The last few days I've been reading about cuckolding. Not that I have any intention of trying to persuade Mistress R down that path! No, this is purely from the viewpoint of curiosity and partly non-specific research. Much as I would like to write a chastity book, I find the subject a little bit limited, so if I was to write a proper novel length book (and I know I said I was going to before...) it would have to incorporate more than just chastity.
So what I've actually been reading has been more in the line of 'How to' be a Bull (not that that's likely either!), and it's quite fascinating stuff. There's quite a 'science' to all this really, how it's essential to break the 'sexual attraction' bond between the husband and wife but without breaking the 'love' bond. Reading it, it all made a lot of sense and the instructions on how to slowly manipulate the situation to the Bull's advantage were at once intriguing and almost alarming in their deviousness and intelligence.
It certainly made me think that potentially these studies could provide some very solid and valuable insight for a truly compelling and realistic cuckolding story.
As some of you will know, I like my stories to be as down to earth and believable as possible. Not for me the 'alien mind control' stories or the 'vamp-wolf' nonsense that continues to receive the highest of marks on Literotica (is it just me?), similarly books where the main characters are rich enough to own an island/castle/etc make me sigh loudly.
I hope my characters come across as believable and it follows that I truly appreciate stories where the author tries to progress things in a realistic manner, or at least in a not completely ludicrous manner.
It has not gone unsaid on this blog before that I do struggle to reconcile my sexual response to these stories, with my rational response. I am simply not capable of compartmentalising love and sex in the way that a cuckold must be able to, or at least people who swing... I honestly don't think I could have sex with a woman I didn't care about, nor could I stand to let the person I care about more than any other have 'just sex' with someone else. I see this as a good thing, actually. Because of this I think Mistress R and I do make a lot of effort to keep our sex lives alive, where others of our age might not.
Regardless, it cannot be denied that well written cuckold stories are a source of much 'wood' for me, even some which are perhaps a bit 'nasty'. This STORY for example, has lost it's potency somewhat now (after repeated readings) but the first ten or so times it was guaranteed to have my cock throbbing like hell. It's quite unpleasant in some ways, but I know from when I first posted this that I'm not the only one who found it particularly affecting, especially the scene in the car.
This STORY is quite different, a lot more of a consensual husband and wife enjoying the shared experience kind of deal, and a flipping masterpiece as well! It's so annoying that this guy has written so little, he has real talent.
This STORY is one of the oldest cuckold stories that I've enjoyed many, many times and illustrates what I was talking about. The ending is quite a lot more extreme than the beginning, but the transition is smooth and relatively believable, albeit with a little hiccup here and there (the money thing is a little weak, but yeah...). The Nikki character is great right from the start, her absolute confidence is the backbone of the story really, lord knows how many times I've read that one.
So yeah, I like cuckold stories, I don't really understand it, but does it matter? Probably not. Sometimes it bothers me, but mostly I just accept it now. From a writing point of view it's a very rich mine of possibilities and emotional interest, and it does fit extremely well with the chastity element. So yeah, I can well imagine writing a proper long cuckold story, utilising all that I have read about of late, in the process hopefully constructing something which is entertaining and horny, but also very believable and smoothly executed. As ever it's just a matter of finding the time.
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An interesting article...
An interesting article about cuckolding HERE on iplayhewaits.blogspot.co.uk
Sunday, 16 June 2013
Bloggers of bullshit...
Very occasionally I get emails which ask, is there really a Mistress R? Is your blog genuine? Well, the answer to both those questions is yes, there is a Mistress R and everything you read is genuine.
I think the more blogs you read the more easy it becomes to spot the fantasists, but every now and then maybe one slips through the net, or one you believed in starts to exhibit signs of bullshittery.
I guess this is the way of the world these days, technology has provided us with ways to share our stories, but also given us the tools to fool our unsuspecting public. This has made us (or at least me) sceptical beyond belief.
Last night Mistress R and I watched 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose', this morning I looked on the internet to see if there was anything to back up the 'based on a true story' schtick. As it happened, for once there was, although the film bears stark differences to the true story, for that it seems you'd be better of watching a different film called 'Requiem (2006)' instead.
Wikipedia is a brilliant idea, but is not a good place to look for 'proof' of anything much, I seem to remember Iron Maiden creating web pages about a fictional character called Benjamin Breeg prior to an album released in 2006. Just because it's on the internet, doesn't make it true. But I'm sure you, my intelligent (and probably slightly older and worldy-wise) readers are smart enough to realise all of this.
To those who have doubts about the veracity of my blog though, ask yourself this... if I was actually making this stuff up, do you not think I would have explored all my fantasies by now (I mean it's been over two years already), instead of moaning about how long it takes for things to happen? Wouldn't I be constantly worshipping Mistress R's body, being pegged nightly and locked in a steel chastity device with no hope of release until Christmas? Wouldn't I be constantly forced to watch Mistress R being ploughed by a succession of hugely hung lovers and then forced to clean their cocks and her pussy? Huh...?
No, I whine because Mistress doesn't ring her foot worship bell and I get grumpy because she doesn't feel like teasing me for a few days and my stupid CB3000 lives in a drawer because Mistress R hates it and it never fitted me properly in the first place.
Now, I'm not going to name names, but there is a blog I've been reading for some time which is starting to smell a lot like bullshit. I may be completely wrong, but things are developing at such an alarming rate that it just sets my bullshit radar tingling. Can radar tingle? I doubt it. But you know what I mean.
It will be interesting to see how the blog in question progresses now... when I first started reading it it was about a guy in an open marriage whose wife occasionally fucked other guys, while he chose to remain faithful. So far so not that unusual. His blog made it clear that his fantasy was for her to fuck black guys with big cocks, but she rarely did.
However in the last few weeks, she's gone black monster cock crazy, decided to get pregnant with one of the 3-4 black guys she's been seeing, spent hours being fucked in every hole, told her husband that he now has no chance of fucking her, that he's expected to eat her pussy and suck her lovers' cocks (even though he has never expressed any positive feelings about doing so) and that he is going to be locked into chastity. No wait, not only that, she's so serious about it she's gone straight for a 'metal' chastity device.
Hmm. Does that sound like something that happens in the real world?
I mean, I guess it could... and in the past I've seen the writer mount a credible defence of his posts (albeit that was before this whole crazy episode started), but this really does sound like the work of someone whose blog is becoming increasingly fictionalised.
But is there anything wrong with that? Well, I guess not. It's just disappointing. I would much rather someone would make it clear that their blog is partly or fully fantasy.
I must say though, I have seen much fewer blogs of bullshit of late than say a couple of years ago. Then they seemed to be popping up every five minutes, and disappearing again almost as quickly. A tell tale sign is when anyone claims to have been locked into any kind of chastity device for the first time without any kind of adjustment period. They make the usual noises about difficulty peeing and such, and for anyone who has never worn one they might sound somewhat convincing, but for anyone who has actually tried any kind of chastity device on... I think not.
As for the aforementioned blog, it will be interesting to see what happens when his wife locks him into his new steel chastity device. I suspect this will prove the veracity of this particular blog one way or another...
I think the more blogs you read the more easy it becomes to spot the fantasists, but every now and then maybe one slips through the net, or one you believed in starts to exhibit signs of bullshittery.
I guess this is the way of the world these days, technology has provided us with ways to share our stories, but also given us the tools to fool our unsuspecting public. This has made us (or at least me) sceptical beyond belief.
Last night Mistress R and I watched 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose', this morning I looked on the internet to see if there was anything to back up the 'based on a true story' schtick. As it happened, for once there was, although the film bears stark differences to the true story, for that it seems you'd be better of watching a different film called 'Requiem (2006)' instead.
