Fifty Days of Denial...

Today marks 50 days since my last real orgasm, and since I was granted a ruined orgasm yesterday I doubt I'll be coming again any time soon. So I thought, as I occasionally do, I would have a look at some aspects of my orgasm data. Mistress and I don't get hung up on records and such like, we've never really aimed for any specific target*, but I do think it's interesting to look back in 'hindsight' to see how things have progressed. I am always slightly cautious about doing this as I don't want to influence Mistress one way or the other, but still, it's interesting to do a little analysis now and again.

*Actually, there was one target that was always in my mind when we started, and that was that Mistress should have ten orgasms for every one that I was allowed. Of course we are way beyond that now, it's more like 20:1 at this point, but it will take a little while yet to get the 'overall' score into line because in the early years Mistress was rather... generous. :) But we're getting there, it's up to 7.8:1 right now and that's only going to keep climbing... albeit, by my reckoning it will take another six years at the rate we are going!

This graph shows the number of days between 'full' orgasms (I had to start from our third chastity year because I had to keep the total number of data entries under 100). It's pretty clear to see from this graph how the incidence of orgasms has declined over the past years, and it also shows pretty well the achievement of each new 'record'.

The other thing I thought I would analyse was the incidence of orgasms 'inside' Mistress, as you can see, this has become a very rare occurrence.

Also note this graph doesn't show the data to date, we are already over 300 days since the last time... but then again, since we have become less focussed on penetrative sex and because my orgasms in general have become much less frequent, this was bound to happen and any analysis of 'where' I came would show a decline simply because the overall total has fallen so sharply.

(Mind you if we're talking infrequency, here's one for the record books... I came in Mistress's mouth once in 2011, twice in 2012, then never again until 2016, and not once since. The last time was pretty cool though... you can read about it HERE)

Finally this graph shows the number of days between each ruined orgasm that I've been allowed. This graph is harder to interpret without context, but to me shows Mistress's initial reluctance, notice two periods where there are several grouped together followed by longer periods where they became infrequent and then later becoming more frequent as Mistress got used to the idea and then later still gradually decreasing in frequency as Mistress has dialled back on both types of orgasm (last year I was allowed 8 full orgasms and 15 ruins, this year so far it's 4 full orgasms and 10 ruins; I very much doubt I am going to have 4 more full orgasms and 5 more ruins before March 31st!).

Again, I am cautious about highlighting these things as I don't want to influence Mistress one way or the other, and I also want to stress very strongly that this should not be interpreted as me 'complaining'; but I think you can easily glean from both charts that while in the earlier years there was a slow tendency for the times to increase, over the last 2-3 years things have really stepped up a gear.

The point is, I guess, things move at their own pace and while you may long for prolonged periods of chastity from the outset, maybe you have to accept that it takes a while to get where you really want to be. As for me, I've never been happier; all I wanted right from the start was for Mistress to control my orgasms and decide when and how I got to cum. Indeed, it is written clearly in black and white in our contract that Mistress is within her rights to deny me any full orgasms if she wants to.

Maybe that's where we are heading? If so that is for Mistress to decide... my only request in that case would be that she sometimes let me choose where to ruin, because while I could live with only being allowed ruined orgasms, I really wouldn't want to give up licking her beautiful feet clean...

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Speaking of Mistress's insanely sexy feet... we did indeed have our little pedicure session today, but I didn't take any pictures... sorry about that. Maybe next time. I have written up my 'pedicure' fantasy though... I thought it would be quite a short little piece, but it's turned out to be quite substantial!

My First Ruined Orgasm of the 20s...

It seems odd to be in the '20s' don't you think? For my whole life the 20s has meant the 1920s, odder still that this didn't happen with the 10s... I guess because people don't generally refer the to first decade of a century as the '10s' and what actually 'happened' between 1910 and 1919 anyway - apart from the First World War (obviously), I can't think of anything.

Well for your information, the Oreo cookie was invented; the Titanic sank; the Mona Lisa was stolen; the first crossword puzzle was published; Charlie Chapman appeared in his first film and Mata Hari was executed, as was Czar Nicholas II and his family... never let it be said that this blog isn't educational!

