This is a page where I will record the results of my previous polls, pretty self-explanatory really...
Q: How many times do you think Mistress R will allow me to cum this coming chastity year?
40% - Less than 5 times
20% - 15-20 times
15% - 10-15 times
10% - 20-25 times
10% more than 25 times
5% - 5-10 times
Q: Would you give up complete control of your sex life to your partner, providing you weren't ignored or sidelined?
50% - Yes
36% - Yes (but no cuckolding)*
10% - Maybe
4% - No
Q: Which is hotter?
57% - No underwear*
38% - Skimpy underwear
5% - Not sure
Q: Do you ever get so massively turned on that you feel like you would do almost ANYTHING your Wife / Girlfriend / Mistress asked you to?
61% - Often
32% - Sometimes
6% - Rarely*
1% - Never
Q: Since beginning male chastity how has penetrative sex been affected?
44% - Much less*
24% - Less
20% - Almost never
10% - More
2% - Much more
0% - No change
Q: Which sex is the most likely to cheat on a partner in your view?
43% - Male
39% - Female
18% - Don't Know
Q: After weeks of waiting your wife/GF offers you the chance to penetrate her and maybe even cum insider her, only problem is your national team is playing football, what do you do...
46% - Would forget about the football
26% - Would record the football
22% - Don't like football*
6% - Would watch the football
Q: Would you gamble on the flip of a coin to gain/lose 3" of cocksize?
72% - No*
20% - Yes
8% - Don't know
Q: What if your wife/girlfrined gave you the chance to experience regular and very intense teasing (let's say at least every other day) but the price for this was that you would not be allowed to cum, and this arrangement would continue indefinitely until SHE decided to change it (in other words, this could last forever). Would all that teasing be worth foregoing orgasms (potentially) forever? Would you go for it?
68% - Yes
30% - Not Sure*
12% - No
Q: Should I use the orgasm request voucher Mistress R gave me or not?
56% - No
44% - Yes
Q: WOMEN: Have you ever had a same-sex experience?
55% - No
35% - Yes
10% - Kind of
Q: MEN: Have you ever had a same-sex experience?
70% - No*
23% - Yes
7% - Kind of
Q: WOMEN: Have you ever deliberately ruined a partner's orgasm?
72% - Yes
28% - No
Q: MEN: Have you ever had a partner deliberately ruin an orgasm?
56% - Yes
10% - Sort of
34% - No*
Q: WOMEN: Have you ever had a one-night stand?
44% - No
26% - Yes, 1 or 2
17% - Yes, a few
13% - Yes, lots
Q:MEN: Have you ever had a one-night stand?
39% - No*
33% - Yes, 1 or 2
21% - Yes, a few
7% - Yes, lots
Q: WOMEN: How do you feel that male chastity has affected your relationship?
47% - Greatly improved it
38% - Improved it
15% - No change
0% - Worsened it
0% - Greatly worsened it
Q: MEN: How do you feel that male chastity has affected your relationship?
47% - Greatly improved it
43% - Improved it*
7% - No change
3% - Greatly worsened it
0% - Worsened it
Q: WOMEN: How do you feel about having your ass worshipped?
58% - Love it
17% - Like it
17% - It's okay
4% - Not that fussed
4% - No thanks
Q: MEN: How do you feel about worshipping your wife's ass?
71% - Love it*
13% - Like it
6% - It's okay
6% - Not that fussed
4% - No thanks
Q: How many times do you think Mistress R will let me cum in 2012?
52% - Less than 10
24% - 10-15
16% - 15-20
5% - 20-25
3% - 25 or more
Q: How many sexual partners have you had at one time?
54% - 1*
28% - 2
11% - 3
4% - 0
2% - 5+
1 - 4%
Q: LADIES: Trimmed, shaved or natural?
44% - Shaved
29% - Trimmed
27% - Natural
Q: MEN: Trimmed, shaved or natural?
42% - Shaved
41% - Trimmed*
17% - Natural
Q: Male chastity device poll (207 votes, multiple options).
119 - Own a metal device
83 - Own a plastic device*
27 - Own a silicone/other device
19 - Do not own a chastity device
38 - Are locked 24/7
41 - Wear their chastity device regularly
32 - Wear their device fairly often
49 - Rarely wear their device
5 - Never wear their device*
38 - Are on the 'honour' system*
13 - Do not practice chastity of any kind
Q: LADIES: How willing would you be to give up the control you have of your mans orgasms and return to a 'normal' relationship?
48% - Forget it!
24% - Positively unwilling
15% - Not very willing
8% - No no no no no
5% - Willing
0% - Very willing
Q: DOMINANT WOMEN - What Star Sign are you?
15% - Scorpio (Water)
13% - Sagittarius (Fire)
10% - Cancer (Water)
9% - Aries (Fire)
9% - Libra (Air)
9% - Aquarius (Air)
9% - Pisces (Water)
8% - Taurus (Earth)
7% - Leo (Fire)
4% - Capricorn (Earth)
4% - Gemini (Air)
3% - Virgo (Earth)
Q: SUBMISSIVE MALE - What Star Sign are you?
13% - Taurus (Earth)
12% - Libra (Air)*
11% - Aries (Fire)
10% - Scorpio (Water)
10% - Gemini (Air)
7% - Pisces (Water)
7% - Aquarius (Air)
7% - Cancer (Water)
7% - Leo (Fire)
6% - Virgo (Earth)
6% - Capricorn (Earth)
4% - Sagittarius (Fire)
Q: WOMEN- How often do you masturbate?
33% - 2 or 3 times a week
25% - Every day.
18% - Rarely
11% - 4 or 5 times a week.
8% - Once a week
5% - Less than once a week.
Q: MEN- How often does your female partner masturbate?
42% - Rarely.
20% - Don't know.*
14% - Every day.
12% - 2 or 3 times a week.
8% - Once a week.
4% - 4 or 5 times a week.
Q: What is the longest you have gone without cumming?
22% - 1-2 months
16% - 14-21 days
14% - 21-28 days*
12% - 10-14 days
10% - 2-3 months
9% - 7-10 days
6% - Less than a week
3% - 3-4 months
2% - 4-5 months, 5-6 months, 6-9 months
1% - 9-12 months, More than a year.
Q: From where would you most like to lick up your cum?
40% - Breasts*
22% - Feet
12% - Other
10% - Boots
5% - Stomach or Boots
4% - Legs
2% - Floor
Q: WOMEN: Do you think male strippers are sexy?
72% - Yes
28% - No
Q: MEN: Do you think female 'strippers/dancers' are sexy?
78% - Yes
28% - No*
Q: Would you eat a cake baked with semen?
60% - Yes*
24% - No
16% - What sort of cake?
Q: Men: How often do you look at porn?
72% - Every day*
18% - 2-3 Times per week
6% - Never
2% - Once a week
1% - 2-3 Times per month
1% - Rarely
Q Women; How often do you look at porn?
37% - Every day
23% - 2-3 times per week
19% - Rarely
11% - Once a week
6% - Never
4% - 2-3 times per month
How many sexual partners have you had?
20% - 1
9% - 6
8% - 0, 4
7% - 2*
6% - 7
5% - 5
4% - 3, 11-15, 16-20
3% - 10, 21-25, 200+
2% - 8, 9, 31-35, 36-40, 41-50, 100-125
1% - 26-30, 51-60, 71-80, 126-150
Q: How long did you wait to reveal your kinkiness to your partner?
52% - Years*
21% - Months
18% - Still waiting
8% - Weeks
1% - 1st Date
Q: At what age did you lose your virginity?
21% - Over 21
16% - 17
14% - 16
11% - 19
11% - 20
10% - 18*
5% - Still a virgin
4% - 21
4% - 15
3% - 14
1% - Under 14
Q: If your wife told you that you were allowed to cum, that you could fuck her anyway you wanted and cum anywhere you wanted, but that she'd prefer it if you just worshipped her ass with your tongue - what would you do?
84% - Would have done as she'd preferred*
16% - Would have taken the opportunity
Q: How did you meet your lover?
28% - Other
19% - Work
17% - Online
17% - School / College
11% - Through friends*
8% - Club / Pub
Q: Who knows you are a kinkster?
52% - Just my lover*
23% - A few select friends
18% - No one
6% - People in my local scene
1% - Everyone
Q: How old are you?
