Why I am the slave...

As you may remember, on Tuesday I reached my second weight loss target: 2 Stone (28lbs). This entitled me to some treats from Mistress R, including a £50 shopping voucher and more importantly the opportunity to cum all over her sexy ass! When I got home from my slimming club and told Mistress R she asked me when I wanted my reward, which I wasn't really expecting because I don't get to decide when I can cum. I said that it's not for me to decide, and having just recently been allowed to cum (the 23rd of November) I wasn't expecting it to happen anytime soon.
This week has been a bit lacking in the sex department, I seem to have so much to do and seem so tired at the end of the day that we haven't added to Mistress's orgasm count since Monday night (which explains the rather dismal '9' for November, the worst since February!).
Yesterday we had to go Christmas shopping, which meant a visit to town. Mistress and I are of the opinion that if you're going shopping you get up early, you get there when the doors open and you get on with it, before all the dithering fuckwits arrive. And so that's exactly what we did. I didn't get everything, but I certainly broke the back of it and got the difficult stuff that can only be got in town.
We were both pretty beat when we got home, but later we made time for some fun and Mistress had her first orgasm for five days... and it was spectacular. When I looked up she was grinning from ear to ear. My face was covered in pussy juice and she reached down and used her finger to scoop it off my face and feed it to me. That was a nice touch, I love that she has come to believe me when I tell her how much I adore her taste.
Somehow, although it had been several days, I wasn't really expecting my reward yet, after all it had only been seven days since I had cum, so I was a little surprised when Mistress told me that she had decided to give me my reward. When she said it she was kneeling up beside me stroking my cock and it was only then that the practicalities of the situation became apparent.
Mistress seemed to think that I could 'fire' my cum up at her ass, but I was not convinced. Sometimes cum flies and hits your pillow, but mostly it really doesn't. I had always imagined standing or kneeling behind Mistress R, as if I had just pulled out from behind... but then it occurred to me that it could well just drip off her ass. In the end I asked Mistress to lay flat on her front and I kneeled behind her, between her legs. It didn't take very long at all and just as Mistress asked if I was getting close I spurted a load of cum between her cheeks. As I continued stroking I just kept cumming and cumming, it wasn't a particularly intense orgasm, but there was certainly a lot of cum.
Miraculously most of it had reached it's intended target and after only the briefest of pauses I lay down on the bed behind her and buried my face in her ass. How many times had I fantasised about licking my cum from between her cheeks? Thousands, probably. And now here I was, finally getting to lick her asshole clean. It was fucking HOT!
As I probed her ass with my tongue and started swallowing my cum, it seemed to be all I could taste and smell, my cum and Mistress's musky ass... it pushed me deep into sub-space. When I had finished cleaning her ass, Mistress turned over and lay in front of me for a short while, she looked so gorgeous with her legs open, displaying her beautiful pussy for me. I bent down and kissed her silky inner thighs, wondering when I might get the chance to worship her ass like that again.
Feeling so submissive at that moment it was wonderful the way Mistress showed her body off to me like that, as if showing me exactly why she has all the power and why I am the slave. She looked so stunningly beautiful right then... I could look at her for hours.

Girls masturbate...why can't we talk about it?

I was looking on the Daily Telegraph website today, actually I was looking for reviews of a shite comedy series that started last night (the review was good, the public comments echoed my own thoughts...nice to know it's not you), and at the bottom of the page there were various links to other pages on the website.

One which caught my eye was entitled 'Girls masturbate, why can't we talk about it?' Which I will repost here just in case you can't see it in another country or something...

Who doesn’t love busting a taboo? Doesn’t it make you feel edgy and modern and SHOCKING? Do you remember the ‘90s, when anal sex was the taboo du jour (du decade?)? I put this in no small part down to overexposure to Sex and the City, which definitely mentioned it at least twice in six years. But yeah! Anal sex was cool! Because it was taboo! And nothing’s sexier than busting a taboo, yeah!

Then, after watching a bit more Sex and the City, we decided that the use of the word c**t was a far bigger taboo, so we started saying it loads, all the time, to show how edgy we were.

Once the naughtiest of all the naughty words, c**t is only months away from being used on Hollyoaks Later – which means it's only a matter of time before Corrie’s Rita start’s shouting it at Norris across the street’s cornershop - The Kabin when he forgets to top up the sherbet lemons.

So we need another taboo to bust – but what’s left? I went to see the very funny Book of Mormon this week, where a running joke about a man ‘f***ing a baby’ had the audience, including myself, crying with laughter (seriously, go and see it, it really is excellent), which makes me wonder if there’s anywhere left to go.

And then I remembered the one dirty little secret we’re all harbouring. The one thing we can’t talk about, even amongst our closest female friends. Female masturbation.

Obviously there are conditions attached to this: vibrators are fine – we can discuss vibrators, go and buy them together, attend hen nights where we have to rescue a vibrator from a stripper’s butt cheeks using only our pelvic floor muscles (I don’t go to many hen nights – but that’s what happens when you’ve finished glazing your own commemorative mugs, right?). Only a prude would admit to not owning a vibrator. They’re sexy! And fun! Sexy fun! And empowering! And that one with the ears once featured in Sex and the City! So we’re fine with that.

But we never discuss female masturbation, on its own, without a purple, glittery, revolving phallus, without a man present, just for the sake of it.

I can talk about it, if someone else brings it up in conversation (which rarely happens), but I have to force myself to swallow my discomfort first, and I’d never bring it up myself – why is that? The topics of conversation I’ll cover with my closest friends know no bounds – except this one. Is it just too personal? Because that’s how it feels. I managed to get one friend, who will discuss her bowel movements with me at the drop of a hat, to admit that she masturbates. But only when she’d drunk the best part of a bottle of wine.

But why the double standard? Men talk about wanking all the time. A male friend “knows a guy” who prides himself on the number of times he can fit a wank in during a day at work. His record is 23.

Twenty-three times in one working day? That doesn’t sound like fun. That sounds as close to self-flagellation as you can get on an industrial estate in Croydon. But nonetheless, his wanking prowess is a point of pride.

In fact The Most Ancient and Most Puissant Order of the Beggar's Benison and Merryland, Anstruther, known as The Beggar's Benison, was a Scottish gentlemen's club founded in 1732, devoted to "the convivial celebration of male sexuality”. It was a wanking club.

But is female masturbation actually taboo? Or am I the maiden aunt clutching her pearls while all the cool kids go off to masturbation raves in warehouses, where they take loads of ketamine and frig themselves silly?

As Telegraph Wonder Women’s agony aunt Dr Petra Boyntonpoints out, masturbation itself isn’t taboo – it’s talked about far more in sex education and in the media than say, 50 years ago. Instead, the problem lies with how we discuss it, and the language we use. “In the UK, the discussion focuses on products (toys) and performance/aspirational messages around spicing up your sex life. But, we don’t talk about how to masturbate or how that might be interpreted within a relationship.

