Fuck yes!

A change of heart maybe?

I've long been, not 'against' exactly, but...perhaps slightly dismissive of those who espouse the very long term denial periods. But now I find that I very much would like Mistress R to ruin a far greater percentage  of my orgasms and rarely let me cum properly at all. Of course this kind of adds up to the same thing, so I guess what I'm saying is that despite what I may have said in the past, I would now very much like to experience (and feel that I'm ready for) long periods of denial and frustration.
I must admit that these days proper orgasms are often too intense to be genuinely pleasurable, and I really hate the time it takes to get sufficiently horny again after being allowed one.

Some lovely teasing for me this morning and a very unexpected purchase too. We popped into Ann Summers this afternoon and while Mistress was trying on a couple of things I happened to notice a cool glass butt plug in there, not too big, not too small...just what I was looking for in fact. Looking forward to trying that one out in the near future!!!

The stealth ruined orgasm...

As you probably know, since I posted about it not more than a couple of days ago, my last orgasm was kind of ruined but not ruined enough to be classed as a ruined orgasm. There was a definite refractory period that you don't get with a proper ruined orgasm, and yet... four days on and this evening I was surprisingly desperate to cum. Granted there were some mitigating factors, for example, having lost three pounds this week (total to date: 33.5lbs) and losing half a pound of new weight I was permitted to choose a treat.
Despite having been allowed the same treat a few days ago, but not at my choosing, it didn't take much thinking about to request being allowed to tongue Mistress R's gorgeous asshole again, so that will have increased the pressure for sure. And Mistress's exceptionally frustrating hand job certainly helped too of course... but I still think that semi-ruined orgasm was maybe more ruined than I thought. A stealth ruined orgasm if you will, since despite the definite but rather less pleasurable than it should have been climax, and the ensuing refractory period, it seems almost as if I was granted no relief whatsoever.
Perhaps Mistress R is better at this than she gives herself credit for? Because by the end of tonight's teasing I was humping the air in frustration, and feeling truly desperate to cum, far more desperate than a man who's only carrying a four day load should be at any rate. Needless to say, Mistress R enjoyed a lovely orgasm on my tongue all the same, taking her to a grand total of 340 since records began.
Still, thanks to Mistress Marie, there could be some possible relief on the horizon, Mistress R rather liked her suggestion that to get over her worries about ruining orgasms she should sometimes offer me the choice of whether to be ruined or left completely denied. Though whether that will actually offer any relief or whether it will just lead to more frustration is up for debate. Not that I'm complaining of course. Granted when I was humping the air and Mistress R's fingertips earlier this evening I was going crazy and wishing that I was just allowed to beg to be allowed to cum, at least then I would have some chance... maybe she would offer me some kind of deal or something? Probably not of course, but it would be nice to have that tiny sliver of hope.
Mind you, of course there's a part of me that much prefers to be kept denied, or wishes that Mistress R would ruin every orgasm she grants me, because as much as I desperately want to cum, I also want her to be mean to me and keep me in this state of constant frustration. I rather liked the comment left by an anonymous reader who suggested taking a week to repeatedly ruin me over and over so that Mistress could get used to doing it, in fact I liked that idea a lot!
Unfortunately, it's not for me to decide of course, Mistress R and Mistress R alone decides when, how and indeed if I am allowed to cum. And despite everything I may have written which suggests anything to the contrary, that's exactly how I like it. Sure I lay there fantasizing about exploding over just about every part of her gorgeous body, even though I know that anything other than cumming inside her or cumming by her hand is a rare treat indeed. I mean just check out my orgasm page, how long is it since I came in her mouth or on her feet? And how long was it since the last time?
But even tonight, even though I was riven with frustration, it was so hot that Mistress was unmoved, or more accurately I sensed it rather amused her to watch me writhe beneath her, so fucking desperate and so helpless to do anything about it. And that's why I'll probably wake up tomorrow morning, as I did this morning, with a rock hard, aching cock, leaking precum like there's no tomorrow. And I love it.

Something to celebrate...

To celebrate one and a half million hits on the blog today...here's a rather splendid GIF!

Femdom Session 22nd September 2013...

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A perfect, ruined orgasm...

After this morning's debacle... I spent the afternoon cutting down trees in the back garden. After a nice hot shower, Mistress and I headed to the bedroom. My back was a little sore, but nothing was going to stop me tasting her gorgeous, wet pussy. We kissed a little first but Mistress was impatient for me to get started and I wasn't going to argue.
Mistress had a lovely, hard orgasm, really bucking against my tongue and when she pushed me away and I looked up, she had a huge smile on her face. Perfect.
We lay down next to each other and Mistress had my cock hard very quickly, I told her how good she tasted and she bent over me to suck my cock. Yet again she had her bra on, but I was too distracted by her mouth to complain. My cock felt really hard and Mistress was soon stroking it hard and fast, just as I was feeling that my orgasm was building she switched to sucking again and slow strokes. She did this several times before stroking me hard and fast, was she trying to make me cum?
I told her I was getting close and she let go, teasing my cock with her fingertips for a while and then pumping hard again. I warned her a second time and she pumped a little longer before switching to the fingertip teasing. Without warning, a relatively small amount of cum emptied from my cock, if I hadn't seen it I don't think I would have even known - I felt nothing, a perfect ruined orgasm.
Mistress scooped up my cum on her fingers and fed it to me, three or four times she did this and I eagerly sucked her fingers clean. How many times do you read about how subs want to eat their own cum but lose the initiative once they have cum? I am over that of course and will always swallow my cum if Mistress wants me to and I LOVE it when Mistress makes me do it even if the urge has passed somewhat... but I'll admit it was a bit easier this time, still being really horny - I would certainly recommend it as a way for someone trying to get over that initial hurdle. It's weird, it must be psychological, but it tasted better somehow...
I whispered 'Thank you Mistress,' to her as she continued to tease my cock. She asked me what I was thanking her for and I said 'Everything...' then added '...for ruining my orgasm, for teasing me and for allowing me to swallow my cum'.
Mistress waited a little while and then stroked my cock some more, it was rock hard in seconds, my ruined orgasm had had no impact whatsoever, it was like it never happened. Mistress stood over me (facing my  feet) and I reached up and parted her cheeks, exposing her tight, pink asshole. It looked so fucking good...
Mistress sank down onto my face and I breathed in the musk of her ass, I didn't think for a second that she would allow me to lick it, but I decided to beg anyway, nothing ventured... To my surprise and absolute joy Mistress agreed to let me lick her ass and I greedily lapped and flicked at her puckered hole with my tongue, my cock was throbbing again and Mistress moved forward and sank down onto my pole and rode me like that for a little while. It felt absolutely incredible, and being able to view Mistress's gorgeous ass as I slid in and out of her beautiful pussy was a real treat.
All too soon Mistress dismounted and lay down beside me. I was conscious that I had licked her ass and swallowed my cum, so I kept my mouth closed as I kissed her (even though I really wanted to kiss her hard and deep). She continued stroking my cock to another edge and I thought maybe I might get another ruined orgasm. She allowed the edge to fade away but my cock was still aching and I begged her to give me one more edge. Mistress pumped my cock hard until I was close and then let go, but as close as I was I couldn't quite force my cum to release. It was so incredibly frustrating, but so unbelievably hot.
After a couple of ball slaps Mistress lay down beside me smiling. I lay on my back, completely drained, completely and utterly satisfied with my treatment. Mistress said to me the other day that she thinks she's  getting better at teasing me... ain't that the truth! I thanked her again and reassured her that I love being treated this way. She looked so beautiful then, smiling at me. I know deep down she loves being mean to me, but I know it's hard to truly accept that it's okay to do it, that's why I always want to tell her how much I love it. I want her to enjoy it, to embrace it, I want her to love it as much as I do and I want her to want to be even meaner to me.
As we lay there she casually played with my left nipple, I wished she would squeeze and pull it hard but instead I asked if I could please taste her beautiful pussy again, hoping she would straddle my face and allow me to lick her clean (I can't tell you how much I love having her on top of me like that, it's the best), but instead she reached down and slid her finger inside her pussy and had me suck it clean, then she did it again. It wasn't quite what I was hoping for, but I love that she is becoming more comfortable about doing this too, it's very sexy and she tasted wonderful.
Off to the seaside tomorrow, so probably won't be anything to blog about, unless maybe I get some morning teasing.... let's just hope we don't get any unwanted phone calls!

