Mistress Marie's comment on my Femdom Session post...

Mistress Marie said: Another fun session to read about. Hey did you ever share the details of the new weight loss program you two are doing and what the rewards etc are?

No I didn't actually. Basically what happened was the group changed venues and the new venue was bigger and the seats there were really uncomfortable to sit on for an hour and a half. So I ended up just going to get weighed and I was fine with that, until the last week I went. I had been weighing myself at home and wasn't expecting much, maybe a pound, or half a pound off, maybe at the worst a maintain. But instead they told me I had put on four pounds and I was really pissed off. Mistress R didn't believe it either, so I thought, the only reason to go (and pay £5 a week) was because they were supposed to have really good scales that I could rely on, but that totally killed that trust I had in them. So Mistress R and I decided that instead I would put that £5 a week in a jar and we can use it to go out for dinner or something when there's enough in the pot.
So now basically Mistress R is weighing me every weekend and every time I lose 'new' weight I get to choose a treat. If you remember, last week I chose the cock whip, which was great. Unfortunately, this week I put on two pounds (we've been off work this week, although I was still expecting to maintain) so I didn't get to choose anything, and tomorrow is Mistress R's birthday so it's not looking brilliant for next week either... but still, I'm still about 2.5St (35lbs) lighter than when I first went to Slimming World and it was cool today being able to buy some cool new Oakley T-Shirts in the Oakley Vault. There's also some milestone rewards, but I'm not sure exactly what they are going to be yet, so we'll see.


Wonder if you can choose a good hard long ass fucking sometime :) That would be very hot indeed.

Yes, I've thought about that. But since I only get to choose one treat (or rather toy) at a time, I'd really rather have the glass butt plug first for a while. Maybe I need to discuss this with Mistress R to clarify...


I was thinking one night when you are done worshipping her feet, she could have you stroke while she watches and then make you ruin your own orgasm over her feet and suck them clean. Maybe making you actually do it will alleviate some of her feeling mean!

Thanks for this suggestion MM, I have read it out to her and she commented that it was an 'interesting idea'. I do love cumming on her feet (and licking them clean), and to be honest it would be easier for me to ruin myself onto her feet than for her to do it, getting my cum on her feet while she's stroking me has always been a bit tricky, lets hope Mistress follows this idea up soon!

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Not much to report since the session if I'm honest. Mistress and I were away Friday and Saturday, a concert and a shopping trip meant two very exhausting days. I'm pleased to say that I didn't neglect my foot worship duties yesterday though, and I kissed her pretty feet for quite a while as she lay on the hotel bed yesterday! Right now Mistress has a bit of a problem with one of her eyes, I hope it doesn't spoil her birthday tomorrow.

Nearly there...

Work on the 'contract' has progressed well, we are nearly there, it's really just the weight loss reward details we need to finalise now. My first weigh in with Mistress R was on Saturday morning and I lost 4lbs, it's too complicated to try and work out what the total lost is now because there's two different scales etc etc... suffice it to say, on our scales I weigh 212lbs right now, I think I weighed about 240 when I started Slimming World and a couple of years ago I was 253. So it's pretty good overall, but we've decided to just start over with 212 as my new starting weight.
We are intending to have a reward for weight lost, but changed slightly before to encourage bigger losses each week. It's going to be something like 1-2lbs off I get to choose a toy to play with, then 3+ I get to choose a toy and something else. And then there will still be half stone and full stone rewards, if I remember correctly...
Our anniversary is coming quickly now, just a few more days to go. Mistress enjoyed a lovely orgasm on my tongue earlier tonight and I enjoyed some very hot teasing afterwards. You know sometimes I look at our orgasm page and I kind of find it hard to believe just how few times I have been allowed to cum this last three years. And how many times Mistress R has cum. 359 plays 65!
That's 5.52 orgasms for every one of mine, and nearly 300 more than me in three years! Could be very nearly 300 by Monday night as well, I very much doubt I will be coming again before next month... but I'm sure Mistress R will be!

Totally intense and just fantastic...