“Masturbation is happening and we talk about it but the media/self help market uses language in quite a limiting way, which actually means it's not a taboo but can be difficult to talk about.”

Masturbation is fine when it’s for the purposes of male titillation. But WHY? Does female desire, on its own and without a purpose (to make babies, or to please a man) make us uncomfortable? Are women not allowed to be horny, just because? And why do women refuse to talk about masturbating even when they are just in female company? We are the generation that talk about ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING. But not this.

It’s almost like there’s a conspiracy we’re all a willing part of, a refusal to discuss female masturbation sensibly, lest all the women discover their clitorises, drop what they’re doing and start furiously wanking in the nearest cupboard. But that would be ridiculous, wouldn’t it?

Not that I've spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about the subject, no really I haven't... but it does seem that the writer has a good point. For instance, the word 'wank' conjours up a very male specific image, and yet there is no universally accepted female equivalent. Why? And as the writer says, it's one thing that women don't talk about it in front of men, but women seemingly don't even talk about it to other women, not that I'm suggesting that I talk to other men about wanking.... not that I'd have a lot to say on the subject anyway! Well, you know what I mean.

Maybe this secrecy/taboo element is why it turns men on to think about women 'pleasuring' themselves, or maybe it reassures us that women do actually like sex and they aren't just going along with the whole charade to stop us getting grumpy. Women may scoff at this but it is very odd to us men that something as simple as self-gratification is such a taboo subject. Men discover wanking at a relatively early age and apart from those of us who enter into slightly unorthodox agreements with our partners, most men will carry on jerking their cocks until such time as they die, or cease to function sufficiently. 

To us it's a no brainer, we wouldn't even take offence if we are termed a wanker (as long as it's said in jest) because we all know we are, it's a common interest, like porn or football (actually I don't like football). So to us, it's a peculiar thing that the vast majority of women are so coy about it, or actively claim not to indulge themselves. I'm forty three now, and in all my years I can only recall one instance of a woman I knew talking openly about it and that was at school (a girl called Bridget talking to another girl about rubbing herself against her pillow, or something... truth be told school is a long time ago now). 

Anyway, I think the article said pretty much everything, I hope you enjoyed reading it.

Last night's weigh-in was not as bad as I feared it might be, following my first 'holiday week'. I put on 2.5lbs, but I was more than happy with that, thinking that over a two week period I could easily have put on 7lbs. So it's back on the wagon now, and now of course rather than 3lbs to go until my 28lb milestone (2 Stones in English money) it 5.5lbs, and I'll have to lose 3lb before I get any other treat of course... Still that's not really that bad. I lost 4lbs the first two weeks I started (8lbs in total), so I reckon it should be reasonably do-able. We'll see. 

Well, I can't sit around typing all night, I have some pussy worship to attend to!

The end of a very long wait...

I don't exactly know when Mistress R got her larger glass dildo, but I found mention of it on the blog in May 2011 and it was already consigned to the back of the drawer... I don't remember exactly when it was but after Mistress discovered how awesome her original blue glass dildo was, one day I was ordering something from a sex toy site and she decided she wanted another one, only bigger.
Well, when it arrived, Mistress tried it once and declared it too big and uncomfortable. I couldn't help thinking that it might have been because she tried it without any warm up or having cum or having me inside her first, but I guess I figured it was up to her if she didn't want to try it again.
So a couple of weeks ago I picked the old glass dildo as my treat, but for some reason Mistress R assumed I had picked this other, larger dildo and she seemed okay about it. Well, that got me thinking...especially having read Eric's tales of watching his wife fucking herself with some very big dildos indeed! So last week when I lost yet another two pounds I chose the larger dildo and waited to see what happened.
Well, tonight, after who knows how long I finally got to see Mistress's gorgeous pussy wrapped around that very same dildo. First of all she stroked my rock hard cock as we kissed and then she pushed me down between her legs to worship her beautiful and delicious pussy. As soon as she came down from her orgasm she reached for her standard blue glass dildo and had me get it wet for her with my mouth. Then she slid it into her pussy, just inches from my face...it was so erotic watching that so close. Several times she pulled it out and had me lick and suck it clean, even though I'd just spent quite a while licking her pussy I never get tired of tasting her and I enthusiastically sucked and licked as she commanded.
After a while she swapped the blue dildo for the bigger, nobbly pink dildo and after having me prepare it for her, she slowly slid it inside her slippery, pink pussy. It looked so hot, it's got a very strong double bend in it (her old blue one is pretty straight) and it's a good bit longer than the other one, so I wasn't surprised that she never got it all the way in. But even so, it was so nice so to finally see her beautiful pussy stretched as she pushed the big round end into herself.
After a while Mistress started alternating between stroking my cock, sliding the dildo into her pussy and having me clean it for her. After straddling my face and allowing me to lick her wonderful slit, Mistress pushed the pink dildo inside herself again and had me clean it off once more before she set it aside. Then she concentrated on stroking my cock a lot more, giving me some nice hard/fast pumps and pushing me slowly towards the edge. Every time I thought I was getting somewhere though she slowed right down which was driving me crazy with frustration, while foolishly I was hoping maybe she might just maybe, possibly, perhaps be going to give me a ruined orgasm.
Nope. Not tonight. Soon after Mistress gave me one last taste of her delicious juices from the pink dildo and then she stopped teasing me altogether. I waited so long to see her beautiful pussy taking that nobbly glass dildo, I hope I get to see it again soon, although I must admit I still love seeing her blue dildo inside her, especially when my face is right between her silky smooth legs as she's pushing it inside...
Actually, I forgot to mention this earlier, but when I first went into the bedroom I was laying on the bed waiting for Mistress to come in and I noticed the two glass dildos on the bedside cabinet and I couldn't help but think how amazing it would be to see Mistress take on both of those glass cocks at once. I can't imagine that ever happening, I'm the only one in this house who gets buttfucked after all, but just thinking about it made my cock rock hard I can tell you!

My first weight-loss reward...

