Mistress R threw me a bone...

Well, something good did indeed happen tonight... Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue and then had me worship her feet for a while. Only then did she decide to stroke and tease my cock, but it was worth waiting for right enough! Mistress is becoming so good at knowing when to speed up and slow down without any direction from me, I don't know how she knows really. It was a wonderful teasing session, though I didn't think for a moment that I would be allowed to cum. As she sucked and stroked my aching cock and I gently stroked her asshole with my fingertip, I couldn't help but remember when she allowed me to cum on her asshole and lick it clean, I really hope I get to do that again someday.
As my teasing grew to a close I begged Mistress to allow me to worship her ass, and she permitted me just a few seconds, maybe fifteen, with my tongue pressed against her ass while she stroked my cock firmly. I really did not want it to end, but Mistress said that was all I was getting and so I held her tight, kissing and licking her breasts and grinding my cock against her stomach as I groaned in horniness and wonderful frustration.

Three hundred down...

Well would you look at that, Mistress R now has 366 orgasms to my 66, making me exactly three hundred down in just over three years! Actually, as I'm typing this I can still taste Mistress R's delicious pussy... and that's not all I can taste either. No I haven't been allowed to cum again, but after some pleading I was allowed to worship Mistress's gorgeous ass as she teased my cock. Truth be told I was throbbing before I even brought up the subject of being allowed to lick her asshole, so you can imagine how I felt after being given permission!
Well, it's Easter weekend at last and I'm looking forward to four days off work. I can't really claim to need a holiday as I've only just had one, but all the same, these last four days have seemed like the longest on record. Aside from all the fun things Mistress and I are intending to do together, I am hopeful of spending at least some time being creative this weekend. That means either writing music or writing porn, and I feel like the latter would be the better option. I already have an idea for a short story, so perhaps by Monday night you guys will get to read it. Well let's hope so anyway.
I actually looked at a couple of Literotica stories today and they were really poor. I mean, really poor. I actually left a comment on one because it started off promisingly enough, quite well written actually, but then it all went to pot. First the guy was a lawyer, then a former NFL player, then his cock was smaller than his wife's ex, then he was really well hung... I mean, for fucks sake! Mistress can't even abide punctuation misdemeanours (woe betide the author who brandishes a semi-colon inappropriately) so I can't imagine what she'd make of that.
Anyway, here's wishing all my readers a happy Easter.

Femdom Session 10th April 2014...

For as long as I can remember I have been printing this list out for my Mistress to fill in before each of our Femdom sessions. I'm not sure if she's ever ticked the 'Surprise Me' box before, I think she maybe has but it was an awfully long time ago. So I was pretty surprised to see this this morning...

I guess because this box never really gets ticked I've never really thought about what I would do if it did, and I didn't have an awful lot of time to think about it. I guess there's a number of more adventurous things I could have done, but what I elected to do in the end was wear the Oxballs Cock Sling and insert our older (4 ball style) glass butt plug. The thinking being that I was hopeful that Mistress would take the hint and use her strap-on on me, like I've been hoping for for ages!

When Mistress came into the room she noticed that I had the Oxballs on and said 'So you chose the Oxballs to surprise me then...'. I said 'yes' but didn't give away that that wasn't the only surprise. She found out shortly afterwards when she had me bend over on all fours on the floor and saw the glass ring sticking out of my ass, and was seemingly very surprised indeed!

Actually I did have another idea, ages ago I bought this ball stretcher thing, which is just like an inch wide strip of leather with press-studs to join it together. But I can't get the damn thing on, my balls are just too damn tight!

Anyway, Mistress gave me a short and mild whipping, not really punishment, just a little reminder, before having me worship her feet while she played with her glass dildo. I had to push the butt plug back in a few times as it started to slip out, but it wasn't too bad because I didn't go overboard with the lube.

When she was satisfied with my foot worship, Mistress tied me down on the bed, blindfolded me and started stroking my cock, once I was nice and hard she straddled my face and my cock a few times before teasing me with her ass. All the time she left the butt plug in and sometimes she grabbed it and played with it while she was stroking my cock. As the session progressed she abused my cock more and more, using a hairbrush and the cock-whip and stroking it hard and fast even though it was held tight in the Oxballs (no lube either!).

Eventually she clipped pegs on my nipples and left me alone for a short while, and when she came back she took the blindfold off, straddled my face and pushed her 'cock' into my mouth. She looked so hot in those awesome RodeoH strap-on pants, they were such a good buy, I just wish we used them more often.

Mistress removed my butt plug, untied me and told me take off the Cocksling (which was starting to sting a little by now) and then told me to turn over and get up on my hands and knees. Then she positioned herself on the bed behind me. I felt her spray a good quantity of lube on my asshole and felt her feed the head of her strap-on into me. I pushed back, eager to feel it inside me at last. As I did so Mistress reached down and grabbed my cock and stroked me as she fucked me. It was so fucking hot and it felt absolutely amazing. I think if anyone wanted to try anal sex for the first time I would really recommend using a butt plug for half an hour or so beforehand, it made such a difference. I have never enjoyed it as much, or been so comfortable being fucked before...and the stroking just topped it off perfectly. It was awesome! I would have loved to have cum like that, I really would, but sadly after a few minutes Mistress pulled out. Afterwards she said to me that she felt like she could have continued for a lot longer (whereas in the past it's often been hard for me to take, even though I've wanted to do it) and I really wished it had gone on much longer, but still. Hopefully Mistress will fuck my ass again soon!

