Femdom Session 10th April 2014...

For as long as I can remember I have been printing this list out for my Mistress to fill in before each of our Femdom sessions. I'm not sure if she's ever ticked the 'Surprise Me' box before, I think she maybe has but it was an awfully long time ago. So I was pretty surprised to see this this morning...

I guess because this box never really gets ticked I've never really thought about what I would do if it did, and I didn't have an awful lot of time to think about it. I guess there's a number of more adventurous things I could have done, but what I elected to do in the end was wear the Oxballs Cock Sling and insert our older (4 ball style) glass butt plug. The thinking being that I was hopeful that Mistress would take the hint and use her strap-on on me, like I've been hoping for for ages!

When Mistress came into the room she noticed that I had the Oxballs on and said 'So you chose the Oxballs to surprise me then...'. I said 'yes' but didn't give away that that wasn't the only surprise. She found out shortly afterwards when she had me bend over on all fours on the floor and saw the glass ring sticking out of my ass, and was seemingly very surprised indeed!

Actually I did have another idea, ages ago I bought this ball stretcher thing, which is just like an inch wide strip of leather with press-studs to join it together. But I can't get the damn thing on, my balls are just too damn tight!

Anyway, Mistress gave me a short and mild whipping, not really punishment, just a little reminder, before having me worship her feet while she played with her glass dildo. I had to push the butt plug back in a few times as it started to slip out, but it wasn't too bad because I didn't go overboard with the lube.

When she was satisfied with my foot worship, Mistress tied me down on the bed, blindfolded me and started stroking my cock, once I was nice and hard she straddled my face and my cock a few times before teasing me with her ass. All the time she left the butt plug in and sometimes she grabbed it and played with it while she was stroking my cock. As the session progressed she abused my cock more and more, using a hairbrush and the cock-whip and stroking it hard and fast even though it was held tight in the Oxballs (no lube either!).

Eventually she clipped pegs on my nipples and left me alone for a short while, and when she came back she took the blindfold off, straddled my face and pushed her 'cock' into my mouth. She looked so hot in those awesome RodeoH strap-on pants, they were such a good buy, I just wish we used them more often.

Mistress removed my butt plug, untied me and told me take off the Cocksling (which was starting to sting a little by now) and then told me to turn over and get up on my hands and knees. Then she positioned herself on the bed behind me. I felt her spray a good quantity of lube on my asshole and felt her feed the head of her strap-on into me. I pushed back, eager to feel it inside me at last. As I did so Mistress reached down and grabbed my cock and stroked me as she fucked me. It was so fucking hot and it felt absolutely amazing. I think if anyone wanted to try anal sex for the first time I would really recommend using a butt plug for half an hour or so beforehand, it made such a difference. I have never enjoyed it as much, or been so comfortable being fucked before...and the stroking just topped it off perfectly. It was awesome! I would have loved to have cum like that, I really would, but sadly after a few minutes Mistress pulled out. Afterwards she said to me that she felt like she could have continued for a lot longer (whereas in the past it's often been hard for me to take, even though I've wanted to do it) and I really wished it had gone on much longer, but still. Hopefully Mistress will fuck my ass again soon!

After that Mistress had me lick her to orgasm, which was unusually quick and quite intense. She tasted so good, and it had been six long days since I'd been able to enjoy her with my tongue. Afterwards she had me lick all her juices off her skin and the sheet before tying me to the bed again and stroking my cock hard and fast again. She allowed me to tongue her ass a couple of times (very briefly) and then knelt beside me, giving me a good view of her pussy and ass. She kept looking back at me, smiling as she pumped my cock. I kinda thought she was going to ruin me, but when I told her I was close she told me she was going to allow me to cum.

It hit really hard, and each spurt had me bouncing on the bed. Not only that but each time Mistress stroked me it felt so intense I was bucking so hard... and I could feel my cum spraying everywhere and landing on different parts of my skin. When I stopped cumming Mistress gathered what cum she could find and fed it to me from her fingers. Finally she lowered her dripping wet pussy onto my face one last time, she tasted incredible!

Is John Ricke's ass broken?

John Ricke poses an interesting (if not entirely literal) question on his BLOG today: 'Is my ass broken?' I must admit it was the rather intriguing title that piqued my interest, but actually what he's really asking is why he doesn't 'enjoy' anal play as much as he thinks he ought to.
My own rather limited experience with pegging and butt plugs etc has been mixed. I can kind of see what he says about butt plugs, I actually find the glass nobbly kind much more enjoyable than the tapered rubber type, since I prefer the 'stimulation' of the shape rather than the 'fullness' of the other type.
As for pegging, well occasionally it's physically pleasurable, often it's just very intense...not painful, but too intense to be 'pleasurable' as such. Actually I still remember the best pegging I ever had, and it was one time when we had just got our previous harness and we decided to try it out outside of a session. I don't know whether it was the angle or what but it just felt exquisite and I really didn't want it to stop.
Mostly though I enjoy pegging because it makes me feel very submissive, I just accept it in the same way that I accept being whipped and paddled even though I don't actually 'like' pain. Like many things involved in Femdom it's more of a 'need' than a 'want' sometimes, a craving. Like I don't really 'like' the taste of cum, but that doesn't stop me craving being made to lick it up from wherever Mistress decides.
So I guess the answer is, not necessarily... some people derive great pleasure from the physical sensation of being penetrated, some derive satisfaction from the psychological side effects, and if you don't get off on either of these or you don't derive some satisfaction from pleasing your Mistress by taking your pegging, then there's probably not much point in bothering.

Femdom Session 6th November 2013...

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Tasting her ass again...

Wednesday night, Mistress was obviously tired and feeling the effects of lack of sleep due to the hot weather, but despite that she had me go down on her and she had a nice orgasm. After that she stroked me until I was hard before mounting me and riding my cock for a little while. Then she knelt beside me and stroked and slapped my cock before straddling my face and teasing me with her gorgeous ass.
She continued to stroke my throbbing cock and then finally allowed me to worship her asshole with my tongue. I loved it, but Mistress still only allowed me four brief periods of ass worship, I would love to tongue her ass for much, much longer.
Unfortunately, I noticed that near the end of the session Mistress's contact lens was really bothering her and she had to go to the bathroom quickly to take it out. Even then her eye was still hurting and consequently we missed out on the post-sex chill-out.
Tomorrow we are intending to have our Femdom session early in the morning, before it gets hot. The only potential problem being that Love Honey tell me they have despatched our RodeOh strap-on pants so it could be that the postman knocks on the door as I am being paddled, or worst of all as Mistress is about to cum...

iHonorHer...

I'm sure you're all familiar with Q & k's blog (here) and if not why not?
This morning Q has posted a caption with a little note urging the 'Men with submissive fantasies, to put themselves in 'k's place....' and that 'You'd do well to consider what it's really like to submit to the desires of a truly dominant woman!'.

I mention this, because it ties in rather neatly with my poll this week, in which I am asking how often (if ever) you ever get so ridiculously turned on that it almost scares you what you would consider submitting to for your Mistress. My experience with this has been well documented on this blog, though I will briefly reprise it for those that haven't read all 900 posts!
I can't remember exactly when it was, but in one of our Femdom sessions (not necessarily since the start of the blog) I was on my knees with Mistress R standing in front of me with her strap on in my mouth. My cock was rock hard and I was so deeply into the moment, Mistress R started teasing me about making me suck a real cock and asked me if I would do that for her. I said I would, and at that exact moment I honestly would have done, hell... I would have done almost anything she wanted me to.
It actually freaked me out a little bit (more than a little bit if I'm honest), and it took me a couple of days to sort it out enough in my head that I could tell Mistress R about what I had gone through that afternoon. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved it, but at the same time it pretty much scared the shit out of me that I could feel like that.
Then of course you think, well, it's not like I have to worry really, because Mistress R wouldn't make me do that anyway, and then of course there's a slightly unhinged flipside mild disappointment to knowing that too! But there has to be a comfortable balance, and even though in 'k's case he's not quite to that point yet (despite his begging) there's plenty I've read on their blog that makes me realise that Q's words are words of wisdom indeed.
Anyway, thanks to everyone who's voted already, I hope you understood what I meant by the question, because I do realise it could have been a little clearer, you can always change your vote if you feel it's necessary.
Have a good day.

Femdom Session 15th July 2012

As regular readers will know, over the last few weeks I haven't exactly been on top of the world, and so while I looked forward to what I knew would be a good Femdom session, I never anticipated just how fantastic it would actually turn out to be. As a one off I decided to record the session with my little dictaphone, so that I could share with you exactly what went down last Sunday morning...

(NB: Just so you know, before the session I had already confessed to my two infractions and given some detail about them).