Tonight the unexpected happened, and it was incredible! Since Mistress and I are determined to make up for lost time this week, once again we headed for the bedroom around 8pm. I lay next to my beautiful Mistress and we started to kiss and I gently stroked her thighs and around her pussy. My cock was soon rock hard and Mistress reached down to grab it and stroke it. I licked my fingers and gently began teasing her slit and it wasn't long before she indicated that she wanted me down between her legs and licking her pussy.
I moved down the bed and once again tried to get comfortable laying on my throbbing cock. She tasted wonderful as always and I gently kissed and licked her pussy before adding my index finger and eventually bringing her to a lovely climax. As she recovered I gently kissed her inner thighs and breathed in her scent, but was unprepared for what happened next.
She reached down, pulled me up the bed and started stroking my cock as I leant over her to kiss her again. Was she going to let me slide into her slippery, wet pussy right now? I hadn't cum for twenty one days and the thought of being allowed inside her, maybe even to cum inside her made my cock really throb and ache.
After a short while she pulled me nearer and fed my cock into her hot, slippery hole. It felt absolutely amazing, the way that it only can when you are only allowed something sporadically, and perhaps crucially, at another's whim. I started to slide my cock in and out of Mistress, enjoying each and every stroke as if it was the last, but then as I started to stroke deeper and deeper I almost fell out. She told me to just hold it inside her for a minute, which I did... and then she started to push against me, indicating that she wanted me to thrust inside her again.
After a couple of minutes I was starting to get close and I told Mistress I couldn't take much more, she asked me if I wanted to cum inside her. Usually my answer would be 'if it pleases you Mistress', but in this instance I didn't want to give her that answer and I told her I did want to be allowed to cum inside her. She asked me how bad I wanted it, but before I could really follow through I felt myself getting really close and had to warn her again because if she had any intention of brinksmanship* then I was about to fail - big time!
She told me she was allowing me to cum and as I felt the edge building and growing ever closer she repeated her demand that I should tell her how bad I wanted it, more urgently this time. I felt my cock starting to strain and I have no idea what I actually said in that moment, I just remember my cock pumping over and over as I filled my gorgeous Mistress's pussy full of cum. It seemed to go on and on like it was never going to stop, truly one of the best orgasms I've had since we started this blog I'm sure.
After a short period of recovery and kissing Mistress intensely, and with no sign of her ordering me to clean her, I decided to move back down the bed and lick her pussy. I figured, Mistress Marie said I needed to take the incentive to worship her feet until it became normal for her to 'order' me to do it, so why should this be any different. It was lovely to lick her pussy of course, but surprisingly there wasn't a single drop of cum there for me to clean up. Once again I seem to have pumped it too damned deep, I really need to try and rectify this, but it's kind of difficult to think about that in the heat of the moment. Of course Mistress laying on her back wasn't prompting any cum to appear and she didn't seem inclined to sit on my face either. Even when she got up it was somewhat reluctant...
After a short while she moved my mouth away from her pussy and we lay together on the bed, holding each other as she told me about her day. I must admit it is a tiny bit disappointing that the last two times I've got to cum has been inside my gorgeous Mistress and neither has resulted in a proper cream pie, but really... the sex this evening was so fucking good, I really can't bring myself to be unhappy about that. Besides, hopefully it won't be too much longer before I get to spray my cum all over her wonderful ass and lick it clean.
:)
In the meantime, it's amazing to realize just how amazing basic, vanilla, missionary position, PIV sex can be... at least when it's set against a backdrop of three weeks of chastity and teasing, and several orgasms for my beautiful Mistress. It seems obvious to me that you can have too much of a good thing, and this lifestyle has a wonderful way of charging even the most basic of lovemaking with some serious intensity. I am so glad my Mistress is totally on board with this now, I realy can't imagine ever going back to being a 'free' man again.

*Mistress hasn't done this in quite a while actually, when she first let me go on top she would stop me when I got close... I'm not sure if this is simply because she gets to a point where she wants me to cum inside her or what, but it's her decision so if she lets me edge inside her and then tells me to stop I will, just as I will gladly finish inside her if that's what she decides.

A new record...

Sorry for the lack of posts this week, it's been a busy one... first of all Tuesday was my weigh-day and I was pleased to have lost 2lbs, which means that I am now only 1/2lb off my lowest weight again (having gained 2.5lbs on my week off). October is a bit of a problem, it's my birthday soon and we have another week off too, so I'm kind of thinking that if I can get to the end of the month while maintaining the weight I've already lost, then I have a couple of months to kick ass before Christmas.
We had some fun on Tuesday, Mistress had a nice orgasm while I was rather tired and so didn't enjoy my teasing quite as much as I should have, since mostly I was trying to concentrate on staying hard. Wednesday was our 20th wedding anniversary so we went out for dinner after which I got a really sore throat which meant I didn't get much quality sleep, therefore last night I wasn't feeling great or have much energy really. So we didn't do anything last night really apart from watch 'Potiche' which is a really good French film starring Catherine Deneuve and Gerard Depardieu.
I still wasn't feeling 100% this evening, but I was determined not to let another day pass by without an orgasm for Mistress R, so we went to bed about 8:00. Mistress lay back on the pillows while I was in my usual waiting position, kneeling at the end of the bed. She bid me to move forward and I straddled her right leg as I kissed her, gently stroking her silky smooth thighs as she stroked my cock until it was rock hard. As we continued to kiss I gently pushed a finger into her pussy and found her very wet and ready, maybe tonight I would get to go on top and perhaps maybe, possibly cum inside her???
Eventually she pushed me back so that I was between her legs, with my cock still really hard and hopeful... but even though I thought I might be about to get a treat, she wasn't having any of it and used her foot to push me back until it became clear that I was not getting anything more until she'd cum.
So I sank down onto the mattress and tried to ignore the fact that my cock was extremely hard and squashed under me. It took Mistress quite a long while to cum, in fact she seemed to be teetering on the edge for ages, but she did say afterwards that when she did finally go over it was great, so that's okay!
After she came Mistress pulled me up between her legs and stroked my cock briefly before feeding me into her slippery, wet pussy. It felt amazing and I gently started to stroke in and out of her, enjoying every last second of this infrequent experience. After a while Mistress told me to hold still and proceeded to wriggle under me until she was on her side, a position we used to love and use a lot back when I still got to be on top regularly.
I particularly love this position because it means I can see my cock sliding into Mistress R's beautiful pussy and see Mistress's gorgeous ass at the same time. Mistress knows all too well how much I love this position (and why) and teased me about it as I was sliding in and out of her. This position is also really good for getting a really good rhythm going and soon Mistress had my cock deep inside her and I was fucking her fairly hard.
She told me she wanted me to cum inside her, and for once I didn't take that cue to instantly explode...instead I took the opportunity to really enjoy myself and pounded her pussy as hard and long as I could before erupting inside her. It had been 28 days since my last orgasm, and 90 since the last time I had been allowed to cum inside her, and it felt fucking incredible. Afterwards Mistress stood on the bed so that I could lick her pussy, but there was almost no cum to swallow, I think it was just too deep inside her!
Incredible to think that I went just shy of thirteen weeks without cumming inside her, the previous record was just over ten... I guess this is inevitable though, if I'm going to be allowed fewer orgasms then most likely fewer of the ones I do get will be inside Mistress's delicious pussy... and if the first six months are anything to go by this year will see quite a reduction in orgasms from last.