After that Mistress had me lick her to orgasm, which was unusually quick and quite intense. She tasted so good, and it had been six long days since I'd been able to enjoy her with my tongue. Afterwards she had me lick all her juices off her skin and the sheet before tying me to the bed again and stroking my cock hard and fast again. She allowed me to tongue her ass a couple of times (very briefly) and then knelt beside me, giving me a good view of her pussy and ass. She kept looking back at me, smiling as she pumped my cock. I kinda thought she was going to ruin me, but when I told her I was close she told me she was going to allow me to cum.

It hit really hard, and each spurt had me bouncing on the bed. Not only that but each time Mistress stroked me it felt so intense I was bucking so hard... and I could feel my cum spraying everywhere and landing on different parts of my skin. When I stopped cumming Mistress gathered what cum she could find and fed it to me from her fingers. Finally she lowered her dripping wet pussy onto my face one last time, she tasted incredible!

Foot worship continues...

I'm pleased to report that four days in to our new arrangement we have had some foot worship every day. Tonight's was especially interesting as Mistress had me worshipping her freshly pedicured feet as she was stroking my throbbing cock! Which made it a little difficult to stay the right side of the edge... to say the least!
I actually thought Mistress R was going to ruin me earlier, which was a surprise just two days before our next session, but I misheard her. Such is life. Still, the teasing she gave me was fantastic, and I loved making her cum before that. :)

Starting a new year...

Well. Mistress and I started the new year as we mean to go on, with her having a lovely orgasm and me being teased and denied. Also I got to choose a toy to play with since I lost new weight at the weekend, I chose the cock whip which Mistress used throughout her teasing blowjob. Really, you should try having your balls whipped while your cock is being sucked, it's awesome! :)
Afterwards Mistress had me remove the nail varnish from her toes, which is a very 'subby' thing to do I believe... I doubt she would trust me to do her nails, even her toe nails, so I don't think I'll be heading to pedicure school just yet. She did have me worship her feet a little while after her orgasm though, so that was good. Now I just have to finish up the contract and we have to sign it.

The end of year three...

And so we come to the final day of our third year, as predicted Mistress R did indeed cum again and I did not (just as it should be). So Mistress finished on 132 orgasms for the year (just over eleven a month on average), which is a significant increase on the last two years. I on the other hand slipped a little further, down to twenty for the year (versus 23 and 22 for the last two years), although of course this year I was allowed an additional six ruined orgasms (not shown on the graphs).

Mistress R averages 10 orgasms a month to my 1.8 (over the full three years)

This second graph is a lot more revealing than the first of course. It shows for instance that only three times in three years have I been permitted to orgasm more than twice in a calendar month. I'm surprised that there has only been one single month where I wasn't allowed to cum at all, and that was nearly two years ago, I am hopeful that with the advent of our fourth year Mistress will start ruining me a lot more and letting me cum properly much less.

Tonight was a bit of a struggle, I was constantly getting close and thinking about warning her, but never actually needed to. By the end of my teasing session my cock was throbbing like hell I can tell you. Totally amazing! 

Tomorrow our new contract comes into force, we're not having any kind of ceremony or anything, since it's not like this is something new to us, we are simply affirming the rules that were already in place (in writing) and adding a few to help things run smoothly. Since this will be the first day that I have to kiss Mistress's feet everyday, there's a chance that there could be some foot worship, and Mistress has already hinted that we might celebrate our new contract with some more pussy worship. Sounds good to me!

Femdom Session 23rd March 2014...