15% - 40-44*
15% - 45-49
12% - 25-29
10% - 50-54
10% - 55-59
10% - 18-24
9% - 30-34
9% - 35-39
8% - 60-64
2% - 65+
Q: Men, do you have any of the following piercings?
59% - No*
17% - Prince Albert
12% - Nipples
9% - Other genital piercing
3% - Scrotum
0% - Tongue
Q: Women, do you have any of the following piercings?
60% - No
20% - Clitoral
10% - Nipples
5% - Tongue
5% - Labia
Q: Women, presented with a big, hard throbbing cock, what is your first thought?
59% - Fuck it
41% - Suck it
Q: Men, presented with a beautiful and very wet pussy, what is your first thought?
87% - Lick it*
13% - Fuck it
Q: Men, where do you like to cum?
44% - Pussy*
30% - Mouth
13% - Ass
7% - Other
6% - Breasts
Q: Women, where do you like your man to cum?
41% - Haha, he should be so lucky!
38% - Pussy
6% - Ass
6% - Mouth
6% - Breasts
3% - Other
Q: Men, anal sex (receiving)?
60% - Yes please*
24% - Never tried
10% - Suffer it for lover
6% - No way
Q: Women, anal sex?
40% - Yes please
35% - No way
17% - Never tried
8% - Suffer it for lover
Q: Women, how many times a day could you cum?
27% - 10+
20% - 4
10% - 1, 5
7% - 3, 6, 7
5% - 2, 8
0% - 9
Q: Men, how many times a day could you cum?
28% - 3
17% - 2, 4*
7% - 5, 6
6% - 1, 7
5% - 10+
3% - 8
0% - 9
Q: How do you feel about sissification?
56% - Not interested*
30% - Like it
14% - Open to the idea
Q: When do women look their best?
66% - Semi-naked
28% - Naked*
6% - Fully clothed
Q: Which of these do you find gives you the most satisfaction?
75% - My partner's orgasm*
18% - Both the same
7% - My own orgasm
Q: What star-sign are you?
18% - Libra* (Air)
18% - Taurus (Earth)
14% - Gemini (Air)
14% - Virgo (Earth)
14% - Capricorn (Earth)
10% - Aquarius (Air)
4% - Sagittarius (Fire)
4% - Aries (Fire)
4% - Leo (Fire)
0% - Cancer (Water)
0% - Scorpio (Water)
0% - Pisces (Water)
Q: How do you like your pussy?
53% - Shaved
32% - Trimmed*
15% - Natural
Q: What is your favourite place to worship?
42% - Buttocks
35% - Breasts
19% - Feet*
4% - Legs
Q: How do you feel about eating your own cum?
72% - Like to be 'forced' into it*
14% - Like it
7% - Loathe it
7% - Don't know
Q: Does giving control of your orgasms to another person make you less of a man?
75% - Said no*
24% - Said yes.
1% - Were undecided
Q: How do you feel about cuckolding?
53% - Only interested in it as a fantasy*
29% - Would be keen to try it
15% - Do not want it in any form
03% - Have done it
Q: How long would you like to be kept in chastity and denied an orgasm?
54% - More than 28 days*
26% - 14-28 days
14% - 7-14 days
06% - 0-7 days
* Robert's vote.
Monday, 18 May 2009
Profile
I am Robert Anthony, I am currently 42, I live in England close to the town where I was born. I met Mistress R (or rather just 'R' at the time) in 1992 and we were married by the end of 1993. In about 1997 I confessed my desire for Female Domination and though a little taken aback at first (for some reason Mistress R thought I wanted her to cuckold me, which I certainly did not!) we were soon engaging in a monthly Femdom session.
This stopped for a time around the turn of the millennium when our relationship was less than 100% solid, but resumed once we had got ourselves back on track.
This continued pretty much without interruption (save for a period when I had an operation about four years ago) until late 2010 when I broached the subject of male chastity with Mistress R. At first her reaction was extremely negative, but after a few days she agreed to try it. In the beginning this involved extending the length of time I was not allowed to cum before our sessions. So whereas previously I was denied for maybe three or four days originally, this grew to about fourteen days by early 2011.
At this point, I can't remember exactly how it happened, I suggested to Mistress R that maybe she could take full control of my orgasms. Having seen how much I had enjoyed the effects of chastity and how attentive I had become and how much I loved putting her pleasure first and giving her orgasms, she agreed. At this point the blog you are reading was born.
Almost immediately Mistress R laid down some rules regarding her agreement to being my 'keyholder'. I was not allowed to touch my cock, or to ask her to allow me to cum, or even ask to be allowed penetration, ever! I don't know whether this was a ploy on her part to make it impossible for me and to make me want to go back to normal, but if it was it didn't work, and even now Mistress R has not relaxed these rules.
At first Mistress R was still quite generous with me, allowing me four orgasms during April 2011. Through my prompting and reassurance, this quickly fell and ever since then I have only been allowed to cum once or twice a month. At some point last year I purchased a CB3000 chastity device, which Mistress R did not like and does not want me to wear. Having worn it for about fifteen minutes I have to say I am quite glad about that, and in any case it seems unnecessary. I have not made myself cum since April 2011 and have no intention of doing so without Mistress R's permission. Indeed I haven't even jerked myself off with her permission in all that time, since every single one of my orgasms since April 2011 have been either inside her beautiful pussy, or by her hand / mouth.
My current record for time between orgasms is 35 days, and my longest period between cumming inside Mistress R is 76 days, I don't know how easy it will be when and if Mistress decides to increase the periods of denial, perhaps I will start wishing I had the CB3000 to help me, but having tried it on under clothes I'd have to say for me at least it is practically useless. The largest back ring is still far too tight and the whole package sticks out a mile. I am intrigued by the 'birdlock' chastity device as it is soft and pliable, but even then I am unsure about the sanitary aspect of chastity devices.
For her part Mistress R much prefers that I am horny and able to get rock hard whenever she wants me to. She loves that I have to try and be good for her rather than not having a choice, and truth be told, so do I. To encourage me in my endeavours Mistress R asks me regularly whether I have managed to keep my hands off my cock for her, and if I haven't she punishes my with a paddle, crop or whip (usually in our monthly Femdom session).
I adore worshipping Mistress R's pussy, and over the past year she has truly embraced my passion for it and we now engage in this activity pretty much every other day, I would estimate that the level of pussy worship has increased about 30% since we started the whole chastity thing. The benefits of this are far reaching and I believe our marriage to be stronger than it ever has been. On a personal level, I have suffered from bouts of ED now and again over the last few years, and this was not helped by the operation I had in 2007 which left me with nerve damage down my right leg and groin area. There are times when I can't really feel that much in my cock, even if it's hard and this does not help matters. While this is rare, it's equally rare that I can enjoy 100% of the sensitivity that I had before the operation. I have found that a cock ring (or the awesome Oxballs Cocksling) is a massive help in these situations and prevents a medical problem becoming a mental problem and causing more ED problems later on.
The problem for guys is that if you have any doubt then you are on a one way ticket to Floppyville, and nothing causes doubt like a lack of sensation, especially if you actually have to look at your cock to see if it's hard or not. That may be fun if your Mistress is applying some kind of numbing cream so that she can fuck you hard without risking you cumming without permission, but it's quite a different matter when it's at nature's whim.
Since handing over control of my orgasms to Mistress R though, my cock is much more responsive, gets and stays harder and it's possible to enjoy penetration in some positions without the need for a cock ring. This is not merely a simple case of horniness, since even when I am allowed to orgasm I find that my level of arousal and recovery is maintained to a higher degree than previously. So in all honesty I do believe that anyone suffering from ED should definitely give chastity a go. If nothing else, the removal of pressure to perform is likely to have positive effects!
As for my writing, I think my first attempts were born out of a desire to please Mistress R. When we first got together she liked me to tell her stories as I used my fingers on her, this progressed to me finding her stories to read so that I could go down on her, to me writing stories which specifically suited Mistress R's tastes. At the same time I started writing some Femdom 'letters' which I submitted to Forum magazine and which were published fairly frequently. Later I discovered Literotica and started posting there and then I got some longer works published in 'Forum' and 'Desire presents BDSM'.
Last year I started work on a novel for 'FemdomCave', but this has been put on hold since I have lost interest in the project despite 24,000 words having been written. I may return to this project at some point but I do think the whole thing needs a massive rewrite.