You may remember that about ten days ago I hit my first stone lost, and you may also remember that Mistress R had told me that each major milestone in my weight loss journey would reap a reward. Well, this evening I finally got to enjoy that reward, and it was totally amazingly wonderful.
But first, of course, I got to revel in worshipping my beautiful Mistress's pussy. I have to say, this last week I am feeling back on top of my game when it comes to making Mistress cum with my tongue, the last four orgasms she has had have been intense and hard and extremely enjoyable for us both. This makes me happier than I can possibly explain, when I feel like this I feel... absolutely content. My Mistress's pleasure is paramount and I truly hate it when I feel like I am not performing as well as I know I can.
Mistress had already told me that she might be giving me my reward tonight so I should have guessed something was up when I found her on the bed completely naked, no bra.. not even a necklace. She looked absolutely gorgeous and I couldn't wait to taste her beautiful pussy. After a brief minute or two kissing she gently pushed me down between her legs and I kissed all over her silky smooth thighs before progressing to her pussy.
She tasted gorgoeus as always and even as I was licking her pussy I just knew I was getting it so right. After Mistress came I licked me fingers clean and lay down on the bed beside her and she leaned over me and grabbed my cock as we kissed. Once I was hard Mistress stroked and slapped for a while before straddling me and sinking down onto my rock-hard meat. It felt wonderful to be inside her and you can really tell the difference now I've lost some significant amount of weight.
I reached up and gently squeezed Mistress's lovely breasts and wondered if I might possibly get to cum over them this time, would that be my prize? Mistress continued riding my cock a little longer and then knelt beside me again teasing me about how lucky I was to be seeing her completely naked. I agreed and told her how amazing she would look naked with the slutty shoes she wore to the restaurant last night on. Mistress smiled and suggested I might like to chose that as one of normal weight loss treats. I might very well do just that!
Then she started stroking me harder and faster before telling me to get up on my knees. She lay back on the pillows and had me kneel between her open thighs. Almost immediately she made it clear that I wasn't about to penetrate her, but stayed with one hand stroking my cock while the other caressed her gorgeous breasts.
She told me that there was two parts to my reward, the first part was that she had decided to let me cum, and the second part was that she was going to give me permission to stroke my cock and shoot my cum all over her breasts. She pumped harder and asked me if I was close yet, I told her no, so she turned up the heat, stroking faster and harder while telling me I should be thinking about what it was going to feel like, look like and taste like. She reminded me that once I had sprayed her tits with my cum I was going to have to lick it all off like a good slave.
Finally I told her I was getting close and she quickly moved so that she was laying down with me kneeling at her side, stroking my cock hard and fast. My cock was like steel, I could not believe how hard it looked and felt and Mistress cupped her breasts with her hand as I stroked myself closer and closer to my first self-administered orgasm for at least twenty eight months!!!
I felt my balls start to pump and I shot the first huge squirt right across both breasts, I continued pumping and sprayed all over her hands and (mostly) over her left breast. It felt fucking incredible to make myself cum like that, and to see Mistress's gorgeous body covered in cum. I drained every last drop (and there was a hell of a lot believe me) from my cock and then Mistress had me lick her fingers clean before setting about cleaning the rest of her up with my tongue.
It actually tasted kind of sweet, I reckon there might be some truth in this thing about pineapple making your cum taste better you know! I willingly lapped it all up and thanked Mistress for giving me such a wonderful reward, it was only then she found some more cum dripping down her arm. She wiped that up herself, though I would have been quite happy to lick it off if she'd wanted me to.
It's been so long since I stroked myself to orgasm, and even longer since I got to cum on Mistress's breasts like that... I just, well... it was absolutely fucking incredible. I just hope that I can keep my hands off my cock now that I've been reminded just how good it can feel to stroke and cum like that!!!

Confession is good for the soul...

Last night was incredible, I had waited so long for the parachute to be deployed that I was almost expecting it to be a little disappointing. It was anything but. It really was very intense, and the really great thing about it was that Mistress could apply such pressure to my balls just by pulling the string tighter. I really doubt that if Mistress was physically pulling my balls directly she would have been able to apply such pressure or rather that she would have felt comfortable doing it. It really was right on the edge of being too much, which is absolute perfection! I can still feel a bit of a stretch in my balls now, which feels so very nice.
Every time I felt like it was getting to the point where I was about to ask Mistress to stop, she let go of the string and stroked my cock and it was just heavenly. And even then when Mistress was just stroking my cock the weight of the parachute around my balls felt amazing. I cannot wait for it to make another appearance. I wouldn't want it every single time, but once or twice a month would be fantastic. Or maybe three times a month.... four? Actually no, because I want Mistress to use the other stuff that languishes in the drawer too. But definitely once or twice a month would be wonderful.
Actually, it was because last night was so good that I kinda got myself in trouble...
I woke up this morning and dozed for a while, and my thoughts inevitably drifted to last night and the amazing teasing that Mistress gave me. Soon I was rock hard and before I even knew what I was doing I was stroking my cock. I hardly even realized I was doing it, but after about a minute I kinda thought, hang on, I'm not supposed to be doing this and let go.
I knew I had to tell Mistress about it, and I wanted to wait until we were in bed. But no sooner were we in bed tonight than I was kneeling between her legs while she stroked my rock hard cock, her nails digging into my shaft. It was really hot and I was really conflicted because I knew I had to tell her, but I kinda didn't want her to stop either. But then I thought what if she pulls me on top of her now and let's me go on top?
How would she feel if I tell her afterwards that I touched my cock this morning, it would feel like I cheated her twice and I wouldn't enjoy it like I should have anyway. So I stopped kissing her and  confessed as she was stroking my cock. She asked me for exact details and then stopped touching me and pushed me down between her legs.
I felt really bad. Truth be told, Mistress doesn't take this rule as seriously as you might think and she would say, it doesn't matter its only a bit of fun, etc etc... but it bothered me all the same.
Mistress struggled a little to reach orgasm, albeit it was a good one when it came and that made me feel better for a moment or two. Then she laid down beside me and started stroking my cock. I was hard pretty quickly and Mistress was rougher than usual with my balls (which was sooooo good!) and then she dragged her nails across them and up my cock, which made my cock expand about another inch around! Fuck me that felt incredible!
I wanted to ask her to punish me, to paddle or whip my ass... I really wanted her to absolve my guilt... that sounds overly dramatic but I really felt like that. But I didn't feel right about it somehow. It's for Mistress to decide if I am to be punished and I was worried that she'd think I was taking it too seriously (over analytical, me?). I'm guessing since our Femdom session is only a few days away she will save it for then.
I sincerely apologized to Mistress again for touching my cock and she grabbed it and straddled my body before sinking down onto my aching meat. She looked so gorgeous riding my cock in her white lacy bra. I desperately wanted to ask her to remove it, but I didn't feel in any position to do so. In fact as much as I loved having my cock inside her, I felt I didn't deserve it at all.
"I don't deserve this Mistress..." I whispered to her, feeling a little foolish, actually.
"No, you don't," she said. "Which is why I won't be giving you nearly as long as you would have had if you hadn't touched your cock. Perhaps that will emphasise to you how much better things would be if you kept your hands off your cock."
She rode me a little while longer and then laid down next to me again, she grabbed my wet, slippery  cock and pumped it hard and fast and then gave it a good few hard slaps. I really felt the backs of her rings on the last couple (kind of ironic that those symbols of eternal love should sting so much)... but I liked it. My balls got a nice slap too.
She told me that was all I was getting tonight (and that was more then I deserved). My cock refused to go soft and I lay there next to her aching for her and feeling kinda bummed that I messed up, wanting to ask for more, but knowing damn well it would be completely out of order to do so.
A few months ago, if I had touched my cock I would have told Mistress R, but I wouldn't have taken it so seriously. Part of me feels that I shouldn't take it so seriously, that I'm beating myself up over something that she doesn't take all that seriously, but... this is the first time in ages I've had to confess to touching myself and it feels different now.
Maybe it's because I want her to take it more seriously, that's as good a reason as I can think of.
I asked Mistress R if my confession had thrown her off a little since she had struggled to cum. She said, my timing could have been a lot better but she thought she was just tired. I explained why I had had to tell her when I did, since I couldn't have let her give me any special treats knowing that I had to confess afterwards and she agreed that I had done the right thing. She was also pleased that I had told her and not tried to hide it from her.
I think it was important to tell her. Aside from the fact that I am 'obliged' to tell her, the way we play this is all about trust and I never want Mistress to doubt for a second that she can trust me when I tell her I haven't touched my cock or that I haven't made myself cum.
Obviously I wished I hadn't done it, but even more I really wish I hadn't done it so that I didn't have to confess to Mistress R. I think actually, that hurt much more than the paddle would have done. I can't even imagine what it would feel like to have to confess to making myself cum. Not that I have any intention of putting myself in that position.
Well, this post is getting a little too deep, I think... putting everything else aside, it was lovely to make Mistress cum again and feeling my cock inside her beautiful, silky smooth pussy was just wonderful (even if I plainly didn't deserve such luxury).
In about twelve minutes I will be starting day thirty three of my chastity period and actually I noticed something cool today. If you look on my orgasm page you will see a record for the number of Mistress R's orgasms between mine, and as you might imagine the record was set during my forty two day chastity period, when Mistress had fourteen lovely orgasms.
Mistress has equalled that record tonight, during a chastity period of only thirty two days, which just shows how much quicker Mistress is racking up those orgasms. That and the ever increasing ratio of Mistress R's orgasms to mine gives me several crumbs of comfort at least. I know I will be punished for my transgression on Sunday morning, but that is nothing really compared to the weight off my shoulders now that I have confessed to my beautiful Mistress R.