If you would have asked me this morning if I wanted to cum during today's session, I probably would have said no. One day off four weeks I was really enjoying the ache and the feeling I was going to explode when I cuddled up to Mistress R in bed last night. But as we know, these things are not for me to decide and if I'd known how I was to be allowed to cum, and how spectacular it would be then I would have changed my mind for sure.
But first, of course, I had to admit to some lack of self-control during the last seven weeks (seven weeks!) and take my punishment for the same. Mistress gave me twelve very stingy lashes with the cat and then, stupidly, when she asked me if I still thought it was worth it... I said 'yes'. I mean I was already feeling submissive but that was just plain dumb! So then I had to endure a further (brief but incredibly stingy) paddling.
After this Mistress had me suck her glass dildo (although I couldn't see her because I was blindfolded) so that it was nice and wet for her pussy, and then she set me to work worshipping her beautiful feet while she teased herself with the dildo. It had been so long since I had been given the opportunity to worship her perfect feet that I was loving every second of it, and as I concentrated on that I could still hear Mistress concentrating on the feeling of her favourite glass cock stretching her pussy.
Mistress told me that she hopes our soon to come into force 'contract' will re-focus my mind on my responsibilities as per 'not touching her cock', and twice during the session commented that if it doesn't she will have to increase the severity of my punishment. I'm not quite sure I believe that she would 'whip my balls', but I loved to hear her say it whether or not there was any substance behind the threat.
With our new glass butt plug to try out, Mistress had me on the bed and pushed a small dildo into my ass to help prepare me, before having me turn over onto my back. Once restrained she mounted my face and had me lick her pussy, which was lovely of course. And then she started teasing me about how if I hadn't broken her rules I wouldn't be wearing a blindfold and would be able to see her ass that was right above my face...
This was the first time in ages that Mistress hadn't told me to wear some kind of cock ring during a session, and it seemed a bit weird to start with... not least because I am often quite nervous at the start of these sessions. Well nervous is probably not the correct word, apprehensive perhaps... and so despite the ball aching hard-ons I've been 'suffering' over the past week or so, my cock was a little bit more docile than it usually would be when assisted by the Oxballs or even a simple cock ring.
Mistress managed to get me hard though, and continued stroking, slapping and generally abusing my cock while she continued taunting me by pressing her ass into my face. Not that I'm complaining you understand!
Then she had me turn over and she removed the dildo and lubed up the new glass buttplug. I was quite shocked to notice this morning that it was actually bigger than it looked and was actually the same diameter as the black rubber one we've had for ages and hardly ever use cos it's a bit big! Indeed, I made sure to warn Mistress before the session that she needed to be careful, not least because glass may be nice and slippery but it also has no 'give'.
Mistress eased it in to start with and then pushed it in (perhaps still a bit fast if I'm honest) and it was a little painful for about a minute and then I got used to it. She had me turn back onto my back and soon had my cock nice and hard again. Then she finally removed my blindfold and continued to stand over me teasing me by pulling her ass cheeks apart and making me beg to worship her asshole. Then she pegged my nipples and left me along with the taste of her pussy fresh in my mouth (when I asked her to let me taste her before she left me alone she said no initially and then decided that I could, but only from her glass dildo).
When she came back she removed the butt plug, which was really comfortable by then actually, I would have been quite happy to leave it in a lot longer. Well I say she removed it, in fact I had to do it myself because when Mistress tried to do it her fingernails dug into me and just about caused me to jump off the bed. It fucking HURT! The thing with this new butt plug is that it has quite a small base and perhaps a narrower neck than the old rubber one, so it pulls up really tight between your cheeks. I must admit I found it a bit of a job to get hold of it myself, but with Mistress's 1/2" long fingernails it would have been pretty impossible. Still, that aside the butt-plug was a sterling success, albeit in future it's definitely going to have to be me that removes it (my arse is still a bit sore seven hours later!) and after that I knew that any chance of Mistress using the strap-on on me was a lost cause.
(It occurred to me later that, what if Mistress was single and had bought the butt plug for herself? How would she have ever have got it out? She'd probably have had to find some suitable gloves or ultimately I guess she would have had to cut her nails off to get hold of the thing.)
Thankfully, after this stressful moment I got to go down on Mistress's delicious pussy and brought her to another lovely orgasm, after which she stood on the bed in front of me and had me lick her clean of her juices, before turning my attention to the soaked PVC sheet.
Once again she secured me to the bed on my back and began stroking me once more. She seemed to be stroking me quite hard and after a bit of grovelling she allowed me to lick her ass and my cock grew really hard now. It seemed to me that she was trying to get me to the edge... perhaps she was intending to ruin my orgasm? But then she straddled me and rubbed my cock against her slit before sliding onto it and riding me for a few moments. Then it was back to hard stroking and when I told her I was getting close, she let go... only to start teasing my cock with gentle strokes which made me thing she was definitely trying to ruin me.
Then once I was away from the edge again she started stroking me fast and hard again and she told me to tell her when I was getting close. Ah-ha, I thought, so this is definitely leading to a ruined orgasm then! But no, as soon as I told her I was getting close she straddled me again and told me to cum inside her. I thrust up as hard as I could, pumping my cum into her soaking wet pussy and with perfect timing after maybe four or five huge spurts of cum had erupted from my cock she lifted off me and straddled my face. So even as my orgasm was trailing off I was swallowing a massive load of my cum from her dripping wet pussy, it was simply amazing!
As I said, if you'd asked me this morning if I wanted to cum, I would have said no. But if I'd known how incredibly hot and amazing it would prove to be, then it would have been a different story, because that really was an incredible orgasm and a perfect, horny as fuck cream pie to boot!
Looking back through my records, I can't find a single instance in the last three years where I've been allowed to cum inside my Mistress during a Femdom session, so this was indeed a very special treat for me.
After the session Mistress said she hadn't intended to let me cum, but she changed her mind. She said she felt she'd been a bit too mean to me in the session... (I can feel a comment from Mistress Marie coming here!) ...and perhaps the buttplug incident played a part too. I guess I should be disappointed, but when you have an orgasm like that (that you didn't even really want) it's kind of difficult to be disappointed.
I don't suppose I shall have another orgasm until April now, so it looks like my orgasm tally for this year will be 20 in total, which is two less than last year (although I have had six ruined ones this year on top of that). Despite today's mind-blowing orgasm and perfect cream pie, I can't help hoping that next year it's six real orgasms and at least twenty ruined ones, that would be awesome!

I can't even remember the last time she did that...

For once Mistress came to bed totally naked this evening and she looked absolutely gorgeous! I so love to be able to see her beautiful breasts, I just wish I would get to lick my cum off them sometime soon. :)
It's been 23 days for me so far this time, Mistress has had nine since the last time I came. Her ninth one was pretty intense, I love it when she comes like that, so fucking hot!
After that Mistress really wanted to tease me good, which included the extraordinarily rare treat of her using her breasts to tease my cock. I can't even remember the last time she did that. I was lying on my back and she was laying next to me and she literally placed her lovely breasts either side of my cock and used her hands to move them up and down around my cock. It was awesome, only a generous slathering of baby oil could have made it any better... or perhaps allowing me to cum all over her luscious tits and lick them clean!
Maybe soon or maybe not, she said when I told her how badly I wanted to lick my cum from her body. Two days ago I told her I thought she was right when she said she was being too generous with my orgasms... mixed messages, that's exactly why I need her to be in control and make the decisions. Still, I don't actually need to be allowed a full orgasm to be able to lick her breasts clean do I?

A few more details of the contract...