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The beautiful Mistress, the chaste husband and the ruined orgasm...

Once upon a time there was a beautiful Mistress who kept her husband in chastity and controlled his cock and orgasms, but who didn't like the idea of ruining his orgasms. She couldn't see the point of it, truth be told, if she wanted to let him cum then he would cum and if she didn't well... she didn't. Time wasn't really an issue since the husband rarely went longer than a month without a full orgasm so there really was no actual 'need' to do it...
But of course, the husband kind of wanted her to do it, not because he particularly wanted to endure the frustration so much (although that did kind of appeal to him in a twisted hard to explain kind of way) so much as he just wanted her control of his cock to be complete (or as complete as it can be without a chastity device), in fact what he really wanted was for her to actively enjoy doing it to him, kinda like she enjoys whipping him and paddling his ass among other things, even though he doesn't really enjoy the pain.
The husband was reluctant to pester too much because he loves his Mistress very much and didn't want her to feel that he was pressurising her into doing something that she wasn't comfortable with. But as luck would have it the husband had an ally, an evil pixie who regularly left comments on the husband's blog asking when the beautiful Mistress would start ruining his orgasms and didn't she realise how much fun it was once she got started?
And then a few weeks ago it finally happened, the beautiful Mistress finally took the plunge and deliberately ruined one of her husband's orgasms. He could see that she wasn't entirely sure about it, but her demeanour was positive and she talked about needing practice to get it perfect. Then a few weeks later she did it again, this time she seemed a little less uncertain about it, in fact she looked like she might have even enjoyed it a little bit.

Fast forward to tonight and after enjoying a nice orgasm on her husband's tongue, the beautiful Mistress had him kneel between her legs as she lay back on the bed. She toyed with his cock to start with, her pretty toes rubbing up and down as he gazed, transfixed by the sight of her gorgeous pussy, the pussy that he could still taste on his lips and tongue. He told her how much he adores her feet and the Mistress offered her left foot to his mouth, after a minute or so of sucking her pretty toes his cock was much harder than before and she told him to move closer.
As he moved between her legs she grabbed his cock and rubbed the tip against her soaking wet pussy, it looked and felt amazing and within seconds she had pulled him inside her. The husband couldn't believe his luck, being on top was usually a rare treat and this was the second time in a week... but the question remained, would she let him fuck her hard and cum inside her? And if he did would she have him lick her pussy clean afterwards?
The husband started to stroke harder and deeper, mindful that he couldn't cum without permission, but determined to leave his wife feeling properly fucked all the same. He continued to slowly increase the pace, his balls slapping against her ass as his cock plunged in and out of her sopping wet hole. After a little while it felt too good though and he had to disconnect somewhat (mentally) to stop himself from pushing too far...
Perhaps sensing this, the beautiful Mistress whispered to him not to forget that he had to tell her when he was close, reminding him that he wasn't allowed to cum of his own volition. And before long he was reluctantly doing just that...
The Mistress pushed him back onto his knees and started stroking his cock, reminding him that he needed to tell her when he was really close. Every time he got close the Mistress would stop stroking and start teasing his cock until it was twitching, she gave him permission to cum but he couldn't quite push himself over the edge and so eventually the Mistress would start stroking again. This happened three or four times until finally the Mistress kept stroking until she was sure that he wouldn't fail again.
The husband was sure by now that his orgasm was destined to be ruined, but as he looked down he wondered if perhaps she planned to allow his cock to drip onto her gorgeous thigh, if he had to lick his cum up he would willingly lick it from her silky smooth skin, but maybe she intended to have him cum on the sheet instead?
For the last time the husband warned his beautiful Mistress that he was getting really close and this time the Mistress kept stroking until she was certain of a result. The husband groaned as she released her grip and merely played her fingers along the top of his shaft, watching as the cum oozed frustratingly from the tip of his cock and onto the sheet.
And as the husband looked up at his beautiful Mistress, the frustration of his ruined orgasm was somehow sweetly tempered by the look of mildly evil amusement on her face... and as his cock twitched it's last futile throb, he hoped that he would see that gorgeous look many, many, many times again in the future.

A response to Tim's comment...

Tim said:

That "conflict" has been one of the hardest things for me to explain to my wife as we get kinkier and kinkier. Not enjoying an act (ruined orgasm, spanking, etc) during the moment, but looking back and remembering it as very erotic as well as looking forward to the next act as erotic. It is that pain/frustration as enjoyable/not enjoyable that is amazing to me as a submissive.

Firstly Tim, thanks for taking the time to leave a comment, all of us bloggers really appreciate when we get feedback like this, it stops us feeling like we are talking to the walls... especially when the comment is insightful and reinforces my own experiences...

Right now I don't think Mistress R quite 'gets' it as far as ruined orgasms go, but then there was probably a time she didn't understand why I would willingly submit to having clothes pegs on my nipples and you should see the glint in her eye now when she pulls them off and makes me flinch... she certainly didn't 'get' chastity when I first tried to introduce it, and every now and then I do ask her if she is still okay with living this way and she's quite convincing when she says she can't see any reason why she would ever want to go back to how it used to be.

So with that in mind I have every reason to think that given time, practice and familiarity Mistress will eventually come to really enjoy watching me suffer in this particular way for her, just as I can tell her attitude to paddling my ass has changed... when we bought the paddle I remember her saying to me "Are you sure you want that, I think it's going to hurt!", but now there's no disguising  the effect using it on me has on her pussy. 

Slapping my cock and balls was another thing that she used to be reluctant to do, but now it's a very regular and very enjoyable part of our sex life, she's still a little hesitant about slapping my balls, but that's probably not a bad thing.

I'm sure one day in the not too distant future Mistress will lull me into thinking that I'm going to be allowed to cum properly and then right at the last second she will snatch it away from me, maybe she'll simply let go of my cock at the last second or maybe if she's riding my cock she'll just lift herself off me at the crucial moment and let my poor cock pulse my cum onto my stomach...

I'm sure in that moment the frustration will be enormous and I'll probably question my own sanity, but at the end of the day, the thought of Mistress controlling every last orgasm I'll ever have and having her be the one to decide 'ruined' or 'pleasurable' every single time is just so overwhelmingly hot... well, it makes every frustrating pulse worth it.

Some thoughts about my second ruined orgasm...

It's kind of confusing, to want your Mistress to ruin your orgasm... I think the best way I can explain it is that it's a bit like being whipped or paddled, because in some ways it's not that I particularly enjoy it of itself, it's that I enjoy the fact that it is Mistress's choice for it to happen. I guess it's an extension of the chastity thing in that just as most men would never surrender their freedom to orgasm to their partner, even fewer men would willingly push themselves to the brink of orgasm (and just beyond) and then take their hand away...
Knowing that Mistress was intending to ruin my orgasm set up a real conflict in my head, even as I was willing myself to the edge I found myself also seemingly resisting, leaving my cock incredibly hard and throbbing with frustration. It was as intense as it was ultimately unsatisfying, and as I said yesterday I loved that Mistress did it again with no prompting from me, and judging from her comments afterwards she intends to keep trying until she really nails it!
:) :) :) :) :)
I said I wanted her to keep growing into her role and becoming meaner and this is exactly the kind of thing which allows her to display her growing control over me and I just love it. I might not have loved it at the precise second it happened, just as I wouldn't say I love it at the precise moment my arse is being paddled, but it's all part of the bigger picture and I love that Mistress is slowly embracing and (I hope) enjoying this lifestyle, even if sometimes it does seem a little bit strange.

