50 Shades documentary...

Mistress R and I watched a documentary we recorded about the Fifty Shades of Grey phenomenon this afternoon. As I said before, I haven't read it and have no intention of doing so. The author is rather endearing actually, sounds like so far she's taking all the success and money in her stride and not trying to present herself as anything she's not. Good luck to her, I hope she enjoys every penny and why shouldn't she.
It was interesting to get a wider perspective on it, and nice to see a proper BDSM couple interviewed and treated respectfully instead of being held up as 'real life freakoids' who really do this weird stuff! They seem genuinely happy in what they are doing and quite brave really to go on TV and expose themselves to ridicule from idiots. Of course there were also pieces from a male and female professional Domme, thankfully kept to a minimum.
 From what was said I'm still massively confused since the books seemingly simultaneously present massively perverted acts like anal fisting, while at the same time omit any 'scary' words. Is there really no 'cock, cunt or cum' in the books at all?
See this is what I don't get really, on the one hand it's described as Mills and Boon with cuffs and on the other it's portrayed as 'rape fantasies' for yummy-mummies.
Actually what really amazed me was the section on the effect it has had on sex toy sales at Ann Summers, 800% in some places. I can't help wondering though, how many people have bought nipple clamps tried them once and thought, 'Nope, not doing that again!'

I've read on another blog what a sack of shit this documentary is, but it is quite entertaining, so here's a link, you can make up your own minds.

http://www.channel4.com/programmes/sex-story-fifty-shades-of-grey/4od

Three times in a week....

I don't know what it is at the moment, I think it's mostly the weather... not that it's overly hot, but it's so stuffy here, and it means that neither I nor Mistress R are sleeping that well. That combined with my job changing and becoming much more intense perhaps, has left me somewhat exhausted of late. Last night I looked in the mirror and I had these awful bags under my eyes, I looked absolutely fucked to be honest...
But I was still eager to bring Mistress R to orgasm, my only reluctance was that feeling so crappy my cock wouldn't respond as I would like it to afterwards. Mistress R interpreted this as me being indifferent about going down on her, which was not the case at all. With her period looming on the horizon the last thing either of us wanted was to postpone it and miss the chance, and so Mistress R and I retired to the bedroom last night to enjoy her gorgeous pussy.
As soon as I got into the bedroom Mistress R passed me the Oxballs Cocksling and told me she wanted me to wear it while going down on her. This was a great idea and my cock swelled nicely, and made me a lot more relaxed about my concerns. Mistress R rather struggled to cum, but eventually did...
Realising that neither of us were really 'feeling it' like we should we decided to knock it on the head for the night, after all since Mistress R's potential period wouldn't curtail her teasing me, there was no rush to engage in that particular practice immediately.
Another night of shitty sleep, waking up at four in the morning, the air in the room as stuffy as hell... I contemplated going downstairs and sleeping by an open window but eventually fell to sleep, only to endure the weird dream I've talked about on here before. Woke at half seven feeling like crap, but something was about to change that. Rather unexpectedly I felt Mistress R's hand reach beneath the covers and start stroking my morning wood! She continued this for a little while, while facing away from me and then eventually turned over and pushed the duvet back to display her gorgeous breasts to me.
"No bra in the way now," she said.
It felt so good, problem was it felt so good my eyes kept wanting to close and I wanted to keep them open!
Mistress R continued stroking for a while and then turned to her bedside drawer, I heard the ID-Lube bottle being opened and wondered what was going on. She turned back to me and rubbed the lube all over my cock and balls and then straddled me. I looked down and saw that my cock was wonderfully  hard (still having limited sensation, usual with tiredness), and then watched as Mistress R slid it into her tight pussy. I hadn't even touched her below the waist, yet the lube allowed me to slide in without much trouble. Of course Mistress R's pussy felt even tighter than usual, and I soon felt like I wanted to cum inside her.
She looked amazing this morning, so beautiful and just damn fit! I reached up and held her beautiful breasts as she rode my cock harder and harder. I managed to get to the point where I had deferred my orgasm, after all I wasn't expecting her to let me cum for the third time in a week, but then again, if not she was pumping my cock awfully hard...
She told me she wanted me to cum inside her and began slamming herself down on my cock. I was surprised and having only just got myself to the point where I felt confident I could continue without cumming I then had to switch back. This took a little while, but I eventually managed it and I erupted inside Mistress R as she continued to ride my cock hard.
It felt fantastic to cum inside her again so soon, it really, really sucked the other night to have cramp as I came, and I really regretted rushing it because I was worrying that my cock might let me down. This made up for all that, and after I finished cumming inside her Mistress R moved up the bed and had me lick her gorgeous pussy clean, which made me very happy indeed.
A great start to the weekend and yet another good reason why Mistress R likes the flexibility of having 100% control over when I get to cum. I asked Mistress if she wanted me to go down on her again afterwards, but she didn't want me to, I just hope I can give her another, better orgasm before her period arrives.

