Monday, 31 March 2014

The end of year three...

And so we come to the final day of our third year, as predicted Mistress R did indeed cum again and I did not (just as it should be). So Mistress finished on 132 orgasms for the year (just over eleven a month on average), which is a significant increase on the last two years. I on the other hand slipped a little further, down to twenty for the year (versus 23 and 22 for the last two years), although of course this year I was allowed an additional six ruined orgasms (not shown on the graphs).

Mistress R averages 10 orgasms a month to my 1.8 (over the full three years)

This second graph is a lot more revealing than the first of course. It shows for instance that only three times in three years have I been permitted to orgasm more than twice in a calendar month. I'm surprised that there has only been one single month where I wasn't allowed to cum at all, and that was nearly two years ago, I am hopeful that with the advent of our fourth year Mistress will start ruining me a lot more and letting me cum properly much less.
Tonight was a bit of a struggle, I was constantly getting close and thinking about warning her, but never actually needed to. By the end of my teasing session my cock was throbbing like hell I can tell you. Totally amazing! 
Tomorrow our new contract comes into force, we're not having any kind of ceremony or anything, since it's not like this is something new to us, we are simply affirming the rules that were already in place (in writing) and adding a few to help things run smoothly. Since this will be the first day that I have to kiss Mistress's feet everyday, there's a chance that there could be some foot worship, and Mistress has already hinted that we might celebrate our new contract with some more pussy worship. Sounds good to me!

Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Nearly there...

Work on the 'contract' has progressed well, we are nearly there, it's really just the weight loss reward details we need to finalise now. My first weigh in with Mistress R was on Saturday morning and I lost 4lbs, it's too complicated to try and work out what the total lost is now because there's two different scales etc etc... suffice it to say, on our scales I weigh 212lbs right now, I think I weighed about 240 when I started Slimming World and a couple of years ago I was 253. So it's pretty good overall, but we've decided to just start over with 212 as my new starting weight.
We are intending to have a reward for weight lost, but changed slightly before to encourage bigger losses each week. It's going to be something like 1-2lbs off I get to choose a toy to play with, then 3+ I get to choose a toy and something else. And then there will still be half stone and full stone rewards, if I remember correctly...
Our anniversary is coming quickly now, just a few more days to go. Mistress enjoyed a lovely orgasm on my tongue earlier tonight and I enjoyed some very hot teasing afterwards. You know sometimes I look at our orgasm page and I kind of find it hard to believe just how few times I have been allowed to cum this last three years. And how many times Mistress R has cum. 359 plays 65!
That's 5.52 orgasms for every one of mine, and nearly 300 more than me in three years! Could be very nearly 300 by Monday night as well, I very much doubt I will be coming again before next month... but I'm sure Mistress R will be!

Sunday, 23 March 2014

Femdom Session 23rd March 2014...