A quiet last few days here, but now that Mistress's period is finished it was lovely to be able to taste her sweet pussy again and to make her cum. Mistress then teased me really nicely as I told her how much it would turn me on to have her randomly demand ass or pussy worship from me when I am least expecting it, not even touching my cock and leaving me throbbing and aching.... :)


I have a piece of paper in front of me on which the notes for our contract have been scribbled. There's nothing greatly changed, but there has been a bit of clarification, a bit of upping the ante, and a little bit of rule tightening. The main points are these:

I must kiss Mistress's feet every day.

I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission.

I am not allowed to cum without permission.

I am not allowed to beg to be allowed to cum - ever!

I am allowed to ask permission to touch my cock, but this will be for Mistress to decide.

I am allowed to ask to be allowed to worship Mistress's ass, but this will be for her to decide.

I am to fold and present Mistress's towels for her every day.

Mistress decides how many (also, when and how) ruined and full orgasms I receive. There is no minimum or maximum number in any given week, month or year.

When we are in bed I must always refer to Mistress as 'Mistress', also when ever I am performing any act of worship or anytime that she refers to me as 'slave'. (Mistress does not wish for me to call her Mistress day to day at the present time).

Every time I am allowed to cum I am to swallow as much as possible of it.

And finally, one rule that was relaxed has now been reinstated: I am no longer allowed to ask for penetration.

This rule was originally imposed right at the very start of our chastity journey. It was relaxed in the tail end of last year, pending Mistress's review if she thought I asked too often. Mistress has decided that as I am now being granted penetration more regularly than used to be the case, allowing me to ask for penetration is no longer necessary.

We are planning to sign our contract on the 1st April, there may be some minor additions or alterations before then depending on how Mistress feels it suits our requirements.

No session, but still good...

For reasons I won't go into here our Femdom session was postponed until probably the 23rd of March, however, Mistress and I still went to bed this afternoon and after making her cum with my tongue she set about teasing the shit out of my cock. She started using her hands and mouth but after a while she bent over the side of the bed and pulled a bottle of lube and a hairbrush out of her drawer (afterwards she told me she was looking for the cock whip but couldn't find it).
At first she continued stroking my cock and using the bristles on the brush to scratch my cock, then she used the back of the brush to slap my cock with. Then she poured some lube onto her hands and started stroking my cock. For the next ten-fifteen minutes she teased me really good, standing over me and giving me a great view of her gorgeous pussy and ass, then sinking down onto my cock and riding me, then riding my face. I really didn't want it to end and really thought she was seriously thinking about letting me cum (or ruining me at least).
In the end she did neither, after teasing me with her beautiful ass for the last time she lay down next to me and told me I could either choose 60 seconds of gentle stroking, during which time she would allow me to continue squeezing and toying with her ass as I had been throughout the session... or I could choose thirty seconds of much harder teasing.
Since I thought the thirty seconds would get me much closer to the edge and to a possible orgasm, or ruined orgasm... I chose that. Mistress pumped my cock hard and then started slapping my cock and balls pretty hard (as she had throughout the session, no wonder they ache a little now!). Thirty seconds was over way too quick and as she pulled her hand away I was left massively frustrated and throbbing.
As we lay together afterwards Mistress brought up the subject of our contract and we discussed the details we had thought of so far. Some of them are not pertaining to chastity or Femdom exactly, but relationship things. I still think that's quite a good thing and I think formally recognizing chastity and Femdom as part of our wider relationship is a great idea.
Oh yes, before I went down on Mistress she mentioned one of my posts on here and said she got the impression that I was suggesting that I was being allowed to cum too often. She teased me about that a little bit and then suggested that maybe she should just make sure that more of the ones she did allow me to have were ruined... sounds good to me!

Voucher claimed...

You may remember that Mistress R gave me a voucher for Valentine's Day which allowed me to ask to be allowed to cum, but was limited to the end of February...well, that has been on my mind today, because February is of course ticking rapidly away! My dilemma though was this...

On the one hand I felt I should use it, because it was a gift from Mistress R, but on the other hand I was starting to enjoy that feeling of denial, having just made it past three weeks. Over the last few months I seem to have been allowed to cum once every one to two weeks, with the occasional four week stretch, but nothing longer or remotely near my record (42 days in both the Summers of 2012 and 2013).

In the end though matters rather overtook any reluctance I may have had, after licking Mistress to orgasm tonight, she had me kneel between her legs and teased my cock with her hands while we kissed, before stroking the tip against her pussy and then slowly guiding me in. Mistress was still wet and silky as my cock slid inside her, and we slowly made love as I mulled over my dilemma. She kept smiling at me, almost like she was waiting for me to ask permission to cum, almost as if she knew it was only a matter of time.

So it was a little odd that she seemed almost surprised when I did finally ask permission to cum. But instead of letting me continue, she decided she wanted me to be able to see her ass I pumped my cum inside her, so she turned onto her side and told me to enjoy it, because as she told me 'I don't know when I'll be allowed to cum inside her like that again'.

It was impossible to continue for long, the sight of her gorgeous asshole and my cock sliding into her beautiful pink pussy meant that my twenty three day load was soon rising and as I started to pump her harder I knew it was going to be all over very soon. In the event it was so intense that almost as soon as I started coming I had to stay still inside her, which was kind of frustrating actually... but still. I managed a few more strokes as my cock started to soften and then we lay down to talk and bask in the afterglow.

Once again I was kinda waiting for her to tell me to lick her pussy clean, but she didn't. Then when she sat up to get out bed she commented that she could feel my cum running out of her, and I told her that she shouldn't let it go to waste. She opened her legs and I moved between them to lick her pussy a little while before she pushed me away and left me lying on the bed with the taste of our combined juices on my lips.

