A Meaner Mistress...

Last night was just amazing. Although things didn’t quite go to plan, they ended so well…

We had intended for Mistress to receive some pussy worship last night, but what with one thing and another, this didn’t end up happening. However, when it came time to go to bed, I expected to kiss Mistress (her lips and feet) and then go to sleep.

Indeed Mistress only let me kiss her feet for a few seconds before telling me to get into bed. But instead of kissing me goodnight, Mistress pushed the covers back to expose her gorgeous body and then grabbed my cock.

She soon had me hard and allowed me to gently tease her asshole with my fingers, I so desperately wanted her to sit on my face and let me worship her ass, but I knew she wouldn’t, partly because my face was stubbly and partly because she wants me to wait until Sunday.

Mistress was a little bit tipsy on wine, and this had the effect of relaxing her and bringing out her inner Mistress a bit more than usual and she said some beautiful things to me about how she feels about me and our marriage, but she also took the opportunity to ask me if I still wanted to continue being her slave and in chastity.

This is something that both of us feel the need to reassure ourselves over from time to time, neither wanting the other to feel ‘trapped’ into a particular lifestyle choice if we simply don’t want to do it anymore. Of course there are times when I wish I could just slam my cock into my Mistress’s beautiful pussy and fill her full of cum, I wouldn’t be human if there wasn’t… and there are also definitely times I worry that Mistress misses having a ‘normal’ sex life…

But last night as she roughly stroked and slapped my cock and balls, we reassured each other that this is what we both want. Mistress told me she absolutely loves having me be so hard and aching for her, and I asked her if she would promise to be a ‘meaner’ Mistress for me.

(I’m thinking that I might have to explain this further to her at some point, since while her being rougher with my cock and balls is definitely okay with me, that isn’t the whole story. Perhaps my readers might also like to suggest ways in which Mistress could be ‘meaner’ to me?) 

Anyway, by the time Mistress told me to go to sleep (the third or fourth time, since I couldn’t keep my hands or cock  off of her) my cock was like granite, and I woke up this morning in exactly the same state. My balls are aching a bit too (Mistress was rougher last night than she’s even been before), but it was soooo worth it. Towards the end I begged her to slap my balls once more last night and Mistress certainly left a lasting impression!

I love seeing my Mistress like this, it makes me feel incredibly happy and so lucky to be in a relationship with such an amazing and sexy woman. I just wish I could bring this part of her to the surface more often. I am going to have to have a serious think about how I can facilitate this in the future, because I really would like us both to experience this kind of intensity more often.

Again, Already?

Very stupidly, I stayed up very late last night. You know how you start doing something on your computer and before you know where you are it’s 1:30am… well that was me last night. In fact I think it was nearer 1:45am when I actually went to bed, so I was never going to be feeling particularly great this morning.

Mistress and I are going out late again tonight and it’s a safe bet that we will both be quite tired tomorrow, so it seemed like a good idea to have some fun today. It s still quite warm here, but thankfully not as bad as it has been, but needless to say… I am not exactly ‘full of beans’ today.

All started well, we were kissing on the bed and my cock was nice and hard as I used my fingers to tease Mistress’s beautiful pussy. Eventually I moved down the bed and even then my cock was hard for quite some time, squashed between my body and the mattress as I licked Mistress. After a while Mistress was getting more turned on and I began using my fingers on her too, including the new trick I have discovered of stimulating the bottom edge of her pussy, kind of directly opposite where here clit is. This seems to help things along nicely. 

Mistress had a really good, long, hard orgasm, which kickstarted my cock again and as I moved down to kiss her feet for a little while I was already half hard. Then Mistress told me to kneel between her thighs and she started stroking my cock… but the fucking thing was just not playing. It got sort of 70% hard I guess, but not hard enough for Mistress to push it into her pussy.

After a few tries Mistress had me lie on my back and started stroking me harder while she allowed me to tease her ass with my fingers. My cock started to get a bit harder and Mistress pumped it hard and fast, actually edging me once (though she stopped just as I was about to tell her I was close, so she didn’t actually know that). Satisfied that I was now hard enough, Mistress lay down again and told me to kneel between her legs.

A few more tries proved fruitless, I was still kind of hard but just not hard enough. Rather than getting stressed about it (like I used to… which is NOT the answer!) I simply suggested to Mistress that I put the rubber cock-ring on (that’s why it lives on the table by the bed, even though this is a very rare occurrence for me these days, you don’t want to be riffling through drawers at a time like this).

Once I fitted the cockring, I started kissing Mistress and she stroked my cock. It still didn’t get as hard as it usually does with a cock ring on, usually the cock ring makes it look like it’s been taking steroids, but it was ‘hard enough’. Still Mistress was struggling a bit, but after a bit of lubing up my cock was a bit harder still and slippery enough to slide easily inside her.

