Reaction to 'Maybe Tomorrow'

So 'Maybe Tomorrow' has been published on Literotica for just over a week and it's been read 15,600 times. So far it's scoring a respectable 4.27 out of 5 (with 122 votes). Comments are mixed (aren't they always!), here's the four comments that have been left so far:

ANONYMOUS: Another fine effort. Absolutely fantastic once again. Always look forward to your stories, so well written and erotic. A great little tease and denial tale this one. Thanks for writing.

MR WIDE HORIZONS: Another 5! Love your work, great to see it here again.

ANONYMOUS: Zero stars and I want the time spent reading this trash back!

ANONYMOUS: She should have really used it in her shitty uncleaned arsehole and made him clean it for her. As her useless sub he should never get to penetrate her again and will become just a pair of holes for her and her lovers to abuse as they see fit!

So there you are then... glad to see the Literotica readers are on form as usual...

It Always Comes Back to Mistress's Gorgeous Feet!

I haven't been feeling so great the past couple of days, so unfortunately Mistress and I decided not to have our usual night out tonight. But I did get to do a little repair job on Mistress's toenail where the polish had chipped, and even better I got to spend about half an hour massaging her beautiful feet while we watched the TV. I love Mistress's feet so much, I find it almost hypnotic caressing her feet, it puts me into a bit of a sub-state all on it's own!

Of course, after a half an hour of that I was seriously re-thinking where I want to lick that big load of cum (that I was talking about yesterday) from... this is the problem, it always comes back to Mistress's feet, which is why she made the rule that I couldn't choose the same place twice in a row, which makes it 'easier' if last time I came on her feet because I know I can't choose that, but last time I came inside her, so I could choose her feet, although Mistress already said last night that she might hold me to what I told her last night, which was to lick it off her gorgeous pussy. Not that I'll be complaining if she did you understand, because I really want to do that again too! :)

A Constant Craving...

Looking at our 'Orgasms' page, the results are pretty spectacular so far since the start of our new 'Chastity Year'... in the first two months (not quite finished yet admittedly) Mistress has had twenty orgasms and I have had just two, both of which were ruined! Also, Mistress just had her 950th orgasm since the start of my full time chastity and the creation of this blog on the 1st April 2011.

As for me, I'm on day 66 of my current chastity period, and I'm 'assuming' (although of course one should never assume) that Mistress will probably let me cum before too much longer, being that we're getting close to my record... actually not as close as I thought, turns out that my record is actually 81 days, not 75 as I thought! Hmm... will that affect Mistress's decision I wonder?

Of course one part of me wants to be kept in denial indefinitely, but on the other hand I am really craving a huge mouthful of cum, and moreover I really want to lick it up off Mistress's gorgeous pussy. Alternatively, I guess Mistress could ruin me onto her pussy... that would certainly work for me! She's already had me edge myself for her (just the once so far), maybe the next step could be having me ruin my own orgasm for her amusement.... that would be hot, and a great way for me to show total obedience I would have thought!

But really, I have to admit it's not quite the same to eat your cum when you've been ruined as opposed to when you've pumped every last ounce out of your balls after a long period of denial. There's usually a lot more of it for a start, and because you've essentially flicked the switch and killed off that ultimate horniness, it feels a lot more submissive and humiliating, funny that I am craving that feeling so bad, but that's the way it goes... :)

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My weight loss has started to go in the right direction again, and I'm just one pound off losing two stones (28lbs), which will get me a reward I really do want - watching Mistress playing with her pussy out of a Femdom session. Actually there are other choices, but there's no choice because clearly that is what I'm picking without a second's hesitation. Well, maybe next Tuesday I'll have done it. Wish me luck!

Getting 'In My Head' Again...

I wouldn’t say I’m a pessimist, but as I’ve said before here, I am a bit of a ‘worrier’. Not all the time, and I’m probably less of a worrier now than I used to be, bit still it does rear it’s head from time to time. Case in point, last week, I started noticing I was feeling a bit ‘in my head’, particularly when Mistress and I were in the restaurant/bar we go to on Thursday evenings. When Mistress went to powder her nose, instead of pondering the possibilities of her having me do something ‘interesting’ in the car park on the way back to the car, or her having me kiss her feet for a second in our sheltered little alcove, instead I started ‘worrying’. This feeling returned on Saturday afternoon when Mistress and I were driving around and I said to her only half-jokingly ‘Don’t you sometimes wish I was a little less weird?’

I mean, you probably think that I’ve been full-time in chastity with Mistress R for eight years, so what on earth is there to worry about. That’s true, but as we said, the chastity thing has forged ahead really, while the Femdom side of things has faltered in comparison, and Mistress always said she didn’t want to have a 24/7 Femdom relationship (and neither do I, in as much as I don’t want to be constantly naked, on my knees, drinking her pee out of a dog bowl from the second I get home from work!)

But I do want to feel like our Femdom relationship is as full time as our chastity one, if only in the sense that Mistress can invoke her power at any time and I will fall into ‘slave mode’ immediately. Which I would, obviously!

But yeah, sometimes… I do feel a bit like, self-conscious about how I am. Because it’s not just the one thing: I like having my orgasms controlled, I love worshipping Mistress’s feet and ass, I love being made to eat my cum, I love being fucked in the ass, I love having my balls abused… the list goes on, it would be bad enough if I just had one thing going on, but nah, I have to be a little weirdo with multiple fetishes don’t I!

What makes it worse, is that Mistress doesn’t really have any embarrassing ‘nastiness’ of her own to make me feel better about it all (well, she does, but only in as much as she likes reading some pretty depraved sex stories, which doesn't really help much... since she can read those privately if she wants to).

I’m sure she enjoys whipping me, having her feet kissed, slapping my balls and probably some of the other things, but at the end of the day I’m sure she could just as easily live happily without any of these things.

Mistress, being completely wonderful, reassured me that if there was something she really didn’t like she would tell me. Cross dressing seems to be a red line, which is fine by me because I have zero interest in that. I did joke that I wouldn’t ever ask her to defecate on me, because ‘you have to draw the line somewhere’, Mistress agreed but also said she would draw the line before that.

And she did say that she likes that we have this ‘secret’ life together that nobody else knows about (well, nobody except the people who read our blog, obviously) and that she feels it creates an extra, special ‘bond’ between us, and I totally agree with her on that.

I don’t know, maybe if you live somewhere were you have a community of like-minded people to share your experiences with, does that make it easier to accept your own weirdness? Probably, but I don’t think that’s something that Mistress and I would ever do anyway, we’re antisocial at the best of times, we just prefer to be together really.

To be honest, my worrying has receded again now, albeit I know it will come back sooner or later, and I didn’t write this asking for a pity party. I actually thought it might help someone reading this who’s feeling bad about themselves and their kinks, maybe reading this from someone they probably think has it all together, might possibly make them realise that they’re not the only one who can find it hard to accept that their partner loves them for who they are, no matter how odd they might feel about their own peculiarities.

I am so lucky to have such a wonderful Mistress who accepts me and my kinks, I love her so much and it really quite annoys me that I get these periods of self-doubt. On the other hand I feel like I’m quite lucky to have this forum to talk about these things and get them off my chest.

I guess the thing is, that by opening up about these things to your partner you make yourself vulnerable, but if you don’t then how can you really live the life you want to live? Nothing truly worth having is effortless to attain after all…

After Porn Stops...

Not sure if they are available on Netflix or not, but Mistress and I have watched the first two 'After Porn Ends' documentaries in the last few days and quite enjoyed them. In all honesty I don't recognise that many of the actors, I think they were just a bit before my time (which is a bit weird as I'm approaching 50!), although some of the names were familiar like Houston, Amber Lynn, Asia Carrera and Randy West.

Randy West was quite a funny guy (unfortunately he died several years ago from a heart-attack) and it was interesting to hear these people's take on their experiences within the industry. It's quite funny how many of them (particularly the guys) didn't set out to become 'porn stars', but fell into it when they were offered jobs as a consequence of doing modelling work.

Clearly some of the participants had more negative experiences than others, but overall they were both pretty balanced and well put together programmes. Tiffany Millions (never heard of her to be honest) seems to have come out of it quite well, she's now a warrant officer or something; we see her shooting a pistol in the desert and others seem to have managed to put the past behind them, even though it's not always the easiest thing to do when people recognize you.

