Sunday, 4 September 2016

FEMDOM SESSION 4th September 2016

My longest period of chastity yet has finally come to an end. My last orgasm was on the 23rd of June, which I reckon makes the new record 72 days, a whole ten days longer than the previous record, which was (coincidentally) set on the 23rd of June 2016!
I went into our session today, thinking it was more than likely that Mistress would have me cum and when it came down to it, I had absolutely no reservations about cumming whatsoever. Yes tomorrow I’ll be waking up on day one again, but it’s amazing how quickly it goes by and before you know it you’re two weeks in and then it’s not long until your first ruin and… then it’s 35 days and you can’t quite believe it already!
I think Mistress probably expected me to get close while she was stroking my cock, my tongue buried in her ass… but I held back magnificently. But after that she straddled me and rode my cock, looking down at me looking as sexy as hell with her red lipstick on and it started to get harder and harder to resist.
Mistress piled on the pressure, talking about how wet her pussy was and how good my cock felt inside her and how much I must want her to let me shoot in her pussy after so long. Eventually I cracked and told her I was getting close. Mistress smiled and pounded my cock harder still, telling me to cum inside her.
It felt pretty fucking amazing, I can tell you. I haven’t cum inside my gorgeous Mistress since April (134 days, also a new record), so that was something I was really longing to do. And her pussy felt incredible as she milked my cock dry… no sooner had I finished cumming and she was up and dropping her soaking pussy on my face for me to lick her clean. To be honest there wasn’t much to clean up, my cum was planted deep inside her, but it was still very hot anyway.
Mistress was pretty amazing throughout the whole session, I particularly liked when she talked about edging me and slapping the cum out of my balls. I really hope she does that one day soon. And watching her sliding down on my cock from behind was pretty awesome… Not to mention I had some very, very intense strap-on play. That was something else… very intense and definitely made me rethink the need for a bigger strap-on!
I am thinking seriously about getting another glass dildo like Mistress R’s, for my own use. Ages ago, Mistress used her dildo on my by mistake (she had her dildo in one hand and the ring end dildo in the other and she pushed hers inside me!). I knew straight away it wasn’t the ring-end one and it felt okay. Sometimes the ring end one just won’t stay inside me, which is why I bought the glass butt plug, but that is a bit too wide and is a nightmare to get out (Mistress certainly can’t do it with her nails) plus she can’t ‘fuck’ me with it. I would really like for Mistress to edge me and then fuck my ass until I ruin, I am sure that would be the most frustrating orgasm ever. ðŸ™‚
Mistress did look absolutely gorgeous today, she looks amazing when she’s full on into the session, so beautiful, sexy, hot and just fucking WOW!
Another awesome session, and another period of denial is over.

Saturday, 3 September 2016

Stan's Question.

