So 'Maybe Tomorrow' has been published on Literotica for just over a week and it's been read 15,600 times. So far it's scoring a respectable 4.27 out of 5 (with 122 votes). Comments are mixed (aren't they always!), here's the four comments that have been left so far:
ANONYMOUS: Another fine effort. Absolutely fantastic once again. Always look forward to your stories, so well written and erotic. A great little tease and denial tale this one. Thanks for writing.
MR WIDE HORIZONS: Another 5! Love your work, great to see it here again.
ANONYMOUS: Zero stars and I want the time spent reading this trash back!
ANONYMOUS: She should have really used it in her shitty uncleaned arsehole and made him clean it for her. As her useless sub he should never get to penetrate her again and will become just a pair of holes for her and her lovers to abuse as they see fit!
So there you are then... glad to see the Literotica readers are on form as usual...
Friday, 31 May 2019
Thursday, 30 May 2019
It Always Comes Back to Mistress's Gorgeous Feet!
I haven't been feeling so great the past couple of days, so unfortunately Mistress and I decided not to have our usual night out tonight. But I did get to do a little repair job on Mistress's toenail where the polish had chipped, and even better I got to spend about half an hour massaging her beautiful feet while we watched the TV. I love Mistress's feet so much, I find it almost hypnotic caressing her feet, it puts me into a bit of a sub-state all on it's own!
Of course, after a half an hour of that I was seriously re-thinking where I want to lick that big load of cum (that I was talking about yesterday) from... this is the problem, it always comes back to Mistress's feet, which is why she made the rule that I couldn't choose the same place twice in a row, which makes it 'easier' if last time I came on her feet because I know I can't choose that, but last time I came inside her, so I could choose her feet, although Mistress already said last night that she might hold me to what I told her last night, which was to lick it off her gorgeous pussy. Not that I'll be complaining if she did you understand, because I really want to do that again too! :)
Of course, after a half an hour of that I was seriously re-thinking where I want to lick that big load of cum (that I was talking about yesterday) from... this is the problem, it always comes back to Mistress's feet, which is why she made the rule that I couldn't choose the same place twice in a row, which makes it 'easier' if last time I came on her feet because I know I can't choose that, but last time I came inside her, so I could choose her feet, although Mistress already said last night that she might hold me to what I told her last night, which was to lick it off her gorgeous pussy. Not that I'll be complaining if she did you understand, because I really want to do that again too! :)
Wednesday, 29 May 2019
A Constant Craving...
Looking at our 'Orgasms' page, the results are pretty spectacular so far since the start of our new 'Chastity Year'... in the first two months (not quite finished yet admittedly) Mistress has had twenty orgasms and I have had just two, both of which were ruined! Also, Mistress just had her 950th orgasm since the start of my full time chastity and the creation of this blog on the 1st April 2011.
As for me, I'm on day 66 of my current chastity period, and I'm 'assuming' (although of course one should never assume) that Mistress will probably let me cum before too much longer, being that we're getting close to my record... actually not as close as I thought, turns out that my record is actually 81 days, not 75 as I thought! Hmm... will that affect Mistress's decision I wonder?
Of course one part of me wants to be kept in denial indefinitely, but on the other hand I am really craving a huge mouthful of cum, and moreover I really want to lick it up off Mistress's gorgeous pussy. Alternatively, I guess Mistress could ruin me onto her pussy... that would certainly work for me! She's already had me edge myself for her (just the once so far), maybe the next step could be having me ruin my own orgasm for her amusement.... that would be hot, and a great way for me to show total obedience I would have thought!
But really, I have to admit it's not quite the same to eat your cum when you've been ruined as opposed to when you've pumped every last ounce out of your balls after a long period of denial. There's usually a lot more of it for a start, and because you've essentially flicked the switch and killed off that ultimate horniness, it feels a lot more submissive and humiliating, funny that I am craving that feeling so bad, but that's the way it goes... :)
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My weight loss has started to go in the right direction again, and I'm just one pound off losing two stones (28lbs), which will get me a reward I really do want - watching Mistress playing with her pussy out of a Femdom session. Actually there are other choices, but there's no choice because clearly that is what I'm picking without a second's hesitation. Well, maybe next Tuesday I'll have done it. Wish me luck!
As for me, I'm on day 66 of my current chastity period, and I'm 'assuming' (although of course one should never assume) that Mistress will probably let me cum before too much longer, being that we're getting close to my record... actually not as close as I thought, turns out that my record is actually 81 days, not 75 as I thought! Hmm... will that affect Mistress's decision I wonder?