Wikipedia is a brilliant idea, but is not a good place to look for 'proof' of anything much, I seem to remember Iron Maiden creating web pages about a fictional character called Benjamin Breeg prior to an album released in 2006. Just because it's on the internet, doesn't make it true. But I'm sure you, my intelligent (and probably slightly older and worldy-wise) readers are smart enough to realise all of this.
To those who have doubts about the veracity of my blog though, ask yourself this... if I was actually making this stuff up, do you not think I would have explored all my fantasies by now (I mean it's been over two years already), instead of moaning about how long it takes for things to happen? Wouldn't I be constantly worshipping Mistress R's body, being pegged nightly and locked in a steel chastity device with no hope of release until Christmas? Wouldn't I be constantly forced to watch Mistress R being ploughed by a succession of hugely hung lovers and then forced to clean their cocks and her pussy? Huh...?
No, I whine because Mistress doesn't ring her foot worship bell and I get grumpy because she doesn't feel like teasing me for a few days and my stupid CB3000 lives in a drawer because Mistress R hates it and it never fitted me properly in the first place.
Now, I'm not going to name names, but there is a blog I've been reading for some time which is starting to smell a lot like bullshit. I may be completely wrong, but things are developing at such an alarming rate that it just sets my bullshit radar tingling. Can radar tingle? I doubt it. But you know what I mean.
It will be interesting to see how the blog in question progresses now... when I first started reading it it was about a guy in an open marriage whose wife occasionally fucked other guys, while he chose to remain faithful. So far so not that unusual. His blog made it clear that his fantasy was for her to fuck black guys with big cocks, but she rarely did.
However in the last few weeks, she's gone black monster cock crazy, decided to get pregnant with one of the 3-4 black guys she's been seeing, spent hours being fucked in every hole, told her husband that he now has no chance of fucking her, that he's expected to eat her pussy and suck her lovers' cocks (even though he has never expressed any positive feelings about doing so) and that he is going to be locked into chastity. No wait, not only that, she's so serious about it she's gone straight for a 'metal' chastity device.
Hmm. Does that sound like something that happens in the real world?
I mean, I guess it could... and in the past I've seen the writer mount a credible defence of his posts (albeit that was before this whole crazy episode started), but this really does sound like the work of someone whose blog is becoming increasingly fictionalised.
But is there anything wrong with that? Well, I guess not. It's just disappointing. I would much rather someone would make it clear that their blog is partly or fully fantasy.
I must say though, I have seen much fewer blogs of bullshit of late than say a couple of years ago. Then they seemed to be popping up every five minutes, and disappearing again almost as quickly. A tell tale sign is when anyone claims to have been locked into any kind of chastity device for the first time without any kind of adjustment period. They make the usual noises about difficulty peeing and such, and for anyone who has never worn one they might sound somewhat convincing, but for anyone who has actually tried any kind of chastity device on... I think not.
As for the aforementioned blog, it will be interesting to see what happens when his wife locks him into his new steel chastity device. I suspect this will prove the veracity of this particular blog one way or another...
Friday, 7 June 2013
One more blog for you...
This one's a little different... it's called 'Intimate Thoughts of a Married Man' and it's pretty, er... brutally honest blog, which in part details the writer's emotions upon learning of his wife's affair. Funny thing is, the writer wanted her to have an affair, wanted to be her cuckold... problem is she went through with it, but hid it from him. So instead of the excitement of having his fantasy coming true, he got left out, lied to and deceived.
It's not melodramatic, but the pain is palpable in the texts... it's a fascinating insight, but you can't help feeling that you are reading something intensely private. But the writer feels the need to dump his thoughts somewhere and he doesn't have anyone he can talk to.
On the one hand you can see that many people might say he got what was coming to him, filling his wife's head with ideas, encouraging her to see other men. But on the the other it's hard not to feel desperately sorry for him (and her actually...), as he said... he feels totally ripped off, he got all the bad parts of an affair, and none of the 'good' parts.
At one point he displays his irritation that the other guy (G) is the one that she 'cheated' with, he wanted her to have sex with other men, he didn't want her to 'cheat' on him, to lie to him and deceive him. Even now he wants her to have sex with other men (with his knowledge and involvement) to devalue 'G' and make him less important.
You can visit this fascinating blog HERE
It's not melodramatic, but the pain is palpable in the texts... it's a fascinating insight, but you can't help feeling that you are reading something intensely private. But the writer feels the need to dump his thoughts somewhere and he doesn't have anyone he can talk to.
On the one hand you can see that many people might say he got what was coming to him, filling his wife's head with ideas, encouraging her to see other men. But on the the other it's hard not to feel desperately sorry for him (and her actually...), as he said... he feels totally ripped off, he got all the bad parts of an affair, and none of the 'good' parts.
At one point he displays his irritation that the other guy (G) is the one that she 'cheated' with, he wanted her to have sex with other men, he didn't want her to 'cheat' on him, to lie to him and deceive him. Even now he wants her to have sex with other men (with his knowledge and involvement) to devalue 'G' and make him less important.
You can visit this fascinating blog HERE
Tuesday, 19 February 2013
So you want your wife to cuckold you...
But you don't know where to start? Well, you can get one woman's perspective on it by clicking HERE. Miss Christina has started her new blog, called 'Ask The Creative Evil Pixie', and I decided that a lot of my readers would like to know her opinion on this question, so I asked her for you. I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, but I know a lot of my readers fantasize about this.
Saturday, 26 January 2013
Some videos for you...
So... some of you who visit my other (Caption) blog, will probably have already have seen these videos. But I wanted to highlight the very best ones on here anyway and talk about them a little bit, if that's okay with you guys. (Click on the titles to watch the videos).
GREAT TEASE WITH RUINED ORGASM
This is a great video, even though the host site is a bit rubbish. It's often slow to load and you can't jump forward which is annoying, but even so. This is a good one for the chastity fans out there, since the lady in the video is a brilliant teaser and I really love the way she keeps building him up and then stopping at the last second. This would definitely make a good teaching video for the novice chastity Mistress. The ruined orgasm is pretty good even though the guy has a slight case of the overacting. Also two days chastity - what the fuck is that???
GANG CUMS IN WIFE AND CUCKOLD LICKS EACH OUT
I realise this isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea, but there's something about this video that's really hot. It certainly isn't the sound (which is woefully out of synch and best turned off IMHO), no, what I really like about it is the fact that the blond girl seems to be really enjoying herself. This being porn that either means she's a really good actress or maybe she really was really enjoying herself! Either way, this is excellent stuff... and having him jerk off on her feet and lick them clean at the end is the icing on the cake (so to speak).
HUBBY PREPARES WIFE FOR DATE
A subtler take on the whole cuckold premise, since this video focuses on the preparation rather than the act itself. You might find yourself wondering why this video turns you on (like I did) since the actress does act like a real bitch, but there are some really intensely hot moments here, most notably when she sucks on his CB-3000, when she has him worship her feet and definitely when she uses her legs to force his face deeper into her ass. Very hot indeed.
CUCKOLD'S SWEET TREAT
While this is another 'cuckold' video, there's a strong element of Femdom in play here too. Like the second video, this actress is playing a real bitch and again it's slightly confusing how she comes off so hot while being so nasty. I guess it's just the fact that she knows how hot she is and the confidence she displays makes her a cut above.
Well that's it, I hope you enjoyed these videos, and if you haven't already visited my caption blog then you will find plenty more videos there to entertain you (just click on the tabs at the top of the page).