I had a comment left on my blog yesterday from Stan, which basically asked what’s the best way to hold back from cumming when you are denied so that your Mistress can cum with you inside her. Now I wrote a pretty large post, which was almost entirely waffle and didn’t answer Stan’s question in the slightest… so I decided to start again and perhaps ask for input from my readers?
For me one of the most difficult things to get used to about long term chastity and having Mistress decide when I am allowed inside her, is that she doesn’t require my cock inside her half as much as I thought she would. I am okay with that now, but for a while it was difficult to understand…
That and the fact that Mistress R doesn’t cum from penetration renders my input here a little limited, but still I do have to hold back when Mistress does decide to ride my cock. The first thing I would say is that it’s a lot easier for me to hold back if Mistress is on top, mainly because it takes the ‘thrusting’ out of the equation (at least to some extent), most guys can’t really ‘thrust’ that long without cumming, so a chastised guy is really pushing his luck.
As I understand it, it’s generally accepted that the ‘on top’ position is best for a lot of women (desperately trying to avoid generalisation here but…) so this kinda works hand in hand, but I know some guys find staying hard difficult when the woman is on top (never had that problem myself – if I can’t stay hard it’s not the position). Stan hasn’t gone into too much detail so maybe his Mistress is already on top, I don’t know…
Long time friend of the blog Harry Haversackers has written before about how his wife uses numbing cream and a condom to render his cock er… numb, so that she can ride it without him feeling a thing and thus not cumming. I can’t remember if he used a cock ring as well, I’m guessing so as to me that complete lack of sensation would mean it would be tough to stay hard…
As for thinking of ‘baseball’, well I’ve never found that to be particularly effective (and not least because I don’t know the first thing about baseball, being English – we call it Rounders don’t we?), I do find myself going into a bit of what I can only describe as a ‘trance’ (bit poncey I know) where I am partially disengaged. I can’t really describe how it happens, I could imagine it being a bit like Yoga where you breathe a certain way and relax your body, it’s just something that’s evolved over the years and I certainly couldn’t tell you how to do it, but there may be others on the internet who can.
Truthfully, from reading blogs over the years I can’t think of anyone who is denied long term who can last a long time without cumming. But Stan hasn’t specified whether he means that his wife wants him inside her when she cums or whether she wants him to ‘fuck’ her to orgasm.
I would suggest maybe getting her close (with your tongue?) and then having her ride your cock to orgasm or just try using a dildo (glass is totally recommended) while you lick her pussy. Maybe it’s the sensation of being full she likes, and from my own experience Mistress R really, really likes her glass dildo!
So come on guys, let’s hear you comments below, how do you do it?

Tuesday, 30 August 2016

A Couple of Landmarks (Almost) Reached...

Now that I’ve surpassed my previous record of 64 days, every day is a new record, and today marks 68 days since my last proper orgasm. But seeing as it’s the 30th of August today, and seeing as I know I won’t be getting release tomorrow (because Mistress R is visiting her friend for the evening) it’s safe to assume that I will make it through a second month in a row without having been allowed to cum. That’s a first, even though my previous record was 64 days it only included one full calendar month. Also, even if Mistress let me cum on Thursday, that would still mean I went 70 days without an orgasm!
The Bank Holiday weekend being a little bit of a disaster in the intimacy department, it had been five days since Mistress had last cum. Thankfully I got to rectify that this evening and Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue. Afterwards I got to worship her beautiful feet for a while and then Mistress decided it was time for my teasing.
Mistress sucked and stroked my cock and brought me quite close, but not close enough for me to have to warn her I might cum. However, just as I was thinking about asking if I could worship her gorgeous ass, Mistress straddled me and sank down onto my throbbing cock. I say throbbing because it really was throbbing, and it felt super-hard as well. I pushed my cock up inside Mistress’s very tight pussy and knew that this was going to end with me cumming inside Mistress unless we were very careful.
After a few moments the feeling of caution passed a little, and Mistress started to ride my cock. It felt incredible and ‘part’ of me really wanted her to grant permission for me to shoot inside her. Mistress pulled her lacy bra down under her beautiful breasts and exposed her gorgeous and hard nipples. Although I see Mistress’s naked body every day, for some reason she has this ‘annoying’ habit of wearing bra’s when we are actually in bed having ‘sex’, I think she does it on purpose, because she knows I want to see her gorgeous breasts…
Usually Mistress waits for me to beg for her to take her bra off when she’s riding my cock, but I think in this instance she correctly assumed that I wasn’t going to ask, simply because I was already struggling enough not to cum, without the added visual stimulus of Mistress’s sexy boobs right in my face. So instead of waiting, or even prompting me to beg, Mistress decided just to expose herself to me and let me struggle with it.
Pretty much as soon as she’d pushed her bra down, Mistress leaned forward and had me suck on her nipples, then she sat back up and started riding my cock again. As if that wasn’t enough, she then reached back behind herself and started slapping my balls as she fucked me. She must have slapped my balls about 8 times I think, not too hard, but with my poor, 68 days denied cock cloaked in her tight, silky pussy this was really testing my willpower and resolve. In fact there was a point where I thought I had not just raced up to the edge, but tipped over, but somehow, incredibly, I managed to hang on by my fingertips!
Even though it made things incredibly difficult for me, I absolutely love it when Mistress slaps my balls as she rides my cock. There are a number of ways I’d love to cum with Mistress slapping my balls as I shoot, and pumping my load inside her gorgeous pussy would definitely be one of them!
Mistress ceased the slapping, but rode my cock a little while longer, before sliding off and grabbing my cock. She gave it a few brisk strokes and then let go, leaving it quivering and desperate for more of her attention. But, save for one more slap (sadly, something of a miss-hit) that was my lot for the night.
“I’m not going to let you cum tonight,” she said. “You’re going to have to wait a few more days, you can do that for me can’t you?”
“Yes Mistress.” I replied.
As usual, part of me wants to cum and part of me really doesn’t. But as always, I’ll have to trust Mistress to make the decision on my behalf. Given that we’re in new territory now I’m kind of expecting her to let me cum anytime soon, but of course part of me hopes she just keeps ruining me, after all 100 days isn’t that far away, is it?