If you would have asked me this morning if I wanted to cum during today's session, I probably would have said no. One day off four weeks I was really enjoying the ache and the feeling I was going to explode when I cuddled up to Mistress R in bed last night. But as we know, these things are not for me to decide and if I'd known how I was to be allowed to cum, and how spectacular it would be then I would have changed my mind for sure.
But first, of course, I had to admit to some lack of self-control during the last seven weeks (seven weeks!) and take my punishment for the same. Mistress gave me twelve very stingy lashes with the cat and then, stupidly, when she asked me if I still thought it was worth it... I said 'yes'. I mean I was already feeling submissive but that was just plain dumb! So then I had to endure a further (brief but incredibly stingy) paddling.
After this Mistress had me suck her glass dildo (although I couldn't see her because I was blindfolded) so that it was nice and wet for her pussy, and then she set me to work worshipping her beautiful feet while she teased herself with the dildo. It had been so long since I had been given the opportunity to worship her perfect feet that I was loving every second of it, and as I concentrated on that I could still hear Mistress concentrating on the feeling of her favourite glass cock stretching her pussy.
Mistress told me that she hopes our soon to come into force 'contract' will re-focus my mind on my responsibilities as per 'not touching her cock', and twice during the session commented that if it doesn't she will have to increase the severity of my punishment. I'm not quite sure I believe that she would 'whip my balls', but I loved to hear her say it whether or not there was any substance behind the threat.
With our new glass butt plug to try out, Mistress had me on the bed and pushed a small dildo into my ass to help prepare me, before having me turn over onto my back. Once restrained she mounted my face and had me lick her pussy, which was lovely of course. And then she started teasing me about how if I hadn't broken her rules I wouldn't be wearing a blindfold and would be able to see her ass that was right above my face...
This was the first time in ages that Mistress hadn't told me to wear some kind of cock ring during a session, and it seemed a bit weird to start with... not least because I am often quite nervous at the start of these sessions. Well nervous is probably not the correct word, apprehensive perhaps... and so despite the ball aching hard-ons I've been 'suffering' over the past week or so, my cock was a little bit more docile than it usually would be when assisted by the Oxballs or even a simple cock ring.
Mistress managed to get me hard though, and continued stroking, slapping and generally abusing my cock while she continued taunting me by pressing her ass into my face. Not that I'm complaining you understand!
Then she had me turn over and she removed the dildo and lubed up the new glass buttplug. I was quite shocked to notice this morning that it was actually bigger than it looked and was actually the same diameter as the black rubber one we've had for ages and hardly ever use cos it's a bit big! Indeed, I made sure to warn Mistress before the session that she needed to be careful, not least because glass may be nice and slippery but it also has no 'give'.
Mistress eased it in to start with and then pushed it in (perhaps still a bit fast if I'm honest) and it was a little painful for about a minute and then I got used to it. She had me turn back onto my back and soon had my cock nice and hard again. Then she finally removed my blindfold and continued to stand over me teasing me by pulling her ass cheeks apart and making me beg to worship her asshole. Then she pegged my nipples and left me along with the taste of her pussy fresh in my mouth (when I asked her to let me taste her before she left me alone she said no initially and then decided that I could, but only from her glass dildo).
When she came back she removed the butt plug, which was really comfortable by then actually, I would have been quite happy to leave it in a lot longer. Well I say she removed it, in fact I had to do it myself because when Mistress tried to do it her fingernails dug into me and just about caused me to jump off the bed. It fucking HURT! The thing with this new butt plug is that it has quite a small base and perhaps a narrower neck than the old rubber one, so it pulls up really tight between your cheeks. I must admit I found it a bit of a job to get hold of it myself, but with Mistress's 1/2" long fingernails it would have been pretty impossible. Still, that aside the butt-plug was a sterling success, albeit in future it's definitely going to have to be me that removes it (my arse is still a bit sore seven hours later!) and after that I knew that any chance of Mistress using the strap-on on me was a lost cause.
(It occurred to me later that, what if Mistress was single and had bought the butt plug for herself? How would she have ever have got it out? She'd probably have had to find some suitable gloves or ultimately I guess she would have had to cut her nails off to get hold of the thing.)
Thankfully, after this stressful moment I got to go down on Mistress's delicious pussy and brought her to another lovely orgasm, after which she stood on the bed in front of me and had me lick her clean of her juices, before turning my attention to the soaked PVC sheet.
Once again she secured me to the bed on my back and began stroking me once more. She seemed to be stroking me quite hard and after a bit of grovelling she allowed me to lick her ass and my cock grew really hard now. It seemed to me that she was trying to get me to the edge... perhaps she was intending to ruin my orgasm? But then she straddled me and rubbed my cock against her slit before sliding onto it and riding me for a few moments. Then it was back to hard stroking and when I told her I was getting close, she let go... only to start teasing my cock with gentle strokes which made me thing she was definitely trying to ruin me.
Then once I was away from the edge again she started stroking me fast and hard again and she told me to tell her when I was getting close. Ah-ha, I thought, so this is definitely leading to a ruined orgasm then! But no, as soon as I told her I was getting close she straddled me again and told me to cum inside her. I thrust up as hard as I could, pumping my cum into her soaking wet pussy and with perfect timing after maybe four or five huge spurts of cum had erupted from my cock she lifted off me and straddled my face. So even as my orgasm was trailing off I was swallowing a massive load of my cum from her dripping wet pussy, it was simply amazing!
As I said, if you'd asked me this morning if I wanted to cum, I would have said no. But if I'd known how incredibly hot and amazing it would prove to be, then it would have been a different story, because that really was an incredible orgasm and a perfect, horny as fuck cream pie to boot!
Looking back through my records, I can't find a single instance in the last three years where I've been allowed to cum inside my Mistress during a Femdom session, so this was indeed a very special treat for me.
After the session Mistress said she hadn't intended to let me cum, but she changed her mind. She said she felt she'd been a bit too mean to me in the session... (I can feel a comment from Mistress Marie coming here!) ...and perhaps the buttplug incident played a part too. I guess I should be disappointed, but when you have an orgasm like that (that you didn't even really want) it's kind of difficult to be disappointed.
I don't suppose I shall have another orgasm until April now, so it looks like my orgasm tally for this year will be 20 in total, which is two less than last year (although I have had six ruined ones this year on top of that). Despite today's mind-blowing orgasm and perfect cream pie, I can't help hoping that next year it's six real orgasms and at least twenty ruined ones, that would be awesome!