GREAT TEASE WITH RUINED ORGASM
This is a great video, even though the host site is a bit rubbish. It's often slow to load and you can't jump forward which is annoying, but even so. This is a good one for the chastity fans out there, since the lady in the video is a brilliant teaser and I really love the way she keeps building him up and then stopping at the last second. This would definitely make a good teaching video for the novice chastity Mistress. The ruined orgasm is pretty good even though the guy has a slight case of the overacting. Also two days chastity - what the fuck is that???
GANG CUMS IN WIFE AND CUCKOLD LICKS EACH OUT
I realise this isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea, but there's something about this video that's really hot. It certainly isn't the sound (which is woefully out of synch and best turned off IMHO), no, what I really like about it is the fact that the blond girl seems to be really enjoying herself. This being porn that either means she's a really good actress or maybe she really was really enjoying herself! Either way, this is excellent stuff... and having him jerk off on her feet and lick them clean at the end is the icing on the cake (so to speak).
HUBBY PREPARES WIFE FOR DATE
A subtler take on the whole cuckold premise, since this video focuses on the preparation rather than the act itself. You might find yourself wondering why this video turns you on (like I did) since the actress does act like a real bitch, but there are some really intensely hot moments here, most notably when she sucks on his CB-3000, when she has him worship her feet and definitely when she uses her legs to force his face deeper into her ass. Very hot indeed.
CUCKOLD'S SWEET TREAT
While this is another 'cuckold' video, there's a strong element of Femdom in play here too. Like the second video, this actress is playing a real bitch and again it's slightly confusing how she comes off so hot while being so nasty. I guess it's just the fact that she knows how hot she is and the confidence she displays makes her a cut above.
Well that's it, I hope you enjoyed these videos, and if you haven't already visited my caption blog then you will find plenty more videos there to entertain you (just click on the tabs at the top of the page).
Friday, 1 June 2012
Friday, 11 May 2012
Neglected...
Well, I'm feeling that this blog is getting a bit neglected lately... but the truth is that nothing much is really happening. True I made Mistress R cum on Tuesday, which was great, but since then it's been a case of life getting in the way of things. Last night Mistress came home from the dentist with the news that she needed a crown replacing, then the shower broke... so instead of going out on our date night, we were organizing a new shower and someone to fit it a.s.a.p.
I must admit that when we moved in to this house we had our bathroom refitted and I couldn't see the point of keeping a bath when neither of us ever have a bath, now it seems quite smart. Since we can't have a shower we can at least have a bath! It's a pain in the backside, but at least we'll be clean.
I'm thirteen days into denial, and I'm still a little bit perturbed that I'm not even waking up hard. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me at the moment. I've even managed to put weight on this week (3-4lbs!!!). I don't even understand that. To put four pounds on you supposedly need to eat 14,000 excess calories (4x 3,500). Well considering I've only eaten 11,500 this week in total, I really don't see how in the hell I can have put on weight! Not to mention I've exercised six days out of seven. Truth be told I'm a little bit pissed off.
But anyway, tonight will be good, since I will be worshipping Mistress R's gorgeous pussy once again and doubtless enjoying some nice teasing, maybe I'll even get to cum! Stranger things have happened. I'm feeling quite ambivalent about the thought of cumming though, albeit that will probably change when Mistress R is slapping my cock and stroking me near to the edge.
Hmmm...
I was searching Literotica the other day when I came across a very good story. I have an email buddy who is mad for cuckolding stories and big black cocks, so I forwarded the link to him and he was blown away by it, in fact he said he hadn't actually finished it because he came by the end of the first page, and then again by the end of the second! You can't get a much better recommendation than that!
Since I know there's at least a few of you who read my blog who would appreciate it, you can read the story by clicking 'here'.
I must admit that when we moved in to this house we had our bathroom refitted and I couldn't see the point of keeping a bath when neither of us ever have a bath, now it seems quite smart. Since we can't have a shower we can at least have a bath! It's a pain in the backside, but at least we'll be clean.
I'm thirteen days into denial, and I'm still a little bit perturbed that I'm not even waking up hard. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me at the moment. I've even managed to put weight on this week (3-4lbs!!!). I don't even understand that. To put four pounds on you supposedly need to eat 14,000 excess calories (4x 3,500). Well considering I've only eaten 11,500 this week in total, I really don't see how in the hell I can have put on weight! Not to mention I've exercised six days out of seven. Truth be told I'm a little bit pissed off.
But anyway, tonight will be good, since I will be worshipping Mistress R's gorgeous pussy once again and doubtless enjoying some nice teasing, maybe I'll even get to cum! Stranger things have happened. I'm feeling quite ambivalent about the thought of cumming though, albeit that will probably change when Mistress R is slapping my cock and stroking me near to the edge.
Hmmm...
I was searching Literotica the other day when I came across a very good story. I have an email buddy who is mad for cuckolding stories and big black cocks, so I forwarded the link to him and he was blown away by it, in fact he said he hadn't actually finished it because he came by the end of the first page, and then again by the end of the second! You can't get a much better recommendation than that!
Since I know there's at least a few of you who read my blog who would appreciate it, you can read the story by clicking 'here'.
Thursday, 19 April 2012
The fiction of Arthur Mitchell...
A while ago I received an email from a guy called Arthur Mitchell asking if I would be interested in reading one of the stories he had written and was selling on Amazon. Now I don't have a Kindle, or any kind of electronic reader come to that, but Arthur was kind enough to send me a PDF file containing the story 'Breeding Lisa with Big Black Cock'. Now I'm sure you can pretty much draw your own conclusions from that title, and indeed, mixed race cuckolding is what it's all about. It's very well written (I wasn't aware but Arthur tells me that Amazon is flooded with very shoddy porn-writers) albeit rather short, it's more of a short story than a book in it's own right... which to me makes it a little expensive, but I can understand why Arthur priced it as he did since as he said, if you charge 99p people will automatically assume it's garbage.
Anyway, if you would like to read one of Arthur's stories, you can find them on Amazon.com and if you click the link (here) then it will take you straight to the page you need.
Monday, 27 February 2012
The dangers of cuckolding....
http://mysissybitchhusbandgavemeaway.blogspot.com/2012/02/final-story-new-beginning-for-us-all.html
I can't help thinking this was inevitable.
I can't help thinking this was inevitable.
Friday, 10 February 2012
That subject again...
A very good post here at 'Thoughts of a Submissive Cuckhubby' about his feelings about interracial/cuckolding. Well worth a read (go 'here').
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Been discussing the subject of cuckolding recently with someone which made me think about posting (again) on the subject. I know that it is not for me, I am just not wired to accept that, and while it would be nominally preferable to being cheated on, in reality I'm sure either would be disastrous. But that doesn't mean that reading stories about the subject don't make me hard. This I'm sure is not uncommon among lots of people, it's no different from, say, a woman enjoying reading stories where the female character is 'forced' to do something she doesn't want to, it doesn't mean that she would want it to happen in real life, or even enjoy it if it did.
I'm only really making this comparison to justify (to myself perhaps) my thoughts on this subject.
Furthermore, I think it's true to say that 'cuckolding' for me as a fantasy is very precisely defined, it is not something that I generally think about with regard to (the real life) Mistress R.
Now, of course you could point to my story 'Owned' (for one) as a contradiction to this statement, but for me, although I write in the first person, and as an extension (or perhaps more accurately 'gross-exaggeration') of my own experiences, the dividing line for me is clear, this is fiction that I am writing, it is somehow abstract, it is based on the 'character' of Mistress R, but it is not actually her, just as the male character is not actually me.