Blogger seems to be playing up again, I can't edit the Recent Orgasms box at the moment so it still says 301 for Mistress R, when actually it's now 303 and 55 for me, not 54.

A perfect, ruined orgasm...

After this morning's debacle... I spent the afternoon cutting down trees in the back garden. After a nice hot shower, Mistress and I headed to the bedroom. My back was a little sore, but nothing was going to stop me tasting her gorgeous, wet pussy. We kissed a little first but Mistress was impatient for me to get started and I wasn't going to argue.
Mistress had a lovely, hard orgasm, really bucking against my tongue and when she pushed me away and I looked up, she had a huge smile on her face. Perfect.
We lay down next to each other and Mistress had my cock hard very quickly, I told her how good she tasted and she bent over me to suck my cock. Yet again she had her bra on, but I was too distracted by her mouth to complain. My cock felt really hard and Mistress was soon stroking it hard and fast, just as I was feeling that my orgasm was building she switched to sucking again and slow strokes. She did this several times before stroking me hard and fast, was she trying to make me cum?
I told her I was getting close and she let go, teasing my cock with her fingertips for a while and then pumping hard again. I warned her a second time and she pumped a little longer before switching to the fingertip teasing. Without warning, a relatively small amount of cum emptied from my cock, if I hadn't seen it I don't think I would have even known - I felt nothing, a perfect ruined orgasm.
Mistress scooped up my cum on her fingers and fed it to me, three or four times she did this and I eagerly sucked her fingers clean. How many times do you read about how subs want to eat their own cum but lose the initiative once they have cum? I am over that of course and will always swallow my cum if Mistress wants me to and I LOVE it when Mistress makes me do it even if the urge has passed somewhat... but I'll admit it was a bit easier this time, still being really horny - I would certainly recommend it as a way for someone trying to get over that initial hurdle. It's weird, it must be psychological, but it tasted better somehow...
I whispered 'Thank you Mistress,' to her as she continued to tease my cock. She asked me what I was thanking her for and I said 'Everything...' then added '...for ruining my orgasm, for teasing me and for allowing me to swallow my cum'.
Mistress waited a little while and then stroked my cock some more, it was rock hard in seconds, my ruined orgasm had had no impact whatsoever, it was like it never happened. Mistress stood over me (facing my  feet) and I reached up and parted her cheeks, exposing her tight, pink asshole. It looked so fucking good...
Mistress sank down onto my face and I breathed in the musk of her ass, I didn't think for a second that she would allow me to lick it, but I decided to beg anyway, nothing ventured... To my surprise and absolute joy Mistress agreed to let me lick her ass and I greedily lapped and flicked at her puckered hole with my tongue, my cock was throbbing again and Mistress moved forward and sank down onto my pole and rode me like that for a little while. It felt absolutely incredible, and being able to view Mistress's gorgeous ass as I slid in and out of her beautiful pussy was a real treat.
All too soon Mistress dismounted and lay down beside me. I was conscious that I had licked her ass and swallowed my cum, so I kept my mouth closed as I kissed her (even though I really wanted to kiss her hard and deep). She continued stroking my cock to another edge and I thought maybe I might get another ruined orgasm. She allowed the edge to fade away but my cock was still aching and I begged her to give me one more edge. Mistress pumped my cock hard until I was close and then let go, but as close as I was I couldn't quite force my cum to release. It was so incredibly frustrating, but so unbelievably hot.
After a couple of ball slaps Mistress lay down beside me smiling. I lay on my back, completely drained, completely and utterly satisfied with my treatment. Mistress said to me the other day that she thinks she's  getting better at teasing me... ain't that the truth! I thanked her again and reassured her that I love being treated this way. She looked so beautiful then, smiling at me. I know deep down she loves being mean to me, but I know it's hard to truly accept that it's okay to do it, that's why I always want to tell her how much I love it. I want her to enjoy it, to embrace it, I want her to love it as much as I do and I want her to want to be even meaner to me.
As we lay there she casually played with my left nipple, I wished she would squeeze and pull it hard but instead I asked if I could please taste her beautiful pussy again, hoping she would straddle my face and allow me to lick her clean (I can't tell you how much I love having her on top of me like that, it's the best), but instead she reached down and slid her finger inside her pussy and had me suck it clean, then she did it again. It wasn't quite what I was hoping for, but I love that she is becoming more comfortable about doing this too, it's very sexy and she tasted wonderful.
Off to the seaside tomorrow, so probably won't be anything to blog about, unless maybe I get some morning teasing.... let's just hope we don't get any unwanted phone calls!