A new record, only not quite as I might have hoped...

Some of you may be shocked to see that I have been allowed to cum again, and in the process set a new record for the shortest gap between orgasms! However, there was one small spanner in the works...
After I ate Mistress R to orgasm I was feeling quite hot, and quite tired and I wasn't at all sure that I was going to be up for anything at all. To my surprise Mistress R said she wanted me to show her how I touch my cock... this was rather unexpected to say the least, and far more unusual than you might suspect. From the start we seem to have skipped the mutual masturbation stage of courtship and never really revisited it.
Still I was happy to follow Mistress R's orders and as I felt my cock slowly getting hard I watched as Mistress R slid her finger into her soaking wet pussy and periodically rubbed her juices onto the tip of my cock. As I said the other day, I love watching Mistress R touch herself, it is so HOT! After a few minutes Mistress R got up on her knees and allowed me to play with her pussy as she took over stroking and slapping my cock.
Being tired and with my nerve damage I really couldn't feel my cock that much, it dulls the sensations quite a bit, which is why I love it when Mistress slaps my cock as it cuts through the 'fuzziness'. Mistress told me to get up on my knees and I watched as she lay back and pulled me between her legs.
This was a little daunting to say the least, since being on top without a cock ring and with limited sensation can be a recipe for failure at the best of times, but I managed to stay hard and started to push into Mistress R's beautiful wet pussy.
Mistress encouraged me to keep going and to fuck her until I came. This was great of course and my cock stayed nice and hard, but what I hadn't anticipated was the massive cramp in my left leg just as I started to cum. I moved my leg back and forth throughout, trying to alleviate the discomfort, and by the time it finally dissipated I had effectively 'missed' my orgasm completely! An accidentally ruined orgasm by anyone's standards I should say.
So, while it was lovely to make Mistress R cum and fantastic to be allowed on top of her, the ending wasn't quite as I might have hoped. I really don't feel like I've even cum, it's rather bizarre to tell you the truth... neither the satisfaction of a proper orgasm or the frustration of a deliberately ruined one, what a bummer!
Still, on reflection, it's a lot less shit than having a floppy cock, I'll tell you that for nothing!

The bell finally ringeth...

Finally got to hear the sound I've been waiting for for about a fortnight, Mistress R rang her foot worship bell just after ten and then had me kissing her feet for a little over ten minutes. I think maybe her feet were feeling cold, since she seemed to be enjoying it and I was more than happy to continue. I guess I've been a bit silly really, just because Mistress has a bell, that doesn't mean I can't still offer to worship her feet. Much as I would prefer her to 'demand' my attention, I'd probably get better results that way, at least for now...

FEMDOM SESSION 12th August 2012

When I slipped into the Oxballs Cocksling this morning, I couldn’t help but notice how massive my balls looked. I mean I know it’s all bollocks, the whole huge load = huge balls thing, but with 38 days of cum trapped in my nuts they sure looked big to me! Despite the proximity to a new record I have been wanting to cum for about a week now, I mean records are all very well, but this isn’t about records, this is about me and Mistress R and her allowing me to cum when it pleases her. And knowing that I was close to a new record made me nervous that Mistress R would make me wait until Friday just so I could break the record… I don’t know why I thought that exactly since Mistress R is also of the same opinion that this really isn’t about setting records. But anyway…

Regular readers will know my cock has been playing up a little bit lately, so I was glad of the Oxballs Cocksling, although in the end I needn’t have worried too much. Mistress R entered the room and immediately had me on my hands and knees, questioning me as to whether I had obeyed her instructions this month. I told her I had but she still decided to whip me a few times, well… we both knew that my not touching was far more to do with whether she would allow me to lick her ass than avoiding the whip anyway.