Am I making sense yet? Forgive me but I feel compelled to ramble on a while longer.
Quite why I feel the need to go over this again and again on here is not quite clear, but I do think that over time it has helped me rationalise my thoughts in this matter and make me understand that it is okay to fantasize about something which very specifically would not be acceptable to me in real life.
The twist in the tail of course is that when we are in a session and Mistress R makes me suck her dildo or strap-on and talks to me about having me suck another guys cock that's been inside her, it makes my cock so hard and has been known to send me deeper into subspace than almost anything else. Now logically, if everything I said was correct, this should not happen. But it does... (damn you logic!).
I think there are many reasons for this, not least a shared understanding that this is 'pretend' and 'safe'. Also I think there is a huge difference between the fantasy of cuckolding (as I imagine it) and the reality. If I were to describe my perfect cuckolding fantasy it would not involve sitting at home alone, knowing that my wife was out with someone else, it would be three of us together in a room, together. In fact it would be essentially a three way encounter, but with my own involvement essentially dictated by her. Is that even really cuckolding? Is it just a one-sided Femdom threesome? Well I guess it is technically cuckolding, but it's a very specific type.
Also, the main elements of the fantasy which would appeal to me would be some 'forced cock worship' and cleaning the woman afterwards. Essentially the other male is irrelevant, he is just a 'cock', a human dildo for the woman to use for her pleasure and for my humiliation. There is no concept of the woman having any kind of 'relationship' with him, other than fucking, because that would be too 'threatening'. Which is why I can understand why people who want to have any kind of threesome often use a prostitute of some kind, because the danger of 'feelings' becoming involved is greatly reduced (not that I'm recommending unprotected sex with a prostitute or anyone else for that matter you understand!).
Which brings us to one of the biggest problems with the transition from fantasy to reality. Never have I come across a cuckolding story where safe sex is practiced, or if it is, the condom full of cum usually ends up dumped in the cuckold's mouth, one way or another. A lot of cuckolding fantasies are interlinked with 'cum eating' fantasies and in this day and age that's really not a great idea is it? I mean I understand why that is, I'm sure cuckolding stories where everything's done in accordance with safe-sex practices would be about as popular as porn films with condoms in them (ie: not very!), and I certainly wouldn't think to write such a story, how fucking dull would that be! But still...
In reality I would imagine cuckolding (for most people) is probably not a good idea. For some I'm sure it's fine, in Q&k's case they progressed from 'swinging' so I can see that would probably mean that they had a lot more idea of what they were getting themselves into, but interestingly (as you'll see if you read k's comment on the post I linked to on Cuckhubby's site above) Q still has not let K see her 'in action' with another man yet. I can understand the logic, in that she doesn't think he's 'ready' for it, but to me that is totally at odds with my thoughts as detailed above... but then I'm more than sure that Q knows what's best for them, and you only have to read one of their blogs to realise that their unconventional relationship works extremely well for them. Indeed it was not long ago that I felt compelled to defend their lifestyle on their blog from comments left by someone who plainly couldn't comprehend that someone else could exist with a different set of values than their own and yet still have a strong and loving relationship, which they obviously do.
This is one subject you (well 'I' at any rate) really could talk in circles all day and still never come to a satisfactory conclusion isn't it? This isn't the first time I've broached it and I'm sure it won't be the last either, because it's perversely and endlessly intriguing how something which I find fairly abhorrent in reality can also be very arousing in fantasy! I guess the truth is that reading (and writing) cuckold fiction and Mistress 'talking' about making me do things in a session isn't hurting anyone, and sticking to that is the best way to ensure that things stay that way (not that there was any question about that in the first place!!!).
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Been discussing the subject of cuckolding recently with someone which made me think about posting (again) on the subject. I know that it is not for me, I am just not wired to accept that, and while it would be nominally preferable to being cheated on, in reality I'm sure either would be disastrous. But that doesn't mean that reading stories about the subject don't make me hard. This I'm sure is not uncommon among lots of people, it's no different from, say, a woman enjoying reading stories where the female character is 'forced' to do something she doesn't want to, it doesn't mean that she would want it to happen in real life, or even enjoy it if it did.
I'm only really making this comparison to justify (to myself perhaps) my thoughts on this subject.
Furthermore, I think it's true to say that 'cuckolding' for me as a fantasy is very precisely defined, it is not something that I generally think about with regard to (the real life) Mistress R.
Now, of course you could point to my story 'Owned' (for one) as a contradiction to this statement, but for me, although I write in the first person, and as an extension (or perhaps more accurately 'gross-exaggeration') of my own experiences, the dividing line for me is clear, this is fiction that I am writing, it is somehow abstract, it is based on the 'character' of Mistress R, but it is not actually her, just as the male character is not actually me.
Am I making sense yet? Forgive me but I feel compelled to ramble on a while longer.
Quite why I feel the need to go over this again and again on here is not quite clear, but I do think that over time it has helped me rationalise my thoughts in this matter and make me understand that it is okay to fantasize about something which very specifically would not be acceptable to me in real life.
The twist in the tail of course is that when we are in a session and Mistress R makes me suck her dildo or strap-on and talks to me about having me suck another guys cock that's been inside her, it makes my cock so hard and has been known to send me deeper into subspace than almost anything else. Now logically, if everything I said was correct, this should not happen. But it does... (damn you logic!).
I think there are many reasons for this, not least a shared understanding that this is 'pretend' and 'safe'. Also I think there is a huge difference between the fantasy of cuckolding (as I imagine it) and the reality. If I were to describe my perfect cuckolding fantasy it would not involve sitting at home alone, knowing that my wife was out with someone else, it would be three of us together in a room, together. In fact it would be essentially a three way encounter, but with my own involvement essentially dictated by her. Is that even really cuckolding? Is it just a one-sided Femdom threesome? Well I guess it is technically cuckolding, but it's a very specific type.
Also, the main elements of the fantasy which would appeal to me would be some 'forced cock worship' and cleaning the woman afterwards. Essentially the other male is irrelevant, he is just a 'cock', a human dildo for the woman to use for her pleasure and for my humiliation. There is no concept of the woman having any kind of 'relationship' with him, other than fucking, because that would be too 'threatening'. Which is why I can understand why people who want to have any kind of threesome often use a prostitute of some kind, because the danger of 'feelings' becoming involved is greatly reduced (not that I'm recommending unprotected sex with a prostitute or anyone else for that matter you understand!).
Which brings us to one of the biggest problems with the transition from fantasy to reality. Never have I come across a cuckolding story where safe sex is practiced, or if it is, the condom full of cum usually ends up dumped in the cuckold's mouth, one way or another. A lot of cuckolding fantasies are interlinked with 'cum eating' fantasies and in this day and age that's really not a great idea is it? I mean I understand why that is, I'm sure cuckolding stories where everything's done in accordance with safe-sex practices would be about as popular as porn films with condoms in them (ie: not very!), and I certainly wouldn't think to write such a story, how fucking dull would that be! But still...
In reality I would imagine cuckolding (for most people) is probably not a good idea. For some I'm sure it's fine, in Q&k's case they progressed from 'swinging' so I can see that would probably mean that they had a lot more idea of what they were getting themselves into, but interestingly (as you'll see if you read k's comment on the post I linked to on Cuckhubby's site above) Q still has not let K see her 'in action' with another man yet. I can understand the logic, in that she doesn't think he's 'ready' for it, but to me that is totally at odds with my thoughts as detailed above... but then I'm more than sure that Q knows what's best for them, and you only have to read one of their blogs to realise that their unconventional relationship works extremely well for them. Indeed it was not long ago that I felt compelled to defend their lifestyle on their blog from comments left by someone who plainly couldn't comprehend that someone else could exist with a different set of values than their own and yet still have a strong and loving relationship, which they obviously do.