Late night stroking and foot worship...

Last night Mistress R and I went to see a show, actually Mistress R was chosen to go up on stage to be part of the show... She was shaking like a leaf, bless her!
Anyway, when we came home we were both too wired to go to bed so we stayed up a while. It was quite warm and Mistress had changed into her dressing gown, so her gorgeous legs and feet were on display.
In an ideal world Mistress would have told me to kiss her feet, or even just clicked her fingers and pointed to them, that would have been so unbelievably hot. Failing that there was always the bell...but deep down I knew the likelihood of that happening was really, really slight. I'm beginning to accept that if I want things to happen then I'm going to have to make them happen. So I did.
I got down on my knees in front of her and began kissing down from her knees to her feet. Mistress seemed to be enjoying herself, and my cock was getting very hard in my jeans. I think Mistress realised how turned on I was and started pressing her right foot against my crotch as I continued kissing her other leg.
I asked if I could please touch my cock and she said yes. I wasn't sure if that meant I could take it out or not, so I stroked it firmly through my jeans for a little while and then asked if I could touch it properly.
Again Mistress granted permission and as I undid my jeans she told me that I could stroke myself for one minute.
My cock was aching and as I stroked it I stared at her gorgeous feet, I would have done just about anything to have been allowed to cum over them and lick them clean.
Not being allowed to beg for release I had to make do with telling her that I wished I could cum on her feet. Mistress smiled but said nothing, then she counted down the last few seconds of my minute and then told me to stop. I obeyed immediately and Mistress told me to go and make the tea (the kettle had boiled while I was kissing her legs).
After that we just watched TV for a while and then went to bed.
Mistress R's period has gone now so tonight I will be licking her beautiful pussy and hopefully making her cum really, really hard.I can't wait!

Asking permission...

I haven't been sleeping at all well this past week and last night I was literally nodding off in front of the TV. However, as soon as I got into bed I started to feel horny and watching my beautiful, naked  Mistress get into bed I was soon hard and awake.
I asked her if I could touch my throbbing cock and she said I could for two minutes but that I wasn't allowed to edge... and I definitely wasn't allowed to cum!
I turned onto my back and used my right hand to firmly stroke my cock for a while, but suddenly Mistress told me to stop and teased me with her nails for a few seconds, then told me to start again. She told me that this was to remind me how much better it was when she touches my cock. After another thirty seconds or so Mistress teased me again and then told me to stroke myself once more.
Soon she was counting down the remaining time and when she got to nought she checked that I had stopped before kissing me goodnight.
I curled up behind her, feeling my aching cock throb against her gorgeous ass and told her I couldn't wait to make her cum again. That should be tonight all being well. Then it'll be Monday in our next Femdom session. If we can squeeze two more in next week we'll set a new record  of 14 orgasms for Mistress R in one month.

Some teasing and the possibility of a ruined orgasm...

So this last week has been rather subdued, at the start of the week I had a cold and then Mistress unexpectedly got her period. We were hoping that it would be gone by today, but sadly it looks like it will be tomorrow before Mistress is ready to start adding to her orgasm count for April. However, Mistress suggested that we might try and pack a lot of pussy worship into next week so I'm looking forward to that!!!
In the meantime, Mistress definitely seems to be coming around to the idea of giving me a ruined orgasm, which is an interesting development to say the least. I must admit I rather like the idea of it, because it will be another way in which she can control my cock and it would also mean that in future even when she gives me permission to cum, I might still get a surprise at the last minute. I would love that uncertainty and also being allowed to (sort of) cum but not suffering the dip in horniness definitely appeals too.
Something else which appeals is the manner in which Mistress R just teased me to the edge. She was laying on the sofa stroking my cock and I begged her to let me see her gorgeous breasts. After a little more begging she stripped off her shirt and bra and carried on pumping and slapping my cock while I caressed her beautiful breasts. Imagining my cum sprayed all over them only brought my edge closer by the second, so I tried not to think about it too much (difficult!).
When I got close Mistress smirked a little and idly toyed with my cock, making me wonder if she was about to ruin it right there and then. She never gave me permission to cum so I fought it back, I assume I still need permission even for a ruined one after all. After a little break to regain my composure Mistress stroked me some more before calling it a day and (rather disappointingly) putting her bra and shirt back on.
Mistress looked so hot stroking and sucking my cock with her top off but her jeans still on, my cock was so fucking hard... Needless to say the weather has improved here a little making this sort of thing a bit more of a viable proposition. Hopefully this means it won't be too long before the bell is put to good use once again. Here's hoping Mistress sees fit to summon me for more than just foot worship, I would love her to expect pussy or ass worship on demand, or any other kind of service for that matter.
Who knows, maybe one day she'll use her bell to summon me and have me masturbate and ruin my own orgasm onto her feet, before having me clean them with my tongue. That would be pretty fucking hot if you ask me!

No limits....