Asia Carrera moved away from Hollywood to somewhere that's heavily populated by Mormons, and as she said herself 'put on forty pounds', but still gets recognized and Googled by people who are suspicious of her because she's reluctant to divulge her background.

Then again Brittany Andrews (her laugh is something to behold!) tells us how her life is so brilliant now, she's a DJ and this and that and the other, and how she would never be able to do porn again as it's too 'rough', and yet at the end of the film the 'catch-up' segment tells us that she has indeed gone back to making movies.

One of the best parts of the second documentary was the interview with Georgina Spelvin (The Devil in Miss Jones, 1972) who comes across as a completely adorable 'Granny' figure. Apparently she was only supposed to be working as a cook on the film and they ended up asking her to be in it. She asked if she could still do the cooking, and was paid $45 per do for her cooking and $100 a day for acting! She thought it was brilliant, as she said 'that was a killing in those days!'.

One of the few people in the films I did recognise was Danny D, who was only in it for about a minute or so. He's that guy with the huge 'Chelsea' tattoo on his left arm and who seems to be in every porn scene these days (not least he was in that Doctor Who spoof porn film I mentioned years ago with Franceska Jaimes), I can't imagine why!

Feel free to insert your own 'Tardis' joke here...

There is one more 'After Porn Ends' documentary to watch, although looking at the cast list the only name that I instantly recognized was Tera Patrick, who I always thought was one of the most boring and overrated porn actresses. But she did marry the guy from Biohazard so that might be quite interesting... although I'm pretty sure they didn't last.

Mistress, Please Hurt My Balls...

In typical fashion, no sooner had Mistress got over her recovery time and we had our Femdom session, than her period arrived. Thankfully, tonight I was finally able to make her cum (using my tongue and her favourite glass dildo) and afterwards Mistress stroked me to the edge with a few ball slaps thrown in. After she had edged me I begged Mistress to hurt my balls, Mistress thought for a second and then said 'I will give you seven'.

The first one was good, the second one was a bit of a miss-hit, but the last two were very hard and the last one was one of the hardest I think I've ever had. Of course, rough as it was, I absolutely loved it! My beautiful Mistress just gets more amazing everyday, I can't wait to let her loose on my balls with the ballcrusher… :)

My First Punshment Spanking!

Well, I really didn't think it would happen so soon... but yesterday I got up really early again to go swimming, and being half asleep I forgot to get Mistress's towels out again. Problem was, this time I didn't realise until I was more than 30mins away, far too late to turn back. I was so annoyed with myself, and so cross that the sticker on my dashboard was completely ineffective.

I emailed Mistress and told her as soon as I could and said that she should think of a forfeit, but I honestly wasn't thinking of anything 'Femdomy', I actually suggested that maybe I should wash up on my own or something. Mistress said she was sure she could find something a little more exciting than that, which left me wondering. Maybe I was keeping my expectations low on purpose, after all I didn't want to get my hopes up and be disappointed.

When I got home last night Mistress told me that I would have to be 'punished' when we came back from the pub we sometimes go to on Thursday nights. She didn't say what my punishment would be, and I still didn't want to get my hopes up, so I kept an open mind.

As we have cats, we always get changed when we get home, otherwise our clothes get hairs on them etc, so Mistress said 'Are you getting changed now?'

I told her I was, and she said 'I want you in the bedroom on your hands and knees with your pants off."

Just like that.

She then added, 'You can put your shirt on if you want to.'

I quickly stripped and put my T-shirt on and went into the bedroom. I got down on my hands and knees at the foot of the bed like I do in our sessions and waited for Mistress to come in.

After half a minute or so she came in and said, 'Hmm, I should have told you to get the whip out shouldn't I?'

She searched through our toy drawer and said, 'I can't find the whip, so you'll have to make do with the paddle instead.'

She came back and stood next to me.

'Well slave,' Mistress said. 'I want you to confess to your mistake first.'

I wasn't expecting that and I had to think...

'Er, I am sorry I forgot to put your towels out this morning Mistress.'

Mistress moved behind me and said 'You know the drill slave.'

She gave me eleven smacks in all, which stung, but weren't unbearable. My ass is still a little bit tingly now, so I think it was a good punishment, appropriate for the mistake.

When she'd finished Mistress sat on the bed and told me to worship her feet. I turned and held her beautiful feet, kissing them all over as she looked down at me, my cock starting to harden. Mistress was dressed, which kind of added to it in a way, since this wasn't supposed to be about me getting to see her naked, it was about her punishing me and me showing how much I adore her.

When she had had enough Mistress told me to straighten up and she rubbed her foot against my cock and balls. I straightened up even further, pushing them forward, wondering if she might just want to maybe give my balls a little kick... hahaha. Okay now I was definitely getting a bit carried away!

Afterwards Mistress said to me, 'If this is going to be a regular thing I will have to remember to tell you to get out the paddle or whatever I want to use on you.'

Which was music to my ears... I am so pleased that Mistress decided to punish me like this. I think she enjoyed it, and I enjoyed it too, maybe not so much while it was actually happening, but afterwards, certainly.

I really hope this is going to become a 'regular' thing, although preferably for her entertainment rather than because I forget to carry out the tasks I promised to do for her! I think a spanking for 'no reason at all' would be even better somehow. :)

I'm quite excited. For a very long time I've wanted a Perspex ball crusher, but the only ones I could find were £60 or more and I just couldn't really justify the cost. Well, yesterday I found one selling on eBay from China for £9 and I just couldn't pass that up. Maybe it's an inferior product, but it's probably pretty much the same thing. It's clear so Mistress will be able to see how much she's crushing my balls and if it turns out to be a non-starter for whatever reason then at least it won't be a total waste of money.

Delivery is a couple of weeks, which is a bit of a shame, but still... I can't wait to try it out. Maybe this will be Mistress's next punishment option?

Seventy Five Seconds of Wow / Ouch! (Delete as Applicable!)

This clip is part of a video that's been linked on my video page since last December, so I guess there's every chance that a large percentage of you have already seen it before. The whole video is about 8-9 mins long I think, but this is probably the best part. I don't know how this guy can take 8 mins of this really, but it's fucking hot. I wish I could take that. Wow. Goddess Tangent clearly enjoys her work! :)

Here's the full video..



Also, here's another really good chastity/teasing video called 'Frustration Training' by Marie Kafer, again if you visit my video pages often you'll most likely have already come across this one as well, but if you haven't it's well worth a look...

A Couple More Old Stories for You...

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Of Towels and the Joy of Sliding Off Panties...

One of the things that has really stayed with me from yesterday's session (and there are quite a few to be fair!) is when Mistress stood on the bed in front of me and had me slide her panties off for her. I don't know why that made such an impression on me really, as there were far more 'extreme' things that we did... but for some reason that keeps popping up in my mind. I think a lot of it was because I was on my knees and she was above me, I really love that. I also had pegs on my nipples and my ball stretcher on of course, and that added to it, but still, just the act of peeling Mistress's panties off so that I could worship her pussy was sooooooooo lovely. I also loved that she made me kiss them before I put them to one side, that was hot as well.

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I want to tell you something, which may sound somewhat insignificant to you, but I take great heart from it. This morning I set off for work and as it was so early and I wasn't really fully with it, I completely forgot about getting Mistress's towels out and folding them ready for when she gets home. About ten minutes down the road I realised what I had done and took a detour back to home so I could remedy my oversight (fortunately I was going swimming anyway so I wasn't late for work).

Later I emailed her and told her what I had done and I was so pleased that she didn't say 'Oh you didn't need to do that' or something, like she probably would have before we signed our new contract. Even when I got home I was half expecting her to say something like that, but she didn't and I am so pleased. After all I made a commitment to put her towels out and I take that very seriously. Obviously it's not really about the towels themselves, it's symbolic, and it's a way I can serve Mistress every day in a helpful and thoughtful way (and without being a pest).

Consequently I now have a little sticker stuck on my dashboard which says 'towels', so hopefully I won't make the same mistake again! :)

Answering a Couple of Comments...

Anonymous said: First your dick is replaced by a dildo and penetration is limited, next you sign a contract agreeing to 'anything' that pleases your mistress... don't you see where this is heading? but maybe that's what you wanted all along.