Ruined again...

Tonight has been a bit hit and miss, Mistress and I are planning to do something at the weekend and I think we both knew we would have to get down to the crappiness of planning what we were going to do, and this was playing on our minds when we snuck off to bed earlier in the evening - because frankly I think we both knew that there was not going to be any fun to be had afterwards! How right we were.
Anyway, so... with that in mind, it's possibly not surprising that Mistress R's 243rd orgasm was a little reluctant to blossom into fruition... not that I object to spending more time between her gorgeous thighs of course, you know me by now, nowhere I'd rather be than tongue deep in Mistress's beautiful pussy! But at one point I really thought it was going to be a DNF (to use the motor racing vernacular)... and that is something I really can't abide since it inevitably makes me feel like I have failed even when Mistress reassures me that it is not my fault, plus of course while I crave frustration for myself the last thing I want is to leave my beautiful Mistress unsatisfied. Thankfully after a brief pause for breath, Mistress finally had a lovely cum, albeit it didn't leave me quite as blissed out as it usually does...
Prior to that Mistress toyed with my cock with her beautiful feet while I knelt at the end of the bed, she also gave me the very rare treat of watching her rub her pussy with her own fingers. I loved watching her do that, usually when she does that I am kissing her feet and forbidden to look up!
After Mistress came it was my turn for some teasing and (seemingly inevitably on this evening of meh) my cock was a little reluctant to get hard (though it had been fine earlier), I think I still felt a bit responsible for her earlier frustration to be honest...
Anyway, Mistress knelt beside me as she stroked my cock giving me a good view of her gorgeous body... save for the black bra which covered her lovely breasts. I asked her if she would please remove it, she said that maybe she would in a little while, depending on how badly I wanted it.
Then she bent over and started to suck my cock while I caressed her ass, I was sufficiently hard now, if not setting any records, and when she knelt back up she told me that I had to choose between having her remove her bra and allowing me to see her beautiful breasts, or would I rather she teased me with her ass?
I really wanted her to take her bra off, but I am a sucker for Mistress's ass... so after some deliberation I opted for the second choice. She had me close my eyes and then stood over me before lowering her ass onto my face. I wanted to lick her ass of course, but somehow I didn't want to ask in case she decided to stop teasing me altogether... or at least she might take her gorgeous ass away.
Mistress told me I could open my eyes after a while and took great delight in using her free hand to give me a better view of her pretty, pink asshole. So fucking lickable! Aaaaaaaaaaaaah. She was pumping my cock quite hard now and it seemed to me that she was trying to get me close, indeed after a few more hard pumps I told her I was getting close, she moved off me and knelt beside me, gently stroking my cock, I sensed that she was going to ruin my orgasm and yet I could feel the edge slipping away, so frustrating!
Mistress coaxed my cock closer and closer, alternating between firm and gentle strokes until I felt like I was going to explode... and then a jet of cum shot out of my cock and Mistress relinquished almost all stimulation, merely teasing my cock with her fingertips as the remaining cum flowed from my cock. It maybe wasn't a perfectly ruined orgasm but it was pretty damned frustrating one and even now my cock feels 'different'. Like usually if I am allowed to cum my cock spends the rest of the evening completely docile and feels completely spent, in fact barely 'feels' at all. Tonight my cock remains soft, but feels kinda 'throbby' for want of a better word... I guess this is what people say about a ruined orgasm being more frustrating than just being teased and denied, and I expect my morning wood tomorrow will be even harder and achey than normal.
Well I certainly hope so anyway.
:)
After I'd finished 'cumming' (Mistress said it looked like I was in agony... which I wasn't of course, only an agony of frustration) Mistress had me lick up and swallow some of my cum from her hand. I loved that she ruined another orgasm and made me lick it up (something she only usually does in our Femdom sessions), I did worry that after my first ruined one it would be an age until she did it again, so this was a very welcome turn of events since I really want her to exploit every tool at her disposal to maximise her control over my cock and the pleasure it can bring (or withhold from) me.

Ruined at last, and then...

It's nearly midnight, I'm tired and I should go to bed, but I have to write about what happened tonight. After being allowed to worship Mistress's beautiful pussy for the third time in four days (heaven!) and feeling her have a lovely orgasm as I licked her clit, I was somewhat reluctant to move from between her legs. I love looking at her pussy after Mistress has cum and I love to breathe in her scent because I know it will be hours, maybe even days until I get to luxuriate in it again...
But eventually I found myself on my back with my head on the pillow, kissing my beautiful Mistress as she started to stroke my cock to full hardness. I told her how much I love eating her pussy as she moved down the bed and started to suck my cock. Of course I was already wondering, will I get to cum... will this be my first ruined orgasm???
I told her how her pleasure was so much more important than mine, that her orgasms were all that mattered to me.
Mistress took her time, sucking, stroking, slapping... until my cock was rock hard, then she started stroking harder and faster and I warned her that I was getting close. She didn't stop... I felt myself getting closer still, too close!
I warned Mistress again and she almost immediately let go of my cock, just before a stream of cum oozed from the tip onto my stomach. The flow stopped immediately and Mistress watched as I frustratedly squeezed my cock muscles trying to force more cum out, trying to gain proper relief... and failed miserably.
Maybe fifteen, twenty seconds passed and Mistress gently curled her fingers around my cock, the edge had totally passed and my cock responded to her touch growing harder than ever. She stroked my cock quickly and asked me if I had any more cum left in my balls. I told her yes, and she told me she was allowing me to cum now.
Mistress stroked my cock hard and fast until I had a violent, amazing, intense orgasm that left me quite literally panting and soaked in cum. It was absolutely unbelievable how much cum was all over me...
Afterwards I asked if I was in trouble for cumming without permission, she said that she was one second from giving me permission anyway, so this time she would let me off. I asked her if she had intended to ruin it or had she just let go because I was close. She said she intended to ruin it.
I am so proud of my Mistress for taking this step. I know she has always been somewhat against the idea of doing this, because she thought it was too mean... I think, not sure. But recently she has seemingly changed her mind, maybe I have managed to persuade her that I love the idea of her being increasingly sexually 'mean' to me. I hope so... because I really do love it.
I feel like Mistress (and I of course) has taken a big step forward today, and that she won't be worried about doing it again. I love the thought that I will never again be able to take it for granted that permission to cum will result in a satisfying orgasm, now I will always be wondering if Mistress will take her hand away just as I start to cum and ruin my orgasm. The thought of her controlling my cock like that is so fucking hot. And of course when I do get to cum properly I will appreciate it even more!
This is what I always wanted, for Mistress to have control not only of 'when' and 'if' I cum, but also in what manner and how much pleasure I am allowed from it.
I am so happy right now.
I can't wait until I've been denied a really long time and Mistress holds this new power over me... now she could make me wait weeks then ruin an orgasm and then make me wait even longer, and then she could just do it again if that's what she decided.
I'm just so glad that Mistress didn't panic when I started to cum and finish me off, I am super impressed with that. I know it's not easy for her to understand why I would want this even, and I can understand that, for me it's as much a mental as a physical thing... I want her to have total control of my cock and this is such a big step towards that.
Like I said before, in the past I always stayed away from the edge during teasing because I didn't want it cut short and I didn't want to override Mistress's authority by cumming without permission. Now I feel like I can relax more and enjoy being edged because Mistress has the perfect tool to deal with it if I lose control.
It's taken a long time to get here, but it's been 100% worth it.

Frustratingly, tantalizingly close...