Following Miss Christina's comment, Mistress and I discussed it and I now have no limit to the number of times I may ask to touch my cock. I think this is much better, the problem was that for the first week I didn't want to use it because it might be a month of denial, so I never got into the habit of asking, I think this was the principal flaw with the idea.
So now, I can ask as much as I want, but of course, there is no guarantee that I will be allowed to, Mistress R seems rather taken with the idea that she could impose conditions, so it will be interesting to see how that develops!
Every now and then I get a little sign that Mistress R is advancing a little bit, it's a slow process of course, and I am happy for her to develop at her own pace. But it is nice to see how she is integrating things, like using her ass to taunt me for example. In all honesty, although it seems quite slow (because I always want her to become more dominant of course) actually in two years Mistress R has come a long way I think, considering the reaction I got when I first posed the idea of 24/7 male chastity.

Femdom Session 24th February 2013...

Today's Femdom session nearly didn't happen. I woke up at 7:50am and shot downstairs to see what was wrong with our cat, who was howling like she was in her death throes. Since she is twenty one (and we believe has a tumour in her bladder) we are always kind of waiting for the day when she has to go to the vet for the final time. Luckily today was not that day, and seemingly the enormous commotion was because she'd eaten all her biscuits and she wanted to know what I intended to do about that!
I felt enormously tired, even though I get up daily at 7:10am, and headed back to bed, where I slept until eleven (which I never do). When we finally got out of bed, we had kind of missed our usual starting point for our session, which usually begins at 11 or thereabouts. I looked in the mirror, I looked extraordinarily pale. We ummed and aahed about when, or indeed if, we should have our session today. Should we do it tomorrow or next week? Finally we decided to just do it. We both felt less than 'mad for it', but as has been proved before, a few minutes is all it takes for the adrenaline to kick in.
So late this afternoon our session began, me with my blindfold, ankle/wrist restraints and the leather ball splitter I have talked about before all in place. Mistress entered and asked if I had any more cock touching to confess to, which I didn't. She was pleased but decided to administer about fifteen paddle smacks as a reminder. Then she pulled my face into her ass and as I breathed in her scent I felt my cock straining against the splitter which I had probably done up too tight if I'm honest. She told me that if I want to keep getting teased I need to remember to ask when I want to touch my cock.
Several minutes of lovely foot worship followed, while Mistress taunted me by describing the way she was touching and dildoing her pussy (which I of course couldn't see through my blindfold), punctuated by having me suck the dildo clean of her juices and getting it wet for her.
Eventually I was told to get on the bed and Mistress pushed a dildo into my ass and then had me lay on my back. She secured me at each corner of the bed and began using my tongue, I love it when she does that. She turned around and tormented me with her ass, telling me that I was not allowed to lick it, something she did over and over this session. I felt my cock straining against the ball splitter and eventually felt Mistress snap the front part open, leaving the strip of leather at the base of my cock and behind my balls intact and tight.
She sank down onto my cock several times and then lifted off and began slapping my cock, which was now extremely hard. This pattern continued a while, before more teasing with her gorgeous (but still hidden) ass pressed right in my face. Then she told me to close my eyes and she removed the blindfold. When she allowed me to open them she was standing over me, and as I looked up at her she lifted up the front panel of her PVC skirt to expose her beautiful pussy to me. I licked my lips and she sank onto my face again and then  turned around and sank down onto my cock again, offering me a very rare sight indeed, my cock disappearing into her pussy from behind.
Soon she started playing with my nipples as she stroked my cock while kneeling beside me, then she rode me again and continued to pull on them, which I really loved. Then she started talking about whether she might let me cum today and what conditions might be attached. She said she'd read in one of my stories about where a guy is allowed to cum but then has to endure being stroked for another thirty seconds, and maybe she should try that. She asked me if that was something I would like to try, I said yes, though I fear I wouldn't be able to take thirty seconds and I would definitely have to be tied down. She also asked if I would like to jerk myself off over her ass and then lick it clean, I said I would. She said maybe she would jerk me off and then wipe it on her ass, since that would be just as good. Then she left me alone for a while with clothes pegs on my nipples, the dildo still in my ass and the leather strip really pulling on my balls.
When she came back she had me remove the cock ring, she removed the pegs (she always has a twinkle in her eye when I wince I notice) and the dildo before having me go down on her. She was so ready for it after riding my cock and abusing me, and she came rather quicker than normal, and rather spectacularly too. :)
After cleaning her and the sheet I was tied down again and Mistress announced that I was to be relieved of my twenty eight day load, but that I would have to swallow it (of course). She wondered if I would rather be jerked off with her ass in my face or allowed to cum inside her, I assumed that meant she would allow me to lick her asshole as I came. She said the first would be my favourite and I agreed, however Mistress then told me that I wasn't allowed to look at her ass, even though it would be right up against my face and asked if I could be trusted to keep my eyes shut or if I should be blindfolded. I told her the blindfold would be safer, even though I was hoping my tongue would be buried in her ass anyway.
She allowed me about two seconds off ass licking in the end... so frustrating, and as she jerked my cock she described every little thing that she was doing, gradually bringing me closer and closer to coming. Then as soon as she started counting down from ten I could feel my orgasm approaching and as she jerked me hard I exploded over her hands.
As I lay panting she fed me the whole twenty eight day load from her fingers (it was extraordinarily creamy it seemed) before removing my blindfold and taunting me with her pussy and ass for a last time before ending the session. We agreed it had been a success and were both glad we had not postponed it.

A new record, only not quite as I might have hoped...

Some of you may be shocked to see that I have been allowed to cum again, and in the process set a new record for the shortest gap between orgasms! However, there was one small spanner in the works...
After I ate Mistress R to orgasm I was feeling quite hot, and quite tired and I wasn't at all sure that I was going to be up for anything at all. To my surprise Mistress R said she wanted me to show her how I touch my cock... this was rather unexpected to say the least, and far more unusual than you might suspect. From the start we seem to have skipped the mutual masturbation stage of courtship and never really revisited it.
Still I was happy to follow Mistress R's orders and as I felt my cock slowly getting hard I watched as Mistress R slid her finger into her soaking wet pussy and periodically rubbed her juices onto the tip of my cock. As I said the other day, I love watching Mistress R touch herself, it is so HOT! After a few minutes Mistress R got up on her knees and allowed me to play with her pussy as she took over stroking and slapping my cock.
Being tired and with my nerve damage I really couldn't feel my cock that much, it dulls the sensations quite a bit, which is why I love it when Mistress slaps my cock as it cuts through the 'fuzziness'. Mistress told me to get up on my knees and I watched as she lay back and pulled me between her legs.
This was a little daunting to say the least, since being on top without a cock ring and with limited sensation can be a recipe for failure at the best of times, but I managed to stay hard and started to push into Mistress R's beautiful wet pussy.
Mistress encouraged me to keep going and to fuck her until I came. This was great of course and my cock stayed nice and hard, but what I hadn't anticipated was the massive cramp in my left leg just as I started to cum. I moved my leg back and forth throughout, trying to alleviate the discomfort, and by the time it finally dissipated I had effectively 'missed' my orgasm completely! An accidentally ruined orgasm by anyone's standards I should say.
So, while it was lovely to make Mistress R cum and fantastic to be allowed on top of her, the ending wasn't quite as I might have hoped. I really don't feel like I've even cum, it's rather bizarre to tell you the truth... neither the satisfaction of a proper orgasm or the frustration of a deliberately ruined one, what a bummer!
Still, on reflection, it's a lot less shit than having a floppy cock, I'll tell you that for nothing!