Of course one part of me wants to be kept in denial indefinitely, but on the other hand I am really craving a huge mouthful of cum, and moreover I really want to lick it up off Mistress's gorgeous pussy. Alternatively, I guess Mistress could ruin me onto her pussy... that would certainly work for me! She's already had me edge myself for her (just the once so far), maybe the next step could be having me ruin my own orgasm for her amusement.... that would be hot, and a great way for me to show total obedience I would have thought!
But really, I have to admit it's not quite the same to eat your cum when you've been ruined as opposed to when you've pumped every last ounce out of your balls after a long period of denial. There's usually a lot more of it for a start, and because you've essentially flicked the switch and killed off that ultimate horniness, it feels a lot more submissive and humiliating, funny that I am craving that feeling so bad, but that's the way it goes... :)
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My weight loss has started to go in the right direction again, and I'm just one pound off losing two stones (28lbs), which will get me a reward I really do want - watching Mistress playing with her pussy out of a Femdom session. Actually there are other choices, but there's no choice because clearly that is what I'm picking without a second's hesitation. Well, maybe next Tuesday I'll have done it. Wish me luck!
Monday, 27 May 2019
Getting 'In My Head' Again...
I wouldn’t say I’m a pessimist, but as I’ve said before here, I am a bit of a ‘worrier’. Not all the time, and I’m probably less of a worrier now than I used to be, bit still it does rear it’s head from time to time. Case in point, last week, I started noticing I was feeling a bit ‘in my head’, particularly when Mistress and I were in the restaurant/bar we go to on Thursday evenings. When Mistress went to powder her nose, instead of pondering the possibilities of her having me do something ‘interesting’ in the car park on the way back to the car, or her having me kiss her feet for a second in our sheltered little alcove, instead I started ‘worrying’. This feeling returned on Saturday afternoon when Mistress and I were driving around and I said to her only half-jokingly ‘Don’t you sometimes wish I was a little less weird?’
I mean, you probably think that I’ve been full-time in chastity with Mistress R for eight years, so what on earth is there to worry about. That’s true, but as we said, the chastity thing has forged ahead really, while the Femdom side of things has faltered in comparison, and Mistress always said she didn’t want to have a 24/7 Femdom relationship (and neither do I, in as much as I don’t want to be constantly naked, on my knees, drinking her pee out of a dog bowl from the second I get home from work!)
But I do want to feel like our Femdom relationship is as full time as our chastity one, if only in the sense that Mistress can invoke her power at any time and I will fall into ‘slave mode’ immediately. Which I would, obviously!
But yeah, sometimes… I do feel a bit like, self-conscious about how I am. Because it’s not just the one thing: I like having my orgasms controlled, I love worshipping Mistress’s feet and ass, I love being made to eat my cum, I love being fucked in the ass, I love having my balls abused… the list goes on, it would be bad enough if I just had one thing going on, but nah, I have to be a little weirdo with multiple fetishes don’t I!
What makes it worse, is that Mistress doesn’t really have any embarrassing ‘nastiness’ of her own to make me feel better about it all (well, she does, but only in as much as she likes reading some pretty depraved sex stories, which doesn't really help much... since she can read those privately if she wants to).
I’m sure she enjoys whipping me, having her feet kissed, slapping my balls and probably some of the other things, but at the end of the day I’m sure she could just as easily live happily without any of these things.
I’m sure she enjoys whipping me, having her feet kissed, slapping my balls and probably some of the other things, but at the end of the day I’m sure she could just as easily live happily without any of these things.
Mistress, being completely wonderful, reassured me that if there was something she really didn’t like she would tell me. Cross dressing seems to be a red line, which is fine by me because I have zero interest in that. I did joke that I wouldn’t ever ask her to defecate on me, because ‘you have to draw the line somewhere’, Mistress agreed but also said she would draw the line before that.
And she did say that she likes that we have this ‘secret’ life together that nobody else knows about (well, nobody except the people who read our blog, obviously) and that she feels it creates an extra, special ‘bond’ between us, and I totally agree with her on that.
I don’t know, maybe if you live somewhere were you have a community of like-minded people to share your experiences with, does that make it easier to accept your own weirdness? Probably, but I don’t think that’s something that Mistress and I would ever do anyway, we’re antisocial at the best of times, we just prefer to be together really.