It seems that ruined orgasms are definitely on the cards for me in the near future, this afternoon after giving Mistress her first orgasm of April, she teased me and brought me to the absolute brink, even after I warned her that I was close she kept stroking but never gave me permission to cum. What could I do? I fought it back like I'm supposed to until I felt a wet spot hit my stomach and Mistress let go of my cock.
My cock throbbed and Mistress gently stroked me again, I was confused... it seemed to me that she was trying to ruin my orgasm but as I still didn't have permission to cum I was still trying desperately to hold back. I begged Mistress not to touch my cock, believing that I was supposed to be holding on, and then when the edge had passed I told her and she immediately started stroking my cock again and it got really hard really quick, but I felt like now I could hold the edge at bay (I've read this before... almost like where you know where the edge is it's easier to stay away from it the second time).
Mistress pumped my cock harder and faster and it was obvious she was trying to get me to the edge again, so I played my part and allowed my guard down so that she could edge me again. This time she let go when I told her I was close and we had a very passionate kiss as my cock throbbed and ached against her silky smooth thighs and stomach.
Afterwards we talked about what just happened and Mistress realised that she needed to give me permission to cum if she wanted to give me any kind of orgasm, then she asked me how she should  go about it in more detail... We discussed the risk of a high speed jerking orgasm, that letting go as soon as I started to cum might be too little too late and how I thought she would be better getting me close and then gently stroking me until I alerted her that I was at the tipping point.
We agreed that this was not a precise science and that practice would make perfect. From which I may fairly conclude that Mistress is now on board with the idea of ruining orgasms in the future!
When she was stroking me the second time she said "You love it when I'm mean to you don't you?". I told her straight, the meaner she gets the more I will love it. I really would love her to get meaner and have fun controlling my cock. Like I said yesterday, I am more than ready to be summoned for any sort of body worship Mistress would like and I would love for Mistress to do something like edge me and then simply slap my cock and balls until I came, that would be sooooooo hot. I just cannot explain adequately how much I want her to be mean, mean, mean.
After we had finished she asked if I had cum, as there was a small wet patch on my stomach I said not, that it was precum. She said she had let go because it had shot out. I explained to her that when she started stroking me again after I had brought myself back from the brink my cock was instantly hard and that if I would have cum that wouldn't have happened. I guess there could have been a very small amount of cum released, but I certainly didn't have an orgasm.
I explained to her how if an orgasm is properly ruined that there is no refractory period and having mastered the technique she would be able to give me multiple ruined orgasms if she wanted to. Mistress also asked me which would be meaner, to ruin an orgasm and then leave my cock alone or to ruin an orgasm and then edge me again, I told her the second one...
I love where this is going, I so want my beautiful Mistress to really let her mean streak out and really make me wish I'd never started this, sigh...
In the meantime Mistress and I really want to make up for lost time this coming week and make sure she has plenty of orgasms. I always feel rusty when I haven't made Mistress cum for more than a few days, it's good to get back in the groove. She tasted so good and I can't wait to make her cum again tomorrow!

Totally unconnected, but also very hot... I came across a video yesterday (here), which I will be adding to my other blog. As I have mentioned before sometimes there can be some small part in a video which is insanely hot, which may not be exactly the obvious thing... in this video it's the part at about 1:00 where the woman, realizing her lover is at the door, pushes her husband away from between her legs where he is 'preparing' her pussy with his tongue. It could be that the woman is very hot (she is), it could be that she's wearing slutty shoes (she is), but mostly it's just the way she does it, by putting her foot on his shoulder and simply pushing him away. Truth be told the rest of the video isn't that amazing, but that bit alone is worth the effort of watching, and is yet another thing I will be trying to remember and hopefully using in a future story, though I can't imagine it having quite the impact in text that it does on the screen, especially when coupled with the look on her face as she gets up to let her lover in...!

Some teasing and the possibility of a ruined orgasm...

So this last week has been rather subdued, at the start of the week I had a cold and then Mistress unexpectedly got her period. We were hoping that it would be gone by today, but sadly it looks like it will be tomorrow before Mistress is ready to start adding to her orgasm count for April. However, Mistress suggested that we might try and pack a lot of pussy worship into next week so I'm looking forward to that!!!
In the meantime, Mistress definitely seems to be coming around to the idea of giving me a ruined orgasm, which is an interesting development to say the least. I must admit I rather like the idea of it, because it will be another way in which she can control my cock and it would also mean that in future even when she gives me permission to cum, I might still get a surprise at the last minute. I would love that uncertainty and also being allowed to (sort of) cum but not suffering the dip in horniness definitely appeals too.
Something else which appeals is the manner in which Mistress R just teased me to the edge. She was laying on the sofa stroking my cock and I begged her to let me see her gorgeous breasts. After a little more begging she stripped off her shirt and bra and carried on pumping and slapping my cock while I caressed her beautiful breasts. Imagining my cum sprayed all over them only brought my edge closer by the second, so I tried not to think about it too much (difficult!).
When I got close Mistress smirked a little and idly toyed with my cock, making me wonder if she was about to ruin it right there and then. She never gave me permission to cum so I fought it back, I assume I still need permission even for a ruined one after all. After a little break to regain my composure Mistress stroked me some more before calling it a day and (rather disappointingly) putting her bra and shirt back on.
Mistress looked so hot stroking and sucking my cock with her top off but her jeans still on, my cock was so fucking hard... Needless to say the weather has improved here a little making this sort of thing a bit more of a viable proposition. Hopefully this means it won't be too long before the bell is put to good use once again. Here's hoping Mistress sees fit to summon me for more than just foot worship, I would love her to expect pussy or ass worship on demand, or any other kind of service for that matter.
Who knows, maybe one day she'll use her bell to summon me and have me masturbate and ruin my own orgasm onto her feet, before having me clean them with my tongue. That would be pretty fucking hot if you ask me!

Femdom Session 24th February 2013...

Today's Femdom session nearly didn't happen. I woke up at 7:50am and shot downstairs to see what was wrong with our cat, who was howling like she was in her death throes. Since she is twenty one (and we believe has a tumour in her bladder) we are always kind of waiting for the day when she has to go to the vet for the final time. Luckily today was not that day, and seemingly the enormous commotion was because she'd eaten all her biscuits and she wanted to know what I intended to do about that!
I felt enormously tired, even though I get up daily at 7:10am, and headed back to bed, where I slept until eleven (which I never do). When we finally got out of bed, we had kind of missed our usual starting point for our session, which usually begins at 11 or thereabouts. I looked in the mirror, I looked extraordinarily pale. We ummed and aahed about when, or indeed if, we should have our session today. Should we do it tomorrow or next week? Finally we decided to just do it. We both felt less than 'mad for it', but as has been proved before, a few minutes is all it takes for the adrenaline to kick in.
So late this afternoon our session began, me with my blindfold, ankle/wrist restraints and the leather ball splitter I have talked about before all in place. Mistress entered and asked if I had any more cock touching to confess to, which I didn't. She was pleased but decided to administer about fifteen paddle smacks as a reminder. Then she pulled my face into her ass and as I breathed in her scent I felt my cock straining against the splitter which I had probably done up too tight if I'm honest. She told me that if I want to keep getting teased I need to remember to ask when I want to touch my cock.
Several minutes of lovely foot worship followed, while Mistress taunted me by describing the way she was touching and dildoing her pussy (which I of course couldn't see through my blindfold), punctuated by having me suck the dildo clean of her juices and getting it wet for her.
Eventually I was told to get on the bed and Mistress pushed a dildo into my ass and then had me lay on my back. She secured me at each corner of the bed and began using my tongue, I love it when she does that. She turned around and tormented me with her ass, telling me that I was not allowed to lick it, something she did over and over this session. I felt my cock straining against the ball splitter and eventually felt Mistress snap the front part open, leaving the strip of leather at the base of my cock and behind my balls intact and tight.
She sank down onto my cock several times and then lifted off and began slapping my cock, which was now extremely hard. This pattern continued a while, before more teasing with her gorgeous (but still hidden) ass pressed right in my face. Then she told me to close my eyes and she removed the blindfold. When she allowed me to open them she was standing over me, and as I looked up at her she lifted up the front panel of her PVC skirt to expose her beautiful pussy to me. I licked my lips and she sank onto my face again and then  turned around and sank down onto my cock again, offering me a very rare sight indeed, my cock disappearing into her pussy from behind.
Soon she started playing with my nipples as she stroked my cock while kneeling beside me, then she rode me again and continued to pull on them, which I really loved. Then she started talking about whether she might let me cum today and what conditions might be attached. She said she'd read in one of my stories about where a guy is allowed to cum but then has to endure being stroked for another thirty seconds, and maybe she should try that. She asked me if that was something I would like to try, I said yes, though I fear I wouldn't be able to take thirty seconds and I would definitely have to be tied down. She also asked if I would like to jerk myself off over her ass and then lick it clean, I said I would. She said maybe she would jerk me off and then wipe it on her ass, since that would be just as good. Then she left me alone for a while with clothes pegs on my nipples, the dildo still in my ass and the leather strip really pulling on my balls.
When she came back she had me remove the cock ring, she removed the pegs (she always has a twinkle in her eye when I wince I notice) and the dildo before having me go down on her. She was so ready for it after riding my cock and abusing me, and she came rather quicker than normal, and rather spectacularly too. :)
After cleaning her and the sheet I was tied down again and Mistress announced that I was to be relieved of my twenty eight day load, but that I would have to swallow it (of course). She wondered if I would rather be jerked off with her ass in my face or allowed to cum inside her, I assumed that meant she would allow me to lick her asshole as I came. She said the first would be my favourite and I agreed, however Mistress then told me that I wasn't allowed to look at her ass, even though it would be right up against my face and asked if I could be trusted to keep my eyes shut or if I should be blindfolded. I told her the blindfold would be safer, even though I was hoping my tongue would be buried in her ass anyway.
She allowed me about two seconds off ass licking in the end... so frustrating, and as she jerked my cock she described every little thing that she was doing, gradually bringing me closer and closer to coming. Then as soon as she started counting down from ten I could feel my orgasm approaching and as she jerked me hard I exploded over her hands.
As I lay panting she fed me the whole twenty eight day load from her fingers (it was extraordinarily creamy it seemed) before removing my blindfold and taunting me with her pussy and ass for a last time before ending the session. We agreed it had been a success and were both glad we had not postponed it.