I pushed Mistress’s legs over my shoulders and pushed into her, giving her some deep strokes (which we were both loving), but it wasn’t too long before I felt like I was getting close, and I had to slow down almost to a complete stop. Mistress turned onto her side, and started pushing herself back against me, I responded, but again it wasn’t long before I had to warn Mistress that I was close.

Mistress told me to keep going and then as I started to cum she told me to pull it out and cum on her ass! Well, honestly I’d already started to shoot inside her, but I pulled out and stroked what I could onto her ass, which wasn’t that much to be frank. The cock ring tends to restrict it a bit and as I said, I’d already started coming inside her. Then as Mistress moved up on to her knees she brushed against me and wiped half of what there was onto my stomach.

Still, I bent down and licked the little bit of cum that was left from around Mistress’s gorgeous asshole. But, stupidly… I could have quite legitimately spent a good while longer tonguing Mistress’s ass, under the guise of ‘cleaning her up’, but I just… didn’t. FFS, this is what happens when you are tired! 

Ah well, it was still lovely to be allowed inside Mistress’s beautiful pussy for a while, and I really enjoyed making her cum nice and hard. And even though it was a bit stressful not getting hard enough without the cockring, at the end of it all I still got to cum, and lick (a little bit of) it off Mistress’s gorgeous ass. So no need to feel too sorry for me! 

Sometimes you just have to focus on the positive. And hopefully I will get a good night’s sleep tonight and wake up with a rock hard cock in the morning.

I Think I'm Going to Let You Cum Inside Me!

It’s been twelve days since my last post, but not that much has happened to be honest… as you can see from the orgasm page, Mistress came again on the 30th of June and then there was nothing until the Wednesday just gone. There were a few reasons for this, not least the 1st of June was very hot here, like 37 degrees hot, which is ridiculous in the UK. To put in perspective, the hottest temperature ever recorded in the UK was 38.6!

Mistress and I hate hot weather, we are not good with it at all, and needless to say it does not inspire either of us to feeling frisky. Thankfully by the weekend it cooled down a bit, but then Mistress started her period.

It was good that it cooled down though, because Mistress and I were going to London to see the band NOFX, and while it was hot enough in the Brixton Academy, it could have been much worse.

So by Wednesday just gone Mistress’s period had finished and I finally got to lick her gorgeous pussy and make her cum. It was so lovely to do that at last, and afterwards Mistress decided to make me cum too. She teased my cock for a while, then straddled me and started riding me. She was quite surprised that it had been fifteen days for me already, and on the spur of the moment Mistress decided to let me cum.

She slipped her bra down and played with her beautiful breasts while I fucked her from below and when I had to warn her that I was getting close she told me ‘I think I’m going to let you cum in me’. And it didn’t take much longer for me to explode inside her, after which she straddled my face and had me lick her pussy clean.

So this is day two of my next period of chastity, but it already seems longer somehow.

FEMDOM SESSION 28th Jun 2015

One of the reasons I didn’t really think I would go much past my record was that I knew we had a session planned for this weekend. So once we got to the old record it was pretty clear to me that Mistress would either let me cum at the start of this week or I would have to wait until this Sunday. There was no way she would let me cum on Friday knowing there was a session on Sunday, it would make no sense.

So I went into this session with just five days of chastity under my belt, quite a lot less than normal I should say. It’s also been pretty warm here in the UK this week and Mistress and I absolutely hate it (it’s going to be even worse this week, not looking forward to that), Mistress hasn’t been sleeping at all well this week and I’ve been going to bed really late (to make sure I’m tired) and sleeping on top of the covers.

Unusually we slept in until almost 11am today, and I was half expecting the session to be cancelled. But even though neither of us really felt like it, we decided to go ahead anyway because we’ve been through this before and whatever you might say, you never ‘make the sessions’ up later, you just get to the end of the year and realise that you missed three or four out. Besides, once you get started you quickly get into the swing anyway.

One thing that’s been a bug-bear for us ever since we bought our new mattress is that our black PVC sheet isn’t quite big enough anymore. You know these new mattresses are much deeper than the old ones and so it barely goes underneath. It’s been a nightmare to get on and by the end of the session it’s pulled out and moving all over the place. We had looked into getting a fitted PVC sheet, but they are so expensive, like £80 ($120) whereas the flat PVC sheet we’ve had for about ten years cost about £15 ($20). So after last month’s session I decided to see if I could solve the problem.

What I did was get an old cotton sheet and cut two full length strips about ten inches wide and then taped them to the (back) edges of the PVC sheet using ducting tape. So today, no problem at all, the cotton part goes right under the mattress and holds it solid as a rock and you can’t see it either so it doesn’t spoil the look. Result!