During the last year or so, I started adding captions to my blog. These were very popular with some of my readers and very unpopular with others, especially when the subject matter became a little off-topic for the blog. Rather than stifle my captions, I decided to move the whole lot onto their own blog, where I could move into whatever subject area I wished without compromising the original blog's integrity.
Integrity is a very important cornerstone of my blog, everything you read here is presented truthfully and as accurately as possible, sure I may leave the odd thing out here and there to preserve some modicum of professionalism, but rest assured that everything you read here on this blog is 100% true.
This continued pretty much without interruption (save for a period when I had an operation about four years ago) until late 2010 when I broached the subject of male chastity with Mistress R. At first her reaction was extremely negative, but after a few days she agreed to try it. In the beginning this involved extending the length of time I was not allowed to cum before our sessions. So whereas previously I was denied for maybe three or four days originally, this grew to about fourteen days by early 2011.
At this point, I can't remember exactly how it happened, I suggested to Mistress R that maybe she could take full control of my orgasms. Having seen how much I had enjoyed the effects of chastity and how attentive I had become and how much I loved putting her pleasure first and giving her orgasms, she agreed. At this point the blog you are reading was born.
Almost immediately Mistress R laid down some rules regarding her agreement to being my 'keyholder'. I was not allowed to touch my cock, or to ask her to allow me to cum, or even ask to be allowed penetration, ever! I don't know whether this was a ploy on her part to make it impossible for me and to make me want to go back to normal, but if it was it didn't work, and even now Mistress R has not relaxed these rules.
At first Mistress R was still quite generous with me, allowing me four orgasms during April 2011. Through my prompting and reassurance, this quickly fell and ever since then I have only been allowed to cum once or twice a month. At some point last year I purchased a CB3000 chastity device, which Mistress R did not like and does not want me to wear. Having worn it for about fifteen minutes I have to say I am quite glad about that, and in any case it seems unnecessary. I have not made myself cum since April 2011 and have no intention of doing so without Mistress R's permission. Indeed I haven't even jerked myself off with her permission in all that time, since every single one of my orgasms since April 2011 have been either inside her beautiful pussy, or by her hand / mouth.
My current record for time between orgasms is 35 days, and my longest period between cumming inside Mistress R is 76 days, I don't know how easy it will be when and if Mistress decides to increase the periods of denial, perhaps I will start wishing I had the CB3000 to help me, but having tried it on under clothes I'd have to say for me at least it is practically useless. The largest back ring is still far too tight and the whole package sticks out a mile. I am intrigued by the 'birdlock' chastity device as it is soft and pliable, but even then I am unsure about the sanitary aspect of chastity devices.
For her part Mistress R much prefers that I am horny and able to get rock hard whenever she wants me to. She loves that I have to try and be good for her rather than not having a choice, and truth be told, so do I. To encourage me in my endeavours Mistress R asks me regularly whether I have managed to keep my hands off my cock for her, and if I haven't she punishes my with a paddle, crop or whip (usually in our monthly Femdom session).
I adore worshipping Mistress R's pussy, and over the past year she has truly embraced my passion for it and we now engage in this activity pretty much every other day, I would estimate that the level of pussy worship has increased about 30% since we started the whole chastity thing. The benefits of this are far reaching and I believe our marriage to be stronger than it ever has been. On a personal level, I have suffered from bouts of ED now and again over the last few years, and this was not helped by the operation I had in 2007 which left me with nerve damage down my right leg and groin area. There are times when I can't really feel that much in my cock, even if it's hard and this does not help matters. While this is rare, it's equally rare that I can enjoy 100% of the sensitivity that I had before the operation. I have found that a cock ring (or the awesome Oxballs Cocksling) is a massive help in these situations and prevents a medical problem becoming a mental problem and causing more ED problems later on.
The problem for guys is that if you have any doubt then you are on a one way ticket to Floppyville, and nothing causes doubt like a lack of sensation, especially if you actually have to look at your cock to see if it's hard or not. That may be fun if your Mistress is applying some kind of numbing cream so that she can fuck you hard without risking you cumming without permission, but it's quite a different matter when it's at nature's whim.
Since handing over control of my orgasms to Mistress R though, my cock is much more responsive, gets and stays harder and it's possible to enjoy penetration in some positions without the need for a cock ring. This is not merely a simple case of horniness, since even when I am allowed to orgasm I find that my level of arousal and recovery is maintained to a higher degree than previously. So in all honesty I do believe that anyone suffering from ED should definitely give chastity a go. If nothing else, the removal of pressure to perform is likely to have positive effects!
As for my writing, I think my first attempts were born out of a desire to please Mistress R. When we first got together she liked me to tell her stories as I used my fingers on her, this progressed to me finding her stories to read so that I could go down on her, to me writing stories which specifically suited Mistress R's tastes. At the same time I started writing some Femdom 'letters' which I submitted to Forum magazine and which were published fairly frequently. Later I discovered Literotica and started posting there and then I got some longer works published in 'Forum' and 'Desire presents BDSM'.
Last year I started work on a novel for 'FemdomCave', but this has been put on hold since I have lost interest in the project despite 24,000 words having been written. I may return to this project at some point but I do think the whole thing needs a massive rewrite.
During the last year or so, I started adding captions to my blog. These were very popular with some of my readers and very unpopular with others, especially when the subject matter became a little off-topic for the blog. Rather than stifle my captions, I decided to move the whole lot onto their own blog, where I could move into whatever subject area I wished without compromising the original blog's integrity.
Integrity is a very important cornerstone of my blog, everything you read here is presented truthfully and as accurately as possible, sure I may leave the odd thing out here and there to preserve some modicum of professionalism, but rest assured that everything you read here on this blog is 100% true.
I am always pleased to receive emails from my readers, on any subject so please feel free to contact me and I will endeavour to offer you a speedy reply, my address is: pe.rob.666@gmail.com
Feedback
You know that old saying, 'You can't please all of the people all of the time'? Well over the last few years I've had a lot of very nice comments made about my writing, and also some not so nice ones. Here's a selection of my favourites:
A real-life FEMDOM manual
09/13/07 By: slutty_jannelle in USA
This whole "Owned" series is a veritible 'How-to' manual for the aspiring Dominatrix!
Amazing
03/13/10 By: Anonymous
To have such a choice of options put forth, to have someone force the decision, ... wow, please continue with your writting.
My favorite series of all - please continue soon
02/26/11 By: Anonymous
Excellent writing with a slow, simmering build-up to the defining moment and a promise of challenges to come. I loved it. Thanks!
Are you in my head?
02/12/11 By: JamesTDH
I have to agree that this is the most realistic of your storylines; the most possible. At least, I am desperate to believe that, because this chapter in particular has just read like a script pulled from my mind. Not a fantasy, but a real life wish. Thanks should go to anyone who writes and posts, but your stories are particularly well written. I have to agree a little, in my little experience, the stock phrases do get overused in a session and begin to sound very odd, but it's a minor point, and based solely on opinion. And as such, has a very fluctuating worth! Great writing, please continue...
Great series
02/14/11 By: Anonymous
I don't usually make the effort to comment stories, I usually just click the (star) ratings. I have followed this series since you started it and felt like I should let you know I have been enjoying it. My wife and I play some of these games time to time... and have had conversations like in this particular story before. Thanks for sharing them.
I LOVE THIS !
10/03/06 By: Anonymous in U.K.
This is a well written and well thought out storyline. if you like the type of story, then it's fab! If you don't well it's to bad. So I guess you know I loved these three chapters. The way the author draws you deep into his tale. His discription of events leading up to his subservience. And his wife's dominance. Makes you think your auctualy there. I'd rate this story and his writing 200 if it up to me. Well done and hope to read more from this excellent author.
I Love All 3 Chapters
02/22/10 By: Anonymous
Please keep writing this story! I am thoroughly enjoying watching this wonderful, loving couple traveling up FemDom Avenue. Thank you!
True submission
01/21/08 By: justababygirlSM in USA
Whether you are the male slave in this story or not, you have essentially nailed what it means to be a slave, to be owned, to belong to Another. That is something that only certain people will ever truly understand. To the comments, about sub/slaves being "whimps", it is only the strong that can offer up control of themselves completely. There will always be ignorant comments, but just remember ignorance stems from their own failures and insecurities, don't take it personally, and keep on submitting...stories or....;)
Hot story - good n dirty
03/15/11 By: Anonymous
Love your writing, please write more. Ps - ignore all the complainers - same few people complain at all the cuck stories. If they didn't like it they wouldn't be here reading it. They only moan like bitches coz cuck fantasies turn them on and they can't handle it.
