmmm, well...that was nice! Mistress came nicely on my tongue and then had me move up the bed so that she could tease my cock while I knelt between her legs. I was starting to think about asking to be allowed inside her when she slid forward and fed the tip of my cock inside her slippery pussy. But rather than allow me to push forward she kept me there, stroking my shaft with her fingers while the first couple of inches remained static inside her. It was frustrating, to say the least... and eventually I begged her to let me push into her.
She didn't say anything but finally let me push my throbbing cock inside her, however she immediately told me to stay slow, so I spent the next few minutes slowly sliding in and out of Mistress's gorgeous pussy and then she firmly pushed me out and told me to lie down. Then she spent a few more minutes stroking and slapping me while she kissed me deeply, and then (at my prompting) gave me one final firm slap to my balls, which was sooooooo fucking good.
Afterwards Mistress told me it had been a bit painful having me inside her and joked that my cock must be getting bigger, which could be taken two ways I guess! I'll take it as a compliment though... what can I say, I'm a man. I hate to think of her not enjoying it though... that definitely does suck.

Only a week to go until our 20th wedding anniversary, looking forward to that. Amazing to think that we've been together for 21 years and still so much in love and happy together. And this past three years has probably been the best in many ways...

Girls masturbate...why can't we talk about it?

I was looking on the Daily Telegraph website today, actually I was looking for reviews of a shite comedy series that started last night (the review was good, the public comments echoed my own thoughts...nice to know it's not you), and at the bottom of the page there were various links to other pages on the website.

One which caught my eye was entitled 'Girls masturbate, why can't we talk about it?' Which I will repost here just in case you can't see it in another country or something...

Who doesn’t love busting a taboo? Doesn’t it make you feel edgy and modern and SHOCKING? Do you remember the ‘90s, when anal sex was the taboo du jour (du decade?)? I put this in no small part down to overexposure to Sex and the City, which definitely mentioned it at least twice in six years. But yeah! Anal sex was cool! Because it was taboo! And nothing’s sexier than busting a taboo, yeah!
Then, after watching a bit more Sex and the City, we decided that the use of the word c**t was a far bigger taboo, so we started saying it loads, all the time, to show how edgy we were.
Once the naughtiest of all the naughty words, c**t is only months away from being used on Hollyoaks Later – which means it's only a matter of time before Corrie’s Rita start’s shouting it at Norris across the street’s cornershop - The Kabin when he forgets to top up the sherbet lemons.
So we need another taboo to bust – but what’s left? I went to see the very funny Book of Mormon this week, where a running joke about a man ‘f***ing a baby’ had the audience, including myself, crying with laughter (seriously, go and see it, it really is excellent), which makes me wonder if there’s anywhere left to go.
And then I remembered the one dirty little secret we’re all harbouring. The one thing we can’t talk about, even amongst our closest female friends. Female masturbation.
Obviously there are conditions attached to this: vibrators are fine – we can discuss vibrators, go and buy them together, attend hen nights where we have to rescue a vibrator from a stripper’s butt cheeks using only our pelvic floor muscles (I don’t go to many hen nights – but that’s what happens when you’ve finished glazing your own commemorative mugs, right?). Only a prude would admit to not owning a vibrator. They’re sexy! And fun! Sexy fun! And empowering! And that one with the ears once featured in Sex and the City! So we’re fine with that.
But we never discuss female masturbation, on its own, without a purple, glittery, revolving phallus, without a man present, just for the sake of it.
I can talk about it, if someone else brings it up in conversation (which rarely happens), but I have to force myself to swallow my discomfort first, and I’d never bring it up myself – why is that? The topics of conversation I’ll cover with my closest friends know no bounds – except this one. Is it just too personal? Because that’s how it feels. I managed to get one friend, who will discuss her bowel movements with me at the drop of a hat, to admit that she masturbates. But only when she’d drunk the best part of a bottle of wine.
But why the double standard? Men talk about wanking all the time. A male friend “knows a guy” who prides himself on the number of times he can fit a wank in during a day at work. His record is 23.
Twenty-three times in one working day? That doesn’t sound like fun. That sounds as close to self-flagellation as you can get on an industrial estate in Croydon. But nonetheless, his wanking prowess is a point of pride.
In fact The Most Ancient and Most Puissant Order of the Beggar's Benison and Merryland, Anstruther, known as The Beggar's Benison, was a Scottish gentlemen's club founded in 1732, devoted to "the convivial celebration of male sexuality”. It was a wanking club.
But is female masturbation actually taboo? Or am I the maiden aunt clutching her pearls while all the cool kids go off to masturbation raves in warehouses, where they take loads of ketamine and frig themselves silly?
As Telegraph Wonder Women’s agony aunt Dr Petra Boyntonpoints out, masturbation itself isn’t taboo – it’s talked about far more in sex education and in the media than say, 50 years ago. Instead, the problem lies with how we discuss it, and the language we use. “In the UK, the discussion focuses on products (toys) and performance/aspirational messages around spicing up your sex life. But, we don’t talk about how to masturbate or how that might be interpreted within a relationship.
“Masturbation is happening and we talk about it but the media/self help market uses language in quite a limiting way, which actually means it's not a taboo but can be difficult to talk about.”
Masturbation is fine when it’s for the purposes of male titillation. But WHY? Does female desire, on its own and without a purpose (to make babies, or to please a man) make us uncomfortable? Are women not allowed to be horny, just because? And why do women refuse to talk about masturbating even when they are just in female company? We are the generation that talk about ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING. But not this.
It’s almost like there’s a conspiracy we’re all a willing part of, a refusal to discuss female masturbation sensibly, lest all the women discover their clitorises, drop what they’re doing and start furiously wanking in the nearest cupboard. But that would be ridiculous, wouldn’t it?