Kay said: Wow, your contract sounds amazing. I love how much power you have given here but have you really thought it thru? The bit where you said: That Robert's primary focus at all times should be Mistress R's pleasure and satisfaction by whatever means she decides, sounds like she could do pretty much anything. Are you really ready for that? And even though you say you don't like pain you've given her the freedom to whip and paddle you whenever she wants for no reason? What if she gets really into doing that and wants to do it a lot? It's a shame you've already signed your contract, wouldn't it have been nice to have some kind of signing ceremony or something. You could have made Mistress R cum with your tongue and then she could have fucked you in the ass to cement your new agreement. :)

Hi Kay, thanks for your continued contributions, always appreciated. I guess you have to realise that while the contract says 'anything', we already have defined limits to our marriage, it's not like the contract replaces 25 years of marriage. It's more about giving Mistress the green light to bring the things we do in our sessions into our everyday lives and also making her aware that she can make her own rules when it comes to teasing etc... Am I ready for that, hell yeah!

No I don't crave pain, but even though it hurts I still enjoy it when Mistress whips and paddles me, because it's her doing it and I know she enjoys it. If Mistress gets to enjoying it more and wants to do it often I guess I'll have to get used to it too. Honestly I hope she does!

Yes it is a pity we didn't think a bit more about a signing ceremony, it would have been cool to sign my name while Mistress was fucking me in the ass with her strap-on!

As for Anonymous, it's not leading there, I can assure you.

Maybe Tomorrow (written May 2019)

“Baby, can you come here please,” it wasn’t a question; she never called me ‘baby’ unless she meant business.

I walked into the bedroom to see her sitting on the end of the bed; she had on a tight T-shirt and her panties and some cute little socks. A few items lay on the bed, but what made me catch my breath was the strap-on she was wearing and the way she was smiling at me.

“Come here,” she said, waggling her finger enticingly.

I moved right up close to her and she told me to kneel down in front of her. She moved forward a little, her legs open… she was already stroking her ‘cock’.

“I hope you enjoyed last night baby, I loved watching you squirm as you rubbed your cock against my sweet pussy, up and down, just letting the head peek between my lips. I know you wanted to put it in me so bad, but you know the rules… not until I say.”

She leaned forward and whispered, “I am so lucky to have such a sweet husband who would suffer all that and still eat me to three wonderful orgasms…”

I bit my lip, remembering how she had bucked and writhed under my tongue and how much I had loved giving her those orgasms, even though my cock was aching to cum the whole time, even though I knew she probably wouldn’t let me.

This was our sex life now, I had wanted it and despite her initial reservations Cara had realised the benefits and grasped the opportunity with both hands, now I never knew what was coming, but I knew it was always going to be good.

“Mmm, I think you need to show me how much you love my ‘cock’ baby, c’mon and suck it for me.”

I leaned forward and took the tip of the soft rubber cock in my mouth, I’d lost count of the times she’d fucked me with it. The last time she’d even ruined me just by fucking me and rubbing it against my prostate, I couldn’t believe it, but I’d been nearly a hundred days without any release at all, so I guess it had to happen sooner or later.

“Good boy, take it deeper…”

Cara began moving her hips, fucking my mouth with her rubber ‘cock’, I was still self-conscious about doing this even though I had prompted the idea, I guess it’s hard for an essentially ‘straight’ guy to completely accept his own quirks…

“Mmm, that looks so hot; I wish I had a real cock that I could fuck you with… I would love to dump my cum right down your throat.”

Cara pulled my head forward so that I was starting to gag on the rubber cock, I’m not going to lie, I kinda liked it when she did that, especially when she teased me at the same time.

“You’d like that wouldn’t you? You’d love it if I had a real cock and you could swallow my load all the time… instead of having to wait months and months for your own.”

I grunted my agreement, fuck this woman knew how to push my buttons, my cock was crushed inside my jeans and was aching to be stroked but I knew better than to even think about it without permission.

Cara pulled me down harder until I gagged a little and then pulled my head off her dick, then she kissed me deeply, out tongues meshing, both of us breathing hard.

“That’s enough for now baby,” she said playfully. “I have something else in mind today.”

I raised my eyebrows and she smiled.

“But first I need you to get up for me.”

I stood up and she turned me round, then grabbed my wrists and pulled them behind my back. She slipped a Velcro cuff on each and then clipped them together.

“Perfect!” She said, spinning me back round to face her.

“Now kneel down again baby, and then I’m going to put this on you.”

I knelt and she grabbed my blindfold from the bed, it was made of rubber and was quite oversized so peeking out was difficult. The darkness enveloped me and I heard her moving about. First the sound of her unclipping her strap-on and then the sound of her moving off the bed to stand in front of me.

“Could you take my panties off for me baby?”

I started to say I couldn’t as she’d just tied my hands behind my back, when she added.

“You can use your mouth.”

My cock throbbed hard and I leant forward slowly. I caught the material of her panties in my teeth and gently pulled them down. It took a while and Cara giggled throughout, telling me how horny she was and couldn’t I hurry it up.

Finally I got the panties past her knees and she stepped out of them.

“You know, it’s such a shame you can’t see me right now… because this afternoon I shaved my pussy for you.”

I gulped audibly, I had been asking her to do that for so long, but she never would and now she had and I couldn’t see it!

“Here,” she said, pulling my head closer.

My lips touched her completely smooth mound and she sighed softly, enjoying the feeling of my touch.

“Taste it,” she purred.

I stuck out my tongue and eased it between her smooth, wet lips… she was already very turned on and as always she tasted absolutely incredible.

“Mmmm,” she moaned. “That is so good.”

Abruptly she pulled away and bent down to kiss me, tasting her own juices on my lips.

“You love that taste so much don’t you baby, I’m so lucky to have a husband who loves my sweet pussy so much.”

I mumbled my appreciation; truly I was the lucky one in this relationship, whatever she might think.

“But tonight I want to do something different, I know you’ve wanted me to shave my pussy for so long… but there’s something else you’ve always wanted me to do as well  isn’t there?”

“Yes,” I groaned heavily, not entirely sure what she was referring to, but willing to take an educated guess.

“Uh huh, and maybe one day I will let you do that… but for now I think I just need to practice on my own, so…”

I felt the head of her favourite dildo pressed against my lips and I opened them to allow it to fill my mouth.

“Get it nice and wet for me baby, you can do that can’t you?”

I summoned every ounce of saliva I could and left the surface of the rubber cock as wet as possible, finally she removed it from my mouth.

“That’s lovely baby, I know this is going to feel so good inside me.”

I heard her lean back on the bed and start working the dildo between her legs, she was so wet already, having me suck it for her was as unnecessary as it was enjoyable for both of us.

“Mpfhhhhhh! God that feels good…” she sighed.

I listened carefully to every movement she made, robbed of my sight it was all I could do to enjoy every second of this experience.

Cara moaned as she rode her dildo, obviously I couldn’t see but I’m sure her finger was rubbing her clit too and before long I heard her breathing start to become laboured.

“I’m…. cumming,” she panted.

If she hadn’t secured my wrists together I really don’t know if I could have resisted the temptation to rip my blindfold off, the thought that my wife was getting her freshly shaved pussy off just inches away from my face was one of the most frustrating and erotic experiences of my life so far, I loved how cruel it was and couldn’t help but admire her creativity.

Cara bucked on the bed, moaning loudly through her orgasm and then gently fucking herself with the dildo as she came down from her high. I heard her move on the bed and from the way it sounded she was turning over onto her front.

“I’m on my knees now baby, if only you could take that blindfold off, you’d be able to see my beautiful shaved pussy and my ass… I know you love looking at my ass don’t you baby, looking at it, touching it, tasting it… what else would you like to do to my tight little asshole sweetie?”

“I want to push my cock inside it,” I croaked, barely able to speak at this point.

Cara chuckled, and I heard her move again.

“I’m pulling the dildo out of my pussy now baby, it’s so fucking wet… I know you want to clean it for me, but I need it nice and wet for what I’m going to do next.”

My mind raced, she had to be kidding… first the shaven pussy and now this! I pulled at the restraints in frustration, they were firm and deep down I knew she’d be annoyed if I ruined her game, but dammit this was driving me crazy!

“Mmmm,” moaned Cara. “It’s pressing against my asshole baby; it feels nice, just like when you touch me with your fingers or your tongue.”