Monday, 22 August 2016

DO YOU THINK I'M EVIL? (Written August 2016)


“I have a question for you slave and I want you to answer honestly…”
Karen’s hand moved up and down her slave’s cock at a steady pace. Not too fast and not too slow, keeping him stimulated but not heading for the edge. It was far too early for that…
“Do you think I’m evil?”
“No Goddess,” moaned Dean.
Karen looked disappointed and squeezed his cock a little harder on the next few strokes.
“Really! Oh dear… that means I’m failing then, doesn’t it? After all I’m sure you said you wanted me to be ‘evil’ to you, didn’t you? You said you wanted me to be completely merciless… in fact, if I remember correctly you said you wanted me to be a totally heartless bitch, didn’t you? And I promised I would, didn’t I?”
Dean groaned in agreement.
“Don’t forget, this was your idea, you made me promise to never go back, no matter what you said, no matter how bad it got, no matter how much you begged, you made me promise to never let you enjoy a proper orgasm again, didn’t you?”
“Yes Goddess…”
“I know I’ve made it hard for you, and that’s what you wanted too, isn’t it? You didn’t want me to make it easy for you, you wanted every orgasm to be completely excruciating didn’t you?”
Dean whimpered as Karen grabbed the dildo that was protruding from his ass and gave it a volley of violent strokes, punishing his prostate and stretching his tight hole at the same time.
“And yet you still can’t quite believe that I won’t show you compassion, that I won’t show you mercy at the last second. Even though you know full well that every orgasm that I allow you to have will be ruined one way or another, as you get nearer, as your balls start to tighten, your brain tricks you into thinking that this time you will be allowed to cum properly. Over and over again… isn’t that right?”
“Yes Goddess, yes…”
“Because despite everything, you desperately want to cum properly don’t you? You need it don’t you, you need to feel that blissful sensation of your cock pumping out your cum with just the right amount of pressure and for just long enough to make it feel good… before it gets too sensitive and starts to throb and hurt.”
Dean gasped as his Goddess forced the dildo even deeper into his asshole.
“But see, when it gets too sensitive and starts to hurt, that’s the bit that turns me on the most. When you start to buck and shake and try to pull away from me, straining at your bonds even though you know you can’t escape and that I can torture you for as long as I like… that’s the bit that makes my pussy really wet.”
Karen let go of the dildo as she focussed her full attention on his cock.
“Do you even remember what it felt like when I used to let you cum properly? It’s been so long now hasn’t it, well over three years… and you know what, I haven’t missed it at all… it’s always been much more fun for me to watch you suffer. So when you ‘made me’ promise to never let you cum properly again, I could hardly believe my luck.”
Dean’s cock twitched and Karen released her grip and slapped his aching balls twice, hard.
“Don’t even think about cumming yet slave, I’m nowhere near done with you.”
Dean exhaled loudly, every fibre of his existence was focused on holding back his impending orgasm, knowing full well that failure to do so would only make his Goddess more determined to make him suffer.
“Maybe you should try to forget about it, because you know that I will never let you have that pleasure again. I made a promise to you and I mean to keep that promise… and I mean to destroy every orgasm I ever let you have again… including this one.”
Karen grabbed Dean’s swollen balls and squeezed them hard.
“And in that moment when I ruin your pleasure, either by ‘under’ or ‘over’ stimulating you, or tying a lace around your cock and pulling it tight as you cum – literally blocking your orgasm and forcing your cum back… Oh that’s one of my favourite ways, I love the sounds you make when I do it like that, it’s so fucking hot to hear you beg and howl. I know it hurts and that turns me on so fucking much I can’t even tell you…”
Dean winced in pain and Karen released his balls. She leaned forward and spat directly on to his thick, throbbing cock and then resumed stroking it.
“And in that moment… when I do that, there must be a tiny part of you that genuinely hates it… and genuinely hates me too.”
