I have a friend who is a bit homophobic. He's not... I mean he wouldn't abuse anyone for being gay, indeed we both knew someone a long time ago who was gay and he was perfectly okay with him, but I know that in his head he finds it a bit disgusting. At the same time, I know he likes 'lesbian' porn, which I can't help feeling is a bit of a double standard.
He's what you'd probably call an 'Alpha' male, tall, fit, likes football, beer and definitely thinks women are 'inferior'. He's a nice bloke and we get on great, but if we hadn't been in a band together in our youth I can't see that we'd have much in common. But his 'homophobia' does make me laugh sometimes. Once we were playing a game of pool and he was talking about a threesome he'd nearly had when I completely innocently said 'I reckon two blokes and one woman would work better than two women and one man'. This did not find favour with my friend, at all. I think he was afraid that he might somehow unwittingly 'brush' against another mans cock and that would cause him to run screaming from the room, like a big girl.
Of course when I say he likes lesbian porn, predictably it's the 'Vivid girl' kind of lesbian porn, not the realistic kind... honestly he's like a walking cliche.
I don't know, I find as I get older I become more open-minded about things, particularly things to do with sex. When Tabor send me their catalogues (how the fuck do you get off those mailing lists, I never even bought anything!) I still can't help thinking that blokes with other blokes cocks in their mouths look 'odd', but then I'm not attracted to men. Which is why the whole cuckolding/domination thing is so confusing.
I'm pretty sure that if I was horny enough and in the right frame of mind and Mistress R ordered me to do it for her, I might suck another man's cock. But I'm in no doubt about my orientation, I like women. Any fantasies I may have about sucking cock or cleaning another man's cum out of my Mistress's pussy all revolve around my Mistress and obeying her. Take that out of the equation and it simply doesn't work anymore. I wouldn't even describe myself as bi-curious, because I have no desire to do any of these things outside of the scenario I described above. But equally, the idea doesn't disgust me, I'm just devoted to pussy, not cock.
In a way I would love to know what my friend would say if he knew what Mistress R and I get up to, but I'm sure it would fry his tiny mind and I can no more imagine him submitting to his wife sexually than driving a small pink car with the number plate 'FAG 1'.
I know he would find the idea of giving control of his orgasms to his wife completely ludicrous, but I bet if he did his wife would find him a lot more considerate and attentive (there's certainly plenty of scope for improvement there if I may say so!), but while ever he views women as 'inferior' there's no incentive for him to do so, is there. Which is his loss as far as I'm concerned, because I know that it has made me feel happier, closer and more devoted to Mistress R than I have ever have been.
My friend and his wife both earn a lot more than Mistress R or I, they have a big house, posh cars, they are both athletic and attractive, but I wouldn't swap with them for a moment. I know that what I have with Mistress R is something money simply can't buy and that many people would kill for, which is why I would never do anything to put it risk. Her contentedness is everything to me, and I'm very much looking forward to making her very content in about six hours time!
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