I could just about hear her moving, inches away from where I knelt.

“Ooooh, the… the tip’s inside me baby, it feels bigger than I thought it would.”

Cara’s dildo was about seven inches and shaped like a real cock with a pronounced head. I wondered if she had bitten off more than she could chew, maybe she would cry off sooner rather than later?

“Oh fuck, that’s big,” she hissed. “Oh…. fuck, it’s stretching me so bad!”

Again my cock pulsed at the thought of her virgin ass finally being penetrated, and I began to wonder, what would happen next. Would she let me fuck her ass after she got used to the dildo, or was that hopelessly wishful thinking? Damn my cock hurt so much!

Cara breathed heavily for a minute or two as she worked the cock deeper and deeper into her ass. Occasionally she stifled a cry as she pushed it in, the head proving more difficult to take than she anticipated.

“Oh God, this is too much…” she wailed. “I can’t get it all in, but I’m sooo close!”

Cara gave one final grunt as she forced the dildo all the way in and then started fucking herself with it.

“Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh FUCK!” She cried as she pounded her asshole. “It hurts, but it feels so fucking good!”

I listened to every sound she made, every word she uttered and prayed that soon she’d at least take the blindfold off and let me see something… anything of this!

But then I heard her move again, and give a moan of relief as she pulled the rubber prick clean out of her ass.

“Oh my fucking God…” she breathed. “I never knew it could hurt so good, no wonder you love it when I fuck your ass.”

By now I really couldn’t speak, I felt her moving closer and sensed the dildo hovering near my mouth.

“You loved that didn’t you baby? Even though I was too mean to let you watch.”

“Yes,” I croaked.

“And you know what you have to do now, don’t you?”

Seriously, after putting me through all this torture she was going to make me suck her dildo clean…

“I mean, you wouldn’t want me to make you wait until I’d grown my hair back to let you see my pussy again… would you?”

“No… please don’t do that.”

“Well, then…”

She placed the tip of the dildo against my lips and I opened them to let her push it inside. I felt the rubber slide along my tongue and I tasted her sweet pussy juices but nothing else.

“You really thought it was in my ass didn’t you baby?”

I almost choked on the rubber cock as I struggled not to laugh. Damn this woman really played me like a fool...

“I’m so mean to you aren’t I baby, but you love it don’t you… maybe tomorrow I’ll let you rub your cock all around my silky smooth pussy, would you like that baby? Would you like to rub your poor aching cock all over it and maybe put the tip inside for a second or two? Would you?”

“Yes,” I gargled as she fucked my mouth with her dildo.

“Maybe I’ll even let you cum on it and lick it clean, I know you’d love that wouldn’t you baby? You’d love to lick all that creamy cum off my slippery smooth pussy wouldn’t you?”

I nodded slowly.

“I know you would. Well... maybe, tomorrow.”

FEMDOM SESSION: 19th May 2019

Last month was the first time we have missed a session this year, I know we said we were determined to maximise our sessions this year and we still are, but unfortunately last month things were out of our control a little bit. Thankfully everything seems back to normal now and with our freshly signed contract in the bag, we couldn't have headed into this session feeling more positive!

Mistress told me to wear the Oxballs Ballstretcher, but left the rest up to me and I chose to wear my rubber blindfold and to insert the ring-ended butt plug. Incidentally, I could really use a bigger ring ended butt plug, because the one I have isn't really big enough but the ones I have that are big enough don't have any way for Mistress to pull them out (her nails are really, really long and it fucking hurts when she tries to get hold of the bases - and not in a fun way!). Still, for now it would do.

When Mistress came in she rubbed her instep against my tightly stretched balls and asked me if I had any touching to confess to. When I told her I had, she asked me if I had touched my cock since I had signed our new contract. I told her I hadn't, and she reminded me that I can always ask for permission to touch my cock, then told me to get on all fours. She gave me about fifteen strokes of the cat I think, and then about eight with the paddle. It hurt, but at the same time I was thinking how it would feel if Mistress was doing this out of session, possibly for her own amusement and I don't have any regrets about putting that in the new contract.

Then she had me turn towards the bed and she pulled the blindfold off, but told me to keep my eyes closed. When she allowed me to open them I got to see her for the first time, with a PVC bra and leather skirt she looked as amazing as always but she quickly told me to keep my eyes down. She had me suck on her glass dildo and get it ready for her pussy, then told me to focus on her feet as she toyed her pussy. I love it when she does that, it's so hot kissing her beautiful feet and not being allowed to look up, even though I really, really want to!

She teased me about how much harder it must be to have to force myself not to look, instead of having it easy with the blindfold in place and reminded me to keep my eyes on her feet, unless I wanted some more paddling. I kept my eyes on her feet and listened intently to her verbal teasing and the sound of the dildo moving inside her. She had me lick and suck the dildo clean and then told me to worship her other foot...

Eventually she had me up on the bed and secured me face up to the four corners. Up until now my cock hadn't really got that hard, even though I was loving every minute. But now with Mistress standing over me and finally allowing me to look up at her it soon started to get hard. Even more so when Mistress sank down and smothered my mouth with her delicious pussy. God she tasted incredible, and Mistress was so right when she said I would 'do this all day'.

Then Mistress stood over me and teased me with her pussy and pulled her ass cheeks apart, before grabbing the cock whip and starting to beat my rock hard cock. This went on a while, with Mistress straddling my face every so often and treating me to more of her delicious juices. It felt great having Mistress whip my cock and balls, even though sometimes it was a little painful. When I winced a little or flinched a bit more than usual Mistress would ask me if I wanted her to stop and I would tell her no. Yeah, it hurts for a second but I love it and my cock was like a fence post! :)

At one point Mistress had me lick her beautiful pussy again and then sat down on my cock, taking it all inside her and riding it for a little while. She was already really, really wet and it felt so good to feel her slick pussy wrapped around me. As she sat on my face again she teased me about what was my favourite thing in the whole world, knowing full well that it was exactly that. But then again, I love licking her asshole too... she said wouldn't it be awful if I had to choose one or the other? That would indeed be terrible! She emphasised how terrible it would be by rubbing her ass in my face and warning me not to touch, I had to make do with breathing in her scent and hoping she would let me plunge my tongue into it later. Meanwhile my cock felt like it was about to explode!

She also made a wonderful suggestion, that she should take to wearing her leather mini skirt around the house with no panties and drive me crazy by bending over and flashing me all the time. That sounded awesome to me, I would absolutely love her to drive me crazy like that! I'm still hoping one day when we're out she'll whisper to me that she doesn't have any panties on, but maybe starting off at home would be easier... :)

The first half of the session went so quickly, I could hardly believe it when Mistress reached for the clothes pegs and applied them to my nipples... I watched her walking around the bed, looking absolutely gorgeous and then she was gone for a few minutes leaving me with the sweet taste of her pussy in my mouth. I didn't notice the pegs too much, largely because once my cock softened the ballstretcher started to sting quite a bit, I guess it had been on for 35-40 minutes.

When she came back Mistress was wearing her Ann Summers crotchless panties, which push her gorgeous pussy lips right forward. She untied me and then told me to get up on my knees and then onto all fours. I wondered if she was going to use the strap-on on me, but apparently I needed a little more punishment to remind me that touching my cock without permission was forbidden.

She administered about another fifteen strokes of the cat, and as I counted each stroke (actually she was going quite fast and I was struggling to get the words out before the next one landed) I wondered if this second set was a good sign and that I could look forward to more of this 'out of session'?

Then she told me to get back up on my knees and she got on the bed and pulled my face against her pussy. She told me to thank her for my punishment and I eagerly licked her slippery pussy lips. She pulled me tighter, pressing my nose hard against her mound. I really loved that part... then she reached down and pulled the pegs off my nipples and told me to remove the dildo from my ass.

Then she turned around and told me to take her panties off for her. This was really hot, I really loved peeling her panties off and sliding them down her stunning, smooth legs... then she told me to kiss them and drop them on the floor, which I did. She turned around and told me to move back down the bed and then settled in front of me with her legs spread.

She told me it was time to worship her gorgeous pussy and I moved between her legs, kissing her sexy inner thighs and listening to her gentle moans and breathing as my tongue slid between her lips and up to her clit. It was fantastic, and I loved every second of it, although I was a little awkward because I couldn't use my first finger to tease her pussy and ass because it hasn't healed from my carpet laying knife cut the other day. Still, Mistress didn't seem too put out and she still came nice and hard!