This is one subject you (well 'I' at any rate) really could talk in circles all day and still never come to a satisfactory conclusion isn't it? This isn't the first time I've broached it and I'm sure it won't be the last either, because it's perversely and endlessly intriguing how something which I find fairly abhorrent in reality can also be very arousing in fantasy! I guess the truth is that reading (and writing) cuckold fiction and Mistress 'talking' about making me do things in a session isn't hurting anyone, and sticking to that is the best way to ensure that things stay that way (not that there was any question about that in the first place!!!).
Friday, 13 January 2012
The psychology of submission...
I had an interesting email conversation with someone (who wishes to remain anonymous) the other day. I asked them if they had noticed, as I had, that the tone of my captions was slowly becoming 'nastier' (for want of a better word), the dominant female character more heartless, selfish and in some cases contemptuous of their sub male (indeed, only yesterday 'Throne' left this comment on my latest caption: "Her contemptuous tone and ridiculing attitude are perfect. I wonder how low she could drive her husband?").
He replied that he had noticed the change and furthermore pondered aloud... "I wonder whether you could influence somebody's sexual interests just by posting different captions?". He went on to elaborate, "As an experiment, if you took an average guy who liked normal porn - white female / white male - and asked him to look at just one website for a year, which contained just one caption and one story which increased slightly in strength every day, so little as to be almost unnoticeable, but over the course of the 365 days had progressed to feel blown cuckoldry, big black cocks and creampies, I wonder if Mr Average would have been converted?". I'm guessing, unless Mr Average has a very rigid mind, or is particularly racist (in this example) that he would be.
I commented to my friend that some stories and to a much lesser extent captions (in my opinion, I just don't think they last long enough to have the same effect) can have an unusually intense effect on me. I'm sure we all have our favourite stories after all, the ones that somehow just hit all the right notes every time. I don't think it's necessarily that they are written by the best authors, and another person might find them wholly unremarkable, it's just that for whatever reason they somehow manage to trigger all your 'horny buttons'.
This can seem strange or possibly even a little troubling if the story in question falls outside your comfort zone. Perhaps your favourite story involves some really intense and heavy S&M, or perhaps a same-sex element which you are not entirely comfortable with, and yet it sets you off like a Roman Candle whether you like it or not...
Some of you may remember that a while back I painstakingly retyped a story that I had read in a copy of Forum magazine called 'Feeling Cucky' (click 'here' to read this story). This is perhaps the perfect example of what I'm talking about. On the face of it, it's not a very 'nice' story and flies in the face of everything I want and believe in. And yet until just recently I could not read this story without getting hard and feeling almost nauseously horny.
There have been other stories in the past that have had a similar effect, though none quite so dramatic.
I mentioned this story to my friend and he hadn't seen it so I pointed him towards it and after reading it he commented, "Just read it and I know exactly what you mean, love it and hate it at the same time, there's something really horny about Linda, the cruel bitch." He went on to pinpoint a part of the story that I also found particularly intense... "It's the part in the car when she touches his cock and teases him, it's at that point when she knows she holds all the power."
Now as long time readers of my blog will know, the fact that this story has/had such an strong effect on me (repeated reading has diminished the effect somewhat) was more than a little troubling to me as it does indeed fall way outside my own comfort zone, but nevertheless I can't deny that I went back to read it again and again.
So what is it about this story that particular gets me? Well, obviously that's a hard one to answer, but one thing I did come up with is the element of believability. Okay, so anyone who's read the story might think that's a rather strange argument to try and make, but bear with me. When I say believability, I think the thing that sets this story apart is that it's nicely circumvents it's biggest obvious stumbling block, namely how do you turn the wife from being loving and shy into a completely heartless slut and make it believable? You can't. Right, so instead the author doesn't even try to do this. He pushes the wife (Marie) into the background and makes the story centre around the relationship between the main character (Mike) and Linda (the bad influence). As a story telling device it's brilliant!
If you read the story, Marie never undergoes any kind of dramatic (and unbelievable) character change, other than she becomes a slut, but in a sex story that's quite easy to go along with, much easier than a personality change to slip by your audience. Linda is a heartless bitch right from the start too, so there's no leap of faith to be made there and Mike's submissive side gradually and naturally increases as the story develops. The only slightly weak link in the chain is Linda's dominant boyfriend 'Luke' but for the most part his character is represented only through Linda's words and so this is not such an issue.
It's Linda who teases him about his inadequacies as a lover, who tells him that her boyfriend is going to fuck his wife whether he likes it or not, who sends him video clips of Marie worshipping Luke's cock... Marie's part in the whole story is almost peripheral, in fact she's hardly even granted any dialogue, only her soft moans of 'Eat it, eat it all' when Mike goes down on her after she has been on a date with 'Luke' stick in the mind...
All of which is very interesting of course, but which still doesn't answer the question of why does it have such a strong effect on me? Unfortunately, that's something I haven't yet figured out.
He replied that he had noticed the change and furthermore pondered aloud... "I wonder whether you could influence somebody's sexual interests just by posting different captions?". He went on to elaborate, "As an experiment, if you took an average guy who liked normal porn - white female / white male - and asked him to look at just one website for a year, which contained just one caption and one story which increased slightly in strength every day, so little as to be almost unnoticeable, but over the course of the 365 days had progressed to feel blown cuckoldry, big black cocks and creampies, I wonder if Mr Average would have been converted?". I'm guessing, unless Mr Average has a very rigid mind, or is particularly racist (in this example) that he would be.
I commented to my friend that some stories and to a much lesser extent captions (in my opinion, I just don't think they last long enough to have the same effect) can have an unusually intense effect on me. I'm sure we all have our favourite stories after all, the ones that somehow just hit all the right notes every time. I don't think it's necessarily that they are written by the best authors, and another person might find them wholly unremarkable, it's just that for whatever reason they somehow manage to trigger all your 'horny buttons'.
This can seem strange or possibly even a little troubling if the story in question falls outside your comfort zone. Perhaps your favourite story involves some really intense and heavy S&M, or perhaps a same-sex element which you are not entirely comfortable with, and yet it sets you off like a Roman Candle whether you like it or not...
Some of you may remember that a while back I painstakingly retyped a story that I had read in a copy of Forum magazine called 'Feeling Cucky' (click 'here' to read this story). This is perhaps the perfect example of what I'm talking about. On the face of it, it's not a very 'nice' story and flies in the face of everything I want and believe in. And yet until just recently I could not read this story without getting hard and feeling almost nauseously horny.
There have been other stories in the past that have had a similar effect, though none quite so dramatic.
I mentioned this story to my friend and he hadn't seen it so I pointed him towards it and after reading it he commented, "Just read it and I know exactly what you mean, love it and hate it at the same time, there's something really horny about Linda, the cruel bitch." He went on to pinpoint a part of the story that I also found particularly intense... "It's the part in the car when she touches his cock and teases him, it's at that point when she knows she holds all the power."
Now as long time readers of my blog will know, the fact that this story has/had such an strong effect on me (repeated reading has diminished the effect somewhat) was more than a little troubling to me as it does indeed fall way outside my own comfort zone, but nevertheless I can't deny that I went back to read it again and again.