Mistress R instructed me to wait for her wearing my ankle and wrist cuffs, my blindfold and my rubber cock ring. On entering the room she toyed with my cock for a few moments as she checked that I had complied with all of her instructions. Satisfied that I had, she told me to move away from the bed and to get on all fours, I complied with her instructions immediately, well aware that the next little while probably wasn't going to be my favourite part of the session.

"Each time we have these sessions, I ask you (slap) some questions don't I slave... and you're always honest with me aren't you?"

Slap! The whip made contact with my ass a second time, as I knew my punishment hadn't started I presumed that I was not yet required to count the blows and thank Mistress for them. I responded positively to Mistress's question, pulling my back upwards a little as I sought to bring my balls forward of the backs of my thighs.

"So... how many times did you touch yourself when you shouldn't have done?"

"Two Mistress."

"Two... right."

Slap! Slap! The whip was brought down a further two times before she continued...

"And I understand that one of these was short, and one was long... how long are we talking slave?"

I was dreading that particular question, but I had to answer truthfully.

"Ummmm.....  about, twenty minutes Mistress."

"Twenty minutes! That is 'long' isn't it slave?"

She sounded rather surprised at my confession.

"Yes Mistress."

"And you actually dared to edge yourself during that time slave, is that correct?"

"Yes Mistress."

"How many times do you think you edged yourself slave?"

"I don't know Mistress..."

"Roughly.... two, three... more than five?"

I was somewhat thankful that she had jumped in with those options since if I'd had to estimate off my own back it would have been much higher, more like double that...

"More than five, Mistress."

"Really, more than five.... well I think you need quite a severe punishment for that slave. Right, you know the drill."

Mistress began whipping my ass now, and carried on until I had counted off and thanked her for fifteen strikes of the cat.

She paused briefly to ask me a question...

"Surely you haven't forgotten slave, how much better it is when I touch your cock?"

"No Mistress."

"Because who actually owns your cock slave?"

"You do Mistress."

"That's right, so you should not be touching it without my permission should you slave?"

"No Mistress."

"Perhaps this will help you to remember.... do you remember what number we are up to slave?"

"Fifteen Mistress."

"Good, continue..."

The whipping recommenced, with a further five strokes being added before she stopped. For someone who likes being whipped it would probably have appeared rather tame, but I do not enjoy pain, I only enjoy the submission of allowing myself to be whipped by my beautiful Mistress, so for me it was quite enough discomfort.

"That's for the twenty minutes of touching slave, and now we move on to the number of edges... begin again from one slave."

Even before the first blow I somehow knew that she'd switched to the paddle, the paddle that I suggested buying of course... it stings, I love it and hate it at the same time. Five slaps with the paddle later, she called a halt. My ass was stinging, even though I knew it would quickly fade away.

"And how did it feel when you were touching your own cock slave?"

What could I say, really?

"Good Mistress."

"It felt good did it... did it feel better than when I touch your cock slave?"

"No Mistress."

"No of course it didn't... sit up and turn and face the bed."

In my personal darkness I turned towards the bed and heard the PVC sheet crackle as Mistress mounted the bed and leaned  forward to present her favourite glass dildo to my mouth.

"Open wide slave, suck that cock."

I willingly opened my mouth and felt the cool, smooth glass against my tongue. I love to wet my Mistress's dildo for her because I know she loves it's deep ridges, the thought that she would soon be pleasuring herself with it made my cock stiffen as I fellated the glass cock.

"Since you love touching your own cock slave, so often, when you shouldn't... you should even more like licking and sucking this cock."

My cock continued to harden as I worked to ensure the dildo was well lubricated for Mistress's beautiful pussy.

"Because this cock will be going where you always want to have your own cock slave, isn't that right?"

I briefly pulled my head off the dildo to answer.

"Yes Mistress."

The dildo was pulled away and she shifted on the bed.

"Right slave, now I'm going to allow you to worship my feet."

"Thank you Mistress."

I felt her foot press against my chest and I wished I wasn't blindfolded so I could see her beautiful, soft feet.

"You may begin....while I will be rubbing this dildo, all around my beautiful pussy...exactly where you would like to have your cock, wouldn't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

I set to work on her right foot, peppering it with gentle kisses before sucking her toes into my mouth, I absolutely adore sucking Mistress's toes, they are so delicate and sexy.

"Well, I'm only going to have a cock inside my pussy that I am in control of.... you're not in control slave, and you don't want to be, do you?"

"No Mistress."

"You can't see this now slave, but this dildo is rubbing all around my beautiful lips... and just... just inside... starting to get coated with that beautiful pussy juice... you love the taste of pussy juice don't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Whatever is covered in pussy juice should have to be licked clean by you, isn't that right slave?"

"If it pleases you Mistress."

"If you listen carefully you can hear the sound of my dildo moving in.. and out... you love that sound don't you slave, you wish it was your cock making that sound don't you?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Then you must learn to control yourself better slave, you were doing so well, and I'm sure you will do well again. You must remember, I'm in control, I own your cock, I say when you can touch it, you know you can ask me for permission slave... but you failed to do so didn't you?"

I barely stopped to answer her, I was so deep in sub space now, all my worries and stress completely forgotten in less than ten minutes...

"Stop, open wide, lick this dildo clean slave..."

I opened my mouth and used my tongue to lick her juices off the entire length of the glass dildo as she twizzled it around, then she pushed it into my mouth and I sucked it greedily, willingly, just as if I was sucking a cock for her amusement. After a short time she pulled the dildo out of my mouth and I resumed my duties as her foot slave.

"You think it's more fun to do something without permission don't you slave, you know sometimes I might actually want to see you touching that cock, so you must ask me if you want to, understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good....that will please me much more slave. After all, if you are wanting to touch your cock, it should only be with my permission and I should be able to see it. Who knows, I might decide that you're not touching it as I want you to, and stop you and do something different myself. But whatever it is, it's going to be better than the way you touch yourself isn't it slave, furtively, without permission?"

"Yes Mistress."

"You love worshipping my feet don't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Just being allowed to kneel there and worship my beautiful feet... knowing that I'm laying here, playing with my beautiful pussy, and getting this cock covered in my beautiful pussy juice, and you can't even see it can you... but you can smell it can't you? You can scent that... you love that scent don't you slave..."

"Stop now slave, and lick this clean again..."

Once more I licked and sucked on the glass dildo as she hovered over me.

"Maybe one day it will be a real cock covered in your Mistress's pussy juice slave, you'd lick that clean if you were told to wouldn't you, if you knew it would please your Mistress..."


My cock pulsed as she spoke, though I doubt we would ever involve another person in our sex-life, just hearing her say those words always has a considerable effect on me.


"Yes Mistress," I groaned.

"Onto the other foot slave..."

I lovingly took hold of her left foot and began lavishing it with attention, just as I had the right one before it.

"Do you think a lot about these sessions, in between them slave... think about how lovely it is for you to have your Mistress totally in control... deciding, if I want to, to keep you on your knees for the whole session worshipping my feet, not letting you near my pussy, as a punishment... you'd even welcome that wouldn't you slave."

"Whatever pleases you Mistress."

"That's right..."

She allowed me a little while to concentrate on her gorgeous foot, my tongue swirling around her pretty, red polished toes.

"So when you're touching your own cock slave, tell me about it, do you do it hard, or soft..."

I struggled for an answer, so deep was I in my reverie.

"Both Mistress."

"Both... and does it feel as good as when I am touching it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"No, that's what you have to learn to remember slave don't you? The only time you should be touching that cock slave, is for my amusement, if I tell you to do so. Do you understand?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Otherwise I am the only one who should be touching it, I control your cock. Who controls your cock slave?"

"You do Mistress."

"Who controls your balls?"

"You do Mistress."

"Who controls your ass?"

"You do Mistress."

"That's right slave... you shouldn't be forgetting that after all this time?"

"No Mistress."

She removed her foot from my mouth and I felt her moving closer again.

"Lick my finger clean slave."

I sucked her pussy flavoured finger deep into my mouth, savouring the taste of her gorgeous juices.

"Is that one of your favourite tastes in the world slave, I think it is isn't it?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good slave, keep going... "

She allowed me a few more minutes of foot worship, after which I was completely blissed out and feeling enormously mellow. I just love worshipping my Mistress's feet, she really does have the most gorgeous feet I have ever seen and they really turn me on.

Finally she bid me to stop.

"That will do slave, now get up on the bed, on your hands and knees."

I moved onto the bed as instructed and waited as Mistress bound my wrists to the corners of the bed.

"I think you need just a touch more punishment slave..."

She gave me another (rather gentle) five slaps with the cat, before setting it aside and moving onto the bed beside me. I felt her reach under me and grab my cock.