Then she stood up and turned around again and told me to clean her up. I quickly sucked my fingers clean and then started slurping the copious amounts of pussy juice that where dripping from between her legs, that was super-hot, although Mistress thought I was trying to sneakily lick her ass, I wasn't, I was licking the juices from between her cheeks and then the second time it was my nose pressing against her asshole as I tried to reach under to lick her pussy clean.

Then she turned around and had me lick all around her pussy again, cleaning up all her juices, before telling me to lie down on my back again and then standing over me and curling her fingers around my cock. As I looked up and saw how much juice was still all around Mistress's pussy and ass my cock started getting harder, and I asked Mistress if I could please continue cleaning her.

She sank down and I used my tongue to get every last bit of her thick, delicious nectar while she slapped and stroked my cock. Then she stood up again and teased me some more with her ass, pulling her cheeks really wide and stretching her hole, making me want it soooooooooo badly. She made me beg for it, and then sank down onto my tongue, slapping my balls as I probed her asshole. God I love licking her ass, she really could make me do anything if she really wanted to.

Mistress let me lick her ass three or four times, and made me beg for it each time. It was so good to taste her ass and as always it was sooooo disappointing when she climbed off and told me that was all I was getting for today. She stroked my cock and slapped my balls a little while longer and I thought she was going to keep going until I edged, but then she suddenly stopped and told me that was it.

What a wonderful way to celebrate our new agreement, and Mistress was also pleased that when she asked me how many days it was since my last orgasm early in the session, I could tell her straight away that it was 57!

This Made Me Laugh...

Our New Chastity and Femdom Contract is Signed!

Well that was quick wasn't it? When I pulled out the old contract I realised it was actually pretty sound, it just needed a few things adding here and there and some more specifics to ensure we both knew exactly what was being agreed. When I did the first draught there was a couple of minor things I thought maybe Mistress might want to change, one of which concerned the frequency of my orgasms. I put in that Mistress was under no obligation to allow me any minimum number of ruined or full orgasms, and that in fact the minimum number of each possible was zero. I thought she might object to that, but she was keener to add in some parts herself, which was great!

One thing she wanted to include was that I should always be aware of how many days it has been since I've been allowed to orgasm. In the past I was always quite up to date on that front, but as time has gone on and chastity has become more and more my 'normal' state, I've tended not to obsess about it so much. But Mistress likes to ask me sometimes when she's teasing me, and I guess it's good that I am constantly aware of it, it keeps it clear in my mind and reminds me constantly that she controls my orgasms, which is exactly the way I like it.

We also want to get back to me kissing her feet every day, even if it's only very briefly... and we've formalised that it is my responsibility to prepare her glass dildo for use whenever we are going to bed (ie: make sure it has been washed and warmed up in hot water if it's cold).

Aside from the obvious things that have been in force forever like me not being allowed to touch my cock without permission or ask to be allowed to cum or ruin, the new contract also states that:

All penetrative sex will be at Mistress's instigation, and that Robert is not allowed to ask for it.

Robert will always address Mistress R as Mistress when we are in bed together, or when performing any kind of worship.

That while Mistress R can choose to use any toys at any time, Robert only has free use of the Oxballs Ballstretcher and the plain rubber cockring. This includes the paddle, crop and whip which Mistress can employ at any time to administer any punishment she feels necessary or just for her 'entertainment*'.

Whenever Robert is allowed to cum or ruin, he will be expected to consume his cum in whatever manner and from wherever Mistress decides. On occasion Mistress may gift the choice of location to Robert.

And finally...

That Robert's primary focus at all times should be Mistress R's pleasure and satisfaction by whatever means she decides. By contrast, Robert's teasing should be viewed as a gift bestowed by Mistress at her discretion. Thought Robert does not wear a chastity device, it should be considered as implied and Mistress should not feel 'obliged' to tease Robert just because he has worshipped her body*.

*You might think that I'm slightly nuts writing these two things into the contract (especially as I don't get off on pain - although, maybe I will learn to?), but I wanted to give Mistress as much freedom as possible and while it sounds a little crazy, the idea of her choosing not to tease me after I have made her cum or deciding out of the blue to whip my ass for no reason other than she wants to, is really hot! Imagine if she decided to whip me, then use my tongue for her pleasure and then told me she wasn't going to touch my cock...! Mmmm.

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I guess this contract writing business must have been on my mind last night, and also a discussion Mistress and I had when were in the cocktail bar the other day, particularly the bit about the things Mistress doesn't believe I want to do, even though I say I do...

So this morning I was half asleep, dreaming about her sliding down her tight little workout shorts and having me lick her hot, sweaty asshole before she got in the shower...

No joke, I woke up so fucking hard I had to put my hands underneath my ass just to stop myself from touching it! Thankfully it subsided after a while, which was just as well as I had to go the supermarket and the last thing I needed while I was trying to work out where everything had moved this week was a boner from hell!

A Wonderful Mistress Day Leads to a Fresh Impetus!

Well, I've got quite a lot to talk about today... but first, I've just noticed that my view counter has ticked over a very big number, so thank you to everyone who has visited my blog over the last eight years. It is a teeny bit annoying that the number would be 2m higher if I could add in the views from Fetblogger and the time I split the blog into two blogs way back near the start... but there you are. It's still a lot more than I ever thought it would achieve when I first opened my blog in April 2011, so thanks to all you guys, especially the ones that have been with me from the start.

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Next up, my latest Milovana tease 'Valentina's Message' is doing okay, as predicted it fell from it's perfect '5' rating down to 3.9 (last time I looked), but that was probably about where I expected it to drop to. If you haven't seen it yet, you can check it out here: VALENTINA'S MESSAGE.

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I've had an idea for a story kicking around for a long time and when I picked it up again I started second guessing my original plan for it. It's a story that Mistress R would like, so I asked her opinion about which of the two options I had thought of would be best, and she came down very firmly on the side of the original over the alternative. Mistress then started suggesting ways the story could go which I wasn't expecting, but was most welcome. So I think what I'm going to do is write the first part and then let Mistress read it and then she can tell me where she wants the story to go next. A collaboration of sorts, albeit I will be doing the writing. I also have another 'short' story that I plan to write soon, one which will perhaps be more appropriate for readers of my blog (although hotwife stories are pretty popular too I'm sure). It will be pretty short, so I will try and squeeze that in this weekend.

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The other day I mentioned that Mistress and I would be celebrating 'Mistress Day' on Wednesday. It was an excellent day, we went on a river trip and ended up at a fantastic cocktail bar and restaurant that we've visited before. Spending the whole day together with no outside distractions was really good and over our cocktails we started to open up about the whole 'Chastity/Femdom' thing.

Mistress said she feels like although she knows it's good that I have the blog to get my feelings out, she still wants me to feel like I can talk directly to her as well. It's true, I do find it a lot easier to write my thoughts down, but since I can often go round in circles and get fixated on certain things, it's not always the ideal solution.

One of the things we discussed was the PIV (penetrative sex) issue, which is confusing enough to me never mind how she must read it. Back in April 2011 when I approached Mistress about taking 100% control of my orgasms, out of the blue she stipulated that she also wanted to control when I was allowed inside her. This was at least partly because at the time my cock was very unreliable and Mistress wanted to be sure I was hard enough, which is fair enough.

We've stuck to this ever since and while I have occasionally told her how badly I wanted to be inside her, I've never tried to circumvent the rule. I mean, I have rubbed my hard cock against her pussy a few times... but technically I feel I've been a good sub. :)

You remember this all raised it's head after my horrible dream a few weeks ago, which I never really fully explained and I don't particularly want to now. The thing is, it's kind of a given that I want to be allowed inside Mistress R's silky pussy, so it's ridiculous to think that she would think otherwise... but there's no accounting for logic in dreams, even ones that reflect our own insecurities (which mine unfortunately have a tendency to). In fact, another rule Mistress insisted on when she agreed to take control of my orgasms was that I wasn't allowed to ask to cum, her reasoning was that she doesn't need to hear me begging, because she knows I want to cum every time my cock is hard... can't really argue with that, at least not when you're hovering on the edge... :)

Anyway, I willingly agreed to Mistress's terms and I would genuinely rather wait until she really wanted me inside her anyway. Having PIV sex less often is a generally accepted side-product of chastity, since it's hard for a guy not to want to keep going once he's inside, especially if he's on top, and if he's been denied a while the edge can come a lot sooner than is ideal!