Morning wood...

I woke up throbbing this morning, it's twenty two days since my last proper orgasm and there was a drop of pre-cum on the tip of my cock. I woke up to see my beautiful Mistress still fast asleep and I imagined kissing her awake and then sliding down her warm, smooth body and burying my head between her legs.
Sadly I had to get up and go to work, while Mistress got to lie in...at least I know that I'll be getting to taste her beautiful pussy later on tonight, and then we'll both be on holiday for a week.
My balls feel huge right now, I'd love to be allowed to cum, but at the same time I want to hold on to this wonderful feeling of denial. It's a good thing Mistress decides when I get to cum, if it was up to me I would be finding it extremely hard to resist right now.

On hitting forty (again)...

As some of you may know, tomorrow was scheduled for the Femdom session we should have had two weeks ago... but since I wasn't feeling well and then Mistress R wasn't feeling well and now I'm not feeling well and Mistress R has started snuffling again, it's been further delayed until after Christmas. The thing is, we both agree that if we aren't 100% up for it, it's better to wait, and that has worked well since we've never had a bad one yet.
So anyway, as you will see from the counter on the right hand side of my blog, Mistress R is getting ever closer to the 200 orgasms mark that I thought she would hit in early December. And I thought that she would easily hit that before I hit 40, thus maintaining the 5:1 ratio we have had for some time now.
But no, last night after I licked Mistress to orgasm number 198, she got me hard and then mounted me. Oh it felt so good, and she looked stunning without that damned bra getting in the way of her gorgeous breasts.
At this point I hadn't cum for twelve days, but I felt good (apart from the cold of course) and began thrusting up to meet Mistress's rhythm, only stopping when I realised how close to the edge I was getting. Mistress was tormenting me with her body and we both knew it. I told her how much I love the way she uses her body to make me suffer, that made her smile, and she reached back and clawed and  slapped my balls a few times as she continued to ride my cock...
Meanwhile I was torn between closing my eyes to try and stop looking at her gorgeous body (to keep myself from going over the edge) and wanting to drink every detail of her awesomeness in. No really, you shouldn't feel sorry for me, I love it (hahahaha).
It seemed to go on longer than I would have believed possible, with me on the edge the whole time, but finally Mistress R gave the word and I began to meet her thrusts again, emptying twelve days of cum into her beautiful pussy.
Mistress has been extremely generous this month, this being the second time in five months that I've been allowed to cum three times in a month, usually it's been two's with the occasional one and zero. I presume that will be it now until next year, since I haven't cum four times in a month since April 2011 (our very first month of chastity).
A while back I said I wasn't craving chastity anymore since I have it all the time and so I naturally crave orgasms instead, but then I'm still a little torn. As lovely as it was to cum inside Mistress R last night there's part of me that wishes she had stopped and left me hard and aching.
A long time ago I pondered on the number of orgasms Mistress R would allow me in our second year of chastity vs the first, currently I have been allowed to cum seventeen times, which is (believe it or not) exactly the same position I was in last year on this particular date! How weird is that? Everybody thought it would be less or much less in the poll I ran, including me! On the upside, despite November's dreadful total and this month's less than hoped for performance Mistress R is still six up on last year, and for that I am extremely happy.
Which is not to say that I am unhappy about my own 'score', how ridiculous it would be to be 'unhappy' about being allowed to cum! But then this lifestyle is a bit like that isn't it? Full of contradictions that most other men and women would find impossible to understand...
Still, I'm sure there will come a time when Mistress R decides to beat my forty two day record (set between April and June 2011), and... actually, that's kind of surprising isn't it. Even though that record was set in this 'Orgasmic Financial Year' I've still ended up on seventeen again! Methinks Mistress R has been a little too generous these past few months...
Still, the numbers don't tell the whole story, the important thing is that I get to cum when Mistress R chooses it to happen, and if it makes Mistress R happy to have me cum then that's all that matters. The last thing I want is for her to be riding my cock and wanting me to shoot inside her and then stopping because she doesn't want to mess up the batting average. That's not what I signed up for, I want her to stop because she wants to leave me aching and desperate and overcome with need for her gorgeous body, I'm sure you dear readers would agree... wouldn't you?

I no longer crave denial...