I was not told to blindfold myself at the start of the session for once, and after my whipping Mistress retrieved her favourite glass dildo from the bedside table and before she even got on the bed she had me suck and lick it for her. Then she was on the bed and telling me to begin worshipping her right foot, as I did I glanced up to see her laying back, propped up on her left elbow rubbing her pussy with her right index finger, I only got to see this for a few seconds before she told me to keep my eyes down and on her feet. I love her feet, they are so beautiful and sexy (and freshly manicured too!) but I love watching her touch her pussy like that and I hate that I have to keep my eyes down… I guess she knows that all too well.

I continued to worship her foot until she thrust the dildo in my face again and has me lick and suck it and prepare it for her once more. As she started to ease it inside her pussy, Mistress again taunted me that it was her dildo and not my cock that was inside her, and a few minutes later she had me clean her juices off the glass cock.

She told me to switch feet and as I kissed and sucked her pretty painted toes she continued fucking herself with the glass dildo, musing on the load contained in my seemingly swollen balls.

“Thirty eight days of cum then slave… I bet you’d agree to lick that from anywhere I wanted if I let you cum wouldn’t you?”

“Yes Mistress,” I responded, desperately hoping that she would indeed let me cum.

“I bet you’d lick it off my ass wouldn’t you, if I let you…. or my back or my stomach, maybe off my feet or my thighs, or even off my beautiful breasts?”

I told her that I would gladly lick it up from anywhere she wanted me to.

“Or maybe even off the sheet…”

I wasn’t so keen on that, since I would much rather lick it off Mistress’s skin, any part of Mistress would be better than the sheet, but I loved the fact that she considered it an option and in a twisted way I hope she will one day make me do that, because it would feel even more submissive that way since it will be less pleasurable for me and even more about her power and control…

My cock was hard inside the cocksling now as I continued worshipping Mistress’s beautiful toes, my mind contemplating the possible outcome of the session, and where I might be made to lick up my cum from. She allowed me to continue a while longer before ordering me on to the bed and restraining me at each corner.

She mounted my face and I tasted her pussy properly for the first time, my cock immediately started to engorge once again as I thrust my tongue inside her and enjoyed her beautiful scent as it filled my nostrils. Mistress R lifted off and then reached down to grab my throbbing cock, she eased down on it and rode it for just a few seconds before lifting off and leaving me aching in frustration. She knelt at my  side and began stroking and slapping it, reminding me that she owns my cock and that she can do whatever she pleases with it.

She straddled my face again and groaned as I used my tongue to lap at her gorgeous pussy, she was getting wetter by the minute and soon she was hovering over my cock, rubbing the tip against her pussy and clit, all the while reminding me that essentially my cock is just a dildo for her pleasure and that any pleasure I might get from anything she chooses to do with it is a secondary consideration. 

Soon she was by my side again, this time she had the small cock whip and she gave my cock and balls a few swats with it before slapping my cock and balls with her hand.

She then blindfolded me before mounting my face again and now she was really soaking wet, I wish she would have just stayed right there all day but a moment later she was standing over me facing my feet explaining to me how she was peeling her ass cheeks apart right in front of me and that if I wasn’t blindfolded I would be able to see her gorgeous asshole. Then she sank down on my face and pressed her ass right against my mouth and nose, taunting me with the fact that I wasn’t allowed to lick her as without her permission. My cock throbbed and ached as she stroked it, and she told me I was so good for keeping my hands off my cock and that it made her very happy to hear. Then she said that maybe she might even let me touch my cock later in the session, under her supervision, and this, taken with her earlier comments was to fuel my mid-session fantasies.