On the flipside, having less PIV sex means that when you do, it feels even more incredible than if you're getting it regularly - although, again that doesn't help so much when it comes to holding back. Personally, I find that it's a lot easier to hold back if Mistress is on top* since then it's a case of her riding me rather than me 'thrusting' into her, but unfortunately Mistress said that the last couple of times she tried this she'd found it a little uncomfortable (which may be due to the same issue as led to her visiting hospital a fortnight ago).

* Although not so much if she takes her bra off and allows me to look up at her utterly gorgeous breasts. Obviously! (How mean would it be to take her bra off and then forbid me from looking, that would be sooooo cruel).

Obviously I'd like to feel Mistress's warm, wet pussy wrapped around my cock, but at the same time I more concerned that she is comfortable and enjoying herself. What I'm trying to say is that penetration is lovely, but I can live without it and still be totally satisfied. I would be a lot more upset if I couldn't worship Mistress's delicious pussy for example! I mean, we've had had a LOT of amazing sex over the last 8 years that didn't involve penetration at all, so it's something I'm quite prepared to have as a 'treat' rather than a basic requirement. And of course, I also appreciate that if my cock isn't working properly that day then it's best avoided anyway...

So once we'd cleared up any communication issues over that we continued talking and I brought up that I thought while the 'chastity' side of things was and had always been great, I always felt like the Femdom side of things had lagged behind a lot. We discussed this a bit and brought up the possibility of renewing our Chastity & Femdom contract. Looking back on it, the original was pretty vague and didn't really say too much, and so I am in the process of writing a fresh draft of that, which hopefully Mistress will find agreeable (and will hopefully want to add her own ideas to as well).

It was so nice being together in the cocktail bar, just the two of us talking about our relationship and I felt so close to Mistress then, I wish I could have the balls to kneel on the floor and kiss her beautiful feet right there. But of course, I didn't - I think the furthest we've gone down that road is me doing up her shoelaces for her in public, though I remain hopeful that one day she'll tell me to kiss her pussy in a dark pub car park or something. :)

We had a gorgeous meal and then returned home, where we stayed up extremely late, which meant we were pretty tired yesterday. When we got home Mistress opened her Mistress Day presents which she was extremely pleased with, and I took the opportunity to explain to her how 'Femdom' doesn't have to be a time consuming thing. I think this is one of the problems facing people trying to incorporate Femdom into their lifestyle, the idea that it's a lot of 'work' or it has to take up a lot of time. In actual fact, it's a bit like chocolate, if you eat low quality chocolate you'll probably need to eat a whole lot of it, but if you eat really good quality chocolate you'll be satisfied with a small amount!

I explained to Mistress that for me the important thing is that it comes from her. I'd rather kiss her feet for two minutes because she told me to than for twenty minutes where I'd initiated it - because it's more meaningful. I also suggested that, for example, she could perhaps when she's getting changed just call me into the room, have me kneel in front of her and tell me to kiss her pussy (either covered or bare) and tell her how much I love it. That wouldn't take but a minute and it would be so powerful. So you see, it doesn't have to take up a lot of time, and I think these little things would really add up and help establish the Femdom side of our relationship much better.

I went to be about 2:45 and fell asleep while still plotting the new contract at about 3:15, meanwhile Mistress stayed up even later and finally came to bed about 4am. I woke up when she came to bed and we cuddled, my cock was like a fucking fence post but Mistress ignored it magnificently, even as it pressed hard into her stomach.... :)

We had a lot of plans yesterday that didn't pan out, we were supposed to go out, but we put that off because we wanted to spend time in bed, but then that nearly didn't happen as I ended up laying a carpet (which took a lot longer than anticipated!). In the process I managed to inflict quite a deep cut to one of my fingers with a knife, so you can probably imagine how cheery I was feeling!

Thankfully, after a shower and a shave, Mistress and I finally made it into bed, where Mistress immediately lay down and lifted her feet for me to worship. I took them in my hands and started to kiss them, loving every second until she reached down and guided my head up her silky smooth legs towards her pussy. I love that she did that and didn't even feel the need to kiss me first, that was HOT!

After Mistress had cum, Mistress started stroking my cock and soon had me nice and hard. She teased me about how lucky I was that she had taken her bra off and allowed me to see her gorgeous breasts. Then she started teasing me about the contract and how she wanted to control me more, it was really hot hearing her talk like that and I was absolutely loving it. I told her how I wanted the same, and I wanted her to be able to whip or paddle me whenever she wanted, even if there was no reason. She asked me if I was sure about that, but I'm sure my throbbing cock told her the answer. I said I was, I think it's important to give Mistress as much control as possible, even if it's a little daunting. After all, I want Mistress to enjoy her control as much as possible and the better it is for her then surely the better chance it has of really taking off.

Mistress talked more as she stroked me, and teased me about 'Who knows what this could lead to...' which did more than a little to help me reach the edge! Afterwards as we cuddled, Mistress said that she thought we should make it a yearly thing (perhaps on Mistress Day) were we review and renew our Chastity and Femdom contract, and make it a special 'event'. I think that is a great idea, although I think it wouldn't hurt now and again to review our progress, maybe every three to four months too.

Afterwards we got up again and as we were sitting on the sofa Mistress swung her legs up on to my lap and said 'Take my socks off'. I took her socks of and spent the next fifteen minutes or so caressing her beautiful feet and legs, but what I really loved was the way she said 'Take my socks off', it wasn't in the least bit 'put on' or 'theatrical' just very assured and confident. It was so good to hear her speak to me like that, and it immediately put me into that submissive headspace that I love so much.

I feel so happy and positive about this now, I can't wait to finish our new contract and for us both to sign it. :)

Pre Femdom Session Tick Box Form...

Someone left a comment asking how to 'get to' the form above, so here it is!

Literotica Feedback...

Just had a new feedback left on a very old story, one of my oldest stories in fact, 'Owned'. This story was posted to Literotica in 2006, and has attracted more than a few 'quirky' comments, the latest being:

Anonymous said: Sick Shit!
These two sleaze-balls are way beyond help! He's a mentally ill wimp and,even worse,she's a sadistic cruel piece of shit who has decided that pain inducing actions inflicted on her obviously sick "cum slut" of a husband equals love.~ As I see it,this story ends best in Chapter 9 when both die in an explosive head-on car crash proving that there really is no reward for their shared depravity. A fitting final sentence would have first responders hearing her pussy juices sizzling on the burning remnants of their car. ~ Are there really people this depraved slithering among us?!

This comment was posted on the eighth and final chapter, why do I get the feeling this person has read all eight chapters before posting this? It blows my mind every time...!

NEW TEASE POSTED AT MILOVANA

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Last Night was Great, This Afternoon was Even Better!

This past week I've stayed up late just about every single night, and by late I mean, very late indeed. I think one night I went to bed at 11:30, but every other night was at least an hour later than that and once or twice way longer than that. Consequently it all caught up with me today and after lunch I had to go to bed and catch up on my sleep (not least because we are going out tonight and I will have to drive home sometime after midnight). 

I had a lovely rest with our two cats, and for once I had some nice dreams (one particularly good one where Mistress was slapping, scratching, squeezing and kicking me in the balls... hehehe. Needless to say I woke up rock-hard from that one). Actually I seemed to be hard for most of the time I was in bed, as my thoughts were constantly drawn to Mistress and her gorgeous body... 

As I said in the last post Mistress and I had already decided we wanted to get as much 'action' in as possible this weekend, and given that we are going out later I knew there was a point where I needed to get up and get showered so that we would have time to go back to bed before we had to get up and do stuff. So after my shower and shave Mistress came upstairs and we went back to bed.

Mistress tasted delicious as always and when she came it was harder than yesterday or the day before. I could kind of tell it was going to be good and it certainly lived up to my expectations. I did sneak one of my fingers an inch or so inside Mistress's pussy, while my other finger teased her ass and my tongue worked on her clit. I'm sure Mistress is just as eager as I am to get back to using the glass dildo, but my fingers did a fine job today all the same.