Wednesday, 19 March 2014

I can't even remember the last time she did that...

For once Mistress came to bed totally naked this evening and she looked absolutely gorgeous! I so love to be able to see her beautiful breasts, I just wish I would get to lick my cum off them sometime soon. :)
It's been 23 days for me so far this time, Mistress has had nine since the last time I came. Her ninth one was pretty intense, I love it when she comes like that, so fucking hot!
After that Mistress really wanted to tease me good, which included the extraordinarily rare treat of her using her breasts to tease my cock. I can't even remember the last time she did that. I was lying on my back and she was laying next to me and she literally placed her lovely breasts either side of my cock and used her hands to move them up and down around my cock. It was awesome, only a generous slathering of baby oil could have made it any better... or perhaps allowing me to cum all over her luscious tits and lick them clean!
Maybe soon or maybe not, she said when I told her how badly I wanted to lick my cum from her body. Two days ago I told her I thought she was right when she said she was being too generous with my orgasms... mixed messages, that's exactly why I need her to be in control and make the decisions. Still, I don't actually need to be allowed a full orgasm to be able to lick her breasts clean do I?

Sunday, 16 March 2014

Two weeks to go until our Chastiversary...

And the figures are looking good! In the first year Mistress averaged 2.25 orgasms a week, in the second year that actually fell to 2.15 orgasms a week, but this year so far she's averaged 2.52 orgasms a week!
On the other hand, I have continued to fall (not counting ruined orgasms obviously) 0.44 a week in the first year, 0.42 in the second year and presently I am at 0.38 per week this year. I would like to hope that next year that will fall below the 0.30, maybe even to 0.25 or less?

Saturday, 15 March 2014

A change of heart maybe?

I've long been, not 'against' exactly, but...perhaps slightly dismissive of those who espouse the very long term denial periods. But now I find that I very much would like Mistress R to ruin a far greater percentage  of my orgasms and rarely let me cum properly at all. Of course this kind of adds up to the same thing, so I guess what I'm saying is that despite what I may have said in the past, I would now very much like to experience (and feel that I'm ready for) long periods of denial and frustration.
I must admit that these days proper orgasms are often too intense to be genuinely pleasurable, and I really hate the time it takes to get sufficiently horny again after being allowed one.

Some lovely teasing for me this morning and a very unexpected purchase too. We popped into Ann Summers this afternoon and while Mistress was trying on a couple of things I happened to notice a cool glass butt plug in there, not too big, not too small...just what I was looking for in fact. Looking forward to trying that one out in the near future!!!

Friday, 14 March 2014

Full time Femdom is not on the cards...

An anonymous comment was left on the blog in the last few days which suggested that we could include in our contract something to the effect that 'whenever possible I should call Mistress R 'Mistress', as this will allow our Femdom life to permeate further into our vanilla life'.
This had occurred to me actually, but for a couple of reasons I didn't suggest it. Firstly while part of me likes the idea of it, I'm not actually sure I want that kind of relationship. I would actually rather stay on an equal footing in my marriage and I personally believe that is best for our marriage. I know there are people out there, possibly even reading this who want to live it 100% and I say if that's what works for them then that's great.
I also know that Mistress does not want that kind of relationship, she does not want a 24/7 slave, and she is no more likely to read 'Uniquely Rika' than she is to watch my 'Alien' quadrilogy box-set. That's just the way it is. She does enjoy having me be permanently submissive in the bedroom and she does like controlling my cock, but she simply doesn't want me to be a submissive husband.
I actually agree, I don't think it would work for me either. What I would like is for Mistress to be able to flick the 'domme' switch on whenever she wanted to, for example as I believe I mentioned the other day, I would love for her to come up to me while I was doing something completely un-sexual, maybe playing my guitar or writing on my laptop or something... and just order me to worship her pussy, feet or ass for a few minutes and then when she's had enough to just leave me alone again, throbbing and desperate.
But as far as us being 24/7, I really don't think so.

Big news on the weight loss front, I have quit my Slimming club because I am not getting on with it any more. All I am doing, and have been doing for the last few months is paying them to weigh me and then leaving. The meetings are really not my thing, and never were and are doing nothing to motivate me whatsoever. So Mistress and I have drawn up a new strategy which will hopefully get me moving in the right direction again. I'm pleased to say I've kept the vast majority of the weight I've lost off, it's just that I've been going up and down the same few pounds now since the end of last year and I think it's time to try something fresh. I'm actually really looking forward to it and feeling very positive about it, kind of how I was when I first went to Slimming World. Plus now the weather is starting to pick up I am looking forward to getting out on my bike and walking during my dinner hour to help the process along.