"Now slave, time to really show you who's in control of this cock... and that's just how you like it isn't it?"


She started stroking my cock now, feeling it as it grew in her hand.

"It cannot feel as good, when you touch it yourself, can it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"Not when I dig my nails in like this... you sooooo love how that feels don't you? While your ass is vulnerable to me as well, you really love that feeling, isn't that right slave?"

My cock was rock hard now, the pain of her nails digging in only making it harder still, it felt so damn good!

"I think sometimes you deliberately touch yourself, so that you'll get punished, because you absolutely love being reminded don't you slave, of how good it feels when I'm in control..."

She moved away and the next thing I heard was the pump of the lube and the slightly cool, slippery feeling as the substance landed between my ass cheeks. A couple of minutes later Mistress had inserted a smallish dildo in my ass before returning her attention to my throbbing cock.

"You love it when something's in your ass and your cock's being teased, don't you slave?"

Indeed I do. The initial penetration may not always be easy, but I generally find it doesn't take long for that initial discomfort to subside and a much more pleasurable sensation to take it's place.

"It wouldn't be this good if you were doing it yourself would it slave?"

I couldn't argue with that, I was already starting to enjoy the unusual sensation of having something in my asshole, by the time she removed it a good while later I would be hoping for more.

"I sometimes wonder how you'd feel, if somebody else was touching you, while something was in your ass... maybe one day if it pleases me to find out, you will slave..."

That kind of caught me off guard, I must admit...

"That's certainly making your cock good and hard isn't it slave, you love it when your cock's like this, don't you... I'm in control of it, and that's just how you like it isn't it...however much you might sneakily touch it... now, keep that dildo in your ass while I untie you..."


Mistress unhooked the restraints from my cuffs before giving me my next instruction.

"Now slave I want you to turn over onto your back, while keeping that dildo inside your ass."

I successfully manoeuvred onto my back without letting the dildo slip out and felt Mistress securing my wrists once more before straddling me.

"Now slave, I want you to ask me nicely to take your blindfold off."

I asked her, with just a hint of pleading in my voice.

"Why would you want me to take it off slave."

"So I can... see you Mistress."

"You want to see me do you slave... do you?"


I managed to convince her that I did.

"Very well, close your eyes."

I felt her peel away the red rubber blindfold and knew that all that was standing between me and the image of my beautiful Mistress was the thickness of my eyelids. Of course I kept them tightly closed as instructed, despite my eagerness to see her gorgeous body.

"Okay, you may open them..."

Mistress was wearing a fairly plain black bra and one of her split leather skirts. The only time she ever wears bright red lipstick is in our sessions and I must admit I do love it on her. Even without the PVC garb she sometimes wears, she looked completely stunning.

"You look gorgeous Mistress."

"Thank you slave, keep your eyes up..."

She slowly raised the front of her leather skirt and said, "Now you may look at my beautiful pussy slave."

I must have licked my lips as I feasted my eyes on that which I never tire of seeing, Mistress has a gorgeous pussy, which with her hair kept pretty short affords me a great view of it's beauty.

"Lick the dildo slave."

I hadn't even noticed that she was holding her glass dildo again, but willingly used my tongue to lubricate it for her once more. A few moments later I was allowed to watch as she slid the glass cock between her soft, silky pink lips.

"Watch that dildo... going up inside and getting coated in those beautiful juices... "


You can bet I was watching... I absolutley love watching Mistress pleasure herself, and I so rarely get to see it.

"Ahhh, you so wish that was your cock don't you slave?"

I did indeed, if only she would allow me inside her.

"Lick it clean slave..."

I licked and sucked the dildo clean, savouring her beautiful taste as I swallowed every drop I could from the translucent cock.

Mistress discarded the dildo and reached down to find my rock hard cock, without a word she pressed the tip against her very wet pussy and bore down until I was fully inside. She rode me for less than half a minute before pulling herself off me and moving up to straddle my face.

"Tongue out slave..."

I can't tell you just how much I love it when Mistress straddles my face and orders me to lick her, it is just heaven to me, the submissive positioning just adds so much to my enjoyment of her beautiful pussy and I love it even more when she grinds herself against me, especially when she's really, really wet.

"Feel good slave?"

"You taste amazing Mistress..."

"Thank you slave, is that your favourite taste in the world?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Is it? So you prefer that to the taste of my beautiful ass do you?"

Not exactly, I adore both...

"Only slightly Mistress...."

"I see. I guess my ass is more of a treat for you because you don't get to taste it that often do you?"

"No Mistress... it's a special treat."

"A special treat, yes... only very good slaves are allowed that special treat aren't they? So do you think a slave who flagrantly disobeyed his Mistress by touching himself for twenty minutes should be allowed that special treat?"

Argh, as much as I probably expected this, I hated that my own weakness was going to be the thing which denied me the pleasure of worshipping Mistress R's gorgeous ass, unfortunately there was only one possible answer.

"Probably not Mistress."

"Probably not, then again... if you were to be allowed the possibility of that special treat, you'd probably do anything for it, wouldn't you?"

Mistress R had moved off my face now and was kneeling next to me on the bed and stroking my cock, as she talked to me she punctuated her comments with random slaps to my cock, which only made it harder.

"Anything that I asked...."

"Yes Mistress."

"If I told you that in order to earn that special treat, you had to go down on your Mistress and make her cum so hard..... eight times, before you were allowed that treat, you'd agree to that wouldn't you slave?"

Before I could answer Mistress R tabled an immediate amendment.

"In fact eight times is probably a bit low... probably fifteen times would be better."

I moaned softly, a combination of the way she was roughly playing with my cock and my appreciation of her domineering attitude.

"And if I said that in order to earn that special treat, you wouldn't be allowed to cum, for...."

She paused and gazed absentmindedly at the ceiling as if trying to think just how long she wanted me to suffer, before concluding simply that 'as long as she pleased' was sufficient.

 "...as long as I say, and when you were allowed to cum, I might just decide to ruin it for you... but in order to get your tongue into that special place, you'd probably agree to that wouldn't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress." I groaned as my cock pulsed in her hand at the mere suggestion of a ruined orgasm.

I love the thought of her doing that to me, not because of the physical sensation so much, more because I would love her to do it 'just because she can'. Like being whipped and paddled, it's not so much the act itself, it's the fact that it is her that is choosing that action for me.

Even as I struggled to keep my excitement under control Mistress R was straddling me and pressing her gorgeous ass softly against my face, affording me a torturously enticing view of her beautiful pink puckered hole. I can't tell you how much I wanted to flick my tongue out and just tease it for a second.....

"And what I could do, is allow you a tiny, tiny, tiny taste today... or maybe just allow you near it... so you were near, but you couldn't actually touch it... you can see it, soooo close.... but not allowed to touch it... maybe that would make you realise how special it actually was... and how only slaves who are very, very good are allowed to have that very special treat."

She pressed back again as I breathed in her musky scent, utterly complicit in my own torment.

"Oh it must be torture slave, to be sooooooo near, and yet not be allowed to do what you really want to do, which is to just plunge your tongue inside isn't it slave?"

My cock throbbed as she pressed back once again, her pink rosebud making the slightest contact with my top lip. I could have exploded right there...

"But slaves who can't obey their Mistress... they don't deserve special treats do they slave?"

"No Mistress," I breathed into her ass, fighting off the disappointment of knowing she was not going to allow me to taste her today.

"Still, slave might be allowed a chance of redeeming himself... we'll see won't we?"

A glimmer of hope perhaps?

"But he would of course have to agree... to anything and everything his Mistress asked. And not just agreeing and then immediately forgetting... he'd have to prove his devotion, so that she knows he really does appreciate having his Mistress totally in charge.

Mistress moved back to kneeling beside me and started stroking and slapping my cock and balls once again. I love it when she does that.

"After all slave, you touching yourself can't possibly feel as good as this can it, you know that now don't you?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Do you think you'll be able to remember that now?"

"Yes Mistress."

"I want you to be able to take yourself right back to this moment and be able to remember how it feels...

"I'll do anything you want me to Mistress."

"You will won't you slave, that's what I like to hear... otherwise you won't be allowed in that special place... "

Mistress picked up the small cock-whip and began flogging my cock with it, even using it on my balls a couple of times which I don't think she's ever done before, at least not deliberatley!

"Because remember, I can do what I want to this cock, I can lick it, suck it, bite it, crop it, whip it, rub it... whatever I choose slave... that's right isn't it?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good.... I think it's time for you to have a think about it slave, to think about how much you really want to obey me. I'll be back when I'm ready slave... and then I'm going to tell you to go down on me. Understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress. Thank you Mistress."

Mistress applied a clothes peg to each of my nipples before leaving me to stew in my own juices for several long minutes.