Mistress came very hard, but pushed me away quicker than usual, she must have got very sensitive very quickly, and I gazed longingly at her beautiful, pink pussy as I kissed all over her pretty feet. Then, after a while she told me to kneel up between her legs. I was kinda hot and kinda tired still (despite my sleep) and I really could have done with the cock ring on (I think I must've used up all of whatever chemical it is that makes my cock hard while I was dreaming...), but my cock got 'hard enough' for non penetrative purposes.

Mistress stroked my cock and started teasing me about how much she knows I love looking at her pussy after she's cum, and she told me to look at it now while she stroked me. This was super-hot stuff indeed, and I prayed I wouldn't get cramp or something (like I often do on my knees - although never on the floor in a Femdom session strangely!)

Mistress continued to tease me about how much I love her pussy, and eventually told me to stroke my cock for her instead. I took over and she asked me if I would be able to stop if I edged myself, well... I have trained for this somewhat - hahaha! I said yes, and Mistress told me that's what I had to do for her. As I stroked she stroked her pussy and kept wiping her juices on the head of my cock. She teased me about how badly I wanted to put my cock inside her, and told me that this was all I was getting for now and I would have to make do with that.

OH - MY - GOD - SO - FUCKING - HOT!

I got to the edge and thought she might grab me and finish me off all over her pussy and inner thighs... or even just tip me over and let go, that would have been amazing in itself... but sadly, she just gently teased my aching cock a little and then told me to lay down next to her. I begged to taste her pussy again and she smiled and said okay, but that I should lay down on my back first. Then Mistress straddled my face as I pushed my tongue up into her delicious, soaking wet slit. I so love that she did that for me, I love tasting her in any position of course, but I really love it when she's on top of me like that, it's extra special!

We cuddled again and I realised I had edged myself really close because I felt a smear of pre-cum on my leg as my cock softened. Thank goodness I didn't give myself another couple of strokes!

That was the first time that Mistress has ever had me edge myself, and I loved it. It made me think of that questionnaire thing I did the other day, and in particular the question that said: 'Would you be satisfied with a sex life where you only got to give head and masturbate'. I wouldn't quite go that far, but, if that's what Mistress decided she wanted then...

I don't know, something about this experience gave me pause for thought, and as I lay holding my beautiful Mistress I realised how lucky I am and how deeply I love and adore my Mistress and her gorgeous, sexy body. I realise that I have maybe been complaining too much of late on here (lack of PIV, etc), and I'm surprised in a way that nobody has called me out for tying to top from the bottom (most of my readers are too polite). I realise now and I'm going to make a conscious effort to avoid doing that in future.

In that moment I realised again how much I love being completely under Mistress's spell, and how intoxicating she is. I feel like I would crawl through broken glass just to taste her, and I should appreciate every little thing that Mistress allows me. I am so lucky that Mistress allows me to worship her ass, even though I know she doesn't get that much out of it herself (only knowing how much I love doing it). And if she doesn't want PIV sex very often, that's okay too... I want her to be totally comfortable and secure in the knowledge that my absolute priority over everything is giving her pleasure, however she wants it to be.

I especially loved today, because of the way Mistress was speaking to me while I was stroking for her. I really do worship her pussy, and I want her to 'know' that deep down and understand how it affects me. I'm not sure women quite 'get' how we feel about their bodies, as I get the impression that women don't generally feel the same about men's bodies. A generalisation of course, but it seems true for the most part. It also explains why there's this mis-match in how women see themselves and how men see women, in as much as you read about women who feel their pussy is unattractive or whatever...

I hope Mistress loves her pussy as much as I do... though I seriously doubt she could possibly love it as much as I do. Mistress's body is stunning, I love every single part of it. I'm sure, despite my constant writing about it, she doesn't really believe the things I say, because if she did then surely she would have used her power for evil by now. :)

And that's why today was so very special, because it gave me a glimpse of the Mistress who believes and knows she can use her body to affect me deeply, and not in a session when she's 'playing the role' of the Domme. I think that is a big difference, and that's why I think it made me realise just how amazing Mistress really is and just how lucky I am.

I'm even going to try and stop moaning about her wearing her bra all the time.

No, really...

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Coincidentally, some of you may remember years ago there was an attempt to start a 'Femdom Day' on the 24th of July (24/7, you see... American readers won't understand that), which failed spectacularly as far as I can tell. Mistress and I observed this for a few years and then moved it to a different (floating) day and also changed it's nomenclature to 'Mistress Day'. I have feeling we neglected this day last year, but this year it's back and in fact it will be this coming week.

For us Mistress Day is almost like an official birthday for Mistress (a bit like the Queen who has an actual birthday and her official birthday) and I'm really looking forward to taking Mistress out for dinner at a lovely cocktail bar/restaurant that we've been to before which is on the 5th floor of a hotel we've stayed in before. It's a long way away so we're making a day of it, hopefully the weather will be kind to us.

Last Night Was Good, But Tonight Was Great!

Apologies if you read this last night, I was falling asleep as I was posting so it was riddled with errors, it's also a bit longer now!

It's true. Last night was good, whereas tonight was really, really good - from every angle. It may not seem a long time, but nine days without me making Mistress cum is a really long time for us and it affects us. It also seems like we have to get over the first one to get back in the swing, which is why yesterday was good, but tonight was great!

Like last night, we started off with me kneeling between Mistress's legs, kissing her as she reached down and stroked my hardening cock while we kissed. I moved down between her thighs, but then moved back up to kiss her some more and moved a little closer so that my now very hard cock was able to brush against her gorgeous pussy. Mistress giggled and stroked me, asking me if it was the fact that I couldn't slide inside her due to doctor's orders that was making me want it so bad?

I said 'not really', and repeated what I said in my post yesterday about her jerking me off all over her pussy and then making me lick it clean before making her cum. Mistress continued stroking and asked 'is that a serious request, are you asking me to let you cum?'

I said it was but acknowledged that I'm not allowed to ask for permission to cum, I even suggested that she didn't have to let me cum as she could just ruin me onto her pussy... but Mistress just said maybe she would add that as one of my rewards. Then she asked me how many days it had been since my last proper orgasm. I told her it was 48 and she asked again what the record was, I said 75 days, which made her smile and say 'nowhere near yet then'. Then she reached between my legs and stroked my cock with her long nails and said 'apparently I was too gentle yesterday, is that right?', it was quite painful and I could still feel her nails in my cock still even when I was face down on the mattress worshipping Mistress's delicious slit (not that I'm complaining, you understand... I know Mistress enjoys inflicting pain, every wince makes her wetter I'm sure - hahaha)

After Mistress had cum nice and hard, I gently worshipped her pussy a little more before moving on to her freshly manicured feet. Then it was my turn and since I lost new weight this week I got to choose a toy to play with. I chose the Oxballs Ballstretcher again, which really is excellent, not only is it extremely comfortable but it also does the job of a cock ring since it pulls everything tight - not sure how it works given that it doesn't constrict the blood flow to the cock, but it does for me anyway.

Mistress soon had me hard and then started rubbing my cock with her foot, which lead me to comment that it was hard to know that I wouldn't be allowed to cum on Mistress's feet next time I cum because of the recent new rule Mistress made about not cumming twice consecutively in the same place. Mistress just smiled.

(Actually I thought about this afterwards and then double checked and in fact, the last time I was allowed to cum (back in March) it was inside Mistress's gorgeous pussy anyway (how could I have forgotten that!), so I could potentially get to spray Mistress's perfect, pretty feet again soon after all! :)

As Mistress continued stroking me she said 'So if you had to choose right now, where would you choose to cum?" I said 'on her beautiful pussy', and Mistress said 'Even if you weren't allowed inside me first?' I told her 'yes' and that I would willingly clean her up with my tongue afterwards as well. Which I absolutely 100% would, that is so hot! Actually even with her sexy feet back on the table, I might still have chosen that...

I told Mistress how beautiful her pussy looks when she has cum, all glistening wet with her juices, and how wonderful she tasted. I do love being able to look at her slippery, pink pussy when I'm worshipping her feet, knowing that she's just cum while I have to wait for her permission. My words inspired Mistress to kneel up beside me to allow me to look at her gorgeousness while she continued stroking me. With the Ballstretcher in place my cock was really hard and Mistress was pumping it pretty robustly... while Mistress teased me about how much I loved what I could see in front of me.