Wednesday, 12 March 2014

A few more details of the contract...

A quiet last few days here, but now that Mistress's period is finished it was lovely to be able to taste her sweet pussy again and to make her cum. Mistress then teased me really nicely as I told her how much it would turn me on to have her randomly demand ass or pussy worship from me when I am least expecting it, not even touching my cock and leaving me throbbing and aching.... :)

I have a piece of paper in front of me on which the notes for our contract have been scribbled. There's nothing greatly changed, but there has been a bit of clarification, a bit of upping the ante, and a little bit of rule tightening. The main points are these:

I must kiss Mistress's feet every day.

I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission.

I am not allowed to cum without permission.

I am not allowed to beg to be allowed to cum - ever!

I am allowed to ask permission to touch my cock, but this will be for Mistress to decide.

I am allowed to ask to be allowed to worship Mistress's ass, but this will be for her to decide.

I am to fold and present Mistress's towels for her every day.

Mistress decides how many (also, when and how) ruined and full orgasms I receive. There is no minimum or maximum number in any given week, month or year.

When we are in bed I must always refer to Mistress as 'Mistress', also when ever I am performing any act of worship or anytime that she refers to me as 'slave'. (Mistress does not wish for me to call her Mistress day to day at the present time).

Every time I am allowed to cum I am to swallow as much as possible of it.

And finally, one rule that was relaxed has now been reinstated: I am no longer allowed to ask for penetration.

This rule was originally imposed right at the very start of our chastity journey. It was relaxed in the tail end of last year, pending Mistress's review if she thought I asked too often. Mistress has decided that as I am now being granted penetration more regularly than used to be the case, allowing me to ask for penetration is no longer necessary.

We are planning to sign our contract on the 1st April, there may be some minor additions or alterations before then depending on how Mistress feels it suits our requirements.

Monday, 10 March 2014

Contract update..

Tonight Mistress and I have started work on our contract, it's not massively long but it's good to get it all down on paper so we know exactly where we stand. Thanks to everyone who left suggestions, some of your ideas have been taken on board. One thing which is now more rigid is that I will be licking up my cum every time!

Saturday, 8 March 2014

No session, but still good...

For reasons I won't go into here our Femdom session was postponed until probably the 23rd of March, however, Mistress and I still went to bed this afternoon and after making her cum with my tongue she set about teasing the shit out of my cock. She started using her hands and mouth but after a while she bent over the side of the bed and pulled a bottle of lube and a hairbrush out of her drawer (afterwards she told me she was looking for the cock whip but couldn't find it).
At first she continued stroking my cock and using the bristles on the brush to scratch my cock, then she used the back of the brush to slap my cock with. Then she poured some lube onto her hands and started stroking my cock. For the next ten-fifteen minutes she teased me really good, standing over me and giving me a great view of her gorgeous pussy and ass, then sinking down onto my cock and riding me, then riding my face. I really didn't want it to end and really thought she was seriously thinking about letting me cum (or ruining me at least).
In the end she did neither, after teasing me with her beautiful ass for the last time she lay down next to me and told me I could either choose 60 seconds of gentle stroking, during which time she would allow me to continue squeezing and toying with her ass as I had been throughout the session... or I could choose thirty seconds of much harder teasing.
Since I thought the thirty seconds would get me much closer to the edge and to a possible orgasm, or ruined orgasm... I chose that. Mistress pumped my cock hard and then started slapping my cock and balls pretty hard (as she had throughout the session, no wonder they ache a little now!). Thirty seconds was over way too quick and as she pulled her hand away I was left massively frustrated and throbbing.
As we lay together afterwards Mistress brought up the subject of our contract and we discussed the details we had thought of so far. Some of them are not pertaining to chastity or Femdom exactly, but relationship things. I still think that's quite a good thing and I think formally recognizing chastity and Femdom as part of our wider relationship is a great idea.
Oh yes, before I went down on Mistress she mentioned one of my posts on here and said she got the impression that I was suggesting that I was being allowed to cum too often. She teased me about that a little bit and then suggested that maybe she should just make sure that more of the ones she did allow me to have were ruined... sounds good to me!

Friday, 7 March 2014

Feedback on Literotica...

Since I can't sleep, I thought I would check out my Literotica pages and see if anyone's left any new feedback lately...