It's been over eighteen months now.... eighteen months since I gave complete control to Mistress R, eighteen months since I was allowed to make myself cum, to ask for penetration, or even touch my cock! The weird thing is, it seems totally normal now... which is how it should be I guess. Although I am somewhat surprised that we've never looked back, never had a break from it, never had second thoughts - either of us.
When I started this process, it never really occurred to me to think 'years' ahead... about how I would feel if Mistress R not only granted my request for orgasm control, but barred me from initiating penetration and touching my cock without permission... seemingly indefinitely!
I can tell you one thing that has changed over the last few months or so, and that is that I no longer crave denial. Oh I still want Mistress R to control my orgasms and I still want her to tease and deny me for however long pleases her, but I no longer 'crave' denial, because denial is my everyday reality.
What I crave in the morning when I wake up hard, when Mistress R sucks, bites and slaps my cock, when I'm licking Mistress R's delicious pussy and feeling my rock hard cock pressed against the mattress, and when I go to bed hard again at night, is to cum.
I don't really think male chastity really comes into it's own until you reach this point, because at first it's all about denial, I want her to tease and deny me, I want her to make me wait... and until your partner becomes comfortable or gets 'on-board' that's the overriding 'want'. But it's not until some time later, when your partner has fully embraced the experience that you can stop thinking about that, and when you do, naturally you start focusing on the one thing that you can't have without permission.
I've found that going for these eighteen months with a release approximately every fourteen days on average and with no 'breaks', that my level of 'want' returns much quicker than it did at first. Now it's only about 48hrs or so until I'm back at quite a high level of desire, and it's not until probably the 3-4 week mark that there's any significant increase or change. I imagine this is probably some sort of cumulative effect of being repeatedly put back into chastity with no 'holiday' periods, though I've never heard anyone else in a similar situation mention the same thing.
Of course, this was what I always wanted, to be 'aching' to cum but having to wait for permission, but it's hard to explain to someone who hasn't gone through the process, how long it takes to get to that actual point. Or how worthwhile it is in the long run.

Keep up the good work...

Been out this evening, so unable to post... and now it's very late and I need to go to bed. But before I do, just thought I'd briefly blog about this afternoon's fun. Mistress R had me go down on her and right away I could tell she was really into it. She tasted so good and she came really suddenly and really hard, it was wonderful. Afterwards she told me she was on a real roll with her orgasms, having had several fantastic ones in a row... she told me I should keep up the good work!
:) :) :) :) :)
Afterwards she teased me and even though it's only been two days since I came my cock was rock hard and throbbing again already.... lovely! She gave me quite a lot of cock slaps (none to my balls, sadly) and some really amazing fingertip work that could easily have pushed me over the edge, but it was not allowed and so I ended up throbbing against her leg in the end.
Who could ask for more?.

Totally unexpected...

Today was not a day I was looking forward to particularly, it is my Father's birthday today and as it's Mother's Day tomorrow Mistress R and I were taking my parents out for lunch. But actually it was okay, the food was very good and we arrived home feeling less stressed than we thought we would. After a little rest Mistress R and I set about the garden, attacking a completely out of control hedge and bundling all the waste into bags to take to the tip tomorrow on the way to Mistress R's mother's for lunch.
We both had showers and then decamped to the bedroom, where Mistress R enjoyed another pretty awesome orgasm (at least it seemed that way from were I was watching, right between her legs) right up against my tireless tongue. As soon as she had finished cumming, Mistress R handed me my cock ring (not the Oxballs cocksling, the standard rubber one) and told me to put it on. This was unexpected, but I wasn't about to argue, since I presumed that this meant that Mistress R wanted me to  penetrate her and be on top!
As I knelt up on the bed Mistress R lubed my cock and slapped it several times to make it nice and hard, and with the cock-ring on it really was rock hard and veiny like you wouldn't believe.
Mistress R layed back on the pillows and beckoned me to cum forward between her spread legs, her pussy still pink and wet and oh-so inviting. But before I could even enter her, I got a really bad cramp in my leg and had to lay down next to her. We continued kissing, as the cramp faded and then Mistress slapped my cock a couple more times and I told her I was okay now.
Thanks to the cock-ring my cock survived the pain of the cramp intact and Mistress R quickly fed the first inch inside her. I lifted her legs up and kissed her feet as I slid the whole length of my cock deep inside her, it felt fucking wonderful to do that. After all, you can count the number of times I've been allowed to thrust into Mistress R like that this year on the fingers of one hand! Knowing that it was only a few days since I'd cum I wasn't expecting to be allowed to cum again, but I was determined to give Mistress R a good fucking, and since it wasn't that long since I had cum I was pretty secure that I would be able to do so.
I started plunging my cock deep into Mistress R's pussy, trying to enjoy the beautiful, slippery, silky wetness of her gorgeous pussy, without getting so carried away that I would lose control and erupt inside her. I wouldn't say it was 'easy', but it wasn't too difficult, and as I continued to increase the pace Mistress R got more and more turned on being fucked by her husband's rock hard cock. I was loving it too and seeing her get so turned on made it even better for me.
Then, after several minutes, she looked up at me and asked me if I wanted to use my voucher. I didn't answer, but I was thinking it over in my mind, starting to weaken. She asked me again, I still didn't answer, I just kept pounding away at her wonderful pussy and now it was starting to get tough. I wasn't even close to the edge, but the thought of turning down the chance to cum like this was too much, after a few more seconds I caved and asked her if could cum.
Almost before I had finished asking her she said yes and told me to cum inside her, I increased the pace, fucking her even harder than before until finally, for only the second time in a whole year (the last time was the end of October) I was pumping my cum inside her while dictating the pace, pumping as hard as I could, determined to give her every last drop of my cum.
Finally I stopped, but realising my cock was still hard I gave her a few more thrusts before finally pulling out. She told me to lay down and I collapsed onto my back, expecting her to straddle my face and have me clean her pussy. The fact that she'd told me to lay down made me think that was what she intended, but she made no move to straddle me, perhaps she changed her mind, or perhaps she'd never intended to do that, I don't know.
It really was utterly mindblowing, and I for one have no regrets about using my voucher. I loved the way she asked me as I was pumping into her slippery pussy, knowing full well how hard it would be for me to resist. I really felt like 'she' was in control, even though technically 'I' decided to use my voucher, which is perfect really.
Afterwards I told Mistress R that we had just set a new record, for the shortest time between orgasms! Five days, where the previous record was six (set back in April 2011). That's one record I thought would stand for as long as we continued to do this, but Mistress R has always said that she can deny me or she can make me cum again and again if it's what pleases her, and that is exactly how I want it to be, all about her and whatever she decides she wants on any given day.
So now I'm back to where I 'should' be, unable to ask for permission to cum, until Mistress R decides to grant me another voucher (if she ever does), what a wonderful feeling it is to have such a perfect Mistress. This day really has turned out better than I ever could have expected!