As the minutes ticked by I truly entered that dreamy state that comes from being in this position, I felt my cock gradually soften but a few minutes before Mistress R came back into the room I focussed on remembering the images I have witnessed in the last half an hour and my cock quickly comes back to life, giving Mistress the impression as she walked back into the room that I had been hard the entire time.

"Good slave, have you been thinking about me?"

"Yes Mistress."

Mistress removed the pegs and untied my wrists.

"Take off your cock ring and then get up on your knees..."

I struggled a little bit getting the cock ring past my rapidly hardening cock, but I managed it and rose onto my knees without losing the dildo from my well-lubed and relaxed ass (I'd almost forgotten it was inside me to tell the truth).

"Ask me to remove the dildo."

I did as Mistress asked and half hoped as she pulled the dildo out that she might decide to take me on my hands and knees with her strap-on, after twenty minutes or so with the dildo inside me I was fully relaxed and would have loved her to fuck me from behind, but unfortunately it wasn't to be.

"So slave, were you thinking about me while I was gone, were you thinking that it's better for me to be in control than you?"

"Yes Mistress."

She smiled and climbed onto the bed, moving towards me and pulling my face towards her crotch. I wasn't exactly sure if I was allowed to lick her pussy at this precise moment, so I settled for a couple of soft kisses and breathing in her wonderful scent.

She lay down and spread her legs, inviting me to lay down inbetween them and pleasure her with my tongue. I willingly and eagerly did so, and I have to say Mistress tasted absolutely gorgeous. She was so hot and wet, my fingers slid easily into her pussy and right from the start she moaned softly as I started to lick her.

This continued for a while until eventually she groaned a few times, and then bucked wildly against my tongue. Listening back to that moment on the recording is something I will never get tired of hearing, for me it is the most beautiful sound I could ever hear. After a few seconds she stopped writhing and told me how good it was, then almost whispered, "Thank you slave."

"Thank you Mistress." I responded.

I always thank her for allowing me to lick her to orgasm, in a way that I'm sure she would never dream of doing...

"Kneel up slave... "

Mistress slipped out from under me as I viewed the small slick of pussy juice which remained on the PVC sheet.

"Clean up the sheet slave..."

I bent down and licked up every last drop, I love the taste of her pussy, even from a plastic sheet.

"Is that clean slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Get up on your knees then slave..."

Mistress climbed onto the bed once again and turned away from me.

"Good slave, now you can lick me clean, but you are not allowed to lick my ass.... just concentrate on getting every last drop of that beautiful pussy juice."

I craned my neck between her thighs to get as much as I could, finally using my fingers to retrieve the drops that my tongue just couldn't reach. She turned to face me and allowed me to lick around her pussy, she  tasted magnificent, it's the only word I can use to describe it.

Mistress ordered me onto my back and secured my wrists once more before straddling me and exposing her asshole to me by pulling her cheeks apart with one hand, the other stroking my cock until it was as hard as a rock.

"Good slave... but I still don't think that you've done enough to be allowed to lick that special place, not this time slave. You need to be thinking about it slave, and when you are tempted... so close... you'll know not to touch yourself without my permission won't you?"

Mistress slapped my cock and balls once again, bringing me closer to the edge, though I was still in well in control.

"Because it's never going to feel as good as this is it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"I want you to remember slave, when you're tempted to touch yourself, remember to ask me... I may not give you permission, but I may... and if I do... you will touch yourself while I'm watching. I say when you can touch your cock, understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

She slapped my cock a few more times and gave my balls one hefty slap for good measure, before abruptly bringing the session to a close.

"End of session."

"Thank you Mistress, thank you... thank you."

I lay panting for a few seconds until Mistress lay down on the bed next to me and I pressed myself against her, hugging her passionately and telling her how amazing it had been. After the last few weeks, we both really needed this session to be good, and it was more than that, much, much more... it was utterly fantastic. I am such a lucky man to have such a wonderful, sexy and beautiful wife as my divine Mistress R.

Happy New Chastity Year...

Who would have thought a year ago, that I would be sitting down here this morning to write about my first full year in chastity? The funny thing is, I never thought that far ahead, I really didn't. I knew I wanted to do this, but I never contemplated what that would mean for the long term. I guess it seemed so unlikely that Mistress R would want to carry on indefinitely, given her reservations at the start, that I didn't really think it was worth worrying about. And yet here we are, twelve months later starting our second year of male chastity...incredible!
Yesterday I presented Mistress R with a key pendant that I found in our favourite online jewellery store, I wanted to get her something to celebrate our first 'chastity' anniversary when I clicked on the 'What's New' tab I couldn't believe my eyes. Right there was the perfect gift at the perfect time, gift buying has never been so easy. I have searched for a key pendant before, but actually gave up because I couldn't find anything suitable, so this was such a result...
Mistress R wants me to take a photo of her wearing it, so I think my header will be refreshed with a new picture, which will also maybe help to stop some of the confusion for new readers who see that and think I am locked in a chastity device (I'm still on the honour system, which I have found easier than expected, but more on that later).

Even though it seemed like the perfect gift, I was still concerned that when it arrived it wouldn't look as good as the picture suggested, and I wasn't sure about the charm-bracelet type attachment that fixes the key to the chain either, but when it arrived the next day I was totally stoked at how good it looked.

Mistress R loves it too, she still has no intention of locking me up, indeed she really doesn't understand why anyone would want to be locked up, but she still loves the symbolic nature of her wearing 'my' key, she loves that only we know what it means (well, us and all you guys, obviously!). 

Mistress and I discussed our arrangement a few times this last couple of days, firstly she sought reassurance that I was happy to continue as we are and I assured her that I did. Last night I sought the same assurance from her, because I was a little concerned that maybe with the blog and everything, she might feel like she was 'trapped' in this role now, and I don't want her to feel that way.

I reminded her that she could stop this at any time if she wanted to, but Mistress R insisted that she didn't want to go back. We've discussed this before and Mistress R pretty much said to me 'Why would I want to go back to feeling obliged to have sex when I wasn't in the mood?'. She actually said something about staring at the ceiling and then quickly retracted that comment!!! (Just thought I'd slip that in for you humiliation junkies, hahaha).

On a more positive note, she said that leaving aside everything else, the simple fact that my cock is now hard whenever she wants it is worth continuing for alone. I can't argue with that, any guy who's experienced ED for any length of time will know how stressful it is for both partners, and a vicious circle to boot, one that's very difficult to break, even if the problem is mostly mental. Additionally, because Mistress R is now more comfortable about only having sex when she wants to (and because she knows my cock will be throbbing hard for her), she is more relaxed about it and actually seems to want it more, which is a win-win situation if ever I saw one!

Which is not to say that I get to be inside her more of course...

Long time readers will remember that when I first suggested 24/7 chastity, Mistress R stipulated that if this was what I really wanted then she would decide when penetrative sex would happen (this was the same day that she forbid me to even 'ask' to be allowed to cum, even just to hear her say 'no'). In the beginning I believe it was something of a hangover from the bad-old ED days, because even a year ago my cock wasn't the ultra-reliable monolith of flesh it is today and this way I guess Mistress R could ascertain the 'quality' of erection she was dealing with before she consented to penetration (thereby avoiding any stressful failures and breaking that awful circle of doubt and disappointment). 

There was more to it than that of course, and I was slightly thrown by the disparity between the amount of  penetration that I thought Mistress R would require and the actual amount of penetration that she decided upon. Eventually this sorted itself out, and lately it seems that Mistress R wants me inside her more than she used to, if not always for very long. The other change is that nearly every time I am allowed to penetrate Mistress R, she is always on top. Which I have always loved, being a naturally sexually submissive person. Indeed I think I have only been on top three or possibly four times in the last year... most recently this concluded in one of the most intense orgasms I have ever had when Mistress R finally 'persuaded' me to use the orgasm voucher she gave me for Valentines Day.

As we were discussing things last night, I mentioned to Mistress R that one of the things I loved about her getting to chose when we have penetrative sex was that it seemed more 'special' now, she agreed and said that she loved that we had broken out of the 'routine' of intercourse, and said that sometimes after I've made her cum she just gets the urge to feel my cock inside her, and because she decides when she knows she can always have what she wants, and I'll always be ready, willing and able!

While Mistress R still isn't what some of you might wish for as a dream Domme, she certainly has gained a lot of confidence over the last year and she's made me extremely happy in the process. This was never going to be the beginning of a 24/7 Femdom Marriage, or an FLR. I am not a slut for pain or humiliation and submitting to Mistress R once a month is enough for me... well, I mean I wouldn't mind if it was more often, obviously. In fact if Mistress R wanted to whip me, strap-on me,  ride my face and have me worship her feet every week then you certainly wouldn't find me moaning about it. But once a month is enough to keep me from feeling 'neglected'. Who knows what the future may bring in that respect. We did talk about stopping our Femdom sessions at one point, and for Mistress R to 'use' me as and when she wanted, but I'm glad we didn't do that in the end, I think that having the session ensures that things 'happen' regularly. And I'm not sure that would have happened without it, at least not yet.