Some videos for you...

So... some of you who visit my other (Caption) blog, will probably have already have seen these videos. But I wanted to highlight the very best ones on here anyway and talk about them a little bit, if that's okay with you guys. (Click on the titles to watch the videos).

GREAT TEASE WITH RUINED ORGASM
This is a great video, even though the host site is a bit rubbish. It's often slow to load and you can't jump forward which is annoying, but even so. This is a good one for the chastity fans out there, since the lady in the video is a brilliant teaser and I really love the way she keeps building him up and then stopping at the last second. This would definitely make a good teaching video for the novice chastity Mistress. The ruined orgasm is pretty good even though the guy has a slight case of the overacting. Also two days chastity - what the fuck is that???

GANG CUMS IN WIFE AND CUCKOLD LICKS EACH OUT
I realise this isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea, but there's something about this video that's really hot. It certainly isn't the sound (which is woefully out of synch and best turned off IMHO), no, what I really like about it is the fact that the blond girl seems to be really enjoying herself. This being porn that either means she's a really good actress or maybe she really was really enjoying herself! Either way, this is excellent stuff... and having him jerk off on her feet and lick them clean at the end is the icing on the cake (so to speak).

HUBBY PREPARES WIFE FOR DATE
A subtler take on the whole cuckold premise, since this video focuses on the preparation rather than the act itself. You might find yourself wondering why this video turns you on (like I did) since the actress does act like a real bitch, but there are some really intensely hot moments here, most notably when she sucks on his CB-3000, when she has him worship her feet and definitely when she uses her legs to force his face deeper into her ass. Very hot indeed.

CUCKOLD'S SWEET TREAT 
While this is another 'cuckold' video, there's a strong element of Femdom in play here too. Like the second video, this actress is playing a real bitch and again it's slightly confusing how she comes off so hot while being so nasty. I guess it's just the fact that she knows how hot she is and the confidence she displays makes her a cut above.

Well that's it, I hope you enjoyed these videos, and if you haven't already visited my caption blog then you will find plenty more videos there to entertain you (just click on the tabs at the top of the page).

Sex on drugs...

Well, I say drugs.... I mean Night Nurse. I don't know if you can get Night Nurse outside the UK or not, so I shall explain. Basically Night Nurse is a cold remedy that I never take because for some reason it completely wipes me out. I remember taking it once, years ago and then having to drive to work the next morning and vowed never again, I might as well have been drunk.

Anyway, so yesterday I made the decision to buy some in an attempt to get rid of this cold, knowing that I didn't have to go anywhere on Sunday so even though it would leave me very drowsy at least it would be safe.

So I took them last night and went to bed around 11:30. About an hour later I was having a dream that Mistress R was stroking my cock and bringing me closer and closer to the edge... as I got close to the edge I realised it might not be a dream, but I was so stoned on Night Nurse I wasn't entirely sure.

I guess I could have used that as an excuse for coming without permission, but I didn't, I told Mistress R I was getting close and she asked me if I wanted to cum, I said 'only if she wanted me to'. Mistress bent her head down and started sucking my cock and I thought she was going to swallow my cum, but then she took her ahead away and said that I could cum.

It was weird.... I kept feeling like I was getting closer and closer to cumming, but needing a little more stimulation. After a while Mistress R stopped stroking but I still felt like I was teetering on the edge, but there was cum all over both of us and she told me it had gone everywhere!

Is Night Nurse actually some kind of ruined orgasm superdrug? It certainly appears to be for me. 

Afterwards we spooned and I eventually woke up around 10:15am. I dozed for a further three hours before actually getting up, I can't even remember the last time I wasn't up before noon. I still feel crap, but better than yesterday and hopefully if I get a good night's sleep tonight tonight I will be better tomorrow.

Right now I am about to go upstairs and give Mistress R her long awaited 193rd orgasm, I can't wait any longer, and I'm not THAT ill. 

A new record, only not quite as I might have hoped...

Some of you may be shocked to see that I have been allowed to cum again, and in the process set a new record for the shortest gap between orgasms! However, there was one small spanner in the works...
After I ate Mistress R to orgasm I was feeling quite hot, and quite tired and I wasn't at all sure that I was going to be up for anything at all. To my surprise Mistress R said she wanted me to show her how I touch my cock... this was rather unexpected to say the least, and far more unusual than you might suspect. From the start we seem to have skipped the mutual masturbation stage of courtship and never really revisited it.
Still I was happy to follow Mistress R's orders and as I felt my cock slowly getting hard I watched as Mistress R slid her finger into her soaking wet pussy and periodically rubbed her juices onto the tip of my cock. As I said the other day, I love watching Mistress R touch herself, it is so HOT! After a few minutes Mistress R got up on her knees and allowed me to play with her pussy as she took over stroking and slapping my cock.
Being tired and with my nerve damage I really couldn't feel my cock that much, it dulls the sensations quite a bit, which is why I love it when Mistress slaps my cock as it cuts through the 'fuzziness'. Mistress told me to get up on my knees and I watched as she lay back and pulled me between her legs.
This was a little daunting to say the least, since being on top without a cock ring and with limited sensation can be a recipe for failure at the best of times, but I managed to stay hard and started to push into Mistress R's beautiful wet pussy.
Mistress encouraged me to keep going and to fuck her until I came. This was great of course and my cock stayed nice and hard, but what I hadn't anticipated was the massive cramp in my left leg just as I started to cum. I moved my leg back and forth throughout, trying to alleviate the discomfort, and by the time it finally dissipated I had effectively 'missed' my orgasm completely! An accidentally ruined orgasm by anyone's standards I should say.
So, while it was lovely to make Mistress R cum and fantastic to be allowed on top of her, the ending wasn't quite as I might have hoped. I really don't feel like I've even cum, it's rather bizarre to tell you the truth... neither the satisfaction of a proper orgasm or the frustration of a deliberately ruined one, what a bummer!
Still, on reflection, it's a lot less shit than having a floppy cock, I'll tell you that for nothing!