I'm going to leave the poll running a while I think, just to see what people think, even though it's something of a moot point now.

For the eighth and probably last time...

Last night I felt pretty 'off', even though my cold is now gone I still don't feel very good. Just run down and tired. So I went and lay down after dinner, see if I could get a nap since I've missed out on a lot of sleep over the last few days. Of course I couldn't get to sleep, so I read some porn to see if it would help. It didn't really, but it did make me want to make Mistress R cum all the more. I lay there for about an hour and a half, reading off and on, but mostly just chilling and trying not to stroke my cock.
Eventually I got up and Mistress R and I returned to the bedroom shortly afterwards, I was really looking forward to tasting Mistress again and making her cum, and the porn had made this need even more acute.
She tasted wonderful and she had a very long orgasm which made me really happy.
I still wasn't feeling brilliant, but at least now I had a happy heart. Mistress R soon had her hand around my cock, which was hard, but not as 'granite' as I would have liked. She stroked me a little while but quickly decided that she wanted my cock inside her. I moved to the middle of the bed and Mistress R straddled me, sliding herself down onto my cock. God it felt so good to be inside her again.
Before long she reached back and started slapping my balls and I had to really try hard not to shoot my twenty-three day load inside her, she was smiling down at me, seemingly enjoying watching me struggle.
"Do you want to cum?" She asked. "Is that something that you would like to be allowed to do?"
I was concentrating so hard on not just blowing my load inside her that my brain was struggling slightly with this simple question...
"Only if you want me to," I managed to reply, wondering if she was actually going to let me or if she was just messing with me.
I got my answer soon enough and she told me she wanted me to cum inside her. Which took a little longer than you might imagine, since by now I was so far into 'safe-mode' that opening the taps required some mental realignment. But soon I was spasming hard as I shot every last drop of cum deep into her beautiful, silky pussy.
No sooner had I finished, than Mistress R raised herself up a little and told me to slide down the bed. She straddled my face and I could see a drop of my white cum hanging from her open pussy. It looked so good and I greedily devoured every drop I could reach with my tongue before she eventually lay down beside me.
Later I filled in the stats page on this blog and realised that with my first year in chastity nearly over, that was only the eighth (and probably last, before year two starts) time that I have come inside her since April 2011. Which means I have been allowed to cum inside Mistress R just less than once every seven weeks. When I told Mistress R this statistic she simply asked if I regretted giving her control, which of course I don't.
I would never have believed that this would continue like this, I never gave it much thought at the time, perhaps because I didn't think it would get off the ground so I never really considered how I might feel a year down the line.
But now, that year is fast approaching and I can honestly say that I have no regrets. This has been so postive for our sex life and I have absolutely no intention of asking Mistress R to give up control even for a day. Which is why my orgasm-voucher still remains unused and probably will remain so. I did wonder if Mistress R was going to try and force me to use it by simply not letting me cum until I gave in, but it seems that wasn't her plan... or if it was she changed her mind. Still, there's a while left to run on it, May 14th I think, that's nearly two  months away, so she could still do that if she wanted.
I guess we'll have to wait and see. Now I just can't wait to make her cum again, I hope it's sooner rather than later!

Day 34...

Yeah, I know it's confusing, yesterday's post said 'Day 32', but it wasn't really yesterday's post, it was done after midnight on Thursday. So yes, today is Day 34. Six days on from my previous record of 28. And here I was thinking Mistress R would only increase it by small increments of a day or two. Wrong!
I woke up achingly hard again this morning, and really wanted to stroke it, but I promised Mistress R I wouldn't do that any more and I'm trying really hard not too. Just the sheet brushing against it was pretty nice...
Yesterday was much the same, and also during my thirty minute (each way) car drive to work and back my mind wandered to the events of the night before leaving me hard and constricted inside my jeans. My cock also feels a little 'buzzy' too sometimes, and I now know what people mean when they say chastity feels like you're having sex 'all the time'...
I am quite surprised how long Mistress R has let me wait already, I thought the 28 day record would stand for quite a while, and then I thought she would definitely have let me cum this last week. Maybe she really is thinking about making me wait until Christmas? Not that I mind, of course - bring it on, I'm just really amazed that she would contemplate such a big jump.
And happy too. She is giving me everything I wanted and we are getting closer and closer all the time. Chastity really is all it's cracked up to be.