Femdom Session 12th August 2012...

When I slipped into the Oxballs Cocksling this morning, I couldn't help but notice how massive my balls looked. I mean I know it's all bollocks, the whole huge load = huge balls thing, but with 38 days of cum trapped in my nuts they sure looked big to me! Despite the proximity to a new record I have been wanting to cum for about a week now, I mean records are all very well, but this isn't about records, this is about me and Mistress R and her allowing me to cum when it pleases her. And knowing that I was close to a new record made me nervous that Mistress R would make me wait until Friday just so I could break the record... I don't know why I thought that exactly since Mistress R is also of the same opinion that this really isn't about setting records. But anyway...

Regular readers will know my cock has been playing up a little bit lately, so I was glad of the Oxballs Cocksling, although in the end I needn't have worried too much. Mistress R entered the room and immediately had me on my hands and knees, questioning me as to whether I had obeyed her instructions this month. I told her I had but she still decided to whip me a few times, well... we both knew that my not touching was far more to do with whether she would allow me to lick her ass than avoiding the whip anyway.

I was not told to blindfold myself at the start of the session for once, and after my whipping Mistress retrieved her favourite glass dildo from the bedside table and before she even got on the bed she had me suck and lick it for her. Then she was on the bed and telling me to begin worshipping her right foot, as I did I glanced up to see her laying back, propped up on her left elbow rubbing her pussy with her right index finger, I only got to see this for a few seconds before she told me to keep my eyes down and on her feet. I love her feet, they are so beautiful and sexy (and freshly manicured too!) but I love watching her touch her pussy like that and I hate that I have to keep my eyes down... I guess she knows that all too well.

I continued to worship her foot until she thrust the dildo in my face again and has me lick and suck it and prepare it for her once more. As she started to ease it inside her pussy, Mistress again taunted me that it was her dildo and not my cock that was inside her, and a few minutes later she had me clean her juices off the glass cock.

She told me to switch feet and as I kissed and sucked her pretty painted toes she continued fucking herself with the glass dildo, musing on the load contained in my seemingly swollen balls.

"Thirty eight days of cum then slave... I bet you'd agree to lick that from anywhere I wanted if I let you cum wouldn't you?"

"Yes Mistress," I responded, desperately hoping that she would indeed let me cum.

"I bet you'd lick it off my ass wouldn't you, if I let you.... or my back or my stomach, maybe off my feet or my thighs, or even off my beautiful breasts?"

I told her that I would gladly lick it up from anywhere she wanted me to.

"Or maybe even off the sheet..."

I wasn't so keen on that, since I would much rather lick it off Mistress's skin, any part of Mistress would be better than the sheet, but I loved the fact that she considered it an option and in a twisted way I hope she will one day make me do that, because it would feel even more submissive that way since it will be less pleasurable for me and even more about her power and control...

My cock was hard inside the cocksling now as I continued worshipping Mistress's beautiful toes, my mind contemplating the possible outcome of the session, and where I might be made to lick up my cum from. She allowed me to continue a while longer before ordering me on to the bed and restraining me at each corner.

She mounted my face and I tasted her pussy properly for the first time, my cock immediately started to engorge once again as I thrust my tongue inside her and enjoyed her beautiful scent as it filled my nostrils. Mistress R lifted off and then reached down to grab my throbbing cock, she eased down on it and rode it for just a few seconds before lifting off and leaving me aching in frustration. She knelt at my  side and began stroking and slapping it, reminding me that she owns my cock and that she can do whatever she pleases with it.

She straddled my face again and groaned as I used my tongue to lap at her gorgeous pussy, she was getting wetter by the minute and soon she was hovering over my cock, rubbing the tip against her pussy and clit, all the while reminding me that essentially my cock is just a dildo for her pleasure and that any pleasure I might get from anything she chooses to do with it is a secondary consideration. 

Soon she was by my side again, this time she had the small cock whip and she gave my cock and balls a few swats with it before slapping my cock and balls with her hand.

She then blindfolded me before mounting my face again and now she was really soaking wet, I wish she would have just stayed right there all day but a moment later she was standing over me facing my feet explaining to me how she was peeling her ass cheeks apart right in front of me and that if I wasn't blindfolded I would be able to see her gorgeous asshole. Then she sank down on my face and pressed her ass right against my mouth and nose, taunting me with the fact that I wasn't allowed to lick her as without her permission. My cock throbbed and ached as she stroked it, and she told me I was so good for keeping my hands off my cock and that it made her very happy to hear. Then she said that maybe she might even let me touch my cock later in the session, under her supervision, and this, taken with her earlier comments was to fuel my mid-session fantasies.

After pushing a dildo up my ass and pegging my nipples, Mistress R left me to stew for a few minutes. My cock was ridiculously hard, I could just catch a glimpse of it through the edge of the blindfold and it looked as big and hard and red as I'd ever seen it, I almost wish Mistress R would have taken a photo of it, it really looked rather impressive!