Perfect, just perfect
09/30/10 By: Anonymous
This is what I am looking for from my wife.
Awesome
01/04/11 By: Anonymous
I don't know how you keep coming up with these great stories. Keep writing!
Finally, female domination model based in reality!
12/23/08 By: Anonymous in Portland, OR
This 'capture the moment' domination is right on the money. In the real world, it's not feasible for 24x7 domination. But unfurling the fantasy once a month or so makes it manageable; plus, it makes it hotter when it happens. Bravo, for the concept. I want to use it to implement this fantasy in my own life.
OMG!!
02/19/10 By: Anonymous
This chapter is great!! I've spurted my hard cock into panties... I wish I had this!
Very Hot...
04/28/11 By: HarryHaversackers
Hot story. My cock was straining to straighten itself out while I was reading, but my chastity device is doing its job too well. I'm hoping for an orgasm in just a few days - after eight weeks of denial.
Absolutely STELLAR Job
02/20/10 By: Makybe_Diva
... on this story series. Both POV's were clear, and distinctly different. It was exciting to watch the wife's evolution, which happened at a natural pace, and seemed logical to her character. I also VERY much like seeing a man-slave who is NOT sissiefied. Unless he's a pantyboy, it seems pointless to me.
What B S
03/11/09 By: Anonymous in USA
You are a good writer,but you story is weak.!!!!
YOU SICK FUCK!
10/15/08 By: Anonymous in UK
Strange????
06/14/09 By: Anonymous in Chi-town USA
I notice in your bio you said straight Who are you kidding. Good luck!!
WOW---Licking cum from her ass hole?
05/11/09 By: Anonymous
It took me ten minutes to finish vomiting after reading that.
Orientation: Straight!!! What a joke
10/06/06 By: Anonymous
You're a homo man. You're like a million other cuckolds who really want the dick but are too scared to write it, so they settle for watching other men fucking their wives and then drinking their cumm. Why dont you just go for it. I for one would love to fuck your stupid face silly and then shoot it all over you whilst calling you names like cum slut! Bitch! Asshole! Wimp. I might even bash you, right in front of your wife and fuck you up the ass. Then I might just choke you and double drop kick you. I bet you will love that, wont you, boy....
HE HAS TO BE GAY OR HE WOULD HAVE BITTEN OFF OR MANGLED THE FIRST COCK PUT IN HIS MOUTH
06/14/10 By: Anonymous
SUCKING ON A DILDO TO GET YOUR WIFE OR GIRLFREIND OFF IS ONE THING BUT SUCKING A REAL COCK IS GAY AND WHEN HE GETS LOOSE..WAIT UNTIL SHE GOES TO SLEEP AND SUPERGLUE THAT DILDO UP HER CUNT THAT SHOULD GIVE HER SOMETHING TO REMEMBER YOU
Shit
10/08/06 By: Anonymous in Iraq--Guard at Abu-Ghraib
Just when it was starting to get interesting, you end it. No getting fucked in the ass by real cocks, no feminization, no crossdressing, no sexual denial. No castration, just licking a cock, and not even sucking one to completion. Total frustration on the part of a reader looking for more pain, humiliation, and heartache. I so looked forward to seeing you put this guy in his place.
Might write a sequel with your permission. Put this guy in a real slave situation. This cunt was far to kind to this worthless motherfucker. He deserved MORE.
I thought sure after he told her that the most degrading thing that he had ever done for her was drink piss that you would have the wife at least shit in his mouth, and maybe her lovers too.
Maybe after a couple of more chapters, crucify him on the cross. (you never did use it in the story.) What purpose was the cross if not just filler for the story? Perhaps a crown of thorns for the "Head" of his cock as she nailed his feet and hands to the cross.
This tale had the potential to be a bdsm tale to equal no others and you missed a great opportunity to bring it to it's fullest potential.
A real-life FEMDOM manual
09/13/07 By: slutty_jannelle in USA
This whole "Owned" series is a veritible 'How-to' manual for the aspiring Dominatrix!
Amazing
03/13/10 By: Anonymous
To have such a choice of options put forth, to have someone force the decision, ... wow, please continue with your writting.
My favorite series of all - please continue soon
02/26/11 By: Anonymous
Excellent writing with a slow, simmering build-up to the defining moment and a promise of challenges to come. I loved it. Thanks!
Are you in my head?
02/12/11 By: JamesTDH
I have to agree that this is the most realistic of your storylines; the most possible. At least, I am desperate to believe that, because this chapter in particular has just read like a script pulled from my mind. Not a fantasy, but a real life wish. Thanks should go to anyone who writes and posts, but your stories are particularly well written. I have to agree a little, in my little experience, the stock phrases do get overused in a session and begin to sound very odd, but it's a minor point, and based solely on opinion. And as such, has a very fluctuating worth! Great writing, please continue...
Great series
02/14/11 By: Anonymous
I don't usually make the effort to comment stories, I usually just click the (star) ratings. I have followed this series since you started it and felt like I should let you know I have been enjoying it. My wife and I play some of these games time to time... and have had conversations like in this particular story before. Thanks for sharing them.
I LOVE THIS !
10/03/06 By: Anonymous in U.K.
This is a well written and well thought out storyline. if you like the type of story, then it's fab! If you don't well it's to bad. So I guess you know I loved these three chapters. The way the author draws you deep into his tale. His discription of events leading up to his subservience. And his wife's dominance. Makes you think your auctualy there. I'd rate this story and his writing 200 if it up to me. Well done and hope to read more from this excellent author.
I Love All 3 Chapters
02/22/10 By: Anonymous
Please keep writing this story! I am thoroughly enjoying watching this wonderful, loving couple traveling up FemDom Avenue. Thank you!
True submission
01/21/08 By: justababygirlSM in USA
Whether you are the male slave in this story or not, you have essentially nailed what it means to be a slave, to be owned, to belong to Another. That is something that only certain people will ever truly understand. To the comments, about sub/slaves being "whimps", it is only the strong that can offer up control of themselves completely. There will always be ignorant comments, but just remember ignorance stems from their own failures and insecurities, don't take it personally, and keep on submitting...stories or....;)
Hot story - good n dirty
03/15/11 By: Anonymous
Love your writing, please write more. Ps - ignore all the complainers - same few people complain at all the cuck stories. If they didn't like it they wouldn't be here reading it. They only moan like bitches coz cuck fantasies turn them on and they can't handle it.
Perfect, just perfect
09/30/10 By: Anonymous
This is what I am looking for from my wife.
Awesome
01/04/11 By: Anonymous
I don't know how you keep coming up with these great stories. Keep writing!
Finally, female domination model based in reality!
12/23/08 By: Anonymous in Portland, OR
This 'capture the moment' domination is right on the money. In the real world, it's not feasible for 24x7 domination. But unfurling the fantasy once a month or so makes it manageable; plus, it makes it hotter when it happens. Bravo, for the concept. I want to use it to implement this fantasy in my own life.
OMG!!
02/19/10 By: Anonymous
This chapter is great!! I've spurted my hard cock into panties... I wish I had this!
Very Hot...
04/28/11 By: HarryHaversackers
Hot story. My cock was straining to straighten itself out while I was reading, but my chastity device is doing its job too well. I'm hoping for an orgasm in just a few days - after eight weeks of denial.
Absolutely STELLAR Job
02/20/10 By: Makybe_Diva
... on this story series. Both POV's were clear, and distinctly different. It was exciting to watch the wife's evolution, which happened at a natural pace, and seemed logical to her character. I also VERY much like seeing a man-slave who is NOT sissiefied. Unless he's a pantyboy, it seems pointless to me.
What B S
03/11/09 By: Anonymous in USA
You are a good writer,but you story is weak.!!!!
YOU SICK FUCK!
10/15/08 By: Anonymous in UK
Strange????
06/14/09 By: Anonymous in Chi-town USA
I notice in your bio you said straight Who are you kidding. Good luck!!
WOW---Licking cum from her ass hole?
05/11/09 By: Anonymous
It took me ten minutes to finish vomiting after reading that.