So what has this got to do with anything? Nothing really, I'm just blathering on rather pointlessly, so let's cut to the chase; Mistress allowed me a ruined orgasm tonight, my first for 38 days... but before that I got to eat her delicious pussy and make her cum (which is always wonderful). :)

As you may or may not know, one of my duties these days is to prepare Mistress's glass dildo before each time we go to bed, this involves heating it up so that it isn't cold to the touch. I do this every time, but then it is left on the bed and it is up to Mistress to decide if she wants me to use it or not. I never know until Mistress hands it down to me, and tonight I was handed the dildo as I worked my tongue against her pussy.

In the past I've perhaps been too quick to put the dildo to use, so tonight I decided to set it aside and use my fingers first, to make sure she was really ready for it. This seemed to work really well so I shall make sure I do that in future too. Once I had warmed Mistress up ready for the dildo and fucked her with it for a good while, I switched hands and held it with my left hand while slipping my right hand up alongside the glass cock. Then I pulled the dildo out of her wet slit and reintroduced my finger. Once it was nice and wet I slid it out and down between her ass cheeks, gently pushing the dildo back inside her as I did so.

I started to tease Mistress's gorgeous asshole with my finger while the dildo slid in and out of her and eventually settled into an alternating rhythm whereby I would slide the dildo in and out and then push my finger gently against her ass. This seemed to work pretty well and I did this for a little while before switching it up and eventually Mistress tensed up and came pretty hard. As always, I licked and sucked her gorgeous juices off of the dildo before kissing her pretty feet. Mmmmm! :)

I haven't been feeling all that great today, so I wasn't 100% sure if I was going to be getting all that hard. It did seem a little sluggish, but it get there in the end. Mistress stroked and slapped me nicely as we kissed and then she sat up and started stroking harder and faster, slapping my balls regularly as she got me closer and closer to the edge. Eventually I had to warn her I was getting close and she told me that she was going to let me cum.

As I anticipated, once she got me to the edge she let go and my cock strained hard and pumped out a very substantial load of cum - well it has been 38 days since my last ruin after all! Mistress scooped it with her fingers and fed it to me, in fact she did this about five times and there was still more leaking from my cock. Wow that was a LOT of cum!

I was supposed to give Mistress an intermediate pedicure today, she has her feet done professionally every six weeks and every three I give her a treatment which involves washing her feet, rubbing them with scrub, then rubbing cream into them and repairing any minor damage to her nail varnish. It's lovely for both of us, and as you can imagine for a foot fetishist like myself, quite a treat! Anyway, we didn't get round to it today, but we will do it tomorrow, I will ask Mistress if I can take some pictures maybe...

I went for a walk this evening and while I was walking I was thinking about this and inevitably it led to me formulating a little fantasy story based around this treatment. I will try and write that up soon, before I forget it.

Another Tune for You...

Honestly, there's not that many songs that genuinely make me 'feel' something... I don't know whether that's because I'm a musician (of sorts) and I tend to listen to music with little attention given to words and lyrics or what, but the list of those songs is pretty short I can tell you that. Obviously some songs make me feel 'pumped' or whatever, but not many stimulate 'emotion'.

I don't even know if the lyrics are necessarily the thing, I think it's more the delivery... although doubtless the chorus line of 'You are the only one' resonates with me. Curiously when I first heard this song I wasn't that into it; but it's grown on me over the last ten years (The Death of Romance came out in 2010) and so here it is for your consideration. No video for this song, just a picture of the album cover, and nothing to be scared of - 'Dir en Grey' this is not!

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Hope you all enjoyed the story I posted this morning, I already had a nice comment from an anonymous reader - thank you for that. More stories are in the works, I actually found a Word document with a 2/3 finished story on it, so that could be a quick project for the coming week.

Anna's Cuckold (Written January 2020)

Anna’s car pulled into her driveway and she quickly killed the engine. She closed her eyes and let her head fall back as her hand dipped down between her thighs, her panties were soaking wet and she could smell the huge load of cum her lover had dumped in her pussy a half-hour earlier. She gently slipped a finger inside the sodden material and teased herself for a second or two, tickling her sensitive clit with her fingertip, before slipping it inside her slippery hole.