Another great question from 'whichisnice'...

"What are you looking forward to most for when it does eventually happen? The physical contact from MR? The sensation of orgasm? Which of course you might not get if she ruins it. The visual spectacle of such a big load? The thought of possibly having to swallow some or all of it? And has your thinking changed as it has gone on longer and longer?"


What a great question... well it's not really the physical contact, because I'm getting that anyway. Not particularly bothered how big the load is, to be honest... though the thought of Mistress R making me lick her fingers (or pussy) afterwards is hot... Obviously the sensation of orgasm is probably the biggest thing.
As to how my thinking has changed, well that's perhaps the most interesting thing. The longer it goes on, the less I want it to end. Which seems counter intuitive... but I am enjoying this so much, and I feel so close to Mistress R when she leaves me hanging that, well... like I said earlier, I am starting to understand why so many guys get so far and then start wanting long-term or permanent denial.
That said, I'm sure you know how it is when you get close to the edge, everything you think changes, that's why we need a strong and determined woman to keep us in check!

A little bit of stat work...

So we are just one day away from 20 weeks of Mistress R having total control of my orgasms. In that period I have been allowed to cum 10 times, so that gives us an average of one orgasm every two weeks.

However, if we disregard the first month (April) the average falls from one orgasm every 14 days to one orgasm every 20 days!

Of those ten orgasms, only three have been inside Mistress R.

My longest wait between orgasms was 28 days, the shortest 6 (twice).

Over the same period Mistress R has enjoyed 44 orgasms!

The longest gap was 7 days, the shortest 2 days (many times).

The most orgasms Mistress R has had in one month was 10 (May and July), the most I have had in a month was 4 (April).

The least orgasms in one month was 8 for Mistress R (April) and 1 for me (June).

So far this month Mistress R has had seven orgasms and it looks very likely to be a new record. I have had one orgasm, and I wouldn't be surprised if my next one wasn't until September.

Learning to love it...

Another excellent post on Good Hubby's blog today, and something which really resonated with me...

"My chastity fantasy has two parts.  One part is for the control to be hers, no matter her decision. The other part is that, at some point, I be subjected to lengthy denial, that we get to a point where I am truly asking her to allow me to cum, because I don’t want to hold back anymore, and she tells me that she wants me to wait. That if the decision is truly hers, then I cannot have an orgasm..."

This is so on the money, and I so get where he's coming from here. Because it's one thing for someone to deny you when they know that's what you want, it's quite another for them to deny you for their own pleasure. But as Good Hubby explains further it seems that his wife NW is moving towards just that...

"...that wasn’t going to happen as long as the control/denial wasn’t a facet that she was invested in. But here we have her openly stating that she was enjoying it. So, I prodded further. In essence, she has not allowed herself to become invested in the idea. She was afraid that she would really get into it and that the control would become the expected norm, for her, but that I might end it at any time. What then? She would have primed and re-wired herself to have complete control over my orgasms, only to have the rug yanked from beneath her feet.  And, believe it or not, what this really tied back into was masturbation. Her fear that I would, at some point, burn out on this and revert back to old ways. When things were not so intense. And she would find herself left hanging.
She wants the control. She wants to deny me. She has bought into it!"

Which means that GoodHubby is now faced with a somewhat difficult choice, does he freely give over complete control, knowing that his wife is ready to deny him for her own pleasure rather than his own? Or, what... I don't know what the alternative is, as he hasn't really made this clear. Now of course, my initial reaction is of course YES YES YES! Because for me that sounds like perfection. But Mr Good Hubby is by his own admission a colossal wanker* (4 times a day on average, pre-chastity), and he deems a week without coming quite a long time, so it's different for him. And reading his blog I'm not so sure that he's really ready for that kind of control. It'll certainly be interesting to see what happens from here on.

As far as Mistress R goes, I don't think she's got to the stage of denying me solely for her pleasure yet, but I hope that one day she will. Like Good Hubby I would love to get to the stage where I was truly desperate to cum but she still said no, because it pleased her to keep me in denial. Do you know what, just typing that has made my cock so fucking hard...

*Some jokes just never get old.

What is confusing...

Reading back my own posts, what does confuse me a little, is quite why I am happy to give Mistress R control of my orgasms? For her to decide, when and how and even 'if'... surely after nearly four months without even a break, I should be starting to have second thoughts, or feeling the tiniest regret or resentment, shouldn't I?
But I'm not. Not at all. I have never been happier, and I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to have control of my orgasms back. Oh sure, I fucked up the other night and stroked my cock without permission, but I never for a second thought about actually making myself cum. Well, I mean I thought about it, but I was never, EVER going to do it!
Maybe one day this will change, but right now I very much doubt it. This feels very 'right', which in itself is a strange thing to say I suppose... but that's just the way it is. I love it, and I love my Mistress more than ever, so why would I want to go back to the old way?
Fortunately Mistress is getting more and more comfortable with the situation too, which is fantastic, because let's not forget, it really didn't start well, and she seems to be loving the way things are now too. But then let us not forget, not only has male chastity given her an even more attentive and loving husband than ever before, not only has it given her complete control of our sex lives, but it has also provided a turning point in her husband's long lasting struggle with his weight.
Okay, so the dream of being 'locked' hasn't happened, and probably won't happen now, but you know what, I don't really care anymore.