Orientation: Straight!!! What a joke
10/06/06 By: Anonymous
You're a homo man. You're like a million other cuckolds who really want the dick but are too scared to write it, so they settle for watching other men fucking their wives and then drinking their cumm. Why dont you just go for it. I for one would love to fuck your stupid face silly and then shoot it all over you whilst calling you names like cum slut! Bitch! Asshole! Wimp. I might even bash you, right in front of your wife and fuck you up the ass. Then I might just choke you and double drop kick you. I bet you will love that, wont you, boy....
HE HAS TO BE GAY OR HE WOULD HAVE BITTEN OFF OR MANGLED THE FIRST COCK PUT IN HIS MOUTH
06/14/10 By: Anonymous
SUCKING ON A DILDO TO GET YOUR WIFE OR GIRLFREIND OFF IS ONE THING BUT SUCKING A REAL COCK IS GAY AND WHEN HE GETS LOOSE..WAIT UNTIL SHE GOES TO SLEEP AND SUPERGLUE THAT DILDO UP HER CUNT THAT SHOULD GIVE HER SOMETHING TO REMEMBER YOU
Shit
10/08/06 By: Anonymous in Iraq--Guard at Abu-Ghraib
Just when it was starting to get interesting, you end it. No getting fucked in the ass by real cocks, no feminization, no crossdressing, no sexual denial. No castration, just licking a cock, and not even sucking one to completion. Total frustration on the part of a reader looking for more pain, humiliation, and heartache. I so looked forward to seeing you put this guy in his place.
Might write a sequel with your permission. Put this guy in a real slave situation. This cunt was far to kind to this worthless motherfucker. He deserved MORE.
I thought sure after he told her that the most degrading thing that he had ever done for her was drink piss that you would have the wife at least shit in his mouth, and maybe her lovers too.
Maybe after a couple of more chapters, crucify him on the cross. (you never did use it in the story.) What purpose was the cross if not just filler for the story? Perhaps a crown of thorns for the "Head" of his cock as she nailed his feet and hands to the cross.
This tale had the potential to be a bdsm tale to equal no others and you missed a great opportunity to bring it to it's fullest potential.
Wednesday, 11 June 2008
The story so far...
Mistress R suggested to me that since my blog is now so big, and that no one is really going to read all 1200+ posts, maybe I should write something for newcomers, so here it is then, the story so far with as much background as I can muster. This page will be accessible from the side bar (click on 'Catch Up') so that new readers can catch up as and when they find the blog.
I first knew of Mistress R when I was about sixteen I guess, we lived in a relatively small town where unusual people stand out. Mistress R, or rather just R then I guess, certainly stood out. So I knew who she was. Later I would meet her (briefly), she worked behind the bar of the pub that I frequented for a while, her look had toned down a bit by then and I remember being attracted to her but was either far too shy to chat up a hot barmaid or perhaps more likely I was already in a relationship myself... I'm not too sure of the dates.
I did not see her again for some time. My first relationship finished just before Christmas 1991 and within a week I had spent the night with another girl, 'C' (albeit just sleeping...). That didn't work out, we liked each other but... I think maybe she needed someone a bit more 'useful', as in someone who could fix her car etc.... Hmm.
The next six months were uneventful to say the least, looking back on it I don't really know what I was doing... I was regularly going to clubs but I can't even say I was failing to pick up women, I wasn't even trying. The idea of one night stands never appealed to me in the slightest, this probably contributed to the longevity of my first relationship even though I was not happy in it. I realised at a young age that I was a 'marrying' kind of person... this meant I was probably more reluctant than I should have been to give up on my first relationship, but at the same time this experience didn't alter my views either.
I also felt somewhat out of my depth I think, despite a three year relationship my sexual experiences were somewhat limited*, and since what I really wanted was a relationship, this situation didn't seem to be working for me. In truth I would probably have found it much easier to strike up a relationship had I spent my Saturday nights in the small town where I lived than in a big city where everybody seemed more grown up than me, most of the people I was hanging out with were a bit older and living as students or in their own places, whereas I was still living at home. The other (massive) contributory factor was of course, that while everyone else in the place was drunk I was always stone cold sober.
*My first relationship was with a girl called 'A'. We met at work and although we ended up in bed together the first night, it was six weeks before I finally lost my virginity to her. My first two attempts were disastrous, the first time I came before I even got inside her, the second time I couldn't get hard because I had jacked off so many times the night before trying to prevent premature ejaculation. Go on laugh all you want, I can laugh at it now... The third attempt went very well and I somehow summoned up previously unknown levels of self control, managing to last ten or fifteen minutes!
I realise you might be wondering quite why I am starting this story twenty five years back... well, I think that it's quite important actually, since I am sure all that has gone before has significantly shaped the current me, as you will see shortly.
Despite being significantly older than me, 'A' had never had an orgasm. I wanted to try and help her, but I was hardly an expert, and somewhat bizarrely she was almost afraid of it. I never really understood that... perhaps not surprisingly she was generally ambivalent about sex in general, and she found cum to be messy and unpleasant. Since she was so uncomfortable with sex in general I also became somewhat uncomfortable with it too, at least with her...
There were the odd occasions when things went well, but mostly things were awkward... and most often my orgasms were ruined (though of course I didn't know what a ruined orgasm was at the time). She usually wanted me to pull out when I came (and me being scared to death of getting her pregnant even though she was on the pill, I was quite happy to do so) but strangely I felt far too uncomfortable to grab my cock and finish it off properly so I would ruin onto her stomach... often (well, I say often, it's relative I guess) she would touch my cock but stop short of making me cum too.
You could probably count the number of times I came inside her on one hand actually, which was probably not a bad thing given her lack of discipline when it came to taking her contraception (yes, I could have worn a condom but she hated them, and she was supposed to be on the pill. She was also older and more experienced than me so I kinda thought she knew best....). I did enjoy licking her pussy (on the rare occasions it happened) though I was fucking clueless about what I was doing and she wasn't giving me any direction either!
Bizarrely, despite this pathetic situation I did once lick her ass (God knows how that ever happened!) and also... jokey banter about anal sex led to her fucking me with a fair sized carrot. I think the idea was that if I let her do that then she would let me do her in the ass... well that didn't happen. Actually I think that just put the idea into her head that I might be gay. Sigh...
As time went on I realized that apart from our complete sexual incompatibility, I really didn't like her (or her family) all that much, and I began to withdraw... by this time sex had completely fizzled out anyway. So we met one final time (to say goodbye effectively) and that was that, a week later I was spending the night with 'C'.
'C' could probably have taught me a lot, but for whatever reason it didn't work out. From what I heard later from a mutual friend she probably thought I was a bit too serious about wanting a relationship, which is fair enough. I was unwavering in that, sex for sex's sake was never my goal. I didn't want to 'fuck' lots of women and mark my bedpost... I don't really know why. Maybe that was a mistake on my part, maybe I missed out on learning valuable life lessons that way? I guess I will never know.
The next few months were uneventful, I continued going to clubs with me friends but nothing happened. I became friends with a girl called 'J', but she was a friend's ex and so that went nowhere.
Then one day I was briefly introduced to 'R' by a mutual friend. It was very quick since I was about to leave. If I remember correctly she pointed out that we both lived in the same small town and maybe she could get a lift with me to the city where the club was. Nothing really happened then, but the next week I found myself hoping to see her at the club the following weekend.
The next weekend arrived and no sooner had 'R' spotted me than she had me pinned against a wall snogging my face off. This was more like it! I hadn't experienced this kind of behaviour from a woman before and I bloody liked it! Hard to believe it would take so long for her underlying dominant streak to emerge...
From the start 'R' and I were inseparable. She had a good job and had already bought her own house, which meant that we could spend every night together right from the start. Aside from a short period of illness soon after we met I can't imagine we've spent more than a dozen nights apart in the last twenty one years.
At the time I was in very good shape and we would stay up until the early hours of the morning having sex over and over again. It was awesome! I was upfront about my lack of experience but 'R' was a lot more forthcoming than 'A' and quickly taught me how to make her cum with my fingers and my tongue. Making her cum quickly became my absolute greatest pleasure in life and within a few months we decided that we wanted to be together and decided to get married. I was the first of my friends to get married, by about ten years!