Some movement on the contract front it seems, Mistress is not opposed to the idea and so we will be drawing something up in the near future!

February has largely sucked...

February has rather sucked so far. True there were some good bits, but overall it's sucked. You only have to look at the stats to see that Mistress and I haven't been enjoying ourselves as much as we usually do. Five orgasms for Mistress R in over three weeks is pretty disastrous, and we are in grave danger of equalling our worst month ever (7) with only five days remaining.
Last Saturday I went to a concert with a friend who was on the verge of getting ill. By Monday night I was ill and I spent most of Tuesday in bed or asleep on the sofa. The expected cold never really developed beyond a slight sniffle and an intermittent cough, but it has left me very tired indeed. Even yesterday I went back to bed during the day and slept a couple of hours, which I never usually do.
I still haven't been feeling brilliant today, but I was determined to taste Mistress's beautiful pussy and bring to an end her eight day wait. It was a lovely orgasm and Mistress seemed a lot more relaxed after it too. I was unsure about whether I wanted any teasing since I wasn't too sure whether I would get hard (erections have been few and far between since last Monday I have to say!), but as we lay together afterwards my cock was suddenly very hard and Mistress stroked me, albeit not quite with her usual enthusiasm, but it still felt really good!
Mistress and I don't deal with disruption very well and a lack of sex always leaves us feeling a bit 'distant', so this month has sucked even more because we haven't really been rubbing along like we usually do, hopefully this coming week we can do something about that. I'm also hoping for good things on the scale on Tuesday night, maybe new weight, maybe even a certificate! But then I've thought that before and been disappointed, so we'll see.

Voucher...

One thing I forgot to mention in yesterday's post, was the voucher that Mistress gave me (among other things... including an art book by the astonishingly talented Laurie Lipton) which entitles me to ask to cum once before the end of February. It doesn't actually say whether she will let me or not mind you, it just says I can ask, so I presume that if I ask it will be granted? I guess it also doesn't say that she won't ruin it either...
Anyway, I was pretty much on the verge of using it yesterday. The first half of February has been pretty poor on the sex front, but we are determined to make up for lost time in the second half and so yesterday afternoon we went to bed for some fun. Mistress had a wonderful orgasm on my tongue and then had me lay down as she stroked my throbbing cock. Since on Thursday I had told her how badly I wanted to be allowed to worship her ass, she asked me if I wanted to use my final outstanding weight loss 'treat'... (which just shows you how uneventful the first half of Feb has been). I told her I did and soon she was straddling my head and my tongue was buried in her asshole as she pumped my cock hard. Then she switched around and sank down on my cock and.... did I mention she was completely naked for a change, so I could see her beautiful breasts as she rode my cock. This all went on for some time, until I was just about to ask if I could cum inside her... although she might still have got off me and jerked my cock with her hand so who knows...
But instead she went back to pumping my cock while I tongued her asshole, until I told her I was getting close.
She said, "We'd better stop then... do you want one more taste of my ass?"
I told her I did and she said, "Are you sure you can do it without cumming?"
I told her I could and she sank down on my face again and gently teased my cock as I pressed my tongue into her tight hole.
So, my voucher is still in play... and only thirteen days left to use it, maybe it will get used sooner rather than later?

Femdom Session - 2nd February 2014...

Today's session got off to a slightly uncomfortable start as I had to confess to a couple of instances of illegal touching/, which I had indulged in earlier this week after Mistress had gotten up (she gets up about an hour before I do, but gets home 1.1/2-2 hours before I do too). As you can imagine, having gone four weeks without a truly satisfying orgasm (my last one was very much borderline ruined) in recent days my cock has been rock hard in the morning, leaking pre-cum and desperate for attention. Having not been sleeping well lately hasn't helped since when Mistress gets up I can't seem to get back to sleep and so of course I am ill prepared to fight the temptation to touch my cock.

Mistress decided to give me fifteen strokes of the cat, straight off the bat. That isn't too many more than normal, but for some reason they stung a lot more. Number five in particular stung as the whip found it's way between my legs and caught my balls a treat. I winced my way through my punishment (Mistress later asked if I was hamming it up, seriously!) and was rather relieved when it was over, though Mistress didn't seem to think she'd hit me any harder than usual... hmm.

Soon I had forgotten about the pain as the Oxballs Cocksling tightened around my swelling cock. Mistress had me worshipping her feet while she lay on the bed, clad in a PVC top and skirt with only straps around her gorgeous breasts (I love that top). I could hear her dildo inside her pussy making a gorgeous noise but concentrated on worshipping her beautiful feet until I was ordered to lick her glass dildo clean for her.

After I had worshipped her other foot equally well, she had me lick and suck her dildo a second time before ordering me on to the bed on my back. She tied me to the bed and quickly sank down onto my face. She tasted wonderful, but after a few seconds she stood up and started fucking herself again. Then she was back on my face again, ordering me to push my tongue inside her, which I tried to do but she kept grinding her clit against my tongue instead.

By now my cock was rock hard and I was hoping she would slid down onto it, but sadly not. Instead she grabbed my cock and started pumping it hard, her nails digging in as she explained that she thought my cock needed to be properly punished for my misdemeanours, little did I know how true that would be by the end of the session!

Mistress abused my cock for some time, digging her nails into it and also scraping them across my tightly constricted balls. The thing is the Oxballs holds you very tight so there is very little movement in the skin, I imagine it's a bit like being circumcised, I believe circumcised men need to use lube to masturbate. Well there wasn't any lube, and there was plenty of Mistress's very long nails. On the upside I think it's the lube that reacts with the Oxballs and causes the stinging, of which there was none this time, so.... swings and roundabouts.