As I lay there quietly, my mind was running wild... where would she let me cum, would she have me jerk myself off onto some part of her body, it's been so long (years) since I was allowed to do that... maybe she would permit me to cum on her gorgeous ass and lick it all off, and maybe then she would allow me to lick her asshole at the same time, or maybe she really was intending to make me jerk my cock onto the sheet after all? Maybe she might even order me to ruin my own long awaited orgasm.... I didn't even notice the dildo in my ass or the pegs on my nipples I was consumed by my thoughts until Mistress R returned and removed the dildo, the blindfold and pegs and then untied me and had me remove the Oxballs Cocksling (I was quite glad actually because my balls were starting to burn).
She told me to kneel on the bed and then peeled down her leather skirt to reveal her gorgeous pussy. She pulled my head forward and told me to breathe in her scent. I breathed deeply and couldn't wait to taste her and make her cum. Fortunately Mistress R then lay on the bed, gently flicking my cock with her foot, and then told me to eat her pussy until she came.
I always find it a little difficult to get started in our Femdom sessions because I'm more used to eating Mistress R's pussy from 'cold', but in the sessions she's already turned on and while I don't want to go too fast too quick I don't want to be too slow either. Nevertheless I obviously managed to find a happy medium and a while later Mistress R had a quite explosive orgasm which at once surprised and delighted me. Needless to say it delighted her too, and after a few moments she stood up in front of me on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice from around her wet slit. I eagerly devoured every drop and she turned round and told me to lick her clean. I was excited to discover that the backs and insides of her legs and her ass were absolutely drenched in pussy juice, it was literally dripping down her legs to her calves, it was so fucking hot!
I licked every single drop I could find up before Mistress had me lie down once again and resecured me to the bed.
She stood over me and invited me to look at her beautiful 'just-cum' pussy, using her fingers to open it slightly, it looked so delicious, I just wanted to eat it some more. Then she told me that she was very pleased with me and also told me that she was going to be kind to me and not blindfold me again so that I could see her beautiful asshole as she stood over me. She started playing with my cock and to my relief it got nice and hard even without the Cocksling. She started teasing me with her ass again and then told me that she was so pleased with me she was going to allow me to lick it. I pressed my tongue against her hole and tasted the wonderful musk of her ass as she started pumping my cock harder and faster, she kept taking her ass away from my tongue and then letting me tongue it for just a few seconds at a time before telling me to just stick my tongue out and let her push against it.
She was just telling me that she was going to allow me to cum and that I would have to cum before she counted to ten when I realised that I was getting extremely close and no sooner had she started counting than I felt my body jerk and my cum start to spurt from my cock. It seemed to go on a long time, my body jerked and jerked as Mistress pumped my cock hard and fast, spraying my cum everywhere.
She relented and I collapsed back on the bed breathing hard, within seconds her fingers were at my mouth, feeding me my cum, then she turned her hand over and made me lick more cum off of it and then she scooped up another three portions from various parts of my body and the PVC sheet. I gladly swallowed it all before she stood over me one more time to show me her beautiful pussy and then called an end to the session. 

The honour system...

I meant to go back to this in my earlier post... so it's been a year now on the 'honour system', and of course I haven't managed to completely keep my hands off my cock, but I have managed not to make myself cum, which is quite amazing really. The way I see it, yes I could if I wanted to and I could probably get away with it, but if I did then what is the point of all this? I asked for this so I have to hold up my end of the deal.

This afternoon, after I had made Mistress R cum and she had teased my cock some more, she told me she wanted me to try harder to keep my hands of my cock this year. I will try, but... well, you know.

Oh yeah, I forgot...

When I said there was nothing sexual going on this weekend, that wasn't strictly true. Sunday afternoon I was feeling pretty crap so I went to bed for a bit. I couldn't sleep even though I was feeling really tired so I picked up the book that was on the bedside table and started reading. Can't remember the name of the story but it's one of the ones on the Literotica tab, about a guy who's wife is stretching her pussy with huge dildos...
Eventually I put the book down and went to sleep, and when I woke up I was so fucking hard and horny it was unbelievable. I'm afraid I reached down and started to rub my cock through my boxers, just one finger up and down for several minutes, it was absolute heaven but also absolute torture. I was sure I must be leaking though in the end I wasn't... surely this would have been an opportune moment to use my voucher? But no, it didn't really enter my head.
I guess I will have to confess to Mistress R my indiscretion later...

This morning's session...

Mistress and I are going out for a meal with friends tonight, which will no doubt conclude sometime after 2am, followed by a thirty minute drive home... so there's no way in hell that tomorrow morning would be a good time for doing anything remotely taxing (especially for Mistress R since I don't drink). With that in mind we decided to move our Femdom session to this morning...
After I had prepared the room, I was instructed to wait for Mistress on my knees at the foot of the bed with the Oxballs Cocksling and my ankle/wrist cuffs in place. No blindfold this time, which was unusual, although I know enough to keep my eyes down at the start of the session anyway.
Mistress question me about my 'touching' while she used her foot to play with my cock, and I confessed to two very minor infractions (basically just a hard squeeze, no stroking or edging) and Mistress told me she was very pleased with me but felt that I needed a few maintenance strokes with the whip anyway, just to keep me focussed. I had eleven quite stingy strokes with the whip and by the time she'd finished my erection had subsided significantly.
Mistress then moved onto the bed and had me begin worshipping her feet as she lay back using her fingers to play with her pussy. I managed to keep my eyes down for quite a while but just after I started on her second foot I sneaked a glance up which Mistress R immediately noticed and chastised me for.
"Keep your eyes and your mind on the job in hand," she ordered.
I worshipped her beautiful feet for a good while longer before she leaned forward and allowed me to suck on her finger for a second, telling me how lucky I was to get my first taste of her beautiful pussy. It tasted lovely and she told me she knew how desperate I was to lick her pussy, and that I needn't worry, I would definitely be doing that in the session, but that whether I got to taste her ass would depend on how much I pleased her.
I continued worshipping her second foot until she decided that she'd had enough and then had me lay down on my back on the bed. She secured my wrists and ankles and then mounted my face. As I licked her soaking wet pussy I felt my cock begin to stiffen inside the cocksling once again and then Mistress R lifted off my face and knelt beside me. She reached over and plucked the blindfold from the bedside table and quickly fitted it, but not before I had a good look at her. She was wearing a split leather skirt and a cupless leather bra and she looked magnificent.
No sooner had she done this than she was back on my face ordering me to lick her beautiful pussy. She rode back and forward on my face, my tongue sliding from her clit almost to her asshole. I love it when she does that and my cock was rock hard again now. Mistress R moved down and started to rub the head of my cock against her wet pussy lips, telling me how she could just spend the whole time rubbing 'her' cock against her pussy if she wanted to. She told me how she loved using my cock like a dildo, for her pleasure, and she told me she knew that I loved it too. Then she sank down on my cock and rode me, before lifting off and grabbing her glass dildo and pushing it into my mouth. She told me how she controlled my cock just as completely as this glass dildo and after having me get it wet for her she started fucking herself with it and then had me clean it for her.
Then she knelt beside me again and reminded me over and over how much better her touching me feels than touching myself ever could. This continued for some time, as she alternated between riding my face, my cock and slapping, whipping and stroking my cock. All the time she told me over and over how my cock was her cock and how much I loved that she controlled it. It was awesome, as the longer she went on the more I could hear she was really getting into what she was saying, I really, really wish I had a tape of what went on for those five or ten minutes, it was amazing!
Eventually Mistress R decided that that was enough and she untied me and instructed me to turn over. She had me remove the cocksling and then re-secured my wrists to the corners of the bed leaving me with my head pressed down and my ass up in the air. Mistress R lubed up a dildo and I soon felt it pressed into my ass. Then she used a vibrator on my balls for a short while before pulling out and re-inserting the dildo. She then left it inside me while she fitted the strap-on.
As I heard her adjusting the straps she said what a pity it was that I couldn't see her with her 'cock' in place, but that I might be allowed to see it soon. Then she pulled the dildo out of my ass and got on the bed behind me. Within a few seconds the strap-on was inside me and Mistress R started gently fucking my ass. It felt great, my only concern (as usual) was that the pressure on my prostate might make me cum, but that's a bit unlikely since as far as I know it takes over ten minutes of prostate massage to achieve this.
Slightly disappointingly, Mistress R fucked me for what seemed like only a minute or so and then pulled out. She untied me once more and then turned me over and secured me at all four corners once more before kneeling beside me and pulling my blindfold off. Now I could see her and she looked amazing. Her skirt had been discarded and Mistress R was just wearing the leather cupless bra and the strap-on and she looked hot, hot, hot!
She straddled me again and pressed the strap-on into my mouth, it tasted mildly of the recently discarded condom, but it was so hot sucking her 'cock' and looking up at her as she played with her gorgeous breasts (I must admit I still slightly prefer sucking her strap-on on my knees though).
After this Mistress discarded the strap-on and attached clothes pegs to my nipples before teasing me by standing at the side of the bed and running her hands over her body. As I gazed longingly at her my hard cock twitched which made Mistress R smile, and then she left me alone for a few minutes, but not before promising that when she came back I would be allowed to worship her pussy and make her cum.
When Mistress returned she removed the clothes pegs and untied me and had me kneel at the end of the bed while she lay back in front of me on some pillows. She looked absolutely gorgeous, her legs spread to reveal her beautiful pussy which she idly stroked as she told me what she wanted me to do.
I sank down between her silky smooth thighs (so fucking hot!) and gently started to kiss her pussy. It was immediately obvious that Mistress R was really, really turned on and her slick pussy tasted absolutely wonderful. God I love eating pussy more than anything, it is so fucking wonderful to be so close to Mistress R and bring her such pleasure with my tongue. A while later Mistress R came hard, a real humdinger it was and no mistake, I was so happy right then I can't even tell you.
As soon as she had recovered Mistress R stood on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice off her body and then off my fingers and the black PVC sheet. I swallowed it all greedily, I can never get enough of her taste, I just love it.
Finally she had me lie on my back and started stroking my cock again, telling me she wanted it rock hard. As she did so she pushed her ass against my face but told me not to use my tongue until she told me I could. My cock was rock hard now and she pushed her ass in my face again and told me that I was allowed to tongue her ass. I stuck out my tongue and gently licked around Mistress's gorgeous asshole and as I did I felt my balls start to churn. Fortunately Mistress R lifted off, though she continued jerking my cock fairly hard and told me that since I had pleased her so well in the session she was going to allow me to cum now. She sink back down onto my tongue and her hand stepped it up slightly as I started to tongue her ass. It was so hot doing that as she jerked my cock and then she told me that I had to cum before she counted down from ten. I think I started cumming at eight, but Mistress continued counting down as she drained me completely.
When I opened my eyes I saw Mistress rubbing her cum covered fingers on her left breast before offering it to my mouth, which was lovely if not quite the same as shooting my cum on them 'properly'. After that she had me lick her fingers clean, it seems like ages since I did that, it must be several months I'm sure.
Afterwards as we cuddled on the bed Mistress and I clarified the position on what I am and am not allowed to do as far as initiating things with her. At first she couldn't quite see my point but after I explained myself better she saw what the problem was and the simple answer was 'if I'm not sure then I should ask'. Dunno quite why I didn't think of that myself, but there you go!