I remember one time that we were experimenting and I tied 'R's wrists to the bed, I don't know why but it totally backfired. I couldn't get hard... I was worried it was hurting her, I think she'd told me that she'd tried something similar with a previous boyfriend and had gotten bruises on her side or something. I don't know... for some reason I am not really comfortable with it, it's a contradiction because I am quite happy to read stories or watch video clips of women being 'used' or treated roughly, but at that time I couldn't do it. Maybe I could now... I don't know. If 'R' wanted to submit to me I would definitely find a way to make it work, but I think that's a bridge I will probably never need to worry about crossing. In my mind women are to be worshipped, I would need to change that attitude if that were the case.
It was a few years before the subject of Femdom came up, I remember sitting on the sofa with 'R' and telling her that I wanted her to dominate me, to be my Mistress. I can't even begin to imagine how I broached that subject... fucking hell, talk about difficult! I'll always remember that 'R' was somewhat taken aback, at first I think she thought I wanted her to cuckold me, but I soon straightened that out!
I don't really remember our first sessions, since they were a long time ago. They were probably fairly tame, though I do remember us buying a whip the first time we went to Erotica, and also buying a strap-on from a mail order company, but I don't think it was used that much.
Towards the end of the nineties things started to unravel a bit, the femdom sex went out of the window and we started to disconnect from each other. It was a horrible time and over the course of a year or so 'R' started to show interest in other people. The whole thing was a nightmare to me, every weekend I was stressed to hell, wondering how much I should take before I just called it a day. It was very spread out, every time I thought would be the last time, and then I would see her flirting with/kissing someone. This is not something that we did, this was not something we saw as acceptable for each other to do. At one point I was so exasperated I asked her if she wanted an open marriage, but she was adamant that she didn't want that, and yet the problem persisted (fueled by alcohol for the most part). I suppose I could have fought fire with fire, but it was simply not in my nature to do that. I guess it would have been easier on me if it had been.
The final straw came at a work party, after putting a very drunk 'R' to bed I sat up all night feeling like this was the end. When she woke up I told her that was it, I wasn't doing this any more. Either she sorted herself out and we moved forward or I needed to find someone else who wanted to be with me and only me. We had very hot sex later that day and that was the end of it, but it took me a very, very long time to fully trust her again.
After this we moved house and the Femdom sessions started again, my best memory of that house was my very first cream pie. Again I don't really remember how I broached the subject, but I knew I wanted it. I clearly remember that she was on top of me, riding my cock until I exploded inside her, and then I remember her lifting off me and moving up the bed to straddle my head. By the time she was over my mouth my cum was just starting to leak out of her, it was so incredibly hot! It was everything I'd hoped for and more and to this day there's something very special about it that I absolutely love.
Another thing that came about sometime round about here was me asking Mistress R if I could lick her ass. At first she was pretty grossed out, I seem to remember... I think I may have just subtly mentioned that I'd done it before so I knew what I was getting into. That seemed to do the trick. Nowadays it's a fairly regular treat, and I love it so much. You can't really get more intimate than licking a woman's ass.
We moved house again in 2003, and ever since then we have been solid as a rock. Moving area seemed to put a line under the problems of the past somehow and the Femdom sessions have been a regular monthly event since.
At various times Mistress R (as she slowly became known) and I have discussed the Femdom side of our marriage. I have always wanted it to be more prevalent and less structured, Mistress R would much rather keep it to a prescribed and restricted level. It would be nice to abandon the sessions and for our Femdom to be spontaneous, but since I am quite sure this would mean less activity not more I am happy to stick with the sessions. Very occasionally Mistress R has paddled my ass out of session, and once or twice she has called on me to worship her feet, but to all intents and purposes the Femdom element of our marriage is restricted to a little CBT outside of the monthly sessions.
Although I wrote some short pieces of fiction in the nineties, it wasn't until the mid 00's that I started to write regularly. Finding Literotica and having somewhere to share my writing was a big boost, unfortunately most of my early stuff was posted under the name 'Malibuman666' rather than 'Robert_Anthony', but I think now most people have realised the connection. The first chapter of 'Owned' (published Sept 2006) is still my most read story with over 175,000 views.
One of the first things I did when I started this blog was to post all my stories on here, and I have added several new pieces since 2011. My plan is to write a proper, publishable novel for retail over the next year to eighteen months, but writing is a very time consuming pastime, so we shall have to see.
I'm not sure when I first discovered chastity play, but reading other people's stories on Literotica gave me a few ideas, in particular I found myself drawn over and over to a story called 'Terri's Teasing Torments'. It had long been a tradition that I wouldn't cum for a few days before a Femdom session, so that I would be aching for release and I suggested to Mistress R that maybe we could increase this length of time. I think a couple of times we used a couple of dice to decide how many days before the session I would be put on 'stop', and then it became normal that it would be a couple of weeks.
At this time every Femdom session would conclude with a huge orgasm for me, often while I was tonguing Mistress's ass. I can't remember when Mistress started making me lick my cum from her fingers, but I know that it was I who prompted it.
Early in 2011 I discovered Sarah Jameson's website and downloaded her chastity book. Everything she said made total sense to me and I was excited at the prospect of being denied relief. I had enjoyed the times leading up to my in-session release and experienced all the post orgasmic downs that Sarah talked about in her book. I also wanted my Mistress's pleasure to be of utmost importance, I had long since persuaded Mistress R that I genuinely loved going down on her, and now I wanted her to get as much out of that experience as I could possibly give her. I bought a book called 'She Comes First' and though I thought I was quite good at eating pussy before that, the reaction I got after the first time I used my tongue and fingers on her after that proved that that book is worth it's weight in gold.
In mid-March 2011 I suggested to Mistress R that she should take total control of my orgasms. She did not react well to this at all. She was exasperated that I was never satisfied with what we were doing, and felt that she was never living up to my ridiculously high expectations. I tried to explain what the benefits would be, but she was totally not having it.
A couple of weeks passed, I had accepted that this wasn't going to happen and resigned myself to continuing as before. Out of the blue Mistress came to me and told me that she would do it. I was more than a little surprised. We went for a walk in the country and Mistress told me that she had some extra rules, I don't know why or how these came about really, but I accepted them on the basis that she was granting me my fantasy so it was fair enough.
The first rule was that I wasn't allowed to ask to cum, the second rule was that I wasn't allowed to ask to be allowed inside her. The first rule was a little strange I thought, surely half the fun was having your man begging for release? But I guess she thought it would be easier to keep me denied if I wasn't appealing to her for release. I did think that this rule would be relaxed at some stage, but so far it hasn't. Actually, I flouted the rule once and once only. Soon after the rule was put in place Mistress was stroking my cock and I begged her to let me cum. She very calmly let go of my cock and left it throbbing against my stomach. She asked me 'Are you asking me to release you from chastity so that you can cum?', this was without doubt a test, if I said yes who knew whether she would ever consent to keeping me denied again. She would have the perfect reason not to after all, I hadn't lasted above a few days without begging.
The thing was, it wasn't that I wanted her to let me cum... I didn't at all! I just wanted to hear her tell me that she would be the one to decide when that would happen, but it kind of backfired on me. I have never asked her again and she has not rescinded the rule either.
The other rule was unexpected and difficult to accept. I hadn't expected to forego penetration as part of this game, and Mistress wasn't exactly falling over herself to give me permission to slip inside her. It confused me that she didn't seem to want penetration as much as I thought she would have and made me question certain things. Mistress stuck to her guns and I learned to accept it.. and learned that when something like that is restricted it becomes so much more powerful. Being inside her now is precious to me, a gift that I will never again take for granted... being allowed on top of her even more so.
At some point along the way Mistress told me I should not touch my cock any more, since it was her property. I don't think Mistress actually thought I would do this, I think it was something said in the heat of a session... somehow over the next few months I confessed each time I failed to keep my hands off and Mistress would use it as a reason to punish me in the next session.
It took a long time to really get to grips with this rule (you guys in chastity devices have it so easy!) but eventually I found that apart from wanting to be strong for my Mistress I found that 'illegal' stroking was never satisfying, it only detracted from the pleasure of being teased by my Mistress and I pretty much stopped it altogether.
At some point I bought a CB-3000, tried it on, discarded it as a useless piece of junk and sold it on.
This didn't matter too much since Mistress R was in no way on side with letting me wear it. Months went by and I had to try again. I bought another CB-3000, tried it again and still could not believe that anyone could wear it as a matter of course. Apart from anything else I couldn't possibly wear it under clothing, it was so fucking ridiculous.