Karen’s hand climbed to the top of his aching shaft and curled around his cockhead, palming him mercilessly.
“But you can’t ever really hate me can you? Because after all, I’m only doing what you asked me to do aren’t I? And I’m only doing that because I love you and I want to make this as good as I can for you…”
Karen switched to teasing the tip of his red, pulsing cock with one finger, on the sensitive spot right under the head.
“And the best way to make this as good as I can, is to make it as unbearable as possible isn’t it? Because we both know that’s exactly what you crave. Isn’t it?”
“Yes Goddess, I love being your toy…”
Goddess Karen chuckled to herself as she used her free hand to squeeze Dean’s huge, aching balls.
“Do you want to see my gorgeous tits slave?”
“Yes Goddess.” Begged Dean, his voice almost cracking as he spoke.
“I know you do,” chuckled Karen. “And I love showing you my beautiful, soft tits because seeing them only makes your cock harder and more desperate to cum doesn’t it? And believe me slave, I want it desperate. I want it so fucking desperate and painfully hard for me, because I know the more you want to shoot, the more you ache for release, the more intolerable it will be when I completely annihilate your orgasm…”
Dean’s cock twitched hard in her hand and Karen laughed again as she pulled her breasts free from the confines of her tight T-shirt.
“Oh I felt that. You are so fucking bad. I know you think you want to cum, but your cock knows the truth. Your cock gives you away every time… honestly, it just grew half an inch when I said I was going to annihilate your orgasm. Oh, and there it goes again, pulsing, twitching, aching for my gorgeous tits… you want to shoot on them don’t you, you love the sight of my beautiful big tits dripping with your cum don’t you? But you know that it never turns out the way you expect.”
Karen leaned forward and rubbed the tip of Dean’s tormented cock against her left nipple.
“You still cling to the idea that one day I’ll relent don’t you? You still think that one day I will decide to let you cum properly and enjoy it like you used to.”
Dean’s body arched as he felt the soft, silky skin of Karen’s breast against his prick.
“Sometimes I’ll even say it, won’t I? Sometimes I’ll even say ‘One day I’ll let you cum properly’… but we both know it’s a lie. I only say it to fuck with your head. I only say it because we both know your brain will cling to that thought and that even though deep down you know it’s bullshit, you can’t help but hope. Ah, hope… it’s all you really have isn’t it? The feeble hope that one day I really will let you cum properly and all this will have been worth it. And maybe I will…”
Karen’s words hung in the air for a few seconds as she teased his cock against her skin.
“…but I probably won’t.”
The pleasurable sensation from her breast was ripped away as she wrapped her hand around his cock once again, pumping hard and fast and rough, the side of her fist travelling right down and slapping against his balls on every stroke.
“Do you know why slave? Because I love it far too much…”
Dean groaned loudly, desperately trying to hold back the torrent of cum that was bursting to escape his tortured balls.
“Oh God, that’s it… suffer for me. I fucking love watching you suffer and struggle for me.”
The abuse continued for a few seconds more and then abruptly stopped. Karen moved closer, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper as she lightly gripped his cock and began a slow torturous, unbearable teasing stroke.
“Do you ever think about what might come next slave? What new ways I might come up with of ruining your orgasm and denying you the pleasure you think you so deeply crave?”
Dean’s breathing was heavy, the sensation of her touch as maddening as it was light.
“Maybe it’s best you don’t, after all, a slave could drive himself insane thinking about things like that, couldn’t he?”
“Yes Goddess.” Dean’s just managed to force the words from his lips.
Karen chuckled softly in his ear, her hand continuing to barely stroke his throbbing length.
“What if I am truly evil though slave, have you thought about that? You know the cage never comes off until you are securely tied down, I made sure that you agreed to that early on. So what if I really am as ‘evil’ as you wanted me to be… and more? Could you handle that slave?”
Dean could barely speak now, such was the concentration required to prevent himself from exploding without his owner’s permission.