Then she upped the ante and straddled my head, facing away from me and presenting me with the sight of her magnificent ass and slick pussy. I pleaded with her to be allowed to worship her gorgeous little hole and she said yes, although  I had to beg for it. Then, just before Mistress was about to allow me to taste her beautiful asshole I suddenly edged!

Mistress stopped stroking and asked if I still wanted to lick her asshole for her, which of course I did, as a matter of fact I was already thinking about asking to do so and claiming my last 1.5 Stone reward, so this freebie was even sweeter! :) Thankfully the edge receded and I was able to give Mistress's ass a good worshipping before she eventually climbed off me and knelt beside me again, stroking my cock and teasing me about how much I love her ass.

I told her that I love her ass, and every part of her, even the parts she rarely lets me see (Mistress is so evil to keep the sight of her beautiful breasts from me so often... but I have to admit it does increase their 'power' over me). When Mistress used to ride my cock (I don't want to say 'used to' but I can't remember the last time she did, so I will...) and then take her bra off it was absolutely agonizing, because while I desperately wanted to drink in their beauty, I tended to spend half the time with my eyes shut because they were so gorgeous that I was always trying to fight the edge. Daaamn!

Oh well, at least I have some photos. :)

Mistress laughed and told me I was so greedy, even though she let me worship her pussy and ass I still want to see her gorgeous breasts, I always want a little bit more.. well, that's true enough, can't really argue with that!

Mistress lay down next to me. We held each close for ages, just relishing the closeness that's been missing from 'us' the last week or so. And that was truly amazing and completely wonderful. I left the ballstretcher in place and my cock refused to soften, so I pleaded with Mistress to touch it some more, she didn't touch my cock but she gently rubbed her long nails against my tightly stretched balls - it felt amazing, in fact if she'd done it long enough I think eventually I could have cum just from that!

As we lay there I tried to explain to Mistress how much I missed not being able to make her cum last week and how it almost feels like I have no purpose without it. Above everything, the thing that gives me the most pleasure and contentment is making my Mistress cum, this is the cornerstone of why chastity works the way it does, her orgasms become yours. If you've not experienced the pleasure of long term chastity then it's hard to explain. If there was a way to get this across easily to women I'm sure they would be a lot more open to idea of having a chaste husband and the world would surely be a better place.

Mistress agreed that as a couple we really need that particular form of intimacy together to keep us feeling close, and we agreed to try and make sure we have that every day this weekend and as often as possible next week too.
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Order is (Partly) Restored...

Today was the first time since Mistress spent the afternoon in hospital that I got to taste her delicious pussy, it seems a lot longer than eight days and I was restricted to using just my tongue and my fingers on her ass since they advised against any sort of penetration of her pussy for two weeks.

Before I went down on her I was kneeling between her legs and kissing her and she started stroking my cock, it was soon hard... and then very hard, and all I could think was 'please just keep stroking until I cum all over your gorgeous pussy and then push my head down and make me clean it up before I make you cum...'. :)

Needless to say, that didn't happen, but eventually Mistress pressed me down and I sank between her silky smooth thighs and breathed in her scent. As I lay there, first breathing in her pussy and then tasting it, my cock was like an iron bar beneath me and stayed like that for probably ten minutes! That was awesome.

So annoying then that after I had made Mistress cum and worshipped her beautiful feet a little, it was less inclined to rock hardness. It didn't help that Mistress was being uncharacteristically gentle with it, but she did edge me very hard, despite my cock being a little bit... disinterested.

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Apparently Mistress is going to the pedicurist people tomorrow so my services have been spurned, it's probably a good thing from the point of view that they will look better, but I'm still quite disappointed. I have suggested to Mistress that I could give her some sort of inbetween pedicures treatment like scrubbing her feet, and she seems amenable to the idea, but it will probably come to nothing. :(

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Thanks to D's Boy and Kay who both commented on my post about my horrible dream. You are both right of course, it's not my choice to make and if she wanted PIV sex then she would initiate it. She enjoys the dildo inside her, but that's probably because I can lick her at the same time, which is rather difficult to achieve with my cock! I don't know why this seems to constantly bug me, it's not really that I resent not having the choice, or feel like I'm being shortchanged, I guess the one thing is that it sometimes feels like because we don't do it very often it can seem like this massive deal when it happens and that can make me feel a bit nervous and you know what can happen then! Anyway, it's off the table at the moment anyway so...

D's Boy asked if I could put my end of year charts somewhere more accessible on the page, I'm not sure where to put them, I guess I could put them at the bottom of the orgasms page?

A Troublesome Dream...

So last night I woke up really early and then went back to sleep and had a really shitty dream where Mistress and I had a huge argument about, well... her feeling neglected because of Chastity and more particularly me 'not wanting' to have penetrative sex with her. Which is rubbish of course, I never said I didn't want to have penetrative sex with her, she imposed the rule that I wasn't allowed to ask when she agreed to control my orgasms 24/7 - and since that hasn't changed, how can that be my fault? Well in the dream it seemed that argument was null and void, since after all what sort of person (read 'man') would accept that as a tenable part of an agreement?

Hmm...

I don't know why this niggles me so much, only the other day Mistress and I discussed this topic again and she said straight out she is perfectly happy with the way things are and if she changes her mind she will tell me, so why do I find it so difficult to accept? It's doubtless partly because I don't have anything more important to fret about, since life is generally pretty good for us.

I do think that having 'less' penetrative sex means that when we do have it it's more 'special', but I guess the trick is finding a frequency that maintains that 'specialness' without making it feel like we're not doing it at all... which, since I'm not in a position to decide, renders the whole question somewhat redundant from my end.

I guess I just have to accept that Mistress is happy with things as they are until she tells me otherwise. I just hope my subconscious can work with that, because that dream really sucked!

No Penetration for Two Weeks!

Yesterday Mistress had to spend the afternoon in hospital for a minor procedure, this meant I was home alone all afternoon and for some reason it occurred to me to give the CB3000 another try. I can't remember the last time I tried to wear it, but now that I've lost weight it seems to be a lot more wearable and a lot less obvious under clothes. I wore it for about two hours in all, and... well, I'm still not entirely convinced - but at least I wasn't tempted/able to stroke my cock! :)

I spent the afternoon typing out old hard copy stories and submitting them to Literotica while waiting for the phone call telling me to come to the hospital and pick Mistress up, Mistress looked quite pale but otherwise okay - if a little dizzy from the anaesthetic. She made me laugh when she told me that the nurses told her she couldn't have penetrative sex for at least two weeks, her response to that was 'what about oral'? No wonder the nurses were so smiley when I walked in! Hahahaha.

No penetrative sex for two weeks - how will I cope? I jest of course, but it does mean the glass dildo will be off the table for a little while, which is a shame... especially as Mistress has really taken to it over the past couple of months.

Expect the Unexpected!

It had been nigh on a week since I've been able to worship Mistress's gorgeous pussy, but tonight made up for that. As I said before, the glass dildo has now become a permanent fixture (or rather a permanent possibility) and once again, part way through Mistress handed me the toy to use on her as I licked her delicious pussy. As I'd hoped after such a delay, she had a lovely, hard orgasm with the toy inside her and my finger teasing her ass.

Once she'd had enough I licked her dildo and my fingers clean and then started kissing her gorgeous feet, but after not very long Mistress pushed herself towards me again and much to my (delighted) surprise she pulled my head back between her sexy thighs and then lifted herself up, clearly indicating that I should lick her ass clean. It was such a lovely and very welcome surprise and Mistress seemed to love it too!
:) :) :)

Afterwards Mistress teased my cock, but it was a bit recalcitrant... fortunately after I slipped the cock ring on it was nice and hard and she got me to the edge pretty damned quickly. Then, while my cock was still being kept hard by the cock ring she sat next to me and allowed me to kiss the soles of her feet, all the time hoping she would grab my cock again and stroke it just a little more. She didn't, but I loved kissing her soles anyway.

Mistress has had to cancel her pedicure this week, and as she knows how much I love her feet she had me remove the nail varnish on her toes and file her smallest toenail down for her. My next task is to temporarily redo her nail varnish, just as a make-do until she can re-schedule her appointment. I'm rather looking forward to it, I hope I can do a good job. You guys know how much I adore her perfect feet so why wouldn't I?