One night I managed to wear it for about thirty minutes, without trousers. It was uncomfortable to say the least. But I knew if I sold it I would end up buying another one when my curiosity was piqued again, so I kept it and it is still in my bedside cabinet. Maybe one day I will try again, maybe it would work better when I have lost weight? Regardless I don't think Mistress will ever want me to wear it and I'm not sure that I want my cock locked away really, I would much rather it was always available for Mistress to stroke whenever she wanted to, spooning wouldn't be nearly as much fun if I couldn't feel my cock throbbing against her beautiful ass, and I don't think she would want to miss out on that either.
Over the last few months I have further encouraged Mistress R to let her mean side out, this has manifested itself in her finally ruining some of my orgasms and also slapping my cock and balls and using her teeth on my cock. I love it when she treats me this way, I know it's hard for her to understand (not being submissive herself) but nothing makes me happier than for her to tease and abuse my cock and leave me throbbing and desperate...except for feeling her bucking against my tongue of course.
I hope that things will continue to progress, I would love her to become more demanding and become more confident about using her body to torment my denied cock, I am hoping that my imminent trip to Slimming World will work to my advantage in that department. Perhaps if I can turn myself into a bit of a hottie again she will feel the need to really assert herself? I really can't think of a better inspiration for trying hard.
I first knew of Mistress R when I was about sixteen I guess, we lived in a relatively small town where unusual people stand out. Mistress R, or rather just R then I guess, certainly stood out. So I knew who she was. Later I would meet her (briefly), she worked behind the bar of the pub that I frequented for a while, her look had toned down a bit by then and I remember being attracted to her but was either far too shy to chat up a hot barmaid or perhaps more likely I was already in a relationship myself... I'm not too sure of the dates.
I did not see her again for some time. My first relationship finished just before Christmas 1991 and within a week I had spent the night with another girl, 'C' (albeit just sleeping...). That didn't work out, we liked each other but... I think maybe she needed someone a bit more 'useful', as in someone who could fix her car etc.... Hmm.
The next six months were uneventful to say the least, looking back on it I don't really know what I was doing... I was regularly going to clubs but I can't even say I was failing to pick up women, I wasn't even trying. The idea of one night stands never appealed to me in the slightest, this probably contributed to the longevity of my first relationship even though I was not happy in it. I realised at a young age that I was a 'marrying' kind of person... this meant I was probably more reluctant than I should have been to give up on my first relationship, but at the same time this experience didn't alter my views either.
I also felt somewhat out of my depth I think, despite a three year relationship my sexual experiences were somewhat limited*, and since what I really wanted was a relationship, this situation didn't seem to be working for me. In truth I would probably have found it much easier to strike up a relationship had I spent my Saturday nights in the small town where I lived than in a big city where everybody seemed more grown up than me, most of the people I was hanging out with were a bit older and living as students or in their own places, whereas I was still living at home. The other (massive) contributory factor was of course, that while everyone else in the place was drunk I was always stone cold sober.
*My first relationship was with a girl called 'A'. We met at work and although we ended up in bed together the first night, it was six weeks before I finally lost my virginity to her. My first two attempts were disastrous, the first time I came before I even got inside her, the second time I couldn't get hard because I had jacked off so many times the night before trying to prevent premature ejaculation. Go on laugh all you want, I can laugh at it now... The third attempt went very well and I somehow summoned up previously unknown levels of self control, managing to last ten or fifteen minutes!
I realise you might be wondering quite why I am starting this story twenty five years back... well, I think that it's quite important actually, since I am sure all that has gone before has significantly shaped the current me, as you will see shortly.
Despite being significantly older than me, 'A' had never had an orgasm. I wanted to try and help her, but I was hardly an expert, and somewhat bizarrely she was almost afraid of it. I never really understood that... perhaps not surprisingly she was generally ambivalent about sex in general, and she found cum to be messy and unpleasant. Since she was so uncomfortable with sex in general I also became somewhat uncomfortable with it too, at least with her...
There were the odd occasions when things went well, but mostly things were awkward... and most often my orgasms were ruined (though of course I didn't know what a ruined orgasm was at the time). She usually wanted me to pull out when I came (and me being scared to death of getting her pregnant even though she was on the pill, I was quite happy to do so) but strangely I felt far too uncomfortable to grab my cock and finish it off properly so I would ruin onto her stomach... often (well, I say often, it's relative I guess) she would touch my cock but stop short of making me cum too.
You could probably count the number of times I came inside her on one hand actually, which was probably not a bad thing given her lack of discipline when it came to taking her contraception (yes, I could have worn a condom but she hated them, and she was supposed to be on the pill. She was also older and more experienced than me so I kinda thought she knew best....). I did enjoy licking her pussy (on the rare occasions it happened) though I was fucking clueless about what I was doing and she wasn't giving me any direction either!
Bizarrely, despite this pathetic situation I did once lick her ass (God knows how that ever happened!) and also... jokey banter about anal sex led to her fucking me with a fair sized carrot. I think the idea was that if I let her do that then she would let me do her in the ass... well that didn't happen. Actually I think that just put the idea into her head that I might be gay. Sigh...
As time went on I realized that apart from our complete sexual incompatibility, I really didn't like her (or her family) all that much, and I began to withdraw... by this time sex had completely fizzled out anyway. So we met one final time (to say goodbye effectively) and that was that, a week later I was spending the night with 'C'.
'C' could probably have taught me a lot, but for whatever reason it didn't work out. From what I heard later from a mutual friend she probably thought I was a bit too serious about wanting a relationship, which is fair enough. I was unwavering in that, sex for sex's sake was never my goal. I didn't want to 'fuck' lots of women and mark my bedpost... I don't really know why. Maybe that was a mistake on my part, maybe I missed out on learning valuable life lessons that way? I guess I will never know.
The next few months were uneventful, I continued going to clubs with me friends but nothing happened. I became friends with a girl called 'J', but she was a friend's ex and so that went nowhere.
Then one day I was briefly introduced to 'R' by a mutual friend. It was very quick since I was about to leave. If I remember correctly she pointed out that we both lived in the same small town and maybe she could get a lift with me to the city where the club was. Nothing really happened then, but the next week I found myself hoping to see her at the club the following weekend.
The next weekend arrived and no sooner had 'R' spotted me than she had me pinned against a wall snogging my face off. This was more like it! I hadn't experienced this kind of behaviour from a woman before and I bloody liked it! Hard to believe it would take so long for her underlying dominant streak to emerge...
From the start 'R' and I were inseparable. She had a good job and had already bought her own house, which meant that we could spend every night together right from the start. Aside from a short period of illness soon after we met I can't imagine we've spent more than a dozen nights apart in the last twenty one years.
At the time I was in very good shape and we would stay up until the early hours of the morning having sex over and over again. It was awesome! I was upfront about my lack of experience but 'R' was a lot more forthcoming than 'A' and quickly taught me how to make her cum with my fingers and my tongue. Making her cum quickly became my absolute greatest pleasure in life and within a few months we decided that we wanted to be together and decided to get married. I was the first of my friends to get married, by about ten years!
I remember one time that we were experimenting and I tied 'R's wrists to the bed, I don't know why but it totally backfired. I couldn't get hard... I was worried it was hurting her, I think she'd told me that she'd tried something similar with a previous boyfriend and had gotten bruises on her side or something. I don't know... for some reason I am not really comfortable with it, it's a contradiction because I am quite happy to read stories or watch video clips of women being 'used' or treated roughly, but at that time I couldn't do it. Maybe I could now... I don't know. If 'R' wanted to submit to me I would definitely find a way to make it work, but I think that's a bridge I will probably never need to worry about crossing. In my mind women are to be worshipped, I would need to change that attitude if that were the case.
It was a few years before the subject of Femdom came up, I remember sitting on the sofa with 'R' and telling her that I wanted her to dominate me, to be my Mistress. I can't even begin to imagine how I broached that subject... fucking hell, talk about difficult! I'll always remember that 'R' was somewhat taken aback, at first I think she thought I wanted her to cuckold me, but I soon straightened that out!
I don't really remember our first sessions, since they were a long time ago. They were probably fairly tame, though I do remember us buying a whip the first time we went to Erotica, and also buying a strap-on from a mail order company, but I don't think it was used that much.