Mistress now decided to blindfold me and then she told me it was time for me to have something up my ass. I was expecting the new butt plug, but when I felt the cold tip of the lube coated glass dildo I was quite happy, because it feels great. It feels even better when Mistress fucks me with it while stroking my cock and that's exactly what she did next.

I was really enjoying that part of the session and wished it could have continued on longer, but alas no. Soon I felt the new vibrating butt plug being pushed into my asshole, and after deciding on a setting and attaching a couple of clothes pegs to my nipples (stronger ones than last time, because they were pointless) she left me to stew for a while.

The right clothes peg hurt more than the left one, maybe it wasn't pushed on as far, but I could definitely feel them this time. The butt plug wasn't as strong as I expected, but the thing is the vibrations acted as a reminder that it was there. Often when Mistress leaves me tied up with a butt plug inside me I almost forget about it until she takes it out, no chance of that here. At least I didn't have to worry about it causing an unauthorised eruption!

When Mistress returned she removed the pegs without a second's warning (ouch!) and then the blindfold and then untied me and told me to remove the Oxballs. I moved out of the way and she lay down on the bed and spread her legs, exposing her delicious pussy to me as she stroked my cock with her toenails. Her skirt was gone but she was still wearing the PVC top, she always looks so gorgeous like that.

I bent and laid down between her silky smooth thighs and began eating her pussy, she tasted so good and after a while her muscles tightened and tightened until she finally bucked and came hard under my tongue. I love nothing more than feeling that and it was so hot to watch as she stood up on the bed with her juices literally running down the backs of her legs as she snapped her fingers and pointed to the beads that were down by her calves already.

I greedily lapped them up before turning my attention to the soaking wet PVC sheet. There was so much pussy juice, it was wonderful. As I lapped at the sheet Mistress reached under me and started pumping my cock again. Then she ordered me onto my back and tied me down once more before standing over me, teasing me with her pussy and ass. She lowered herself down onto me and stroked me cock as I begged to lick her asshole. She gave permission and she continued pumping my cock as I tongued her tight hole. She gave me a second chance to tongue her ass before telling me that she was going to allow me to cum today, providing I could cum before she counted to ten.

Strangely, although my cock was really hard I felt a long way from the edge, a really long way.... and frankly I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to make it. Mistress was pumping my cock really hard and counting very slowly it seemed to me, she obviously wanted me to cum because each number came slower than the last one. Around about five I felt something click into place, but it wasn't until nine that I got to the edge and then erupted violently.

It was brutal, it just seemed to keep coming, like as if I'd cum once and then another one followed straight on, and all the while Mistress was pumping me so hard... it was as near as I've cum to post-orgasm torment, and being tied down all I could do was buck beneath her as she pumped out an unfeasibly large amount of cum which she then fed to me and I swallowed down. Afterwards my poor cock looked as if it had been thoroughly 'tenderized', with little nail marks all down the left side and the skin swollen and red. Not that I'm complaining you understand!

The stealth ruined orgasm...

As you probably know, since I posted about it not more than a couple of days ago, my last orgasm was kind of ruined but not ruined enough to be classed as a ruined orgasm. There was a definite refractory period that you don't get with a proper ruined orgasm, and yet... four days on and this evening I was surprisingly desperate to cum. Granted there were some mitigating factors, for example, having lost three pounds this week (total to date: 33.5lbs) and losing half a pound of new weight I was permitted to choose a treat.
Despite having been allowed the same treat a few days ago, but not at my choosing, it didn't take much thinking about to request being allowed to tongue Mistress R's gorgeous asshole again, so that will have increased the pressure for sure. And Mistress's exceptionally frustrating hand job certainly helped too of course... but I still think that semi-ruined orgasm was maybe more ruined than I thought. A stealth ruined orgasm if you will, since despite the definite but rather less pleasurable than it should have been climax, and the ensuing refractory period, it seems almost as if I was granted no relief whatsoever.
Perhaps Mistress R is better at this than she gives herself credit for? Because by the end of tonight's teasing I was humping the air in frustration, and feeling truly desperate to cum, far more desperate than a man who's only carrying a four day load should be at any rate. Needless to say, Mistress R enjoyed a lovely orgasm on my tongue all the same, taking her to a grand total of 340 since records began.
Still, thanks to Mistress Marie, there could be some possible relief on the horizon, Mistress R rather liked her suggestion that to get over her worries about ruining orgasms she should sometimes offer me the choice of whether to be ruined or left completely denied. Though whether that will actually offer any relief or whether it will just lead to more frustration is up for debate. Not that I'm complaining of course. Granted when I was humping the air and Mistress R's fingertips earlier this evening I was going crazy and wishing that I was just allowed to beg to be allowed to cum, at least then I would have some chance... maybe she would offer me some kind of deal or something? Probably not of course, but it would be nice to have that tiny sliver of hope.
Mind you, of course there's a part of me that much prefers to be kept denied, or wishes that Mistress R would ruin every orgasm she grants me, because as much as I desperately want to cum, I also want her to be mean to me and keep me in this state of constant frustration. I rather liked the comment left by an anonymous reader who suggested taking a week to repeatedly ruin me over and over so that Mistress could get used to doing it, in fact I liked that idea a lot!
Unfortunately, it's not for me to decide of course, Mistress R and Mistress R alone decides when, how and indeed if I am allowed to cum. And despite everything I may have written which suggests anything to the contrary, that's exactly how I like it. Sure I lay there fantasizing about exploding over just about every part of her gorgeous body, even though I know that anything other than cumming inside her or cumming by her hand is a rare treat indeed. I mean just check out my orgasm page, how long is it since I came in her mouth or on her feet? And how long was it since the last time?
But even tonight, even though I was riven with frustration, it was so hot that Mistress was unmoved, or more accurately I sensed it rather amused her to watch me writhe beneath her, so fucking desperate and so helpless to do anything about it. And that's why I'll probably wake up tomorrow morning, as I did this morning, with a rock hard, aching cock, leaking precum like there's no tomorrow. And I love it.