To be honest, my worrying has receded again now, albeit I know it will come back sooner or later, and I didn’t write this asking for a pity party. I actually thought it might help someone reading this who’s feeling bad about themselves and their kinks, maybe reading this from someone they probably think has it all together, might possibly make them realise that they’re not the only one who can find it hard to accept that their partner loves them for who they are, no matter how odd they might feel about their own peculiarities.
I am so lucky to have such a wonderful Mistress who accepts me and my kinks, I love her so much and it really quite annoys me that I get these periods of self-doubt. On the other hand I feel like I’m quite lucky to have this forum to talk about these things and get them off my chest.
I guess the thing is, that by opening up about these things to your partner you make yourself vulnerable, but if you don’t then how can you really live the life you want to live? Nothing truly worth having is effortless to attain after all…
After Porn Stops...
Not sure if they are available on Netflix or not, but Mistress and I have watched the first two 'After Porn Ends' documentaries in the last few days and quite enjoyed them. In all honesty I don't recognise that many of the actors, I think they were just a bit before my time (which is a bit weird as I'm approaching 50!), although some of the names were familiar like Houston, Amber Lynn, Asia Carrera and Randy West.
Randy West was quite a funny guy (unfortunately he died several years ago from a heart-attack) and it was interesting to hear these people's take on their experiences within the industry. It's quite funny how many of them (particularly the guys) didn't set out to become 'porn stars', but fell into it when they were offered jobs as a consequence of doing modelling work.
Clearly some of the participants had more negative experiences than others, but overall they were both pretty balanced and well put together programmes. Tiffany Millions (never heard of her to be honest) seems to have come out of it quite well, she's now a warrant officer or something; we see her shooting a pistol in the desert and others seem to have managed to put the past behind them, even though it's not always the easiest thing to do when people recognize you.
Asia Carrera moved away from Hollywood to somewhere that's heavily populated by Mormons, and as she said herself 'put on forty pounds', but still gets recognized and Googled by people who are suspicious of her because she's reluctant to divulge her background.
Then again Brittany Andrews (her laugh is something to behold!) tells us how her life is so brilliant now, she's a DJ and this and that and the other, and how she would never be able to do porn again as it's too 'rough', and yet at the end of the film the 'catch-up' segment tells us that she has indeed gone back to making movies.
One of the best parts of the second documentary was the interview with Georgina Spelvin (The Devil in Miss Jones, 1972) who comes across as a completely adorable 'Granny' figure. Apparently she was only supposed to be working as a cook on the film and they ended up asking her to be in it. She asked if she could still do the cooking, and was paid $45 per do for her cooking and $100 a day for acting! She thought it was brilliant, as she said 'that was a killing in those days!'.
One of the few people in the films I did recognise was Danny D, who was only in it for about a minute or so. He's that guy with the huge 'Chelsea' tattoo on his left arm and who seems to be in every porn scene these days (not least he was in that Doctor Who spoof porn film I mentioned years ago with Franceska Jaimes), I can't imagine why!
There is one more 'After Porn Ends' documentary to watch, although looking at the cast list the only name that I instantly recognized was Tera Patrick, who I always thought was one of the most boring and overrated porn actresses. But she did marry the guy from Biohazard so that might be quite interesting... although I'm pretty sure they didn't last.
Randy West was quite a funny guy (unfortunately he died several years ago from a heart-attack) and it was interesting to hear these people's take on their experiences within the industry. It's quite funny how many of them (particularly the guys) didn't set out to become 'porn stars', but fell into it when they were offered jobs as a consequence of doing modelling work.
Clearly some of the participants had more negative experiences than others, but overall they were both pretty balanced and well put together programmes. Tiffany Millions (never heard of her to be honest) seems to have come out of it quite well, she's now a warrant officer or something; we see her shooting a pistol in the desert and others seem to have managed to put the past behind them, even though it's not always the easiest thing to do when people recognize you.
Asia Carrera moved away from Hollywood to somewhere that's heavily populated by Mormons, and as she said herself 'put on forty pounds', but still gets recognized and Googled by people who are suspicious of her because she's reluctant to divulge her background.
Then again Brittany Andrews (her laugh is something to behold!) tells us how her life is so brilliant now, she's a DJ and this and that and the other, and how she would never be able to do porn again as it's too 'rough', and yet at the end of the film the 'catch-up' segment tells us that she has indeed gone back to making movies.