Thirty Seven Days

ANONYMOUS: Oh wonderful. So he's married to a worthless whore who seeks to turn him into a fag. How could I possibly miss the eroticism in that? What's next, he'll have to take it up the ass in order to get the cage off? Stories like these should end with either the whore or the nutless wonder's death, so someone can get out of the 'relationship'. I don't pretend to understand all of human nature, I get that some truly stupid things happen that are beyond my ken, but I'd die before submitting to that nonsense.

ANONYMOUS: She has no control. You don't need her. Remove the cage. You don't need a key - it's simple and a fool can do it. Grow a spine and realize she has no love or respect for you and is simply using you to satisfy her own sick, perverted amusement. Throw her out and change the locks. All done. The rest of this is unbelievable garbage.

Once a Month

ANONYMOUS: Glad you stopped writing, because this had not a single worthwhile thing in it.

Katherine's New Game

ANONYMOUS: The only thing he cleaned up...was her blood, after he broke her nose, blackened her eye and threw her out on her ass. Because who would stay with a whore who treated him like that?

A Game of Tease and Denial

ANONYMOUS: How about you get up and throw her out? Seems like the perfect answer to someone who wants to abuse and humiliate you. Adios!

Everything Has a Price - Chapter 15

ANONYMOUS: Perfect. I'm down with submissive but hate humiliation. This is incredibly realistic (if I had superhuman self-control) and I like the open ending. I'm choosing to think that it stays at the control level. Well done, this is great for people who don't understand sub guys.

ANONYMOUS: Now's your chance. This woman has demonstrated by her actions that she simply wants to use you for her own perverse entertainment. How does it feel to be a thing? Yeah - thought so. Time to get dressed, pack a bag and leave this self centred, manipulative bitch. She cares not one iota about you other than as her toy. You'd be a fool to stick around. Divorce her and search for someone who might actually love you.

More Fun With Dice

ANONYMOUS: Obviously not signing this crap! Cut the cage off - it's so easy. Smack the bitch in the mouth, leave and find yourself a good life far away from the manipulative, skanky whore. Why would he possibly do anything else? Even to contemplate doing otherwise is a load of horse pucky.

Out of Your Hands - Chapter 3

TRACYINDALYNN: To submit is beautiful. If what you write is true. You are a beautiful man for giving your Goddess everything she deserves. If only I could find a man as worthy as you! Thank you for sharing your life with us.

Owned - Chapter 3

ANONYMOUS: Just divorce her. You are being treated as an object, as her toy, her plaything. I don't see any man putting up with that behaviour. Pack up and let her play with herself. This is a self-centred, abusive, manipulative bitch and you need to leave her in your dust.

Owned - Chapter 8

ANONYMOUS: Sounds like my slut mom and sissy dad, only at my house I fuck them both and let some of my friends use them as well.

NOROPES: To imagine the scent of real cock for the first time and then mixed with Mistress. Then accepting that her pussy is creaming on a dominant man's larger cock while you carry large aching balls. The acceptance. The humiliation. The degredation.

ANONYMOUS: By now any man would have stood up and thrown the abusive bitch to the kerb. Why would anyone stay with someone who degraded and humiliated them? This stupid bitch would be out on her ass in a heart beat. This isn't remotely or stimulating. She'd treat the dog better.

ANONYMOUS: I can't agree, unless you are making a difference between a man and a wimp. The guy asked for what she is doing to him and seems to like it. The author has any and all right to write anything that does not insult my intelligence. I could not see myself putting up with this, but then I would never ask for it. I'm not going to have a tizzy about some guy getting what he asks for when there are stories where this type of crap is delved out without consent.

The Anniversary

ANONYMOUS: Hope she enjoyed...the divorce. She earned it!

Gotta love the trolls, and I take it as a twisted kind of compliment that so many people seem to think my stories are a factual account of my life!

Just a quick one...

Hello everyone... apologies for the lack of posts of late. I haven't really been in the mood and there hasn't really been anything terribly blogworthy to report if I'm 100% honest. Staggeringly, despite me not posting anything I've still been getting 2000+ views a day, so I'm glad that you guys are still finding entertainment here even when I'm not posting... although it does rather raise the question of whether I'm particularly adding anything by posting of course!!!
Still no progress on the contract front, though I'm hopeful that we will get it sorted and signed by our third Chastity Anniversary (as Mistress Marie suggested). I hope you've all been keeping up with her blog, certainly a LOT going on there of late! If not, click the banner on the right side of this blog to find out what's been happening.