After pushing a dildo up my ass and pegging my nipples, Mistress R left me to stew for a few minutes. My cock was ridiculously hard, I could just catch a glimpse of it through the edge of the blindfold and it looked as big and hard and red as I’d ever seen it, I almost wish Mistress R would have taken a photo of it, it really looked rather impressive!

As I lay there quietly, my mind was running wild… where would she let me cum, would she have me jerk myself off onto some part of her body, it’s been so long (years) since I was allowed to do that… maybe she would permit me to cum on her gorgeous ass and lick it all off, and maybe then she would allow me to lick her asshole at the same time, or maybe she really was intending to make me jerk my cock onto the sheet after all? Maybe she might even order me to ruin my own long awaited orgasm…. I didn’t even notice the dildo in my ass or the pegs on my nipples I was consumed by my thoughts until Mistress R returned and removed the dildo, the blindfold and pegs and then untied me and had me remove the Oxballs Cocksling (I was quite glad actually because my balls were starting to burn).

She told me to kneel on the bed and then peeled down her leather skirt to reveal her gorgeous pussy. She pulled my head forward and told me to breathe in her scent. I breathed deeply and couldn’t wait to taste her and make her cum. Fortunately Mistress R then lay on the bed, gently flicking my cock with her foot, and then told me to eat her pussy until she came.

I always find it a little difficult to get started in our Femdom sessions because I’m more used to eating Mistress R’s pussy from ‘cold’, but in the sessions she’s already turned on and while I don’t want to go too fast too quick I don’t want to be too slow either. Nevertheless I obviously managed to find a happy medium and a while later Mistress R had a quite explosive orgasm which at once surprised and delighted me. Needless to say it delighted her too, and after a few moments she stood up in front of me on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice from around her wet slit. I eagerly devoured every drop and she turned round and told me to lick her clean. I was excited to discover that the backs and insides of her legs and her ass were absolutely drenched in pussy juice, it was literally dripping down her legs to her calves, it was so fucking hot!

I licked every single drop I could find up before Mistress had me lie down once again and resecured me to the bed.

She stood over me and invited me to look at her beautiful ‘just-cum’ pussy, using her fingers to open it slightly, it looked so delicious, I just wanted to eat it some more. Then she told me that she was very pleased with me and also told me that she was going to be kind to me and not blindfold me again so that I could see her beautiful asshole as she stood over me. She started playing with my cock and to my relief it got nice and hard even without the Cocksling. She started teasing me with her ass again and then told me that she was so pleased with me she was going to allow me to lick it. I pressed my tongue against her hole and tasted the wonderful musk of her ass as she started pumping my cock harder and faster, she kept taking her ass away from my tongue and then letting me tongue it for just a few seconds at a time before telling me to just stick my tongue out and let her push against it.

She was just telling me that she was going to allow me to cum and that I would have to cum before she counted to ten when I realised that I was getting extremely close and no sooner had she started counting than I felt my body jerk and my cum start to spurt from my cock. It seemed to go on a long time, my body jerked and jerked as Mistress pumped my cock hard and fast, spraying my cum everywhere.

She relented and I collapsed back on the bed breathing hard, within seconds her fingers were at my mouth, feeding me my cum, then she turned her hand over and made me lick more cum off of it and then she scooped up another three portions from various parts of my body and the PVC sheet. I gladly swallowed it all before she stood over me one more time to show me her beautiful pussy and then called an end to the session. 

Femdom Session 12th August 2012...

When I slipped into the Oxballs Cocksling this morning, I couldn't help but notice how massive my balls looked. I mean I know it's all bollocks, the whole huge load = huge balls thing, but with 38 days of cum trapped in my nuts they sure looked big to me! Despite the proximity to a new record I have been wanting to cum for about a week now, I mean records are all very well, but this isn't about records, this is about me and Mistress R and her allowing me to cum when it pleases her. And knowing that I was close to a new record made me nervous that Mistress R would make me wait until Friday just so I could break the record... I don't know why I thought that exactly since Mistress R is also of the same opinion that this really isn't about setting records. But anyway...