Femdom Session 15th July 2012

As regular readers will know, over the last few weeks I haven't exactly been on top of the world, and so while I looked forward to what I knew would be a good Femdom session, I never anticipated just how fantastic it would actually turn out to be. As a one off I decided to record the session with my little dictaphone, so that I could share with you exactly what went down last Sunday morning...

(NB: Just so you know, before the session I had already confessed to my two infractions and given some detail about them).


Mistress R instructed me to wait for her wearing my ankle and wrist cuffs, my blindfold and my rubber cock ring. On entering the room she toyed with my cock for a few moments as she checked that I had complied with all of her instructions. Satisfied that I had, she told me to move away from the bed and to get on all fours, I complied with her instructions immediately, well aware that the next little while probably wasn't going to be my favourite part of the session.

"Each time we have these sessions, I ask you (slap) some questions don't I slave... and you're always honest with me aren't you?"

Slap! The whip made contact with my ass a second time, as I knew my punishment hadn't started I presumed that I was not yet required to count the blows and thank Mistress for them. I responded positively to Mistress's question, pulling my back upwards a little as I sought to bring my balls forward of the backs of my thighs.

"So... how many times did you touch yourself when you shouldn't have done?"

"Two Mistress."

"Two... right."

Slap! Slap! The whip was brought down a further two times before she continued...

"And I understand that one of these was short, and one was long... how long are we talking slave?"

I was dreading that particular question, but I had to answer truthfully.

"Ummmm.....  about, twenty minutes Mistress."

"Twenty minutes! That is 'long' isn't it slave?"

She sounded rather surprised at my confession.

"Yes Mistress."

"And you actually dared to edge yourself during that time slave, is that correct?"

"Yes Mistress."

"How many times do you think you edged yourself slave?"

"I don't know Mistress..."

"Roughly.... two, three... more than five?"

I was somewhat thankful that she had jumped in with those options since if I'd had to estimate off my own back it would have been much higher, more like double that...

"More than five, Mistress."

"Really, more than five.... well I think you need quite a severe punishment for that slave. Right, you know the drill."

Mistress began whipping my ass now, and carried on until I had counted off and thanked her for fifteen strikes of the cat.

She paused briefly to ask me a question...

"Surely you haven't forgotten slave, how much better it is when I touch your cock?"

"No Mistress."

"Because who actually owns your cock slave?"

"You do Mistress."

"That's right, so you should not be touching it without my permission should you slave?"

"No Mistress."

"Perhaps this will help you to remember.... do you remember what number we are up to slave?"

"Fifteen Mistress."

"Good, continue..."

The whipping recommenced, with a further five strokes being added before she stopped. For someone who likes being whipped it would probably have appeared rather tame, but I do not enjoy pain, I only enjoy the submission of allowing myself to be whipped by my beautiful Mistress, so for me it was quite enough discomfort.

"That's for the twenty minutes of touching slave, and now we move on to the number of edges... begin again from one slave."

Even before the first blow I somehow knew that she'd switched to the paddle, the paddle that I suggested buying of course... it stings, I love it and hate it at the same time. Five slaps with the paddle later, she called a halt. My ass was stinging, even though I knew it would quickly fade away.

"And how did it feel when you were touching your own cock slave?"

What could I say, really?

"Good Mistress."

"It felt good did it... did it feel better than when I touch your cock slave?"

"No Mistress."

"No of course it didn't... sit up and turn and face the bed."

In my personal darkness I turned towards the bed and heard the PVC sheet crackle as Mistress mounted the bed and leaned  forward to present her favourite glass dildo to my mouth.

"Open wide slave, suck that cock."

I willingly opened my mouth and felt the cool, smooth glass against my tongue. I love to wet my Mistress's dildo for her because I know she loves it's deep ridges, the thought that she would soon be pleasuring herself with it made my cock stiffen as I fellated the glass cock.

"Since you love touching your own cock slave, so often, when you shouldn't... you should even more like licking and sucking this cock."

My cock continued to harden as I worked to ensure the dildo was well lubricated for Mistress's beautiful pussy.

"Because this cock will be going where you always want to have your own cock slave, isn't that right?"

I briefly pulled my head off the dildo to answer.

"Yes Mistress."

The dildo was pulled away and she shifted on the bed.

"Right slave, now I'm going to allow you to worship my feet."

"Thank you Mistress."

I felt her foot press against my chest and I wished I wasn't blindfolded so I could see her beautiful, soft feet.

"You may begin....while I will be rubbing this dildo, all around my beautiful pussy...exactly where you would like to have your cock, wouldn't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

I set to work on her right foot, peppering it with gentle kisses before sucking her toes into my mouth, I absolutely adore sucking Mistress's toes, they are so delicate and sexy.

"Well, I'm only going to have a cock inside my pussy that I am in control of.... you're not in control slave, and you don't want to be, do you?"

"No Mistress."

"You can't see this now slave, but this dildo is rubbing all around my beautiful lips... and just... just inside... starting to get coated with that beautiful pussy juice... you love the taste of pussy juice don't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Whatever is covered in pussy juice should have to be licked clean by you, isn't that right slave?"

"If it pleases you Mistress."

"If you listen carefully you can hear the sound of my dildo moving in.. and out... you love that sound don't you slave, you wish it was your cock making that sound don't you?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Then you must learn to control yourself better slave, you were doing so well, and I'm sure you will do well again. You must remember, I'm in control, I own your cock, I say when you can touch it, you know you can ask me for permission slave... but you failed to do so didn't you?"

I barely stopped to answer her, I was so deep in sub space now, all my worries and stress completely forgotten in less than ten minutes...

"Stop, open wide, lick this dildo clean slave..."

I opened my mouth and used my tongue to lick her juices off the entire length of the glass dildo as she twizzled it around, then she pushed it into my mouth and I sucked it greedily, willingly, just as if I was sucking a cock for her amusement. After a short time she pulled the dildo out of my mouth and I resumed my duties as her foot slave.

"You think it's more fun to do something without permission don't you slave, you know sometimes I might actually want to see you touching that cock, so you must ask me if you want to, understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good....that will please me much more slave. After all, if you are wanting to touch your cock, it should only be with my permission and I should be able to see it. Who knows, I might decide that you're not touching it as I want you to, and stop you and do something different myself. But whatever it is, it's going to be better than the way you touch yourself isn't it slave, furtively, without permission?"

"Yes Mistress."

"You love worshipping my feet don't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Just being allowed to kneel there and worship my beautiful feet... knowing that I'm laying here, playing with my beautiful pussy, and getting this cock covered in my beautiful pussy juice, and you can't even see it can you... but you can smell it can't you? You can scent that... you love that scent don't you slave..."

"Stop now slave, and lick this clean again..."

Once more I licked and sucked on the glass dildo as she hovered over me.

"Maybe one day it will be a real cock covered in your Mistress's pussy juice slave, you'd lick that clean if you were told to wouldn't you, if you knew it would please your Mistress..."


My cock pulsed as she spoke, though I doubt we would ever involve another person in our sex-life, just hearing her say those words always has a considerable effect on me.


"Yes Mistress," I groaned.

"Onto the other foot slave..."

I lovingly took hold of her left foot and began lavishing it with attention, just as I had the right one before it.

"Do you think a lot about these sessions, in between them slave... think about how lovely it is for you to have your Mistress totally in control... deciding, if I want to, to keep you on your knees for the whole session worshipping my feet, not letting you near my pussy, as a punishment... you'd even welcome that wouldn't you slave."

"Whatever pleases you Mistress."

"That's right..."

She allowed me a little while to concentrate on her gorgeous foot, my tongue swirling around her pretty, red polished toes.

"So when you're touching your own cock slave, tell me about it, do you do it hard, or soft..."

I struggled for an answer, so deep was I in my reverie.

"Both Mistress."