Looking forward I could see the possibilities of that happening. As Mistress R's confidence has grown she has become more relaxed about slapping my cock and balls as an everyday thing, maybe in the future paddling my ass or using a 'strap-on' on me as and when she feels like it might become the 'norm'...

A few months ago I ran a poll asking 'How Many Times Do You Think Mistress R will let me cum in 2012, the winning answer with a whopping 52% of the vote was 'Less than 10'. Given that I've been allowed to cum five times in the first three months of the year, I think that's somewhat unlikely, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was less than twenty. On average over the last six months I have been allowed to cum 1.6 times per month, and if we extrapolate that over the next twelve months it works out to just over nineteen orgasms for me in 2012. But who's to say that Mistress R won't be cutting back on my orgasms (though she might just as likely allow me more, if that's what pleases her...).

Certainly my first year total of twenty three was skewed by April's count of four orgasms (yes, four!), a number that hasn't even been approached since (twos and ones ever since) as Mistress R has relaxed into her role and tightened her grip on my orgasm quota. I wouldn't be at all surprised if this year see's my first orgasm-less 'calendar' month, after all I've already had a 35 day stretch without an orgasm.

Interestingly, April was also Mistress R's lowest orgasm scoring month, just eight! Ever since it's been nines, tens, elevens and twelves all the way. I would love for Mistress to regularly be hitting teens in the coming year, but of course that's not for me to decide, all I can do is provide top quality pussy worship whenever requested.

Between us, Mistress R and I amassed a total of 140 orgasms in our first chastity year, with 117 (83.5%)  for Mistress and a generous 23 (16.5%) for me. But if we take April out of the equation, it's a different story, with Mistress scoring 109 to my 19, which means that Mistress took just over 85% all for herself. 

Either way Mistress has had at least five orgasms for every one of mine and (ignoring April) by the end of the year it was heading towards a ratio of 6-1.

So there we are, today is the first day of the next year of male chastity for us and hopefully later on today I will be allowed to worship Mistress R's beautiful pussy and we'll start as we mean to go on, with Mistress R satisfied and me left throbbing and horny. Or maybe she'll let me cum? Mistress did talk about letting me cum one more time last night, before the new year started, but for whatever reason she decided not to. But then she also talked about making me wait until our next session (at least another two weeks away) or maybe even longer... after all, I'm sure she's going to want to beat my thirty five day record sooner or later...

:)

Elsewhere it's been an interesting year, if not as productive as I'd hoped on the writing front. Attempting to write that Femdom Cave book backfired on me somewhat, leaving me with 22,000 words of story that I have no real interest in finishing (perhaps I shall just post it here as it is), and really crippled my enjoyment of writing for some time. On a more positive note, the revelation that I can write stories for sale on Amazon to Kindle owners has piqued my interest once again and hopefully I will soon begin doing just that! The Femdom Cave experience did force me to start writing in the third person though, which is definitely a step forward, but I won't be writing stories to anyone else's parameters again any time soon. People often say that hobbies are best kept as hobbies, once I started writing that book it became like a second job, and I'd rather write what I want for fun... but if I can write what I want and sell it through Amazon then that's going to be brilliant!

I think I'm done with reviewing sex toys too. Plenty of other blogs are doing it now, and it was always a bit of a pain in the arse to be honest. Most sex toys to me are a waste of time, once you get past the obviously useful ones (dildo, strap-on, vibrators, whips, paddles etc) you're pretty much into the land of the expensive novelty item. And I'll tell you straight, nothing would make me want to use a masturbation sleeve again, it was just fucking weird. I did enjoy reviewing the books though...

Right well that's it for now, I'm off to make a cup of tea and watch some NHRA drag racing on YouTube. In a world where 'youth' is everything it's deeply satisfying (to anyone the wrong side of forty, like what I am) to see a 62 year old mad bloke more than holding his own at 300mph! 

This morning's session...

Mistress and I are going out for a meal with friends tonight, which will no doubt conclude sometime after 2am, followed by a thirty minute drive home... so there's no way in hell that tomorrow morning would be a good time for doing anything remotely taxing (especially for Mistress R since I don't drink). With that in mind we decided to move our Femdom session to this morning...
After I had prepared the room, I was instructed to wait for Mistress on my knees at the foot of the bed with the Oxballs Cocksling and my ankle/wrist cuffs in place. No blindfold this time, which was unusual, although I know enough to keep my eyes down at the start of the session anyway.
Mistress question me about my 'touching' while she used her foot to play with my cock, and I confessed to two very minor infractions (basically just a hard squeeze, no stroking or edging) and Mistress told me she was very pleased with me but felt that I needed a few maintenance strokes with the whip anyway, just to keep me focussed. I had eleven quite stingy strokes with the whip and by the time she'd finished my erection had subsided significantly.
Mistress then moved onto the bed and had me begin worshipping her feet as she lay back using her fingers to play with her pussy. I managed to keep my eyes down for quite a while but just after I started on her second foot I sneaked a glance up which Mistress R immediately noticed and chastised me for.
"Keep your eyes and your mind on the job in hand," she ordered.
I worshipped her beautiful feet for a good while longer before she leaned forward and allowed me to suck on her finger for a second, telling me how lucky I was to get my first taste of her beautiful pussy. It tasted lovely and she told me she knew how desperate I was to lick her pussy, and that I needn't worry, I would definitely be doing that in the session, but that whether I got to taste her ass would depend on how much I pleased her.
I continued worshipping her second foot until she decided that she'd had enough and then had me lay down on my back on the bed. She secured my wrists and ankles and then mounted my face. As I licked her soaking wet pussy I felt my cock begin to stiffen inside the cocksling once again and then Mistress R lifted off my face and knelt beside me. She reached over and plucked the blindfold from the bedside table and quickly fitted it, but not before I had a good look at her. She was wearing a split leather skirt and a cupless leather bra and she looked magnificent.
No sooner had she done this than she was back on my face ordering me to lick her beautiful pussy. She rode back and forward on my face, my tongue sliding from her clit almost to her asshole. I love it when she does that and my cock was rock hard again now. Mistress R moved down and started to rub the head of my cock against her wet pussy lips, telling me how she could just spend the whole time rubbing 'her' cock against her pussy if she wanted to. She told me how she loved using my cock like a dildo, for her pleasure, and she told me she knew that I loved it too. Then she sank down on my cock and rode me, before lifting off and grabbing her glass dildo and pushing it into my mouth. She told me how she controlled my cock just as completely as this glass dildo and after having me get it wet for her she started fucking herself with it and then had me clean it for her.
Then she knelt beside me again and reminded me over and over how much better her touching me feels than touching myself ever could. This continued for some time, as she alternated between riding my face, my cock and slapping, whipping and stroking my cock. All the time she told me over and over how my cock was her cock and how much I loved that she controlled it. It was awesome, as the longer she went on the more I could hear she was really getting into what she was saying, I really, really wish I had a tape of what went on for those five or ten minutes, it was amazing!
Eventually Mistress R decided that that was enough and she untied me and instructed me to turn over. She had me remove the cocksling and then re-secured my wrists to the corners of the bed leaving me with my head pressed down and my ass up in the air. Mistress R lubed up a dildo and I soon felt it pressed into my ass. Then she used a vibrator on my balls for a short while before pulling out and re-inserting the dildo. She then left it inside me while she fitted the strap-on.
As I heard her adjusting the straps she said what a pity it was that I couldn't see her with her 'cock' in place, but that I might be allowed to see it soon. Then she pulled the dildo out of my ass and got on the bed behind me. Within a few seconds the strap-on was inside me and Mistress R started gently fucking my ass. It felt great, my only concern (as usual) was that the pressure on my prostate might make me cum, but that's a bit unlikely since as far as I know it takes over ten minutes of prostate massage to achieve this.
Slightly disappointingly, Mistress R fucked me for what seemed like only a minute or so and then pulled out. She untied me once more and then turned me over and secured me at all four corners once more before kneeling beside me and pulling my blindfold off. Now I could see her and she looked amazing. Her skirt had been discarded and Mistress R was just wearing the leather cupless bra and the strap-on and she looked hot, hot, hot!
She straddled me again and pressed the strap-on into my mouth, it tasted mildly of the recently discarded condom, but it was so hot sucking her 'cock' and looking up at her as she played with her gorgeous breasts (I must admit I still slightly prefer sucking her strap-on on my knees though).
After this Mistress discarded the strap-on and attached clothes pegs to my nipples before teasing me by standing at the side of the bed and running her hands over her body. As I gazed longingly at her my hard cock twitched which made Mistress R smile, and then she left me alone for a few minutes, but not before promising that when she came back I would be allowed to worship her pussy and make her cum.
When Mistress returned she removed the clothes pegs and untied me and had me kneel at the end of the bed while she lay back in front of me on some pillows. She looked absolutely gorgeous, her legs spread to reveal her beautiful pussy which she idly stroked as she told me what she wanted me to do.
I sank down between her silky smooth thighs (so fucking hot!) and gently started to kiss her pussy. It was immediately obvious that Mistress R was really, really turned on and her slick pussy tasted absolutely wonderful. God I love eating pussy more than anything, it is so fucking wonderful to be so close to Mistress R and bring her such pleasure with my tongue. A while later Mistress R came hard, a real humdinger it was and no mistake, I was so happy right then I can't even tell you.
As soon as she had recovered Mistress R stood on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice off her body and then off my fingers and the black PVC sheet. I swallowed it all greedily, I can never get enough of her taste, I just love it.
Finally she had me lie on my back and started stroking my cock again, telling me she wanted it rock hard. As she did so she pushed her ass against my face but told me not to use my tongue until she told me I could. My cock was rock hard now and she pushed her ass in my face again and told me that I was allowed to tongue her ass. I stuck out my tongue and gently licked around Mistress's gorgeous asshole and as I did I felt my balls start to churn. Fortunately Mistress R lifted off, though she continued jerking my cock fairly hard and told me that since I had pleased her so well in the session she was going to allow me to cum now. She sink back down onto my tongue and her hand stepped it up slightly as I started to tongue her ass. It was so hot doing that as she jerked my cock and then she told me that I had to cum before she counted down from ten. I think I started cumming at eight, but Mistress continued counting down as she drained me completely.
When I opened my eyes I saw Mistress rubbing her cum covered fingers on her left breast before offering it to my mouth, which was lovely if not quite the same as shooting my cum on them 'properly'. After that she had me lick her fingers clean, it seems like ages since I did that, it must be several months I'm sure.
Afterwards as we cuddled on the bed Mistress and I clarified the position on what I am and am not allowed to do as far as initiating things with her. At first she couldn't quite see my point but after I explained myself better she saw what the problem was and the simple answer was 'if I'm not sure then I should ask'. Dunno quite why I didn't think of that myself, but there you go!