The pleasure of deferred pleasure...

In Good Hubby's latest post (here) he describes how his attitude to masturbation has changed over the last 30+ days. He has always been quite frank about how he uses masturbation to relieve stress and the fact that he would commonly jerk off three times a day. However, for his latest period of orgasm control he and NW agreed that all stimulation would come from her (GH and NW are not in a Femdom type relationship) and so he has not been touching his cock. Today he is stressed and he caught himself thinking about an orgasm as a means of relieving work stress, but as he says 'the concept of masturbating feels alien' to him now.
In some ways I can understand his sentiment. For me I wouldn't say masturbation has lost it's appeal, although it is undoubtedly inferior! My own relationship with masturbation has changed because I want Mistress R to have all the control I can possibly give her over my cock, partly because I love the thought of being controlled by her, but also because I know that if I refrain from stimulating myself when Mistress R does decide to touch me it will be all the sweeter.
It's hard to believe that Mistress R granted me the safety net of three 'chances' between each orgasm and after the first few months I've hardly used any of them. I think this is partly because of the way it was done. If, for instance I had been granted three chances per week or month, you can be sure I would have used them a lot more, but never knowing how long I would have to wait made me keep them in reserve, often until it was too late and Mistress R allowed me to cum, thus wasting those chances, and this pattern repeated over and over until I realised that actually it was much better to wait for Mistress R than to pleasure myself (even under her supervision).
Eventually I started to forget that I even had the option to ask for permission to touch, until I finally acknowledged to Mistress R what I had felt for some time, that I no longer really needed or wanted those 'chances'.
If you have read my write up on our Femdom session last weekend you will know that during that session Mistress R told me that she was reducing my chances to two between orgasms. She reminded me that she could take them away completely at any time if she wanted to, but that 'for now' she was going to reduce it to two chances.
Part of me thinks that I want her to take them away completely, and part of me thinks, but what if she does start pushing you to much longer periods of denial? But then part of me thinks, so what if she does? I still won't use them unless I absolutely have to... interestingly Mistress R compared my 'chances' to an 'emergency packet of cigarettes' held by someone else for someone who is trying to give up smoking. I can sort of see what she means... though I'd have to say I'd rather wait a few days for a really gooey chocolate cake than have a plain biscuit now (if you see what I mean).
:)

Interesting...

So far twenty ladies have voted in my poll (thank you, I didn't know I had twenty lady readers!) and so far pretty much a third masturbate every day, a quarter a couple of times a week and a quarter rarely.

By contrast, half of my male voters reckon their partners masturbate 'rarely'.

Now I'm not suggesting that there's anything amiss in these figures, they could of course be totally accurate, but I do wonder... perhaps like I said it doesn't do to presume you know too much?

Ten votes in the poll so far...

Thank you for your participation ladies. Not really gaining much insight from it though, since the votes are so evenly spread. Three votes for 'daily', the same for 'rarely' and two each for 'once a week' and '2-3 times a week'.
And more importantly, we still don't know if these orgasms are on top of orgasms achieved with a partner or not... I have an idea, what about a poll for the guys to see if we can't shed some more light on the subject?

Right chaps, time for you to vote. Please think carefully before you vote, if you don't know please vote accordingly, rather than assuming there's no way your wife gets herself off after you've thoroughly serviced her!
Remember, masturbation is 'me time' and doesn't necessarily reflect on you, or your performance. A lot of men feel threatened by female masturbation for some reason, I have no idea why, it's fucking hot!
For the record I voted 'Don't know'.
It would be more than a little presumptuous of me to vote 'rarely', despite what I may 'think', and anyway, I like the thought of Mistress R pleasuring herself, especially as it reinforces her dominance over me (taking for herself what she denies me).

Altogether now chaps.... "If only she'd let me watch!".
:)