Poundage, Pink Flamingos and a Throbbing Cock...

January has started well for us, with Mistress having already enjoyed four orgasms, one every other day in fact! I can't quite believe it's only been four days since I was allowed to cum... actually when Mistress was teasing me earlier I was trying to remember when I was allowed to cum, I knew it was this year but somehow I couldn't quite believe it, what with it only being the 8th today. Having just re-read my previous post I simply cannot comprehend that that was only four days ago, I just can't! Who knows how long it's going to be until Mistress allows me to cum like that again...?
Ludicrously, in light of that fact, I almost thought Mistress was going to ruin me tonight. I haven't had a ruined orgasm since September and she got me so close tonight but no, not this time. She teased me really good tonight, that's for damn sure, and left me throbbing like hell. Probably going to be using the new vibrating butt plug next time, I'm looking forward to that, while also being a little worried that it's going to be hard to stay in control! And thinking forward to our next session, I can see trouble ahead if she leaves me alone with that thing vibrating in my ass for five or ten minutes. It has seven settings, some of which are worse than others admittedly, but some of them are pretty brutal.

On the weight front, I gained 3.5lbs over Christmas, and my first week back I lost 0.5lbs, which means I need to lose another 3lbs to get back to where I was, and a further 2lbs to get to my 2.1/2 stone certificate (that's 35lbs to our American readers).  I'm not too downhearted, it's been a very long time since I've started a year under 16 stone, probably eight or more, so while it is a little frustrating, the general trend is down, and that is the important thing. Mistress has promised to take me away somewhere when I get to three stone (42lbs) and of course, there'll be some special deviant treat for me at that juncture too! Don't know what yet, but it could be being allowed to cum in Mistress's mouth and then kissing her. Maybe? I don't really know. But it's a possibility. Perhaps a slim possibility...or not.

I decided to contact Pink Flamingo and tell them about my review of Stanley Jeffries book, I thought they might want to post a link on their website or something. I'm not sure if they have or not, but a very nice lady there offered to send me e-copies of the two books that I haven't got of Stanley's for review. After a lot of trial and error (and patience on her part, it must be said) I eventually managed to get something which works on my Nexus 7. It seems if you aren't downloading direct from Amazon, Kindle is about as user friendly as a very unfriendly thing. PDF files are pretty useless because they aren't adjustable for font sizes and the other sort didn't work in anything. Eventually I found the holy grail in epub files, which actually loaded themselves into the Google Books reader on my Nexus and seem to be working just fine. I'm about 10% into 'The Chastity Game' so far and finding it hard to put down.

While I was talking to the lady at Pink Flamingo I also enquired about the protocol for submitting a book for publication, and this has rather inspired me to get writing again. I made a lot of notes early last year for a novel I never started and I will be revisiting that shortly in an effort to start work on something suitable. Unlike Femdom Cave, Pink Flamingo require their Chastity/Femdom scenarios to be consensual, which suits me much better. I really didn't like trying to force a 'Forced Femdom/Chastity' story, because I felt like I had to tie myself in knots justifying it every step of the way and making sure there weren't any holes in the plot. Probably unnecessarily as it turned out, having seen some other examples the justification lasted all of two pages before the plots were left to drift off into the completely ridiculous.

Oh, I almost forgot, after I made Mistress cum, she let me worship her feet for a little while too. That was lovely.

My first orgasm of 2014...

Thursday night was a good night around here, Mistress R got me rock hard by rubbing my cock against her pussy, before having me lay down between her legs to make her cum. You women don't realise how uncomfortable it is to lay on a rock hard cock... but it was so worth it, Mistress came really well and I felt really happy.
Afterwards she surprised me by whipping out the glass butt plug and reminding me that she owed me a treat. Soon I was rock hard again as she sucked and teased me, while slowly introducing the well lubed plug to my ass. It always feels a little uncomfortable to start with, but after a few minutes it felt amazing, especially when Mistress fucked my ass as she stroked and sucked my aching cock.
It's always the same with anal toys, at first they are uncomfortable and then just as you really start to enjoy the sensation your Mistress decides you've had enough. I begged for the plug to be put back in and Mistress allowed me another minute or two, it felt soooooo good. But all too soon Mistress pulled it out again, and left me with a good slap to the balls for good measure.
Afterwards Mistress and I discussed the frequency of her orgasms and how after two pretty low months (nine apiece in November and December) we could try and beat her record of fourteen in January. Well, we're off to a good start at least, today Mistress had her second orgasm of the year, and it was truly top drawer stuff. From where I was laying it was definitely one of the absolute best in recent memory and after she had recovered Mistress had me move up between her legs and she guided me inside her.
Damn that felt good. Being on top and inside my Mistress's beautiful, slippery pussy... not only that but I was totally in control of my trigger too! I fucked Mistress solidly for a while but just as I started to speed up Mistress stopped me and turned on to her side, I don't know why but the different angle suddenly made it more intense and I had to tell Mistress that I was getting close. At this point she hadn't let on as to whether she was allowing me to cum or not, I'm not even sure she had remembered that I needed to ask at this point actually... !
Mistress responded to my warning by grabbing the headboard with both hands and telling me to fuck her hard and fill her with cum, and that's exactly what I did. Afterwards I was waiting to see if she would tell me to clean her, half thinking about instigating myself but really wanting her to tell me to do it. Just as I was thinking it wasn't going to happen she grabbed my arm and pulled me down between her legs and I licked her clean. There wasn't a lot of cum to be honest (at least not where I could reach with my tongue) but Mistress seemed to be enjoying the attention on her clit anyway. Later she commented on how much cum was dripping out of her, I guess it had been eleven days...