Regular readers will know my cock has been playing up a little bit lately, so I was glad of the Oxballs Cocksling, although in the end I needn't have worried too much. Mistress R entered the room and immediately had me on my hands and knees, questioning me as to whether I had obeyed her instructions this month. I told her I had but she still decided to whip me a few times, well... we both knew that my not touching was far more to do with whether she would allow me to lick her ass than avoiding the whip anyway.

I was not told to blindfold myself at the start of the session for once, and after my whipping Mistress retrieved her favourite glass dildo from the bedside table and before she even got on the bed she had me suck and lick it for her. Then she was on the bed and telling me to begin worshipping her right foot, as I did I glanced up to see her laying back, propped up on her left elbow rubbing her pussy with her right index finger, I only got to see this for a few seconds before she told me to keep my eyes down and on her feet. I love her feet, they are so beautiful and sexy (and freshly manicured too!) but I love watching her touch her pussy like that and I hate that I have to keep my eyes down... I guess she knows that all too well.

I continued to worship her foot until she thrust the dildo in my face again and has me lick and suck it and prepare it for her once more. As she started to ease it inside her pussy, Mistress again taunted me that it was her dildo and not my cock that was inside her, and a few minutes later she had me clean her juices off the glass cock.

She told me to switch feet and as I kissed and sucked her pretty painted toes she continued fucking herself with the glass dildo, musing on the load contained in my seemingly swollen balls.

"Thirty eight days of cum then slave... I bet you'd agree to lick that from anywhere I wanted if I let you cum wouldn't you?"

"Yes Mistress," I responded, desperately hoping that she would indeed let me cum.

"I bet you'd lick it off my ass wouldn't you, if I let you.... or my back or my stomach, maybe off my feet or my thighs, or even off my beautiful breasts?"

I told her that I would gladly lick it up from anywhere she wanted me to.

"Or maybe even off the sheet..."

I wasn't so keen on that, since I would much rather lick it off Mistress's skin, any part of Mistress would be better than the sheet, but I loved the fact that she considered it an option and in a twisted way I hope she will one day make me do that, because it would feel even more submissive that way since it will be less pleasurable for me and even more about her power and control...

My cock was hard inside the cocksling now as I continued worshipping Mistress's beautiful toes, my mind contemplating the possible outcome of the session, and where I might be made to lick up my cum from. She allowed me to continue a while longer before ordering me on to the bed and restraining me at each corner.

She mounted my face and I tasted her pussy properly for the first time, my cock immediately started to engorge once again as I thrust my tongue inside her and enjoyed her beautiful scent as it filled my nostrils. Mistress R lifted off and then reached down to grab my throbbing cock, she eased down on it and rode it for just a few seconds before lifting off and leaving me aching in frustration. She knelt at my  side and began stroking and slapping it, reminding me that she owns my cock and that she can do whatever she pleases with it.

She straddled my face again and groaned as I used my tongue to lap at her gorgeous pussy, she was getting wetter by the minute and soon she was hovering over my cock, rubbing the tip against her pussy and clit, all the while reminding me that essentially my cock is just a dildo for her pleasure and that any pleasure I might get from anything she chooses to do with it is a secondary consideration. 

Soon she was by my side again, this time she had the small cock whip and she gave my cock and balls a few swats with it before slapping my cock and balls with her hand.

She then blindfolded me before mounting my face again and now she was really soaking wet, I wish she would have just stayed right there all day but a moment later she was standing over me facing my feet explaining to me how she was peeling her ass cheeks apart right in front of me and that if I wasn't blindfolded I would be able to see her gorgeous asshole. Then she sank down on my face and pressed her ass right against my mouth and nose, taunting me with the fact that I wasn't allowed to lick her as without her permission. My cock throbbed and ached as she stroked it, and she told me I was so good for keeping my hands off my cock and that it made her very happy to hear. Then she said that maybe she might even let me touch my cock later in the session, under her supervision, and this, taken with her earlier comments was to fuel my mid-session fantasies.

After pushing a dildo up my ass and pegging my nipples, Mistress R left me to stew for a few minutes. My cock was ridiculously hard, I could just catch a glimpse of it through the edge of the blindfold and it looked as big and hard and red as I'd ever seen it, I almost wish Mistress R would have taken a photo of it, it really looked rather impressive!