Towards the end of the nineties things started to unravel a bit, the femdom sex went out of the window and we started to disconnect from each other. It was a horrible time and over the course of a year or so 'R' started to show interest in other people. The whole thing was a nightmare to me, every weekend I was stressed to hell, wondering how much I should take before I just called it a day. It was very spread out, every time I thought would be the last time, and then I would see her flirting with/kissing someone. This is not something that we did, this was not something we saw as acceptable for each other to do. At one point I was so exasperated I asked her if she wanted an open marriage, but she was adamant that she didn't want that, and yet the problem persisted (fueled by alcohol for the most part). I suppose I could have fought fire with fire, but it was simply not in my nature to do that. I guess it would have been easier on me if it had been.
The final straw came at a work party, after putting a very drunk 'R' to bed I sat up all night feeling like this was the end. When she woke up I told her that was it, I wasn't doing this any more. Either she sorted herself out and we moved forward or I needed to find someone else who wanted to be with me and only me. We had very hot sex later that day and that was the end of it, but it took me a very, very long time to fully trust her again.
After this we moved house and the Femdom sessions started again, my best memory of that house was my very first cream pie. Again I don't really remember how I broached the subject, but I knew I wanted it. I clearly remember that she was on top of me, riding my cock until I exploded inside her, and then I remember her lifting off me and moving up the bed to straddle my head. By the time she was over my mouth my cum was just starting to leak out of her, it was so incredibly hot! It was everything I'd hoped for and more and to this day there's something very special about it that I absolutely love.
Another thing that came about sometime round about here was me asking Mistress R if I could lick her ass. At first she was pretty grossed out, I seem to remember... I think I may have just subtly mentioned that I'd done it before so I knew what I was getting into. That seemed to do the trick. Nowadays it's a fairly regular treat, and I love it so much. You can't really get more intimate than licking a woman's ass.
We moved house again in 2003, and ever since then we have been solid as a rock. Moving area seemed to put a line under the problems of the past somehow and the Femdom sessions have been a regular monthly event since.
At various times Mistress R (as she slowly became known) and I have discussed the Femdom side of our marriage. I have always wanted it to be more prevalent and less structured, Mistress R would much rather keep it to a prescribed and restricted level. It would be nice to abandon the sessions and for our Femdom to be spontaneous, but since I am quite sure this would mean less activity not more I am happy to stick with the sessions. Very occasionally Mistress R has paddled my ass out of session, and once or twice she has called on me to worship her feet, but to all intents and purposes the Femdom element of our marriage is restricted to a little CBT outside of the monthly sessions.
Although I wrote some short pieces of fiction in the nineties, it wasn't until the mid 00's that I started to write regularly. Finding Literotica and having somewhere to share my writing was a big boost, unfortunately most of my early stuff was posted under the name 'Malibuman666' rather than 'Robert_Anthony', but I think now most people have realised the connection. The first chapter of 'Owned' (published Sept 2006) is still my most read story with over 175,000 views.
One of the first things I did when I started this blog was to post all my stories on here, and I have added several new pieces since 2011. My plan is to write a proper, publishable novel for retail over the next year to eighteen months, but writing is a very time consuming pastime, so we shall have to see.
I'm not sure when I first discovered chastity play, but reading other people's stories on Literotica gave me a few ideas, in particular I found myself drawn over and over to a story called 'Terri's Teasing Torments'. It had long been a tradition that I wouldn't cum for a few days before a Femdom session, so that I would be aching for release and I suggested to Mistress R that maybe we could increase this length of time. I think a couple of times we used a couple of dice to decide how many days before the session I would be put on 'stop', and then it became normal that it would be a couple of weeks.
At this time every Femdom session would conclude with a huge orgasm for me, often while I was tonguing Mistress's ass. I can't remember when Mistress started making me lick my cum from her fingers, but I know that it was I who prompted it.
Early in 2011 I discovered Sarah Jameson's website and downloaded her chastity book. Everything she said made total sense to me and I was excited at the prospect of being denied relief. I had enjoyed the times leading up to my in-session release and experienced all the post orgasmic downs that Sarah talked about in her book. I also wanted my Mistress's pleasure to be of utmost importance, I had long since persuaded Mistress R that I genuinely loved going down on her, and now I wanted her to get as much out of that experience as I could possibly give her. I bought a book called 'She Comes First' and though I thought I was quite good at eating pussy before that, the reaction I got after the first time I used my tongue and fingers on her after that proved that that book is worth it's weight in gold.
In mid-March 2011 I suggested to Mistress R that she should take total control of my orgasms. She did not react well to this at all. She was exasperated that I was never satisfied with what we were doing, and felt that she was never living up to my ridiculously high expectations. I tried to explain what the benefits would be, but she was totally not having it.
A couple of weeks passed, I had accepted that this wasn't going to happen and resigned myself to continuing as before. Out of the blue Mistress came to me and told me that she would do it. I was more than a little surprised. We went for a walk in the country and Mistress told me that she had some extra rules, I don't know why or how these came about really, but I accepted them on the basis that she was granting me my fantasy so it was fair enough.
The first rule was that I wasn't allowed to ask to cum, the second rule was that I wasn't allowed to ask to be allowed inside her. The first rule was a little strange I thought, surely half the fun was having your man begging for release? But I guess she thought it would be easier to keep me denied if I wasn't appealing to her for release. I did think that this rule would be relaxed at some stage, but so far it hasn't. Actually, I flouted the rule once and once only. Soon after the rule was put in place Mistress was stroking my cock and I begged her to let me cum. She very calmly let go of my cock and left it throbbing against my stomach. She asked me 'Are you asking me to release you from chastity so that you can cum?', this was without doubt a test, if I said yes who knew whether she would ever consent to keeping me denied again. She would have the perfect reason not to after all, I hadn't lasted above a few days without begging.
The thing was, it wasn't that I wanted her to let me cum... I didn't at all! I just wanted to hear her tell me that she would be the one to decide when that would happen, but it kind of backfired on me. I have never asked her again and she has not rescinded the rule either.
The other rule was unexpected and difficult to accept. I hadn't expected to forego penetration as part of this game, and Mistress wasn't exactly falling over herself to give me permission to slip inside her. It confused me that she didn't seem to want penetration as much as I thought she would have and made me question certain things. Mistress stuck to her guns and I learned to accept it.. and learned that when something like that is restricted it becomes so much more powerful. Being inside her now is precious to me, a gift that I will never again take for granted... being allowed on top of her even more so.
At some point along the way Mistress told me I should not touch my cock any more, since it was her property. I don't think Mistress actually thought I would do this, I think it was something said in the heat of a session... somehow over the next few months I confessed each time I failed to keep my hands off and Mistress would use it as a reason to punish me in the next session.
It took a long time to really get to grips with this rule (you guys in chastity devices have it so easy!) but eventually I found that apart from wanting to be strong for my Mistress I found that 'illegal' stroking was never satisfying, it only detracted from the pleasure of being teased by my Mistress and I pretty much stopped it altogether.
At some point I bought a CB-3000, tried it on, discarded it as a useless piece of junk and sold it on.
This didn't matter too much since Mistress R was in no way on side with letting me wear it. Months went by and I had to try again. I bought another CB-3000, tried it again and still could not believe that anyone could wear it as a matter of course. Apart from anything else I couldn't possibly wear it under clothing, it was so fucking ridiculous.
One night I managed to wear it for about thirty minutes, without trousers. It was uncomfortable to say the least. But I knew if I sold it I would end up buying another one when my curiosity was piqued again, so I kept it and it is still in my bedside cabinet. Maybe one day I will try again, maybe it would work better when I have lost weight? Regardless I don't think Mistress will ever want me to wear it and I'm not sure that I want my cock locked away really, I would much rather it was always available for Mistress to stroke whenever she wanted to, spooning wouldn't be nearly as much fun if I couldn't feel my cock throbbing against her beautiful ass, and I don't think she would want to miss out on that either.
Over the last few months I have further encouraged Mistress R to let her mean side out, this has manifested itself in her finally ruining some of my orgasms and also slapping my cock and balls and using her teeth on my cock. I love it when she treats me this way, I know it's hard for her to understand (not being submissive herself) but nothing makes me happier than for her to tease and abuse my cock and leave me throbbing and desperate...except for feeling her bucking against my tongue of course.
I hope that things will continue to progress, I would love her to become more demanding and become more confident about using her body to torment my denied cock, I am hoping that my imminent trip to Slimming World will work to my advantage in that department. Perhaps if I can turn myself into a bit of a hottie again she will feel the need to really assert herself? I really can't think of a better inspiration for trying hard.
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