A pre-Christmas present...

Traditionally my work closes early on Christmas Eve, so I was home by midday today. Mistress and I took the opportunity for some bed-time, since tomorrow we will be seeing relatives and by the time we get home we shall most likely be very tired and very full!
Mistress had a really wonderful orgasm on my tongue and then she started stroking my cock until it was rock hard. As she sucked and stroked my cock I used my fingers to gently tease her asshole. After giving my cock a few slaps she straddled me and impaled herself on my throbbing cockmeat.
I'd been pretty close to cumming when she was stroking me to tell the truth, but I somehow managed to control myself as she started to ride me. The way she was riding my cock I kind of suspected she was going to let me cum, but of course I couldn't be sure until she told me. She was really pounding down on me and it felt really intense as she milked my cock dry.
Afterwards she lifted herself off me, moved up the bed and straddled my face so that I could lick my cum out of her stretched pussy. It was superhot! As early Christmas presents go you can't really get much better than that, can you?

Oh yes, I lost another pound on Monday (making me 217 pounds), so I get to choose another reward! Can't see me losing any weight next week though, but I don't want to put too much on either.

Femdom Session 23rd November 2013...

It's a little over an hour since our session finished and despite having eaten lunch I can still taste Mistress's delicious pussy. Even more amazing since I had to swallow 29 days of cum as well, but more on that later.
Mistress had me wear the rubber cockring instead of the Oxballs this time and Mistress also decided that since she couldn't punish me for touching my cock without permission she was instead going to 'punish' me for touching her without permission. (Ye Gads, where will this end!) At least it was only the whip and not the paddle, but that being said, it seemed an usually robust whipping!
Thankfully it didn't last too long and then Mistress had me worshipping her beautiful feet while she toyed herself with her glass dildo, I wasn't blindfolded and managed to sneak one look without being caught. Meanwhile Mistress was teasing me about whether I'd be allowed to cum or not, and if so where and how...
When she'd had enough of that she tied me down on the bed and stood over me, fucking herself with the dildo and then having me suck it clean for her. Then she sat on my face and had me lick her gorgeous pussy. She tasted wonderful and very 'silky', I take this to usually indicate that Mistress is very turned on.
Mistress teased and punished my cock as she flaunted her pussy and ass in my face, before briefly sinking down onto my cock and allowing me an inch or so of entry. It was very frustrating, but fortunately she did allow me to slide fully inside her for a few seconds later on. She also spent a couple of minutes teasing my cock and around my ass with a small vibrator, which was pretty good actually, especially around my ass - definitely wishing we'd bought that vibrating butt plug at Erotica now!
It wasn't then long before my ass was filled and my nipples were pegged and I was left to stew in my own juice for a little while. When Mistress returned she had removed the PVC skirt she had worn earlier, but retained the black bra. She removed the dildo from my ass and the pegs from my nipples before allowing me up to remove my cock ring.
Then she stood on the bed in front of me and pulled me head between her legs and moaned as I started to lick her pussy. She pushed me away and then lay down in front of me, she looked absolutely gorgeous and I couldn't resist kissing her beautiful smooth thighs on the way up to begin worshipping her.
This 'silkiness' I mentioned earlier is always a good sign, and I could just tell that Mistress was going to cum really well. Right from the start there were little signs, just little muscle spasms that told me she was really wound up, and sure enough when she came Mistress came really hard, pulling my head down between her legs as she bucked against me. After she had finished I felt so content and happy, I love it when Mistress cums like that, it is so rewarding. Mistress stood on the bed and had me lick her clean and then as I licked her juices off the PVC sheet she reached between my legs and stroked my cock.
She tied me down again and then she started teasing me with her ass again, she made me beg for her asshole and then allowed me to tongue it as she stroked my cock. Earlier in the session she had mentioned something about me having a choice to make and I assumed that it would be a choice between cumming or being allowed to lick her ass. So I was confused now, since I was already being allowed to lick her ass.
Then came the question, she asked me if I wanted to cum like this, licking her ass while she pumped my cock, or did I want to cum inside her. Mistress allowed me only seconds to think before demanding an answer one way or another, warning that if I didn't chose I wouldn't be cumming at all.
In the heat of the moment, and with Mistress's gorgeous ass right in front of my face I chose to continue as we were, even though I had been fantasising about cumming inside Mistress's pussy all week. I had already decided that I would chose licking Mistress's ass over being allowed to cum, and this just threw me.
Needless to say, after 29 days I came incredibly hard and I can't help wondering if the smooth as silk walls of Mistress's pussy teasing the cum from my cock might not have been a better choice for my poor, tender cock... but as it was Mistress pumped me hard and fast until I covered her fingers in cum, cum which was then fed to me (and there seemed an awful lot of it - hardly surprisingly!).
I have to confess to a slight pang of regret at not choosing to fill Mistress's pussy, but the grass is always greener and if she will insist on asking these questions while her pussy and ass are right in front of my face... what can I do?

Femdom Session 6th November 2013...

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