"Both... and does it feel as good as when I am touching it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"No, that's what you have to learn to remember slave don't you? The only time you should be touching that cock slave, is for my amusement, if I tell you to do so. Do you understand?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Otherwise I am the only one who should be touching it, I control your cock. Who controls your cock slave?"

"You do Mistress."

"Who controls your balls?"

"You do Mistress."

"Who controls your ass?"

"You do Mistress."

"That's right slave... you shouldn't be forgetting that after all this time?"

"No Mistress."

She removed her foot from my mouth and I felt her moving closer again.

"Lick my finger clean slave."

I sucked her pussy flavoured finger deep into my mouth, savouring the taste of her gorgeous juices.

"Is that one of your favourite tastes in the world slave, I think it is isn't it?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good slave, keep going... "

She allowed me a few more minutes of foot worship, after which I was completely blissed out and feeling enormously mellow. I just love worshipping my Mistress's feet, she really does have the most gorgeous feet I have ever seen and they really turn me on.

Finally she bid me to stop.

"That will do slave, now get up on the bed, on your hands and knees."

I moved onto the bed as instructed and waited as Mistress bound my wrists to the corners of the bed.

"I think you need just a touch more punishment slave..."

She gave me another (rather gentle) five slaps with the cat, before setting it aside and moving onto the bed beside me. I felt her reach under me and grab my cock.

"Now slave, time to really show you who's in control of this cock... and that's just how you like it isn't it?"


She started stroking my cock now, feeling it as it grew in her hand.

"It cannot feel as good, when you touch it yourself, can it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"Not when I dig my nails in like this... you sooooo love how that feels don't you? While your ass is vulnerable to me as well, you really love that feeling, isn't that right slave?"

My cock was rock hard now, the pain of her nails digging in only making it harder still, it felt so damn good!

"I think sometimes you deliberately touch yourself, so that you'll get punished, because you absolutely love being reminded don't you slave, of how good it feels when I'm in control..."

She moved away and the next thing I heard was the pump of the lube and the slightly cool, slippery feeling as the substance landed between my ass cheeks. A couple of minutes later Mistress had inserted a smallish dildo in my ass before returning her attention to my throbbing cock.

"You love it when something's in your ass and your cock's being teased, don't you slave?"

Indeed I do. The initial penetration may not always be easy, but I generally find it doesn't take long for that initial discomfort to subside and a much more pleasurable sensation to take it's place.

"It wouldn't be this good if you were doing it yourself would it slave?"

I couldn't argue with that, I was already starting to enjoy the unusual sensation of having something in my asshole, by the time she removed it a good while later I would be hoping for more.

"I sometimes wonder how you'd feel, if somebody else was touching you, while something was in your ass... maybe one day if it pleases me to find out, you will slave..."

That kind of caught me off guard, I must admit...

"That's certainly making your cock good and hard isn't it slave, you love it when your cock's like this, don't you... I'm in control of it, and that's just how you like it isn't it...however much you might sneakily touch it... now, keep that dildo in your ass while I untie you..."


Mistress unhooked the restraints from my cuffs before giving me my next instruction.

"Now slave I want you to turn over onto your back, while keeping that dildo inside your ass."

I successfully manoeuvred onto my back without letting the dildo slip out and felt Mistress securing my wrists once more before straddling me.

"Now slave, I want you to ask me nicely to take your blindfold off."

I asked her, with just a hint of pleading in my voice.

"Why would you want me to take it off slave."

"So I can... see you Mistress."

"You want to see me do you slave... do you?"


I managed to convince her that I did.

"Very well, close your eyes."

I felt her peel away the red rubber blindfold and knew that all that was standing between me and the image of my beautiful Mistress was the thickness of my eyelids. Of course I kept them tightly closed as instructed, despite my eagerness to see her gorgeous body.

"Okay, you may open them..."

Mistress was wearing a fairly plain black bra and one of her split leather skirts. The only time she ever wears bright red lipstick is in our sessions and I must admit I do love it on her. Even without the PVC garb she sometimes wears, she looked completely stunning.

"You look gorgeous Mistress."

"Thank you slave, keep your eyes up..."

She slowly raised the front of her leather skirt and said, "Now you may look at my beautiful pussy slave."

I must have licked my lips as I feasted my eyes on that which I never tire of seeing, Mistress has a gorgeous pussy, which with her hair kept pretty short affords me a great view of it's beauty.

"Lick the dildo slave."

I hadn't even noticed that she was holding her glass dildo again, but willingly used my tongue to lubricate it for her once more. A few moments later I was allowed to watch as she slid the glass cock between her soft, silky pink lips.

"Watch that dildo... going up inside and getting coated in those beautiful juices... "


You can bet I was watching... I absolutley love watching Mistress pleasure herself, and I so rarely get to see it.

"Ahhh, you so wish that was your cock don't you slave?"

I did indeed, if only she would allow me inside her.

"Lick it clean slave..."

I licked and sucked the dildo clean, savouring her beautiful taste as I swallowed every drop I could from the translucent cock.

Mistress discarded the dildo and reached down to find my rock hard cock, without a word she pressed the tip against her very wet pussy and bore down until I was fully inside. She rode me for less than half a minute before pulling herself off me and moving up to straddle my face.

"Tongue out slave..."

I can't tell you just how much I love it when Mistress straddles my face and orders me to lick her, it is just heaven to me, the submissive positioning just adds so much to my enjoyment of her beautiful pussy and I love it even more when she grinds herself against me, especially when she's really, really wet.

"Feel good slave?"

"You taste amazing Mistress..."

"Thank you slave, is that your favourite taste in the world?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Is it? So you prefer that to the taste of my beautiful ass do you?"

Not exactly, I adore both...

"Only slightly Mistress...."

"I see. I guess my ass is more of a treat for you because you don't get to taste it that often do you?"

"No Mistress... it's a special treat."

"A special treat, yes... only very good slaves are allowed that special treat aren't they? So do you think a slave who flagrantly disobeyed his Mistress by touching himself for twenty minutes should be allowed that special treat?"

Argh, as much as I probably expected this, I hated that my own weakness was going to be the thing which denied me the pleasure of worshipping Mistress R's gorgeous ass, unfortunately there was only one possible answer.

"Probably not Mistress."

"Probably not, then again... if you were to be allowed the possibility of that special treat, you'd probably do anything for it, wouldn't you?"

Mistress R had moved off my face now and was kneeling next to me on the bed and stroking my cock, as she talked to me she punctuated her comments with random slaps to my cock, which only made it harder.

"Anything that I asked...."

"Yes Mistress."

"If I told you that in order to earn that special treat, you had to go down on your Mistress and make her cum so hard..... eight times, before you were allowed that treat, you'd agree to that wouldn't you slave?"

Before I could answer Mistress R tabled an immediate amendment.

"In fact eight times is probably a bit low... probably fifteen times would be better."

I moaned softly, a combination of the way she was roughly playing with my cock and my appreciation of her domineering attitude.

"And if I said that in order to earn that special treat, you wouldn't be allowed to cum, for...."

She paused and gazed absentmindedly at the ceiling as if trying to think just how long she wanted me to suffer, before concluding simply that 'as long as she pleased' was sufficient.

 "...as long as I say, and when you were allowed to cum, I might just decide to ruin it for you... but in order to get your tongue into that special place, you'd probably agree to that wouldn't you slave?"

"Yes Mistress." I groaned as my cock pulsed in her hand at the mere suggestion of a ruined orgasm.

I love the thought of her doing that to me, not because of the physical sensation so much, more because I would love her to do it 'just because she can'. Like being whipped and paddled, it's not so much the act itself, it's the fact that it is her that is choosing that action for me.

Even as I struggled to keep my excitement under control Mistress R was straddling me and pressing her gorgeous ass softly against my face, affording me a torturously enticing view of her beautiful pink puckered hole. I can't tell you how much I wanted to flick my tongue out and just tease it for a second.....

"And what I could do, is allow you a tiny, tiny, tiny taste today... or maybe just allow you near it... so you were near, but you couldn't actually touch it... you can see it, soooo close.... but not allowed to touch it... maybe that would make you realise how special it actually was... and how only slaves who are very, very good are allowed to have that very special treat."