“What if I wanted to destroy not just your orgasms, but your actual balls as well. It would be so easy to tie you up, slip off the cage and slip on an elastrator band, wouldn’t it?”
Karen’s voice audibly cracked as she spoke those powerful words for the first time.
“Oh yes, your cock definitely jerked there. I know you know what an elastrator band is and it excites the fuck out of you doesn’t it? I’m sure it scares you too, but you trust me don’t you? You know I’d cut it off before any lasting damage was done, don’t you…?”
Karen moved away from him again and squeezed his balls hard once more, then reached for the dildo, pumping it into his ass in time as she stroked his reddened, angry looking cock towards an unavoidable, excruciating edge.
“Look at those huge, swollen balls… they would look so good banded tight.”
Dean let out a strangled whimper which only pushed Karen to go further with her fantasy talk.
“Can you imagine how it would feel slave, having that tiny band of rubber wrapped tight around your balls? Making your cock harder than it’s ever been in your life? Wouldn’t that be something slave, wouldn’t it be worth the risk?”
Though he hated to admit it, the thought of her banding his balls like that pushed him hard to the edge and his breathing was coming in huge uncontrollable gulps as he tried desperately to hold back for her. Sensing how close he was, Karen relented and let go of the dildo, but left it plugged deep inside him.
“Maybe if I knew you were really, truly terrified, maybe then I could find it in my cold, evil heart to allow you to cum properly… just one last time? What do you think slave, what do you think it would feel like to cum with your balls banded so tight? Do you think your cum could even escape?”
Dean’s body was starting to twist against his bonds now, as the need to find release approached critical levels. Meanwhile Karen’s free hand moved between her legs and her fingers began to stimulate her sodden clit as she revelled in her slave’s torment.
“God, I so want to try it slave, I want to see you struggle as your balls try to pump out every drop of pent-up frustration… fuck, I can’t tell you how wet thinking about that makes me slave, maybe I really am just as evil as you wanted me to be.”
Karen’s hand was working like a steam hammer on Dean’s cock now, as she pushed him ever closer to the point of no return. Her other hand was becoming more insistent on her own clit and she felt her own orgasm beginning to build.
“You know it’s going to hurt don’t you… when I cut the band off and the blood rushes back into your balls? I imagine it will be like when you take a nipple clamp off… only a hundred times worse. Who knows, maybe after the first few times you’ll start begging me to leave it on, because you won’t be able to face the pain. And when you do slave, if you beg me hard enough, then one day maybe I will…”
Dean’s groaning was growing in intensity, his cock looked impossibly red and hard and Karen knew he couldn’t possibly last much longer.
“You’re getting close aren’t you slave, you can’t help yourself can you? The thought of me destroying your balls makes you fucking horny too doesn’t it slave? You want to cum so bad don’t you… Well come on, show me how bad you want it, shoot your fucking cum for me while you still can. Come on, I want to see it, I want to see it now. Right now slave, do it, shoot your fucking load for me…”
As the moment of release drew closer, Dean began to babble incoherently, begging and pleading for release and an end to his torment. But Karen continued stroking, harder and harder, faster and faster until she saw the first drop of cum erupt from his angry looking, crimson cock head.
“That’s it slave, shoot it for me, shoot your cum all over my gorgeous fucking tits…”
Karen pumped hard and fast as ropes of thick cum splashed her skin and dripped down onto her naked thighs. On and on, way beyond the point of pleasure, way beyond the point where Dean wasn’t coming anymore… this was no longer about him, this was all about her and the pleasure she took from hurting him and ruining his every release. His animal like cries and muffled pleas for mercy pushed her crashing over the edge, until ultimately she lost her grip as she collapsed, spasming as she sank to the floor, her pussy gushing repeatedly as she succumbed to the hardest orgasm she had ever experienced in her life.

