Sigh...

I'm not feeling inclined to post much at the moment, on the one hand last night Mistress R had a stupendous orgasm which made me really happy, but afterwards when she started teasing me my cock was barely hard at all. So, I'm feeling a bit fed up really... but who knows, maybe in a couple of days it will spring back to life? I really hope so.

Sweet...

This evening was surprising... I anticipated going down on Mistress R and making her cum, possibly followed by a half-hearted erection which required a cock ring before Mistress R could tease me properly. Instead, I got into bed next to Mistress R and we started kissing. She reached down and started playing with my cock, it was a little slow starting, but it soon got reasonably hard. Mistress then instructed me to lick my fingers and start touching her pussy, we continued kissing and masturbating each other until my cock was really hard (if not quite as 'rock' as I'd like).
Just as I was starting to wonder where this was going to lead Mistress R told me she wanted me to get on top and slide my cock inside her. This is usually the bit I get nervous about, that transition from lying down to on my knees between her legs is usually where my cock starts to deflate. But not this time, thankfully.
Mistress fed my cock into her very tight pussy and I pushed inside her, lifting her legs up over my shoulders as I started to fuck her. She spurred me on, telling me how good it felt being fucked hard and asked me if I wanted to fuck her hard and be allowed to cum inside her. I told her yes, and I slammed my cock into her as hard as I could. Needless to say it didn't last too long, the strange thing was even after I felt myself cum I seemed to stay hard for a while and I managed another eight or so hard thrusts before my cock started to wilt.
I can't tell you how good it felt to cum in Mistress R's beautiful, tight pussy like that, especially after the last few days and the stress of not getting hard, I hate it when that happens, it's so depressing!
Afterwards I licked Mistress R (not particularly well in my honest opinion) to a rather elusive (but very worthwhile) orgasm, which left us both feeling a lot better and ready to enjoy the weekend.

Please vote again...

Just noticed the poll has lost all the votes - WTF!

Did they make a swimmable iPod yet...

Well, it seems that for the moment at least I am back to cock rings as a matter of course. After licking Mistress to a lovely orgasm last night my cock just absolutely refused to respond until I put a cock ring on, thereafter it was okay, though Mistress's attempt to ride me didn't last long... it didn't feel right to either of us (I'm guessing...) but I did get some nice teasing and as it progressed my cock did get harder... but it wasn't that comfortable hard, you know when you can leave it untouched for minutes and it will stay hard, no this was more of a leave it alone for more than ten seconds and it's over. Which is kinda stressful and does take the fun out of it somewhat. Annoying really, cos yesterday morning it was solid. Typical.
Oh well, I've had 18 months without a problem now, so I should be grateful for that. I dunno what's wrong with me at the moment, I'm always hot, I'm always tired... if I was a woman you would think I was going through the menopause.
On the positive side, in the last three days I've done some good exercise. I did 5 miles on the treadmill on each of the last two days and today I did 1000 steps (just like on Biggest Loser), that was fucking hard work I can tell you! Took me 36 mins and 57 secs, the best thing about it was that I could watch my Celldweller DVD while I did it. That's the thing with me and exercise, if I can listen to music I can do it, that's why swimming is such a chore. Do they make a swimmable iPod yet?

Sex Slave Poll...

I know I don't post as many polls as I used to, but I have kind of exhausted most obvious angles... still, today I have a new poll for you and one you might have to think about a little bit more than usual. The question is not easy to formulate into a one liner, but what I'm asking is, if you were guaranteed not to be 'ignored' or sidelined (in other words if you were assured of plenty of stimulation) would you give up total control of your sex life to your Mistress.
The obvious answer is yes, but I mean total control. Which means, for example, she may never let you inside her again. She may cuckold you. She may do whatever she wants with your cock, balls ass and mouth (within reason). She may force you to do all sorts of things you might not really 'want' to do...
Of course you would have to talk it out and both understand exactly what was meant by this, perhaps you would be willing to give up 100% control on the proviso that she stayed faithful, which is fair enough, that would probably be my choice.
I hope you will give this some thought before voting.

Mistress R tastes sooooo good...

This afternoon I finally got to taste my beautiful Mistress's pussy again, it seemed so long since I last made her cum (six days actually, but it feels like forever!). Well, she tasted absolutely gorgeous, and it made me so happy when she came really hard. Unfortunately, despite my cock being as hard as steel last night, today it was having another off day... but I'm not going to get stressed about it, because that won't help and will almost certainly only make the problem worse. I have no idea why it wouldn't stay fully hard throughout my teasing, but I am feeling inordinately hot today, and I have a toothache, so I do wonder if that isn't helping. That aside I am obviously still not over my little wobble last week and I know better than most the self-defeating circle of worrying and failure when it comes to ED.
It was still good, obviously, but I'm not really going to be fully happy until I am rock hard every time and I start waking up hard like I had been for months until the last couple of weeks, which tells me there's something not quite right...
Ah well, I've been here before and got over it. And I loved making Mistress cum today, that was absolutely wonderful. And last night was incredible too, so I can't feel too bad for myself!

Exactly what I needed...

The last week has been less than brilliant, following my meltdown last weekend I have remained somewhat stressed and depressed most of the week and with Mistress having been on her period the one thing most likely to get my head back in order has not been possible. But Mistress tells me that today I will be allowed to lick her pussy and make her cum, and I am so looking forward to that!
Late last night, Mistress came to bed after me and gave me one of her incredible late-night teasing sessions. My cock was throbbing hard, like it hasn't been all week... it literally felt on the brink of exploding, but somehow I managed to hold back. I'm wondering if that was partly the effect of the kegels I've been doing this last few days?
Actually, I don't know about you guys, but I found them so much easier to do when laying down. When I was doing them standing up I think half the time I was contracting my stomach muscles as much as anything else. I guess it makes sense because if you are standing up the rest of your muscles can't really be relaxed can they.
Anyway, Mistress had me staring over the edge of an orgasm sized cliff for several minutes and had I been allowed to you can bet I would have been begging to jump off. Instead I had to make do with kissing her deeply and telling her how much I loved her as she stroked, slapped and teased my aching cock.
It was pretty clear how much Mistress R was enjoying teasing me too, and that just made it even better for me. I just can't wait to taste Mistress's pussy later, I hope she has a HUGE orgasm!