So what is it about this story that particular gets me? Well, obviously that's a hard one to answer, but one thing I did come up with is the element of believability. Okay, so anyone who's read the story might think that's a rather strange argument to try and make, but bear with me. When I say believability, I think the thing that sets this story apart is that it's nicely circumvents it's biggest obvious stumbling block, namely how do you turn the wife from being loving and shy into a completely heartless slut and make it believable? You can't. Right, so instead the author doesn't even try to do this. He pushes the wife (Marie) into the background and makes the story centre around the relationship between the main character (Mike) and Linda (the bad influence). As a story telling device it's brilliant!
If you read the story, Marie never undergoes any kind of dramatic (and unbelievable) character change, other than she becomes a slut, but in a sex story that's quite easy to go along with, much easier than a personality change to slip by your audience. Linda is a heartless bitch right from the start too, so there's no leap of faith to be made there and Mike's submissive side gradually and naturally increases as the story develops. The only slightly weak link in the chain is Linda's dominant boyfriend 'Luke' but for the most part his character is represented only through Linda's words and so this is not such an issue.
It's Linda who teases him about his inadequacies as a lover, who tells him that her boyfriend is going to fuck his wife whether he likes it or not, who sends him video clips of Marie worshipping Luke's cock... Marie's part in the whole story is almost peripheral, in fact she's hardly even granted any dialogue, only her soft moans of 'Eat it, eat it all' when Mike goes down on her after she has been on a date with 'Luke' stick in the mind...
All of which is very interesting of course, but which still doesn't answer the question of why does it have such a strong effect on me? Unfortunately, that's something I haven't yet figured out.
Sunday, 4 December 2011
Keep doing your thing...
This morning I left a rather long comment on 'Q&k's' blog which was in response to a comment made by someone who said they were not going to look at 'IHonorHer' anymore because they just felt sorry for 'k' and felt that he was being abused by 'Q'. Since not all of you probably visit 'IHonorHer' just as not all their visitors come here, I thought I would repost my response here, perhaps it might prompt some discussion? You might like to visit 'IHonorHer' to read the original post and the comment to which I was responding, you can do that by clicking here.
I find this post (Anon) a little odd, not least because the love you have for each other seems pretty obvious. I don't always 'get' everything that goes on between you, like the spanking for example, but it still seems to me that you genuinely love each other and what appears (as much as I can tell) as a solid marriage.
If I've learned anything over the years it's that you can't judge someone else's relationship by your own standards and ideals.
The other thing I would say is that because Q posts on my blog I have picked up on some of the things she has said which colour my view of things, perhaps Anon hasn't seen those comments, perhaps they don't visit my blog (why not?????). Perhaps if Q posted her side on your blog more people would be more informed and understand a little better?
I think half the thing with alternative relationships is the breaking of barriers and allowing us to explore our deeper, darker fantasies with each other (or with others), that could be giving control of orgasms or letting someone piss on you... Mistress R commented this morning that when she responded to Miss Christina's questions the other day, she found her answers a bit underwhelming, she just can't find the words to explain how it feels to bring someone close to orgasm and to deny it, how unbelievably intense it is and how close it makes you feel. I imagine when you were spooning Q with your cock hard in your chastity device you would have been experiencing something few of us would dare to, and if it makes you and Q happy then, why the hell not. You only get one life and if you can find someone on your wavelength to share it with then you are a lucky, lucky person.
Sure your marriage could break up, so could anyone's, and if it does people will be like, well what did you expect he was a cuck, it was bound to happen. But that might not be the reason at all, there could be a million other reasons, but people will always focus on something they don't understand, instead of something else like one of you was useless with money or one of you was a miserable git or something like that...
Anyway, point is, the more I think about it the more I think this persons comment was mildly ridiculous. Keep doing your thing and fuck what anyone else thinks!
I find this post (Anon) a little odd, not least because the love you have for each other seems pretty obvious. I don't always 'get' everything that goes on between you, like the spanking for example, but it still seems to me that you genuinely love each other and what appears (as much as I can tell) as a solid marriage.
If I've learned anything over the years it's that you can't judge someone else's relationship by your own standards and ideals.
The other thing I would say is that because Q posts on my blog I have picked up on some of the things she has said which colour my view of things, perhaps Anon hasn't seen those comments, perhaps they don't visit my blog (why not?????). Perhaps if Q posted her side on your blog more people would be more informed and understand a little better?
I think half the thing with alternative relationships is the breaking of barriers and allowing us to explore our deeper, darker fantasies with each other (or with others), that could be giving control of orgasms or letting someone piss on you... Mistress R commented this morning that when she responded to Miss Christina's questions the other day, she found her answers a bit underwhelming, she just can't find the words to explain how it feels to bring someone close to orgasm and to deny it, how unbelievably intense it is and how close it makes you feel. I imagine when you were spooning Q with your cock hard in your chastity device you would have been experiencing something few of us would dare to, and if it makes you and Q happy then, why the hell not. You only get one life and if you can find someone on your wavelength to share it with then you are a lucky, lucky person.
Sure your marriage could break up, so could anyone's, and if it does people will be like, well what did you expect he was a cuck, it was bound to happen. But that might not be the reason at all, there could be a million other reasons, but people will always focus on something they don't understand, instead of something else like one of you was useless with money or one of you was a miserable git or something like that...
Anyway, point is, the more I think about it the more I think this persons comment was mildly ridiculous. Keep doing your thing and fuck what anyone else thinks!
Great post this morning...
Great post over at 'Q' and 'k's' blog (here), 'k's' posts are always really worth reading and this one is no exception (especially if you are into cuckolding).
For me I have to say I'm very happy for them, but reading something like that that I know is 100% genuine and real, just reinforces my own feelings about being cuckolded. And I think it's a testament to 'k's' writing that he gave such an impression of his feelings throughout that it made me feel almost slightly uncomfortable, because I know that I could never cope with it.
Time and again this cuckolding thing fucks with my head, I love the fantasy of a powerful, dominant woman who takes what she wants (and makes me clean her up afterwards) but in real life for me it would be a total and utter disaster. It's kinda fucked up that I would much sooner she made me suck a real cock than she cuckolded me... is that weird (hahaha). Which reminds me, no one's commented on the header for the new caption blog (here), I didn't know if some people would think it was a bit much, but I figured, if this is too much then you're in the wrong place!
For me I have to say I'm very happy for them, but reading something like that that I know is 100% genuine and real, just reinforces my own feelings about being cuckolded. And I think it's a testament to 'k's' writing that he gave such an impression of his feelings throughout that it made me feel almost slightly uncomfortable, because I know that I could never cope with it.
Time and again this cuckolding thing fucks with my head, I love the fantasy of a powerful, dominant woman who takes what she wants (and makes me clean her up afterwards) but in real life for me it would be a total and utter disaster. It's kinda fucked up that I would much sooner she made me suck a real cock than she cuckolded me... is that weird (hahaha). Which reminds me, no one's commented on the header for the new caption blog (here), I didn't know if some people would think it was a bit much, but I figured, if this is too much then you're in the wrong place!
Thursday, 1 December 2011
If you like the captions with the red haired girl...
Then you should definitely read 'Birth of a male-sub' by 'Myker' on Literotica. There is a permanent link to this story on my 'Literotica' tab, or you can read it by clicking here. I have read this story many times and it really is the business, especially if you like that whole idea of being dominated by a woman who is way out of your league. There's cum eating and cuckolding in it too, so nerr!
Hahahaha.
Hahahaha.
Friday, 25 November 2011
Saturday, 22 October 2011
The cock 'she' owns...
This weekend was already shaping up pretty good for me, I lost three pounds this morning (ok it's the same 3lbs I've been losing for the last month, but still...next week I will be losing new weight for sure!) and yesterday I picked up my new laptop and my Fruity Loops music software! On top of that, this morning we planned the Femdom session which was delayed from last week! Oh, and I almost forgot, last night I asked Mistress for permission to touch my cock (for only the second time this cycle) since I had a hunch that she was going to let me cum today.