She lifted her fingers to her mouth and tasted Ben’s cum mixed with her own juices, then looked up at her bedroom window. She couldn’t quite tell if the bedside lamp was on or not; it looked dark up there but even if it was off David was probably still awake… if not she would wake him, he wouldn’t want to miss out on this.

Anna left her car and slipped the key into her front door. She dropped her bag in the hallway, locked the front door and then headed straight up the stairs to where her husband was waiting for her.

Entering the bedroom she pealed her dress off over her head, she hadn’t bothered to wear a bra as she wanted to make sure Ben kept his eyes on her all night. That had definitely worked, he barely looked away the whole time they were in the pub; her large, hard nipples pressing into the stretchy thin fabric saw to that!

Hearing his wife enter the room, David sat up in the bed. He could smell the sex on her as she slid between the sheets and reached for his aching cock. Anna’s fingers closed around his hard shaft as she kissed him, acutely aware that he could surely taste Ben’s cock and cum on her tongue and lips. She loved knowing that and she loved having a cuckold husband and an open-minded lover like Ben; in fact life had never been better.

“My pussy is so full of cum,” she gasped into his mouth. “Are you ready for it?”

David groaned in frustration as she pumped his throbbing cock.

“Are you going to clean me up baby, are you going to swallow Ben’s cum for me and make me cum… again?”

Anna let go of his cock for a second and slid her fingers inside her panties, coating them with her juices and then feeding them to her insanely horny, but oh-so conflicted husband.

“Ben fucked me so good baby, but… he says I need to cut you off completely now.”

She wrapped her fingers around his cock again and started to gently pump it once more.

“Please, no Anna… that’s too much!”

She rubbed him harder and kissed him again, warming to the idea herself and loving how scared he sounded.

“But he fucks me better than you ever could… you know that; it’s better this way, isn’t it? You know you can’t satisfy me on your own, this takes all the pressure off you… and you get to clean me when I get home. What could be better than that?”

David protested again but Anna wasn’t listening.

“Ben says the only way a cuck like you should cum is on his knees, jerking off over his wife’s feet…”

David groaned as she said it, despite his frustration, he knew that ultimately Anna would twist him around her little finger and get her way, just like she always did.

“Deep down you like that idea don’t you? You don’t really want to fuck me at all… you just want to jerk off on my feet like the little cucky you are.”

Despite the fact that this had been a fantasy of his for as long as he could remember, David was still scared of letting go completely.

“No Anna, please, I can’t… I can’t bear the thought of not being allowed inside you anymore, it’s too much!”

“I know baby, but things work so much better this way and besides… Ben told me that if I let your little cock inside HIS pussy again he would beat my ass until it was black and blue and then fuck it until I cried… you don’t want him to do that to me, do you?”

“No…” David’s voice cracked as he replied.

“Good boy, I knew you would understand.”

Her fingers continued to pump his hot, hard cock as she nuzzled at his neck.

“You could… lie, though. I mean, you wouldn’t have to tell him...” David whined.

Anna let go of David’s cock and curled her fingers around his balls instead, squeezing firmly as she spoke.

“But we promised each other when we started this that there would be complete honesty between all three of us… it’s not fair for you to ask me to go back on that now is it?”

“Please Anna…”

“Sssshhhh baby,” said Anna as she started up a steady stroke again. “I tell you what, I can’t let you inside of me, but Ben never said anything about using my mouth, what if I suck you off one last time? Would you like that baby? Would you like me to take your little cock in my mouth and suck it dry for you one last time?”

David’s willpower began to slip at the thought of exploding in his wife’s mouth, he figured if he was getting cut off he might as well take what he could get while he could still get it…

“But after that you will only cum like Ben said, on your knees, jerking off over my pretty feet. I know you love my feet, don’t you.”

“Yes, but…”

“Ssshhhhh baby, I really want to suck your cock for you this one last time, but you have to promise me that in future you’ll only cum on your knees, stroking your cock for my beautiful feet, okay?”

Anna’s head dipped below the covers and David felt his cockhead engulfed by her warm, wet mouth.