Our first session of 2012, at last...

Six long weeks, that's how long it's been since our last Femdom session. But today, finally, it happened, and was it ever worth the wait!
As per almost usual it seems these days, right before the session I felt a little unwell, actually I had a huge throbbing... headache. I rarely get headaches, so for one to strike right before our long delayed session is just typical. I took two painkillers and as usual, as soon as the session started I forgot all about it.
Mistress R had instructed me to wait on my knees for her, with my blindfold, wrist and ankle cuffs and the Oxballs Cocksling all in place. She entered the room and greeted me, her foot rubbing against my captured  balls right from the start.
"So," she said. "I understand that you have no transgressions to confess this time, is that correct?"
I confirmed that to be true and she told me that she was very happy with me, but added that she still thought I needed a few slaps to 'remind' me who was in control. She told me to move onto all fours and as I did so she collected her whip from one of the bedside tables.
I received eleven strokes, each of which I counted and thanked her for as I know she likes me to do. By the fourth stroke my cock was hard, rather unusual since normally whipping has the opposite effect on me. Upon completion Mistress R had me kneel up again and she bent down to tease my cock with her nails. Trapped inside the Oxballs Cocksling my cock was absolutely rigid as Mistress leaned close to my ear and whispered again that she was very pleased with me for keeping my hands off my cock.
"It isn't even really your cock any more though is it?" She said. "Who does your cock belong to slave?"
"You Mistress."
"And your balls?"
"You Mistress."
"And your ass?"
"You Mistress."
"And your mouth?"
"You Mistress."
"Good, now turn and face the bed."
I turned to face the bed as Mistress climbed onto it and after a few seconds I felt her foot against my chest. She ordered me to worship her foot and I was more than happy to oblige. I have been waiting to properly worship her feet for six long weeks and I loved every last second of it. Mistress R has the most beautiful feet I only wish I could have seen them as well as taste them, but the blindfold was to remain in place. I love worshipping her feet, but I particularly love sucking her toes, especially her big toes, I love swirling my tongue around them as I suck them, it's so damn hot...
When Mistress R was satisfied that both her feet had been suitably worshipped, she ordered me on to the bed and restrained me, spread-eagled on my back. Immediately she straddled my face and told me to lick her pussy and my cock which had deflated a little in the meantime was rock-hard once again. I adore licking Mistress's pussy and I truly love having her sitting on my face.
She rose up off of my face and told me to beg her to take my blindfold off so that I could see her. I did as she asked and she told me to close my eyes. She removed the blindfold and told me I could open my eyes. My cock pulsed as I looked up at her, she was wearing my favourite of her Femdom outfits a black PVC zip-up top with open cups and straps around her breasts, she looked AMAZING.

Mistress R in my favourite outfit.

Mistress R reached over to the bedside table and grabbed her favourite glass dildo. She told me to suck it and get it wet for her, because it was going where I wanted to go. I dutifully sucked her glass cock for her and then she told me to watch as she fucked herself with it (like I was going to look anywhere else?). The dildo made a wonderful noise as she slid it in and out of her wet pussy and soon it was back in my mouth and I was cleaning it up for her, only for her to stuff it right back into her glistening hole.
I could feel myself moving my hips, wanting to be inside of her, desperately wanting to feel her gorgeous pussy wrapped around my cock, enclosing it in her warmth... so frustrating. She put the dildo down and straddled my face again, moving back and forth as I held my tongue out, dragging herself almost to the point where my tongue would graze her asshole, but never quite far enough. She knows all about my lust for her ass and soon she had turned around on me, pushing her ass into my face, right up against my nose so that I could smell her ass as she played with my cock.
"No licking until I give you permission, remember!"
I didn't need to be told, but I loved the way she said it. I love when she talks to me like that, I love how confident she always is in our sessions, it so hot!
She moved off me again and turned round finally lowering herself onto my aching cock. She smiled at me as she sank right down on my cock, it felt heavenly and we both groaned softly as we enjoyed the ultimate feeling of closeness. She got off and back on my cock a couple more times in the next few minutes, and then knelt beside me stroking my cock, all the time reminding me that she was in control of my cock and that she can make me wait as long as it pleases her to let me cum.
"You love that I control your cock don't you?"
I confirmed that I did love it and then she said that she thought it was time I had something up my ass.
She took the regular dildo from the bedside table and squirted lube on my ass, but not before commenting on how I was lifting up off the bed, obviously eager for it. She slowly slid the dildo inside me, it felt great, and told me to put my legs down and make sure I 'kept it inside'.
At this point she decided to remove the Cocksling, not the easiest of tasks it seems, but I enjoyed the way she tugged roughly at my balls in the process of getting it off. She got off the bed and moved around to the other side where the clothes pegs were, but first she picked something else up and then I felt her smear toothpaste all over the head of my cock. Then came the clothes pegs, one on each nipple as normal, and then she left me alone.
She returned about five minutes later and smiled at me as she came back in the room. She told me to lift up my legs so that she could remove the dildo, which I had completely forgotten about as it happens! It came out so smooth and easy and felt so comfortable that I really, really hoped she might decide to use her strap-on me today, but it was not to be. I toyed with the idea of asking her if she would please fuck me, but decided that it wasn't a good idea.
Besides, after she had wiped the toothpaste off my cock and removed the clothes pegs she told me that now she was ready to let me make her cum. Yes! She untied me from the bed and told me to kneel up at the end of the bed. She placed another pillow on the bed and then stood on the bed in front of me. She pulled my head into her pussy and I licked her a couple of times, savouring her beautiful taste and scent before she moved down onto the bed and lay back in front of me, she had removed the PVC skirt that she had been wearing before and she looked just gorgeous.
Her toes teased my cock for a couple of seconds as she told me that now she wanted to cum.
"I'm sure I don't need to tell you to do your best, because I know you will."
I moved between her legs and started gently licking her beautiful pussy, savouring every second of being there. I love doing this so much, I am a total pussy fanatic.
Gradually I added one finger, then two, then (just) three, before massaging Mistress R's G-spot and working her clit with my tongue. I was rewarded with a nice orgasm for Mistress R, although the usual copious amounts of pussy juice were noticeable only by their absence. Nevertheless I greedily licked the sheet and Mistress R clean before she had me over on my back again and secured once more.
She rubbed my cock against her nipples and then straddled my face until I was fully hard once again and then sank down one more time on my cock, smiling down at me as I watched her through half-closed eyes.
She lifted off me and turned around, stroking my hard, slippery cock as I stared up at her gorgeous ass and stretched pussy. She sank down on my face and then pushed her ass into my face again and told me that now I was allowed to lick her asshole. I didn't hesitate for a second and soon felt the tip of my tongue pressed against her puckered hole. Mistress R started pushing back against my tongue as she stroked me, that was incredibly hot to feel her fucking her ass with my tongue, really quite something! She allowed me to continue worshipping her beautiful asshole a little while longer and then lifted herself away again and knelt beside me.
It being only a week since I came, I didn't anticipate being (or really want to be) allowed to cum today. As she stroked and teased my cock though I began to wonder if perhaps, maybe, possibly she might be planning to ruin an orgasm today, not least because earlier she had said something about 'stopping right at the last moment'...
But no, instead she told me again how happy she was that I had managed to keep my hands off my cock and also that I hadn't used any of my 'three chances'. She reminded me that I could still use them, although she preferred it if I didn't, but then she reminded me that she could take them away at any time she pleased. She continued, saying that she wasn't going to do that... yet, but that instead of three chances between orgasms she was reducing it to two.
I wasn't expecting that!
She started to pump my cock harder and faster but just as I was starting to get close to being close she slowed down again and told me that she wasn't going to let me cum today. She stroked me and teased me a little more as I pumped my hips in frustration, and then she told me that the session was over.