She allowed me three minutes of stroking as she lay next to me, occasionally making comments and speculating as to whether by asking only twice up to now I was about to waste one chance, or whether I had just left myself one chance to last much longer? As she spoke to me she again referred to me as 'slave' and I to her as 'Mistress'...
Earlier that evening another small development, Mistress R asked me to mark on the calendar when my last orgasm was, so that she could keep track of how long I'd been waiting without having to ask me. She then added, not that it really matters one way or the other, but it's useful to know...
Anyway back to this morning's session... Mistress instructed me to wait for her wearing my ankle and wrist restraints as usual and also the leather cock harness that I reviewed the other week. Now in my review I said that it was pretty good, and it is, but... the only thing is that if you lose your erection it falls off. Simple as that. Knowing that Mistress R was going to be punishing me for my transgressions (6 this month) it became obvious to me that it wasn't going to last much further than the first smack of the paddle, and so it proved to be.
Mistress opened the door to the bedroom to find me waiting on my knees as usual, she used her toe to pull down the boxer shorts she had instructed me to wear to reveal the cock harness and then told me to get on all fours. She picked up her whip and gave me six lashes with that before asking me how many times I had touched my cock over the last five weeks.
I told her that I had failed her six times and she gave me twelve strokes with the paddle and then told me to kneel up and face the bed. She also told me that that was not the end of my punishment. Then she allowed me to worship her beautiful feet, which I did, perhaps a bit too eagerly and after a couple of minutes I managed to slow myself down and start to relax. Before turning to face the bed I had slipped the cock harness back over my cock but by the time she pulled her feet away the stupid thing had fallen off again.
I guess you're wondering why I wasn't hard by now, especially since I hadn't cum in nineteen days? Well, I dunno, but often in our sessions it takes a while for me to relax, and I still get nervous about the sessions even though we've been doing them for a long time. This session I felt quite relaxed after a few minutes but my cock took a while to join in...
Seeing that the cock harness had fallen off a second time, Mistress R told me to take it off altogether. She then had me on my hands and knees on the bed where she administered another twelve strokes of the paddle, with the leather side this time I'm sure cos it stung a lot more, after which she tied me spread-eagled on my back. Then she climbed on top of me and straddled my face, ordering me to stick my tongue out and lick her pussy (funnily enough it's not something I've ever needed a lot of encouragement to do!).
After the session Mistress told me she hadn't really relaxed herself until she was kneeling by the side of me on the bed, and this was where it started getting good. For the next ten or so minutes Mistress jerked, scratched and slapped my cock (and occasionally my balls too) as she reminded me over and over that no matter what I did myself it could never, ever be as good as when she touched it. This (finally) woke my cock up properly and she coated it in some lube as she stroked and slapped it, telling me that if I couldn't keep my hands off 'the cock she owns' then perhaps she would deny me access to her pussy.
Then she picked up her glass dildo and had me suck on it and get it wet for her, before sliding it into her beautiful pussy. I watched through half closed eyes as the glass cock disappeared inside her and then opened my mouth to lick it clean for her as she said that 'You wouldn't like it if you weren't allowed in my pussy would you? Especially as if you couldn't satisfy my needs then we'd have to find another cock to please me'.
Honestly I don't think I've ever seen Mistress R playing her role with as much enthusiasm as she did today, she seemed genuinely to want to 'train' me to stop touching 'the cock she owns' and to instil in me the thought that it is not mine to play with any more!
I so wish we had made an audio recording of this session, because Mistress R was absolutely magnificent, as I said to her after the session was over, I could have made a transcript and posted it straight onto Literotica! She seemed so confident, and again, I feel like she is really, genuinely taking control and not just playing along for my benefit any more. And that is a wonderful, wonderful feeling.
As if to make her point Mistress R sank down on my cock to remind me what I might be losing out on if I didn't stop touching my cock when I wasn't supposed to. She was so into it now, taunting me that no matter how I touched it myself, deep down I knew that it never felt like her beautiful pussy does. She did this a couple of times and then decided that I needed something up my ass. She lubed up a small dildo and pushed it into my ass and than straddled me one more time, sinking down on my cock as the dildo filled my asshole, again reminding me that my cock was her property and not for my own amusement.
Eventually Mistress R decided I needed a little break so she blindfolded me and left me alone for about ten minutes with the dildo up my ass and clothes pegs on my nipples. When she returned she pulled the clothes pegs off and the blindfold and then sat astride my face once more and told me to lick her pussy. She was so wet, I don't know what she was doing or thinking about while I was alone, but it was obviously getting her hot!
Then she untied me and told me to kneel up so that she could lay on the bed. She told me that she was now going to allow me to worship her pussy and that she knew I would make a good job of it (because I always do), but that if she wasn't completely satisfied, the she would punish me for that too! I don't generally need encouragement to worship her pussy, and cunnilingus is one area where I have no real insecurities but it was still nice when she came hard (and unusually vocally actually!).
Satisfied, Mistress R stood on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice off her thighs and ass, but did not allow me to tongue her ass this time. Then she had me lick clean all her juices from the PVC sheet she had been laying on before telling me to get on my hands and knees again.
I wondered for a moment if she might be about to use the strap-on on me, but no it was another nine hard, stingy paddle slaps with further warnings about touching myself in future, before she turned me onto my back once again. This is was it, I thought. Now she would let me cum...
But no, she jerked, scratched and slapped my cock and balls a little more and then pressed her asshole against my face, taunting me that I wasn't allowed to lick it because I couldn't keep my hands to myself, then she turned around and sank her soaking wet pussy down onto my cock one more time, before getting off and kneeling at the side of me again, reminding me yet again that 'the cock that she owns' is not for me to play with and that I should ask HER permission when I want to touch my cock.
She further reminded me that asking permission wouldn't necessarily mean it would be granted, she might let me touch it, she might stroke it for me, she might slap it, scratch it and cause me pain if that's what amused her, or she might just say no, and that would be the end of it.
It started to dawn on me about now that she wasn't going to let me cum, and indeed within a few seconds she declared the end of the session, with my nineteen day load fully intact. Not that I was complaining, it had been a SUPERB session and I was so happy with how it had gone and the way she had spoken to me and acted. I can't remember her ever being so into it, it just seems like every month she is moving further into the mindset that this really is all about her and what she wants, which is exactly how it should be as far as I'm concerned.
It's weird, every month I think she's getting more into it, and then sometimes it's like there's such a marked progression, that I know she really is moving forward and really is taking control for herself, and that makes me unbelievably happy and so proud of her. I love that she no longer worries about leaving me without an orgasm, I love that she genuinely seems to want to get my touching under control and I just love how she spoke to me in the session today, like I said, I just wish we had made a recording of it because it was out of this world and I would have loved to have listened to it back.
Perhaps if I asked her, Mistress R might claim that really she's just saying the things she knows I want to hear, but for the life of me I can't believe she could be that convincing if there wasn't more to it than that. She really was awesome today and I felt absolutely on top of the world when the session ended.
Of course, I wouldn't have minded licking my cum off of her breasts (like the majority of you who have voted in the latest poll), but since I was being punished I doubt that would have been on the cards even if she had let me cum. No it's looking more and more to me like Mistress R is planning to break my 28 day record, the only question is, by how much?
She allowed me three minutes of stroking as she lay next to me, occasionally making comments and speculating as to whether by asking only twice up to now I was about to waste one chance, or whether I had just left myself one chance to last much longer? As she spoke to me she again referred to me as 'slave' and I to her as 'Mistress'...