She pressed back again as I breathed in her musky scent, utterly complicit in my own torment.

"Oh it must be torture slave, to be sooooooo near, and yet not be allowed to do what you really want to do, which is to just plunge your tongue inside isn't it slave?"

My cock throbbed as she pressed back once again, her pink rosebud making the slightest contact with my top lip. I could have exploded right there...

"But slaves who can't obey their Mistress... they don't deserve special treats do they slave?"

"No Mistress," I breathed into her ass, fighting off the disappointment of knowing she was not going to allow me to taste her today.

"Still, slave might be allowed a chance of redeeming himself... we'll see won't we?"

A glimmer of hope perhaps?

"But he would of course have to agree... to anything and everything his Mistress asked. And not just agreeing and then immediately forgetting... he'd have to prove his devotion, so that she knows he really does appreciate having his Mistress totally in charge.

Mistress moved back to kneeling beside me and started stroking and slapping my cock and balls once again. I love it when she does that.

"After all slave, you touching yourself can't possibly feel as good as this can it, you know that now don't you?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Do you think you'll be able to remember that now?"

"Yes Mistress."

"I want you to be able to take yourself right back to this moment and be able to remember how it feels...

"I'll do anything you want me to Mistress."

"You will won't you slave, that's what I like to hear... otherwise you won't be allowed in that special place... "

Mistress picked up the small cock-whip and began flogging my cock with it, even using it on my balls a couple of times which I don't think she's ever done before, at least not deliberatley!

"Because remember, I can do what I want to this cock, I can lick it, suck it, bite it, crop it, whip it, rub it... whatever I choose slave... that's right isn't it?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Good.... I think it's time for you to have a think about it slave, to think about how much you really want to obey me. I'll be back when I'm ready slave... and then I'm going to tell you to go down on me. Understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress. Thank you Mistress."

Mistress applied a clothes peg to each of my nipples before leaving me to stew in my own juices for several long minutes.

As the minutes ticked by I truly entered that dreamy state that comes from being in this position, I felt my cock gradually soften but a few minutes before Mistress R came back into the room I focussed on remembering the images I have witnessed in the last half an hour and my cock quickly comes back to life, giving Mistress the impression as she walked back into the room that I had been hard the entire time.

"Good slave, have you been thinking about me?"

"Yes Mistress."

Mistress removed the pegs and untied my wrists.

"Take off your cock ring and then get up on your knees..."

I struggled a little bit getting the cock ring past my rapidly hardening cock, but I managed it and rose onto my knees without losing the dildo from my well-lubed and relaxed ass (I'd almost forgotten it was inside me to tell the truth).

"Ask me to remove the dildo."

I did as Mistress asked and half hoped as she pulled the dildo out that she might decide to take me on my hands and knees with her strap-on, after twenty minutes or so with the dildo inside me I was fully relaxed and would have loved her to fuck me from behind, but unfortunately it wasn't to be.

"So slave, were you thinking about me while I was gone, were you thinking that it's better for me to be in control than you?"

"Yes Mistress."

She smiled and climbed onto the bed, moving towards me and pulling my face towards her crotch. I wasn't exactly sure if I was allowed to lick her pussy at this precise moment, so I settled for a couple of soft kisses and breathing in her wonderful scent.

She lay down and spread her legs, inviting me to lay down inbetween them and pleasure her with my tongue. I willingly and eagerly did so, and I have to say Mistress tasted absolutely gorgeous. She was so hot and wet, my fingers slid easily into her pussy and right from the start she moaned softly as I started to lick her.

This continued for a while until eventually she groaned a few times, and then bucked wildly against my tongue. Listening back to that moment on the recording is something I will never get tired of hearing, for me it is the most beautiful sound I could ever hear. After a few seconds she stopped writhing and told me how good it was, then almost whispered, "Thank you slave."

"Thank you Mistress." I responded.

I always thank her for allowing me to lick her to orgasm, in a way that I'm sure she would never dream of doing...

"Kneel up slave... "

Mistress slipped out from under me as I viewed the small slick of pussy juice which remained on the PVC sheet.

"Clean up the sheet slave..."

I bent down and licked up every last drop, I love the taste of her pussy, even from a plastic sheet.

"Is that clean slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

"Get up on your knees then slave..."

Mistress climbed onto the bed once again and turned away from me.

"Good slave, now you can lick me clean, but you are not allowed to lick my ass.... just concentrate on getting every last drop of that beautiful pussy juice."

I craned my neck between her thighs to get as much as I could, finally using my fingers to retrieve the drops that my tongue just couldn't reach. She turned to face me and allowed me to lick around her pussy, she  tasted magnificent, it's the only word I can use to describe it.

Mistress ordered me onto my back and secured my wrists once more before straddling me and exposing her asshole to me by pulling her cheeks apart with one hand, the other stroking my cock until it was as hard as a rock.

"Good slave... but I still don't think that you've done enough to be allowed to lick that special place, not this time slave. You need to be thinking about it slave, and when you are tempted... so close... you'll know not to touch yourself without my permission won't you?"

Mistress slapped my cock and balls once again, bringing me closer to the edge, though I was still in well in control.

"Because it's never going to feel as good as this is it slave?"

"No Mistress."

"I want you to remember slave, when you're tempted to touch yourself, remember to ask me... I may not give you permission, but I may... and if I do... you will touch yourself while I'm watching. I say when you can touch your cock, understand slave?"

"Yes Mistress."

She slapped my cock a few more times and gave my balls one hefty slap for good measure, before abruptly bringing the session to a close.

"End of session."

"Thank you Mistress, thank you... thank you."

I lay panting for a few seconds until Mistress lay down on the bed next to me and I pressed myself against her, hugging her passionately and telling her how amazing it had been. After the last few weeks, we both really needed this session to be good, and it was more than that, much, much more... it was utterly fantastic. I am such a lucky man to have such a wonderful, sexy and beautiful wife as my divine Mistress R.

40 days straight....

As you will see from the box on the right, tonight Mistress R has chalked up her 140th orgasm since April 2011. In addition, Mistress R has now denied me for forty days straight and achieved a new record of thirteen orgasms since my last release!!!

Today has been quite stressful at work, and tomorrow is going to be even worse... so it was lovely to be able to relax between Mistress R's beautifully smooth legs and lick her to a nice orgasm. Afterwards she allowed me to linger a while, which I really loved... it's not really possible to appreciate the gorgeous sight of Mistress's pink, wet pussy while you are actually in the process of worshipping it, and I made sure to thank her for allowing me a few moments to mentally capture that image to keep me going for a few more days.

Eventually, however I found myself back on the pillow, with Mistress R stroking my cock to full hardness. It didn't take long at all, and as I looked down to see her take my cock in her mouth it looked about ready to burst! 

Mistress didn't suck my cock for long before she gestured for me to move into the middle of the bed so that she could straddle me. It seems ages since I was inside her gorgeous pussy, so I really wanted it... but at the same time I was more than aware that, forty days in, it was going to be 'challenging'. And so it proved. Yes it felt wonderful, but it wasn't long before Mistress realised that I was struggling not to cum and dismounted. She kissed me and gently stroked my cock a little more once I had had a few moments to calm down, but soon declared that she thought I'd better not have any more teasing tonight...

It's kind of frustrating that it's becoming so difficult to hold back, since I would much rather Mistress R got to choose when to allow me to cum rather than my cock (potentially) making that decision for her. At least she seemed amused rather than frustrated by my struggle...
Of course this is a record for us and I wouldn't be too surprised if Mistress R allowed me to cum fairly soon anyway (although I have assured her that I will be happy with whatever she decides, even if that means I have to wait a while longer). But thinking ahead I would like for us to be able to go for as long as Mistress R decides, and like I said yesterday, maybe an abandoned (or ruined)  orgasm would alleviate the edginess without destroying the underlying need and ache?