After the session we lay together for a while, holding each other close. I felt completely content, like I only ever do after making her cum, and completely subbed out like I only ever do after our Femdom sessions. But even as we lay there in utter bliss my mind was already moving forward, anticipating a couple of days hence, longing to be back between Mistress R's beautiful thighs, kissing and licking her sweet pussy and feeling her cum against my tongue. As far as pussy worship goes I really am insatiable, no wonder I get grumpy if I have to wait more than two days. If only Mistress R was a little more demanding... ah well, what's a complete pussy-slut to do?
:)

I hardly know where to begin...

Mistress R and I got home on Saturday evening, but there was so much to do and then yesterday I was going to post here but by the time I got round to it I was getting tired and I really wanted to spend the last hours of the weekend with Mistress R. But now finally I am here (now that I've caught up with all the blogs I watch and Good Hubby's enormous posts...) and ready to tell you everything. You might want to get some kind of beverage as this could be the longest post ever...

FRIDAY.
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So as you may or may not know, this last Sunday was International Femdom Day, which provided me with the perfect excuse for spoiling Mistress R and making her feel special. To this end I decided that I would take her away somewhere for the night (Mistress R and I are both very odd when it comes to going on holidays, we both love it for about 30 hours and then we want to go home, so one night is perfect for us!).
We went away a few months ago and we stayed near Bristol in a Doubletree Hilton, which was lovely, so instead of trying to think of somewhere to go I looked at where the Doubletree Hilton's are and worked backwards. Well there aren't that many of them, but there was one near Chester and I discovered that there was a Retail Outlet place nearby too (perfect!) and the plan was that we would go there on the Friday and then come home via Tatton Park (a huge stately home) on the Saturday.
Now of course all this was planned in secret, but me being crap at keeping secrets and Mistress R pretty much hates surprises (unless they are in little boxes) I eventually told her. Which was just as well as it turned out because Mistress R managed to find two crucial pieces of information. 1) She discovered one of the best restaurants I've ever been to within fifteen minutes drive of the hotel and 2) She discovered that Tatton Park was hosting a massive flower show! Now we wouldn't have minded seeing the flower show, but we both knew that the place was going to be rammed and we hate crowds, so we decided a change of plan was in order.
As it turned out the retail outlet turned out to be a lot better than we expected and we ended up spending about five hours there, which meant that by the time we got to the Hotel it was past three in the afternoon and it really didn't seem worth going in to Chester for an hour before it started to close. So instead we relaxed a bit in the room  which was easier said than done as it turned out because first I couldn't get the air conditioning to work so we had to get a man to come and show us how it worked and then we realised the fridge in our room was broken so another call to reception (we wouldn't have bothered but the room was so hot and we'd bought a selection of Lindt chocolates at the Retail Outlet and we didn't want them to melt) and fair play to them they brought us a new fridge and fitted it... by which time, we were a bit fratchety and my hoped for afternoon of pussy worship looked like it was going down the pan... hmm. At this point even the complimentary Doubletree cookie wasn't enough to put a smile back on my face (it was nicely cinnamony, but not quite as nice as the Bristol one somehow).
Mistress R was feeling particularly fidgety and she suddenly decided that we should go for a walk (because we'd only spent like five hours walking around the Retail Outlet, yes I know it's not exactly cardio-vascular but still, I have a bad foot!). So we walked around the hotel in about five minutes and Mistress R decided that we should go to the gym since we had the run of the place. Well as you can imagine, I was not best pleased with this. I had envisaged a lazy afternoon spent gently licking Mistress R's pussy and now I was going to be spending my leisure time on a fucking treadmill. Excellent.
But, this weekend was supposed to be about making her feel special so I bit my lip (to some extent) and we spent a half hour on the treadmills, which was fine actually, great treadmills they had there, much better than the one I had until fairly recently anyway, but probably a lot more expensive to be fair. So after thirty minutes Mistress R had had enough while I was in the zone and ready to carry on for another half hour. So we went back to the room and showered (Mistress R turned the shower on but couldn't figure out how to turn it off again so she called on my massive man-brain to figure it out for her) and then I read a bit of my book before, giving Mistress R one of the three pairs of earrings  I had bought for the weekend (she loved them all - but then I do have impeccable taste, haha) and then we went out to the restaurant Mistress R had found on the net.
It was called The Pheasant Inn and it was in a nearby village and it was quite the nicest gastro-pub/restaurant I have ever been in and the food was delicious. We left about 10:45 feeling very fat and content, and in Mistress R's case slightly inebriated (I rarely drink anything at all and of course I was driving). Despite this when we returned to the room Mistress R decided that it was time for my treat (since I had once again lost weight this week: another 1.5lbs, making a total of 13lbs in five weeks!) and had me lay on the bed and then gave me a lovely but quite gentle blowjob (it later transpired that my comments about her hurting me the other day had backfired on me and I had to reassure her that it was only that one thing she had done which had hurt and that if anything I would like her to be more rough with me generally).
Of course with our Femdom session looming on Sunday I knew that she wouldn't let me cum, whether or not she was going to let me cum on Sunday, but it was still lovely and I enjoyed every last second of it and afterwards I decided to give her the next pair of earrings (that I had originally intended to give her the next morning).
Feeling quite tired now we decided to call it a night, of course I was massively disappointed that I hadn't got to go down on Mistress R, especially as I knew she wouldn't even want me to do it the next morning lest it took the edge of the session on Sunday, but Mistress R doesn't find it very easy to cum when she's been drinking and I was stuffed full of Gastro pub grub. So we turned off the air conditioning (too noisy) and went to sleep.
Well, that was a mistake, the room was a like an oven (it wasn't even that warm outside) and I woke up about three hours later sweating like a bastard and looked over to see Mistress R laying on top of the bedclothes (which she never, ever does). There was a phone by her side of the bed which had a blue screen on it which somehow incredibly lit up the whole room and this blue light made her look like an erotic photo, I must have laid for ten or fifteen minutes enjoying the beautiful sight of Mistress R laying on her back bathed in this blue light, she looked absolutely stunning and I wished I had a camera with me so that I could take a photo, eventually I fell asleep.
Incidentally, when I write things like that Mistress R often comments that she's really not all that and I am misleading my readers. Well bollocks to that, she is beautiful and sexy as hell even if she doesn't see it herself. I wish she could see herself through my eyes and then she would realise how utterly gorgeous she is. It is one of my pet hates that women are manipulated by the media to think that they are unattractive unless they conform to the stereotypical images that they present, even though it's well known that even the women they hold up as role models don't actually look like that (have you seen Kelly Brook without the right lighting and retouching, hmm....). I find it deeply tragic and one of the things that I love about Femdom is that it gives the opportunity for the woman to feel like she is completely worshipped and treasured above all others.
One of the best parts of any day for me is first thing in the morning when Mistress R gets out of bed and literally the first thing I see is her naked, it's wonderful and yet frustrating because every morning without fail I want to grab her and pull her back into bed so that I can bring her to orgasm...
But of course, like every woman, she would point to bits of her body that she thinks aren't 'perfect' whereas all I see is one completely awesome and utterly sexy package of hotness. On the upside I do think she is starting to see it my way, which is great because there's nothing sexier than a sexy hot woman who knows she's sexy and hot and uses it to tease and frustrate her husband (that'll be me!).
Speaking of which, as you know, I adore Mistress R's sexy feet and one of the things I wanted to do this weekend was to buy her some really slutty shoes that show off her gorgeous feet and toes. This was actually Mistress R's idea initially (even better!!!) but I was all for it (of course!) and so we went in search of shoes that were suitably slutty but not impossible to walk in (Mistress R isn't big on massive heels). And of course where better to find them than a retail outlet?
Well, after several false starts (there's a lot of slutty shoes about but nearly all of them have six inch heels, and Mistress's tiny feet would barely touch the floor!) we came across some Carvelo's in Kurt Geiger and we both thought they were just perfect.