Needless to say...

...I'm feeling pretty damn chipper this morning, save for the lack of sleep (yet again). Last night was truly a wonderful (and totally unexpected) way to end my latest period of chastity. There I was thinking I was going to get paddled for my naughtiness and I end up having the hardest, longest, most amazing orgasm I can ever remember (not that I'm thinking for a minute that my indescretion will not go unpunished come Sunday).
As several of you comment-leavers have said, there's nothing like an orgasm after an extended period of denial, and if it was solely up to me, I reckon about one orgasm a month is a nice figure. But of course it isn't up to me, and I am still looking forward to being denied longer, maybe an orgasm after two months will be twice as nice?
So where does that leave us, with regard to Sunday's session? The answer of course is that I really don't know. Mistress R has seemingly totally embraced the idea that my orgasms are 100% in her hands and that she doesn't have to take account of the session, or anything else for that matter. The rules are simple, if she wants me to cum, I will cum, if she doesn't, then I won't. If she does want me to cum, then she decides when, how and whether I have to swallow it afterwards. And that's pretty much all there is to it.

Following up on the last post...

So last night as I posted, Mistress R and I discussed the whole 'Femdom session' issue, with regards to the fact that the sessions have always resulted in an orgasm for me and how that was creating an issue now that I had hit the 28 days barrier, and how could Mistress make me wait longer because the sessions would get in the way.
Mistress was seeking reassurance that I was indeed happy to let go of that last 'safety-net' and put my orgasms completely in her hands. This is great, but it does throw up a couple of other things which may need further clarification.
During our discussion Mistress asked me if she should leave some kind of build up period, kind of like we used to do in the early days, a three or four day stint of chastity before the session. Having thought about this I don't think this is particularly necessary, I was going to say that she should not let me cum the day before the session, but there's no good reason for that, and since she now fully understands that she can let me cum whenever she likes, there's nothing to stop her having me cum two days in a row if that's what she chooses.
As far as I am concerned there simply is no right or wrong time, there is only when she decides, and if she later decides it was the wrong time, well it's not the end of the world is it.
The other thing that occurred to me this morning was that since the 30th of April I have cum three times, twice in the session and once inside her (which sadly didn't result in a cream pie for me). I know I have said this before, repeatedly, but now it's even more important since I am just as likely to cum out of a session than in one.
Every time I came in session for the last year or so, Mistress has had me lick my cum off her hands, feet or breasts (licking your cum off your Mistress's breasts is fucking hot let me tell you!) and I want her to be 100% confident that EVERY time I am allowed to cum, whenever that may be, she can make me swallow it if she wants to. As far as I am concerned I have 100% accepted that every chance to cum is potentially going to lead to me cleaning it up with my tongue, and I am totally fine with it. And if I have been allowed to cum inside her, then I am more than fine with it, I am positively eager to clean her pussy with my tongue.
I can't think of anything which demonstrates my submission to Mistress R more effectively than swallowing my own cum, and one day I hope she will have me swallow the proceeds of a ruined orgasm, thereby underlining her complete and utter control of my cock and orgasms...

The transgression counter....

As you may or may not have noticed, it hasn't (or has, depending on how you look at it) been terribly succesful. In as much as I haven't used it yet!
It's strange, but I find that writing things on a blog makes things easier to stick to, like my diet. Tedious as it is, writing down every single thing I eat and drink every day, makes it so much easier to stick to my calorie targets. But I have tried writing things down before but without success, I am at somewhat of a loss to explain why writing them down on a blog should make so much difference.
And so it has been with the Transgression Counter also. Not touching my cock was something I found incredibly difficult even though I knew I would be paddled for it, and yet simply knowing that I would have to confess to my blog seems to have done the trick. Bizarre.
That said I haven't been feeling massively horny lately, despite my chastity, but then I should expect next week to see the temperature rise a bit, the first two weeks are generally easier than the third and fourth. Also I've been quite tired of late, too many late nights and I actually overslept quite badly this morning too (fortunately I am working alone this week so I got away with it!).
That's assuming there is a third and fourth week of course, as who knows when Mistress R might decide to let me cum. There is certainly some fun for her on the cards tonight, but as for me, well I'll just have to wait and see. I can see from the poll results so far that you lot reckon I'm going to be waiting until August, but maybe that's just wishful thinking on your parts? Well, only one person in the whole world knows the answer to that... which is just the way it should be.

New page added...

I've added a new tab at the top of the blog which takes you to an orgasm statistic page, this shows all the orgasms Mistress R and I have since April 1st 2011 (you'll notice on Mistress R's I've allowed for the numbers to go into the thousands, whereas mine only go to the hundreds...).
Looking at those numbers is quite, well... surprising I guess. I can't believe it's been nearly seven weeks since I was allowed to cum inside Mistress R. At least she let me inside her last week...
Also, I've just noticed the increasing disparity in the ratio between Mistress R's orgasms and my own.
2/1 in April, 5/1 in May and 9/1 in June...

Oh, and welcome to my two new followers, hope you enjoy the blog.