As I lay there quietly, my mind was running wild... where would she let me cum, would she have me jerk myself off onto some part of her body, it's been so long (years) since I was allowed to do that... maybe she would permit me to cum on her gorgeous ass and lick it all off, and maybe then she would allow me to lick her asshole at the same time, or maybe she really was intending to make me jerk my cock onto the sheet after all? Maybe she might even order me to ruin my own long awaited orgasm.... I didn't even notice the dildo in my ass or the pegs on my nipples I was consumed by my thoughts until Mistress R returned and removed the dildo, the blindfold and pegs and then untied me and had me remove the Oxballs Cocksling (I was quite glad actually because my balls were starting to burn).
She told me to kneel on the bed and then peeled down her leather skirt to reveal her gorgeous pussy. She pulled my head forward and told me to breathe in her scent. I breathed deeply and couldn't wait to taste her and make her cum. Fortunately Mistress R then lay on the bed, gently flicking my cock with her foot, and then told me to eat her pussy until she came.
I always find it a little difficult to get started in our Femdom sessions because I'm more used to eating Mistress R's pussy from 'cold', but in the sessions she's already turned on and while I don't want to go too fast too quick I don't want to be too slow either. Nevertheless I obviously managed to find a happy medium and a while later Mistress R had a quite explosive orgasm which at once surprised and delighted me. Needless to say it delighted her too, and after a few moments she stood up in front of me on the bed and had me lick all the pussy juice from around her wet slit. I eagerly devoured every drop and she turned round and told me to lick her clean. I was excited to discover that the backs and insides of her legs and her ass were absolutely drenched in pussy juice, it was literally dripping down her legs to her calves, it was so fucking hot!
I licked every single drop I could find up before Mistress had me lie down once again and resecured me to the bed.
She stood over me and invited me to look at her beautiful 'just-cum' pussy, using her fingers to open it slightly, it looked so delicious, I just wanted to eat it some more. Then she told me that she was very pleased with me and also told me that she was going to be kind to me and not blindfold me again so that I could see her beautiful asshole as she stood over me. She started playing with my cock and to my relief it got nice and hard even without the Cocksling. She started teasing me with her ass again and then told me that she was so pleased with me she was going to allow me to lick it. I pressed my tongue against her hole and tasted the wonderful musk of her ass as she started pumping my cock harder and faster, she kept taking her ass away from my tongue and then letting me tongue it for just a few seconds at a time before telling me to just stick my tongue out and let her push against it.
She was just telling me that she was going to allow me to cum and that I would have to cum before she counted to ten when I realised that I was getting extremely close and no sooner had she started counting than I felt my body jerk and my cum start to spurt from my cock. It seemed to go on a long time, my body jerked and jerked as Mistress pumped my cock hard and fast, spraying my cum everywhere.
She relented and I collapsed back on the bed breathing hard, within seconds her fingers were at my mouth, feeding me my cum, then she turned her hand over and made me lick more cum off of it and then she scooped up another three portions from various parts of my body and the PVC sheet. I gladly swallowed it all before she stood over me one more time to show me her beautiful pussy and then called an end to the session. 

Some of you may be wondering...

About the foot worship bell, well, all I can tell you is that it's sitting about three feet away from my left arm right now and no, it still hasn't been rung. I have no idea why that is. Earlier I thought I might ring it and make a smart-arsed comment about checking to see if it was broken, but I decided against it. Sometimes it's very difficult not to get frustrated being a sub, especially if you feel like you're not being 'used' as much as you would like to be. But it's this 'pushing' which ultimately causes friction I guess, so I resolve to be patient instead.
Besides, it's our Femdom session tomorrow, and I'm sure I will be spending plenty of time (though never enough) worshipping Mistress R's beautiful feet, before moving on to worshipping other parts of her beautiful body. I won't be providing a transcript of the session, like last time, partly because I think it would be a little repetitive and partly because it took a hell of a long time to type it all out. I'm sure I'll write something though.

Still haven't got round to the final part of Mistress R's answers, let's hope it isn't too much longer...