Sunday, 21 August 2016

A Great Afternoon...

I can’t quite believe the weekend is nearly over, it has gone so fast! Fortunately Mistress and I managed to make time to go to bed this afternoon, I didn’t realise it had been since Wednesday since Mistress had her last orgasm. Well Mistress certainly had a very lovely orgasm today and as I was kissing her feet afterwards I was looking up at her as she lay on the pillows with her eyes closed, completely sated and I just thought how completely beautiful her pussy looked. It was so wet and pink, it almost looked like I had cum inside her. Just a totally gorgeous sight…
After that Mistress teased me like crazy, with some very hard stroking and ball slapping. At one point Mistress edged me and the teased my cock with her tongue and mouth and actually thought I might have ruined into her mouth. I don’t think I did, I’m sure she would have told me… but it really kind of felt like it. Absolutely incredible teasing though, and she left me absolutely rock hard and throbbing like crazy.
It’s been 59 days since I was last allowed to cum properly, and this is only the second time I’ve got this far. Strangely I seem to have gone past the stage where I feel like I could cum really easily, and Mistress really pumped my cock today and I took it easily. It’s quite interesting these little phases that you seem to go through as the days add up.
What with one thing and another Mistress and I decided to delay our next photo session until next week (which is a Bank Holiday here in the UK), so we will be out with friends on Friday night, off lingerie shopping on Saturday, Femdom Session on Sunday and photo session on Monday. Sounds like an awesome weekend don’t you think?

Wednesday, 17 August 2016

More Feedback and a Surprise Ruined Orgasm.

I have two more feedback’s on Literotica, both favourable…
JOHNNY ROTTENCROTCH: Nothing short of fucking awesome! Now *THAT* is a milking story. I’d love to see more of Karen torturing her slave’s cock!
And…
FASfan: Wowee! This was a terrific story – thank you for posting it for us to share. Five stars and favourited!
So far 1208 people have read ‘Do You Think I’m Evil’ (not bad for one day!) and it has a score of 4.5 / 5.0.
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Mistress took me completely by surprise tonight. After I made her cum with my tongue she knelt by me and started stroking my cock. When I was hard she sucked and slapped me and then straddled me and sank down on my cock, facing away from me. After a while she turned around and straddled me facing forward and I begged her to remove her bra and allow me to see her gorgeous breasts.
Unlike last time I felt quite in control and like I could last a while (I wouldn’t have begged to see Mistress’s breasts otherwise!). Mistress started to ride me quite hard and I thought, ‘Okay, she’s going to have me cum inside her and then lick her clean…’.
But no, I was wrong. After riding me for a while she moved off me and started stroking my cock hard and fast. It didn’t take long for me to warn her that I was getting close and she kept stroking just as fast, but moving closer so that her beautiful breasts were right next to my cock. She said something about letting me cum, and she was pumping so fast and hard it never even occurred to me that she was about to ruin me again.
But that’s exactly what she did, and for the first time she ruined me onto her breasts and then had me lick them clean, which was sooo hot! I was just a bit thrown because I wasn’t expecting it at all. Still, surprises don’t get much better than that, do they?
After I had licked Mistress clean I thanked her for allowing me to cum on her breasts and lick them clean. But she made me thank her again, feeling that I should be thanking her for ruining my orgasm too. Needless to say I did as she asked… ðŸ™‚

Thursday, 11 August 2016

Greatly Exceeding Expectations...