Earlier that evening another small development, Mistress R asked me to mark on the calendar when my last orgasm was, so that she could keep track of how long I'd been waiting without having to ask me. She then added, not that it really matters one way or the other, but it's useful to know...
Anyway back to this morning's session... Mistress instructed me to wait for her wearing my ankle and wrist restraints as usual and also the leather cock harness that I reviewed the other week. Now in my review I said that it was pretty good, and it is, but... the only thing is that if you lose your erection it falls off. Simple as that. Knowing that Mistress R was going to be punishing me for my transgressions (6 this month) it became obvious to me that it wasn't going to last much further than the first smack of the paddle, and so it proved to be.
Mistress opened the door to the bedroom to find me waiting on my knees as usual, she used her toe to pull down the boxer shorts she had instructed me to wear to reveal the cock harness and then told me to get on all fours. She picked up her whip and gave me six lashes with that before asking me how many times I had touched my cock over the last five weeks.
I told her that I had failed her six times and she gave me twelve strokes with the paddle and then told me to kneel up and face the bed. She also told me that that was not the end of my punishment. Then she allowed me to worship her beautiful feet, which I did, perhaps a bit too eagerly and after a couple of minutes I managed to slow myself down and start to relax. Before turning to face the bed I had slipped the cock harness back over my cock but by the time she pulled her feet away the stupid thing had fallen off again.
I guess you're wondering why I wasn't hard by now, especially since I hadn't cum in nineteen days? Well, I dunno, but often in our sessions it takes a while for me to relax, and I still get nervous about the sessions even though we've been doing them for a long time. This session I felt quite relaxed after a few minutes but my cock took a while to join in...
Seeing that the cock harness had fallen off a second time, Mistress R told me to take it off altogether. She then had me on my hands and knees on the bed where she administered another twelve strokes of the paddle, with the leather side this time I'm sure cos it stung a lot more, after which she tied me spread-eagled on my back. Then she climbed on top of me and straddled my face, ordering me to stick my tongue out and lick her pussy (funnily enough it's not something I've ever needed a lot of encouragement to do!).
After the session Mistress told me she hadn't really relaxed herself until she was kneeling by the side of me on the bed, and this was where it started getting good. For the next ten or so minutes Mistress jerked, scratched and slapped my cock (and occasionally my balls too) as she reminded me over and over that no matter what I did myself it could never, ever be as good as when she touched it. This (finally) woke my cock up properly and she coated it in some lube as she stroked and slapped it, telling me that if I couldn't keep my hands off 'the cock she owns' then perhaps she would deny me access to her pussy.
Then she picked up her glass dildo and had me suck on it and get it wet for her, before sliding it into her beautiful pussy. I watched through half closed eyes as the glass cock disappeared inside her and then opened my mouth to lick it clean for her as she said that 'You wouldn't like it if you weren't allowed in my pussy would you? Especially as if you couldn't satisfy my needs then we'd have to find another cock to please me'.
Honestly I don't think I've ever seen Mistress R playing her role with as much enthusiasm as she did today, she seemed genuinely to want to 'train' me to stop touching 'the cock she owns' and to instil in me the thought that it is not mine to play with any more!
I so wish we had made an audio recording of this session, because Mistress R was absolutely magnificent, as I said to her after the session was over, I could have made a transcript and posted it straight onto Literotica! She seemed so confident, and again, I feel like she is really, genuinely taking control and not just playing along for my benefit any more. And that is a wonderful, wonderful feeling.
As if to make her point Mistress R sank down on my cock to remind me what I might be losing out on if I didn't stop touching my cock when I wasn't supposed to. She was so into it now, taunting me that no matter how I touched it myself, deep down I knew that it never felt like her beautiful pussy does. She did this a couple of times and then decided that I needed something up my ass. She lubed up a small dildo and pushed it into my ass and than straddled me one more time, sinking down on my cock as the dildo filled my asshole, again reminding me that my cock was her property and not for my own amusement.
Eventually Mistress R decided I needed a little break so she blindfolded me and left me alone for about ten minutes with the dildo up my ass and clothes pegs on my nipples. When she returned she pulled the clothes pegs off and the blindfold and then sat astride my face once more and told me to lick her pussy. She was so wet, I don't know what she was doing or thinking about while I was alone, but it was obviously getting her hot!
Then she untied me and told me to kneel up so that she could lay on the bed. She told me that she was now going to allow me to worship her pussy and that she knew I would make a good job of it (because I always do), but that if she wasn't completely satisfied, the she would punish me for that too! I don't generally need encouragement to worship her pussy, and cunnilingus is one area where I have no real insecurities but it was still nice when she came hard (and unusually vocally actually!).
Satisfied, Mistress R stood on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice off her thighs and ass, but did not allow me to tongue her ass this time. Then she had me lick clean all her juices from the PVC sheet she had been laying on before telling me to get on my hands and knees again.
I wondered for a moment if she might be about to use the strap-on on me, but no it was another nine hard, stingy paddle slaps with further warnings about touching myself in future, before she turned me onto my back once again. This is was it, I thought. Now she would let me cum...
But no, she jerked, scratched and slapped my cock and balls a little more and then pressed her asshole against my face, taunting me that I wasn't allowed to lick it because I couldn't keep my hands to myself, then she turned around and sank her soaking wet pussy down onto my cock one more time, before getting off and kneeling at the side of me again, reminding me yet again that 'the cock that she owns' is not for me to play with and that I should ask HER permission when I want to touch my cock.
She further reminded me that asking permission wouldn't necessarily mean it would be granted, she might let me touch it, she might stroke it for me, she might slap it, scratch it and cause me pain if that's what amused her, or she might just say no, and that would be the end of it.
It started to dawn on me about now that she wasn't going to let me cum, and indeed within a few seconds she declared the end of the session, with my nineteen day load fully intact. Not that I was complaining, it had been a SUPERB session and I was so happy with how it had gone and the way she had spoken to me and acted. I can't remember her ever being so into it, it just seems like every month she is moving further into the mindset that this really is all about her and what she wants, which is exactly how it should be as far as I'm concerned.
It's weird, every month I think she's getting more into it, and then sometimes it's like there's such a marked progression, that I know she really is moving forward and really is taking control for herself, and that makes me unbelievably happy and so proud of her. I love that she no longer worries about leaving me without an orgasm, I love that she genuinely seems to want to get my touching under control and I just love how she spoke to me in the session today, like I said, I just wish we had made a recording of it because it was out of this world and I would have loved to have listened to it back.
Perhaps if I asked her, Mistress R might claim that really she's just saying the things she knows I want to hear, but for the life of me I can't believe she could be that convincing if there wasn't more to it than that. She really was awesome today and I felt absolutely on top of the world when the session ended.
Of course, I wouldn't have minded licking my cum off of her breasts (like the majority of you who have voted in the latest poll), but since I was being punished I doubt that would have been on the cards even if she had let me cum. No it's looking more and more to me like Mistress R is planning to break my 28 day record, the only question is, by how much?
Thursday, 13 October 2011
Something about this video...
Doubtless some of you will have watched this video already since it's been on my video links page for a few weeks now, but if you haven't you really should. I don't know really why this video appeals to me quite so much, it's nowhere near as hardcore as some of the others, it just has the right 'vibe'. It's not the cuckolding aspect of it I like either, it's just her dominant attitude and.... well, I dunno. I love it when she uses her feet to push his face into her ass, that is so hot.
Check it out for yourself here
Check it out for yourself here
Tuesday, 4 October 2011
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