One of the best parts of the second documentary was the interview with Georgina Spelvin (The Devil in Miss Jones, 1972) who comes across as a completely adorable 'Granny' figure. Apparently she was only supposed to be working as a cook on the film and they ended up asking her to be in it. She asked if she could still do the cooking, and was paid $45 per do for her cooking and $100 a day for acting! She thought it was brilliant, as she said 'that was a killing in those days!'.
One of the few people in the films I did recognise was Danny D, who was only in it for about a minute or so. He's that guy with the huge 'Chelsea' tattoo on his left arm and who seems to be in every porn scene these days (not least he was in that Doctor Who spoof porn film I mentioned years ago with Franceska Jaimes), I can't imagine why!
Feel free to insert your own 'Tardis' joke here...
There is one more 'After Porn Ends' documentary to watch, although looking at the cast list the only name that I instantly recognized was Tera Patrick, who I always thought was one of the most boring and overrated porn actresses. But she did marry the guy from Biohazard so that might be quite interesting... although I'm pretty sure they didn't last.
Friday, 24 May 2019
Mistress, Please Hurt My Balls...
In typical fashion, no sooner had Mistress got over her recovery time and we had our Femdom session, than her period arrived. Thankfully, tonight I was finally able to make her cum (using my tongue and her favourite glass dildo) and afterwards Mistress stroked me to the edge with a few ball slaps thrown in. After she had edged me I begged Mistress to hurt my balls, Mistress thought for a second and then said 'I will give you seven'.
The first one was good, the second one was a bit of a miss-hit, but the last two were very hard and the last one was one of the hardest I think I've ever had. Of course, rough as it was, I absolutely loved it! My beautiful Mistress just gets more amazing everyday, I can't wait to let her loose on my balls with the ballcrusher… :)
The first one was good, the second one was a bit of a miss-hit, but the last two were very hard and the last one was one of the hardest I think I've ever had. Of course, rough as it was, I absolutely loved it! My beautiful Mistress just gets more amazing everyday, I can't wait to let her loose on my balls with the ballcrusher… :)
My First Punshment Spanking!
Well, I really didn't think it would happen so soon... but yesterday I got up really early again to go swimming, and being half asleep I forgot to get Mistress's towels out again. Problem was, this time I didn't realise until I was more than 30mins away, far too late to turn back. I was so annoyed with myself, and so cross that the sticker on my dashboard was completely ineffective.
I emailed Mistress and told her as soon as I could and said that she should think of a forfeit, but I honestly wasn't thinking of anything 'Femdomy', I actually suggested that maybe I should wash up on my own or something. Mistress said she was sure she could find something a little more exciting than that, which left me wondering. Maybe I was keeping my expectations low on purpose, after all I didn't want to get my hopes up and be disappointed.
When I got home last night Mistress told me that I would have to be 'punished' when we came back from the pub we sometimes go to on Thursday nights. She didn't say what my punishment would be, and I still didn't want to get my hopes up, so I kept an open mind.
As we have cats, we always get changed when we get home, otherwise our clothes get hairs on them etc, so Mistress said 'Are you getting changed now?'
I told her I was, and she said 'I want you in the bedroom on your hands and knees with your pants off."
Just like that.
She then added, 'You can put your shirt on if you want to.'
I quickly stripped and put my T-shirt on and went into the bedroom. I got down on my hands and knees at the foot of the bed like I do in our sessions and waited for Mistress to come in.
After half a minute or so she came in and said, 'Hmm, I should have told you to get the whip out shouldn't I?'
She searched through our toy drawer and said, 'I can't find the whip, so you'll have to make do with the paddle instead.'
She came back and stood next to me.
'Well slave,' Mistress said. 'I want you to confess to your mistake first.'
I wasn't expecting that and I had to think...
'Er, I am sorry I forgot to put your towels out this morning Mistress.'
Mistress moved behind me and said 'You know the drill slave.'
She gave me eleven smacks in all, which stung, but weren't unbearable. My ass is still a little bit tingly now, so I think it was a good punishment, appropriate for the mistake.
When she'd finished Mistress sat on the bed and told me to worship her feet. I turned and held her beautiful feet, kissing them all over as she looked down at me, my cock starting to harden. Mistress was dressed, which kind of added to it in a way, since this wasn't supposed to be about me getting to see her naked, it was about her punishing me and me showing how much I adore her.
When she had had enough Mistress told me to straighten up and she rubbed her foot against my cock and balls. I straightened up even further, pushing them forward, wondering if she might just want to maybe give my balls a little kick... hahaha. Okay now I was definitely getting a bit carried away!