As of today, Mistress has had 40 orgasms since the start of our sixth year of 24/7/365 chastity (on April the 1st 2016). By contrast, I have had 7, which gives a standard ratio of 5.71 to 1, pretty much in line with the ratio of the last few years. The difference this time though is that of those 7 orgasms, 5 have been ruined. Which means that instead of 7 – 40, it’s actually 2 – 40, giving an easily calculated ratio of 20 to 1 in Mistress’s favour!
This is quite incredible really, given that it’s been a long term goal for me that Mistress should have 10 orgasms for every 1 that I am allowed. We haven’t so much surpassed that goal as annihilated it. Which is great! But still a huge surprise…
Of course the main reason for this is that Mistress has recently begun to embrace the ruined orgasm fully and as we can see above, it’s not so much that she has let me cum much less often, it’s just that the greater proportion of those orgasms have been ruined.
If you read my post the other day about the letter I wrote to Mistress R at 4am last weekend, you’ll know that I told her that I was willing to leave it fully up to her in future as to whether she was going to let me cum or not. Now, some of you may have thought that was an odd thing to say, because after all Mistress already decides when and how I cum and has done for the last five years and more.
This is true, but it seems unreasonable to expect that Mistress would push way beyond my current record of 62 days without at least some comment from me. The point of that part of my letter was to let her know that I am ready to be denied for as long as it pleases her to do so. If she wants to ruin every orgasm for the next year, the next three years, five years… whatever she wants is okay by me.
In truth, do I really think Mistress is going to jump from 62 days to permanent (or semi-permanent) denial – no, of course not. And I’m sure there’s some of you out there who are maybe chuckling to themselves and thinking ‘this guy has no idea what he’s talking about’. Also, fair enough – I don’t know what it’s like beyond a certain point. But I do know that I love being super horny and aching for my Mistress, and as such I felt it was right to tell her that if she wanted me to I would be happy to go a very long time without a proper orgasm.
Of course, I’ve read enough chastity blogs to know that the best laid plans of mice and men etc etc… and that’s why I wouldn’t really want Mistress to say that I am going to be denied for any fixed period of time. I wouldn’t want her to feel bound or constrained by some arbitrary ‘rule’ or ‘goal’ that she had set. I fully realise that there may come a day when she wants me inside her and in the moment, when I give her warning that I’m close, she might decide ‘screw the chastity’ because she wants me to cum inside her. And again I wouldn’t want her to lose that option. This is supposed to be about her pleasure, and if she wanted me to cum for her pleasure then that is her prerogative. Statistics and numbers are all well and good, but they should reflect reality and not dictate it, the last thing I would want would be for Mistress to make me wait 350 days to cum and then feel like she couldn’t exercise her power until we made it to a year.
That’s why we abandoned the ‘dice’ chastity early on. It has it’s uses in that in the early days it can be useful to take pressure off a new chastity Mistress, but ultimately ‘dice’ chastity isn’t empowering the Mistress at all, since she is following it’s ‘rules’ just as much as her slave is.
Anyway, like most guys in my position, I have come to feel VERY differently about proper orgasms than I once did. Sure I crave them, when Mistress is edging me I want to cum very, very badly… make no mistake, that primal urge does not go away. And my last proper orgasm (June 23rd) was absolutely amazing, shooting all over Mistress’s beautiful feet and licking them clean was AWESOME.
But with a clear head, if I was given the choice to stroke and cum on Mistress’s beautiful feet, or stroke and ruin on Mistress’s beautiful feet I would probably choose the second option. Of course the difficult bit is the ‘clear head’ bit, because when you are stroking your cock with one hand and holding your Mistress’s foot with the other there is no such thing as a clear head.
Which is why people like me need a Mistress to decide for us (and why some of us need locking up – for our own good!).
I still think about that from time to time, but then I remember how ridiculously badly my CB3000 fitted and how I could barely get my jeans on over it. It’s frustrating, because I love the idea of it and I’m sure it must be amazing to go to that level of control, but there you go. Besides, Mistress wasn’t overly keen on the idea, not that we’ve talked about it for a long, long time.
I still have my CB3000 in a drawer. Maybe I’ll give it another shot sometime.