I had already admitted to Mistress that I had touched my cock quite a few times while I was super-horny and denied, so I was expecting to be punished. Mistress wasted no time at all giving me fifteen swats with the paddle to start the session, and then had me worshipping her feet while she played with her beloved glass dildo. After this Mistress had me get on the bed on all fours and gave me another eleven swats with the paddle.

Mistress used the session mostly to re-emphasize that I should be asking for permission to touch my cock. Standing over me and showing me her ass she said things like ‘If you ask, you might get a bonus’. She had me repeat several appropriate phrases while she sucked, slapped and stroked my cock, emphasizing over and over that she controls my cock, balls and ass, and she decides when, if and how I get to cum.

Mistress sat astride me and rode my cock for a while, during which I was happily thrusting my cock upwards inside her, I’m not sure I could have done that quite so enthusiastically if I had been carrying fifty-five days of cum in my balls… She looked so gorgeous today, I told her that I love every single bit of her body, and I do. There isn’t one part of her that isn’t sexy as hell, nor that I wouldn’t happily spend ages worshipping.

I love it when she stands over me, bending forward to suck my cock, giving me a perfect view of her open pussy and tight ass. It’s true what she says of course, touching my own cock without her there can never be as good, and I really want to focus on that thought now and obey her like I know I should. I will also make the effort to ask her permission, at least once a week, because again, that’s something that needs to be done regularly if we are both to become comfortable falling in to DS at a moment’s notice.

I think that’s something we struggle with a little, it’s not like (for example) Mistress Marie, where her slave is her slave all the time. Out of the bedroom we are just a normal couple so it’s weird enough just going and asking if I can worship her feet while she reads a magazine or something, let alone coming up to her completely out of the blue and asking if I can stroke my cock. I find that quite difficult, especially as it never seems a good time.

Anyway, so then Mistress decided to plug my ass and peg my nipples (I forgot to mention that I was wearing the Oxballs ballstretcher right from the start – very comfortable after the initial fitting, right up until she left me alone and my cock started to wilt) and left me alone for a little while.

When she came back she untied me and removed the pegs from my nipples and had e remove the ballstretcher. Then she had me on all fours again and gave my ass another eleven swats with the paddle, before telling me to kneel back and then having me worship her pussy until she came.

It took quite a while for Mistress to cum (a combination of tiredness and heat perhaps) but when she did she came nice and hard and when she pushed me away it revealed a torrent of pussy juice all over the PVC sheet. Mistress stood up and I could see more juice dripping off of her onto the sheet. She turned around and told me to lick her clean, which I eagerly did. There were drops of pussy juice down by her knees and her pussy and ass were drenched. Yummy!

Once she was satisfied she got off the bed and left me to clean the sheet. There was more than I have ever seen before, it was amazing. So much in fact that Mistress got tired of waiting for me to lick it all up and wiped the last bits up with a tissue. I wasn’t being slow either, there was just a lot of pussy juice! 

Finally Mistress allowed me to worship her beautiful asshole while she stroked my cock. We both knew there was no way I was getting to cum today, and that was fine. I was really enjoying licking her ass and having my cock stroked though, and she allowed me to lick it three times before she called a halt to the session.

Adjusting to Empty...

I’m sure (if you’ve gone any length of time in chastity) that you will agree, that as ridiculous as it sounds, the first few days after release are a bit…. difficult. You tend to feel a bit lost, because that feeling of horniness is (if not gone, then) diminished to say the least. You kind of get used to feeling horny all the time and then when you’re don’t… it kind of sucks.

At times like these (and I’ve said it before I know) I can truly understand the appeal of permanent denial. The idea of every future release being ruined, leaving my frustration and horniness intact is so damned alluring… but I know this isn’t going to happen, at least not anytime soon. And for one thing, I’m not really sure I even want to give up cumming hard inside my Mistress (completely).

Against this backdrop of emotions it’s hard to get your head around the end of a period of chastity, and it’s weird to think that I just went fifty days without cumming. Fifty days! Despite everything, it doesn’t really sound that impressive to me really… it doesn’t sound like that big a deal, but to a ‘normal’ person I know it would sound completely insane.

I guess it may be because, in reality I only went a couple more days than my previous record, so it wasn’t like I was being pushed much harder or further. But it was still 50 days, seven weeks and a day!

Unlike some, I don’t really consider it an achievement, I don’t feel proud of myself or anything. It’s just how it is now. And while I hate the ‘drop’ you feel after being allowed to cum, as I’ve always said, I want Mistress to decide. I want to cum when she wants me to cum, and not before. I don’t really want her to consider ‘records’, unless it pleases her to do so (of course). I certainly don’t want her to feel constrained or dictated to by them.

This is why getting the balance right in a chastity relationship is such a tricky business. For a start the whole thing makes little sense to a woman… and even when you get over that hurdle you have such conflicting information and feelings. Just look at what I’ve written just now, essentially ‘I want her to decide’, ‘I like the idea of permanent denial’, and ‘I don’t want to give up being able to cum hard inside her completely’.