Not that I've spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about the subject, no really I haven't... but it does seem that the writer has a good point. For instance, the word 'wank' conjours up a very male specific image, and yet there is no universally accepted female equivalent. Why? And as the writer says, it's one thing that women don't talk about it in front of men, but women seemingly don't even talk about it to other women, not that I'm suggesting that I talk to other men about wanking.... not that I'd have a lot to say on the subject anyway! Well, you know what I mean.
Maybe this secrecy/taboo element is why it turns men on to think about women 'pleasuring' themselves, or maybe it reassures us that women do actually like sex and they aren't just going along with the whole charade to stop us getting grumpy. Women may scoff at this but it is very odd to us men that something as simple as self-gratification is such a taboo subject. Men discover wanking at a relatively early age and apart from those of us who enter into slightly unorthodox agreements with our partners, most men will carry on jerking their cocks until such time as they die, or cease to function sufficiently. 
To us it's a no brainer, we wouldn't even take offence if we are termed a wanker (as long as it's said in jest) because we all know we are, it's a common interest, like porn or football (actually I don't like football). So to us, it's a peculiar thing that the vast majority of women are so coy about it, or actively claim not to indulge themselves. I'm forty three now, and in all my years I can only recall one instance of a woman I knew talking openly about it and that was at school (a girl called Bridget talking to another girl about rubbing herself against her pillow, or something... truth be told school is a long time ago now). 
Anyway, I think the article said pretty much everything, I hope you enjoyed reading it.

Last night's weigh-in was not as bad as I feared it might be, following my first 'holiday week'. I put on 2.5lbs, but I was more than happy with that, thinking that over a two week period I could easily have put on 7lbs. So it's back on the wagon now, and now of course rather than 3lbs to go until my 28lb milestone (2 Stones in English money) it 5.5lbs, and I'll have to lose 3lb before I get any other treat of course... Still that's not really that bad. I lost 4lbs the first two weeks I started (8lbs in total), so I reckon it should be reasonably do-able. We'll see. 

Well, I can't sit around typing all night, I have some pussy worship to attend to!