Mmm, so fucking hot!!!

These shoes have little zips at the back and Mistress R was struggling to get them off and we were giggling as she held her foot out and said 'Take them off!', well, frankly I was about ready to do just that and suck her toes right in the middle of the shop... fortunately sanity prevailed and we managed to purchase the shoes without further incident.

SATURDAY

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So Saturday arrived and after a shower and breakfast (slightly disappointing it must be said) we left the hotel and headed into Chester. It was okay, we walked around the city walls, a good 40 minute walk, and we went on a boat trip up the river (which was great), we also had some lovely locally produced Mint Choc Chip ice cream and then we looked at each other and said 'Time to go home'!
It was a couple of hours drive back which passed relatively quickly and it was nice to get home. After we had unpacked all our goodies (including a ton of Hotel Chocolat which is to be severely rationed and not gobbled!) I had to go do the shopping and then I did some cooking, washed the cars and then tried to post something to the blog, but was too tired.

SUNDAY
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Finally the day had arrived, Mistress R got her last pair of earrings (Swarovski crystals, which she loved) but first there was the small matter of our Femdom session. Of course, we had agreed that from now on she was under no obligation to let me cum in the sessions, and since I had had the most spectacular and wonderful orgasm just seven days ago I was hoping that she wouldn't allow me to cum, but I still had my doubts that she would go through with it.
The thing is we've been having these sessions for a long time now and every single time I have cum, and for the last few years at least, every single time I have been made to lick my cum off her hand, foot or breast, so to have a session finish without her letting me cum was a massive deal. But for some time now I had wanted her to deny me in the session, even if it was only once, that way it would introduce the possibility of denial in every session. In our very recent sessions she had said she might decide not to let me cum, and I loved that she said it, but deep down I knew it was a hollow threat.
The problem was that the sessions were in place long before the chastity thing, and so once it got to the point where I had gone from one session to the next without cumming (28 days) it was apparent that the sessions would become a stumbling block if Mistress R wanted to make me wait longer. For me, I wanted her to have complete control of my orgasms, and I wanted to remove the obligation for her to allow me to cum.
We discussed this recently after Mistress had read posts I had made on my blog, since she was unsure that what I was posting was what I actually genuinely felt, and once I had told her that it was indeed how I felt, that I genuinely wanted her to have complete and utter control over my orgasms she seemed much happier about it and that is how we came to this huge turning point...
The session began as always with me on my knees, waiting for her in the bedroom, blindfolded, with ankle and wrist cuffs in place and the wonderful Oxballs Cocksling (buy one, you won't be disappointed!) fitted around my cock and balls. Mistress entered and I felt her toenails scratching at my balls before she started talking to me about how she needed to punish me for failing to keep my hands off my cock. She said that even though I had only touched it twice, which was a great improvement, it couldn't be overlooked that one of those times was an outrageous flaunting of her rules, she also suggested that in future the length of time I spent touching my cock would be taken into account rather than merely the number of 'instances'.
She had me turn and lean over the bed and then she gave me ten lashes of the whip, each one I thanked her for and counted, even the ones where the tails curled around my hip slightly and caused me to wince. Then she started with the paddle, first the suede side and then the leather, harder and stingier every time. At the ninth I was really feeling it and barely got the words out, thankfully she stopped at eleven and I was told to kneel back down again.
Then she lay on the bed and told me to start worshipping her feet, which I love doing. I could hear her finger working it's way inside her pussy as I was sucking her toes and kissing her instep and then she allowed me to lick her finger clean before continuing with my task. I love it when she has me worship her feet, especially when she talks to me while I do it. This time was no exception as she related to me how my cock was her cock now, and that it was her's to play with, tease, suck, stroke, bite (oh yes!) or lock up if that was what pleased her... this had the effect of making my cock (shrivelled to nothing by the pain of the paddle just a few moments previously) absolutely rock hard, and made me hope that it wouldn't be too much longer until she touched it.
She told me to stop worshipping her feet and had me get on the bed, where she tied me spreadeagled on my back. Almost immediately she mounted my face and I licked her pussy, focussing on her clit which brought some appreciative groans from Mistress's throat as she leaned back to stroke my rock hard cock. After a while she got off and knelt beside me on the bed, stroking my cock before picking up the small cock whip. She gave my cock a nice whipping (interspersed with more stroking and face sitting), which was very intense but very hot all the same, and then she let go and the next thing I know she was pushing a smallish dildo into my ass, before whipping my cock some more.
Then she decided she wanted to fill my ass more, so she picked up the black rubber butt plug and lubed it up. She got it a fair way in, but with me on my back it was never going to get past the 'shoulders' and stay in, which was quite disappointing really. Frustrated, Mistress R gave up on that and grabbed her strap-on, plunging it into my ass in one thrust (I love it when she does things like that, even though it was a little uncomfortable, because out of session she would never do that and it reassures me that there is more potential natural dominance in Mistress R just waiting to be brought to the surface...). Then she attached clothes pegs to my nipples and sat on my face one more time before telling me that she was leaving me alone for a while and that when she came back I would be going down on her.
She left me alone for ten minutes or so and when she came back she finally took my blindfold off and I could see her gorgeous body at last. She had me remove the cocksling and then she lay down on the bed and told me to make her cum, while I blissfully lay on my front determined to give her the best pussy worship I could possibly manage. After about ten or fifteen minutes Mistress R bucked hard against me and I grabbed hold of her and worked her clit with my tongue until she finally pushed my head away, completely spent. I know it was good because for a moment she slipped out of character and said 'Thank you baby', which made me smile, but then it was back to business and she told me to lick her juices off the black PVC sheet and then she stood on the bed in front of me and had me lick all the pussy juice of her thighs and then told me to lick between her ass cheeks. She allowed me to tongue her ass for about a minute I guess, which was wonderful and much anticipated, before she told me to stop and then tied my wrists to the bed and told me to get my ass in the air.
I heard her pick up the strap-on again and secure it around her waist, then she lubed it and my ass nicely and got on the bed behind me. Soon she was inside me, fucking my ass and reaching around to stroke my half hard cock (sometimes the strap-on makes me hard sometimes it has the complete opposite effect) she fucked me for a few minutes and then pulled out and untied my wrists. She told me to turn over and then sat astride me, pushing the strap-on into my mouth (having removed the condom...) and telling me how hot I looked sucking her cock. Then she got off me and removed the strap-on and started stroking my cock again, she straddled my face and pressed her ass against my mouth again, I wanted to tongue it but I wasn't sure if I was allowed to or not... so I simply stuck out my tongue a little way between my lips and allowed her to press her asshole against it.
Finally she got off again and knelt beside me on bed, she looked so beautiful then, just beautiful, gently stroking my cock and here was the moment of truth... was she going to make me cum like every time before, or was she going to take full control of my orgasms? I was conflicted, of course I wanted to cum, but at the same time I wanted her to take that control and deny me. As I watched her she gave little away, but I noticed she kept glancing at the clock, watching the minutes and seconds of the hour tick down to nothing as she reminded me that I had to try harder not to touch my cock, and then.... she let my cock go.
"End of session," she said, obviously feeling slightly odd about the fact that I hadn't cum. I lay there for a moment while she fetched a glass of water and then afterwards we lay there enjoying each other's closeness.
Later she sought reassurance that I wasn't disappointed that I hadn't been allowed to cum, I wasn't disappointed, it just felt weird (actually one of the strangest things about it was not finishing the session with the taste of cum in my mouth)... but I was so happy because I made her cum so hard and because by not allowing me to cum she had broken through the last remaining barrier to her having complete control of my orgasms. It truly was a massive milestone moment and now the truth is I really don't have the foggiest idea when I will cum again, which feels absolutely wonderful. Finally Mistress R has 100% control of my orgasms, and I LOVE it.

MONDAY
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This morning I found a lovely card from Mistress R thanking her for making her weekend so amazing and her feel so spoiled and satisfied. I love her so much, and I'm already impatient to taste her pussy again and make her cum (who am I kidding, that started about two minutes after I finished licking the sheet clean yesterday).