Is it any wonder that being a keyholder isn’t easy?

I wouldn’t be at all surprised if I don’t get near fifty days again for a goodly length of time. And I am honestly okay with that. I’m far more interested in making my Mistress cum to be honest, and if the ten to one ratio was to be achieved I’d much prefer it to be because she had a lot more orgasms than because I had a lot less.

Mistress had a lovely orgasm earlier, and then she allowed me to touch her ass as she teased me. Feeling my finger tips press against her warm asshole makes me ache to push it with my tongue, and even though it’s only three days since I came, I was feeling pretty eager.

But at the same time of course, that’s the last thing I want to do… really.

50 Days of Cum - Released and Consumed!

Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue about two hours ago, and even then I still didn’t really know for sure whether this was to be my last day of chastity… or rather the last day of this period of chastity, because of course tomorrow is simply ‘day-one’ of the next however-long Mistress decides to make me wait.

I was kind of expecting her to let me cum to be honest, but there was still some doubt. I was happy for either eventuality, cum or not cum… or for her to ruin it (it’s a long time since that happened). But once she stood over me and let me run my hands up her legs, then let me part her cheeks I was pretty sure I was going to be cumming. To be honest that awesome sight and her hand stroking my cock pretty hard was getting me close as it was, and after I begged and she lowered her ass down on to my face… it was only a few seconds before I had to warn her that I was getting close.

Mistress told me to cum and continued jerking me hard, I tried to keep my tongue in her delicious ass for as long as I could, but once I started to cum it was hard to focus and after a few seconds Mistress pulled her ass away from me anyway. It was very intense and there was quite a lot of cum (as you might expect). Mistress first had me lick her fingers clean and then scooped more cum up from my skin and wiped it on her beautiful feet for me to lick clean. That was a nice touch…

I think I was probably ready to cum to be honest. Being denied for a long time is cool, and it’s fun to feel so desperate and horny, but I do miss getting to lick my cum off my Mistress’s gorgeous body. Hopefully now that I’ve had a long period of denial, maybe I will get to cum a few times a bit closer together and hopefully Mistress will have me cum on her breasts, ass or feet, or inside her wonderful pussy… I really have missed that submissive feeling of licking her clean.

Or, perhaps if Mistress can be persuaded to embrace the ruined orgasm again, maybe I can remain denied and horny and get to lick her clean too. Let’s hope so.

You know, I just checked and it’s almost exactly two years since I got to properly cum on Mistress’s beautiful feet. Two years and 33 orgasms ago… !

If you’ve never experienced a long period of chastity, it’s probably safe to assume that you might think that an orgasm after a really long wait is going to be mind-blowing. Well, it is… but there’s also an element of anticlimax. And I’ve read this from other chastity practitioners as well. No doubt you’ve often read about the dip in mood after being allowed to cum, and the truth is, as good as that orgasm is, it’s over so quickly compared to being left hanging. As wonderful as it felt to pump all that cum out with my tongue pressed into Mistress’s ass (and make no mistake, it was fucking great), I honestly can’t wait to be teased and denied again. I can’t wait to be rock hard, and gasping for release, holding my Mistress and feeling my aching cock pressing against her, begging for just a few more strokes… and that’s just how it is.

Still Going...

So today is day… 46 of this denial period, only three more days to break the record. I must admit, as much as I want to cum… I kind of don’t want to. I would be quite happy if Mistress gave me a ruined orgasm and made me wait a few more weeks. How crazy is that?

I’m sure those of you who have experienced this level of denial will agree and understand perfectly… the dilemma of wanting to cum, but not wanting to give up that ache. It’s HARD!

Yesterday I was allowed to worship Mistress’s gorgeous pussy and make her cum, and afterwards Mistress teased me good. After she sucked and stroked me for a while she straddled me and rode my cock. She was wearing a grey vest top and her bra, and she looked really hot. At one point Mistress pulled her vest top up and her bra down just enough that I could see her nipples for a short time. And the way she looked down at me… fucking hell, I can’t even explain how hot that was. Somewhere between ‘amused’ and ‘you’re not fit to lick my boots’… makes me hard just thinking about it!

After not a massive amount of time with Mistress riding my cock, I told her that I was getting close. I genuinely thought that she would keep riding me and tell me to cum inside her… but no. She got off straight away and then told me that if I could promise not to cum, she would let me worship her ass.

After a few seconds to steady the ship, I told her I would be okay, and then Mistress straddled me and sank down onto my face. As I licked her asshole she stroked my cock fairly hard, but I was good. She lifted herself up and then asked me if I wanted some more, which I obviously did! So Mistress sank down once more and allowed me a few more precious seconds of tonguing her delicious ass.