Afterwards Mistress said to me, 'If this is going to be a regular thing I will have to remember to tell you to get out the paddle or whatever I want to use on you.'
Which was music to my ears... I am so pleased that Mistress decided to punish me like this. I think she enjoyed it, and I enjoyed it too, maybe not so much while it was actually happening, but afterwards, certainly.
I really hope this is going to become a 'regular' thing, although preferably for her entertainment rather than because I forget to carry out the tasks I promised to do for her! I think a spanking for 'no reason at all' would be even better somehow. :)
I'm quite excited. For a very long time I've wanted a Perspex ball crusher, but the only ones I could find were £60 or more and I just couldn't really justify the cost. Well, yesterday I found one selling on eBay from China for £9 and I just couldn't pass that up. Maybe it's an inferior product, but it's probably pretty much the same thing. It's clear so Mistress will be able to see how much she's crushing my balls and if it turns out to be a non-starter for whatever reason then at least it won't be a total waste of money.
Delivery is a couple of weeks, which is a bit of a shame, but still... I can't wait to try it out. Maybe this will be Mistress's next punishment option?
I emailed Mistress and told her as soon as I could and said that she should think of a forfeit, but I honestly wasn't thinking of anything 'Femdomy', I actually suggested that maybe I should wash up on my own or something. Mistress said she was sure she could find something a little more exciting than that, which left me wondering. Maybe I was keeping my expectations low on purpose, after all I didn't want to get my hopes up and be disappointed.
When I got home last night Mistress told me that I would have to be 'punished' when we came back from the pub we sometimes go to on Thursday nights. She didn't say what my punishment would be, and I still didn't want to get my hopes up, so I kept an open mind.
As we have cats, we always get changed when we get home, otherwise our clothes get hairs on them etc, so Mistress said 'Are you getting changed now?'
I told her I was, and she said 'I want you in the bedroom on your hands and knees with your pants off."
Just like that.
She then added, 'You can put your shirt on if you want to.'
I quickly stripped and put my T-shirt on and went into the bedroom. I got down on my hands and knees at the foot of the bed like I do in our sessions and waited for Mistress to come in.
After half a minute or so she came in and said, 'Hmm, I should have told you to get the whip out shouldn't I?'
She searched through our toy drawer and said, 'I can't find the whip, so you'll have to make do with the paddle instead.'
She came back and stood next to me.
'Well slave,' Mistress said. 'I want you to confess to your mistake first.'
I wasn't expecting that and I had to think...
'Er, I am sorry I forgot to put your towels out this morning Mistress.'
Mistress moved behind me and said 'You know the drill slave.'
She gave me eleven smacks in all, which stung, but weren't unbearable. My ass is still a little bit tingly now, so I think it was a good punishment, appropriate for the mistake.
When she'd finished Mistress sat on the bed and told me to worship her feet. I turned and held her beautiful feet, kissing them all over as she looked down at me, my cock starting to harden. Mistress was dressed, which kind of added to it in a way, since this wasn't supposed to be about me getting to see her naked, it was about her punishing me and me showing how much I adore her.
When she had had enough Mistress told me to straighten up and she rubbed her foot against my cock and balls. I straightened up even further, pushing them forward, wondering if she might just want to maybe give my balls a little kick... hahaha. Okay now I was definitely getting a bit carried away!
Afterwards Mistress said to me, 'If this is going to be a regular thing I will have to remember to tell you to get out the paddle or whatever I want to use on you.'
Which was music to my ears... I am so pleased that Mistress decided to punish me like this. I think she enjoyed it, and I enjoyed it too, maybe not so much while it was actually happening, but afterwards, certainly.
I really hope this is going to become a 'regular' thing, although preferably for her entertainment rather than because I forget to carry out the tasks I promised to do for her! I think a spanking for 'no reason at all' would be even better somehow. :)
I'm quite excited. For a very long time I've wanted a Perspex ball crusher, but the only ones I could find were £60 or more and I just couldn't really justify the cost. Well, yesterday I found one selling on eBay from China for £9 and I just couldn't pass that up. Maybe it's an inferior product, but it's probably pretty much the same thing. It's clear so Mistress will be able to see how much she's crushing my balls and if it turns out to be a non-starter for whatever reason then at least it won't be a total waste of money.
Delivery is a couple of weeks, which is a bit of a shame, but still... I can't wait to try it out. Maybe this will be Mistress's next punishment option?
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