“Come on baby, I need to hear you say it if you want this.”

“I… I promise… I will only… cum, on… my knees, stroking for…. for your beautiful… feet.”

“And clean it up with your mouth…” whispered Anna.

“And… clean it up… with… my mouth,” breathed her desperate husband.

Anna moaned loudly as she took her husband’s entire cock into her mouth, David knew he couldn’t last long, but he tried to hold back for as long as he could. Within two minutes he knew he had lost the battle and his cock exploded violently into his wife’s eager mouth. She slurped at his cock until it started to wilt and then moved back up to kiss him once more.

David turned his head to kiss her but instead felt her finger slide into his mouth, press on his lower teeth and pull downwards, opening his mouth wide so that she could spit his cum straight onto his tongue. He swallowed it quickly, expecting her to kiss him afterwards, but instead she slumped back on the bed and hooked her fingers into her panties. She pulled them down quickly and tossed them onto the floor beside the bed.

“Now, I need you to eat me… my pussy is very dirty and you’re going to make it clean again.”

David, excitedly moved between her legs, thrilled to see her well-fucked cunt oozing pussy juice and cum, but at the same time slightly appalled and ashamed by his predilection for cream pies. He sank down and breathed in the intoxicating scent, then bent forward and dragged his tongue down her slippery, wet slit.

Anna groaned as she felt him start to lick her pussy, she loved this moment so much… coming home to her husband of twelve years; the husband who worshipped her so much that he let her cuckold him again and again and even cleaned her pussy when she came home tired and sore. When they met she knew he was the right man for her, but she couldn’t have dreamed how things would turn out along the way. They were scared at first that cuckolding would drive them apart, but if anything it seemed to have brought them closer together than ever…

Anna sighed loudly as David’s tongue worked its magic, she had trained him to be an incredible pussy eater over the last few years and she had noticed he tried even harder to impress her when she came home full of another man’s cum. She’d mentioned it to him once and he had told her that it was his way of ‘reclaiming’ her.

She looked down and ran her fingers through his dark hair.

“I think about you when he’s fucking me baby… I think about you here at home, waiting, wondering what I’m doing… I think about you stroking your cock, I know you can’t help it… I think about you being in the room and watching as his wonderful cock stretches my tight little pussy… I think about you sucking my tits while he pounds his meat into me… I think about you cleaning my pussy while he watches… I think about you cleaning him too… I also think about you sucking his thick cock and swallowing his load… I want to see that one day baby, I know you’ll love it just as much as I do. I… I think about you kneeling on the floor in front of us, offering your hole to him and begging him to slide his gorgeous hard cock into your tight little ass. You’d do that for me wouldn’t you baby? You’d give up your ass to please me, wouldn’t you… if I asked you to?”

David could only groan into her sloppy, wet cunt as he feasted on her slippery juices…

Anna continued, her voice straining as she got closer and closer to the edge.

“I want to watch him fuck you baby, I need to see that… I want you to know what it feels like to really be taken and fucked har…”

Anna’s body tightened and David gripped her hips hard and drove his tongue against her clit, powering her through her fifth and final orgasm of the night. He knew it wouldn’t last for long, but in that moment she was his and only his.

Anna barely moved after she had cum and she was soon asleep, but David lay awake until the early hours of the next morning, wondering if he would ever get to fuck her again and if she was serious about making him their bitch. His cock ached and twitched as he thought about it and he quietly jerked himself off into his hand and licked it clean as he contemplated his fate…  

Back to Normal...

Tonight was great, I was really looking forward to some regular cock teasing after last night's unusual 'treatment' and I certainly got it. First though I worshipped Mistress's gorgeous pussy (and teased her ass) to a lovely orgasm, before kissing her pretty feet. Then she started kissing me (I love kissing Mistress so much, especially when my mouth tastes of her pussy...) and got me nice and hard before she started slapping my balls and stroking me in earnest.

Then she closed her mouth around my cock and that felt absolutely amazing... so fucking good. She slapped and stroked me to the absolute edge before letting go and giving me one final ball slap. We kissed again (I love kissing Mistress so much, especially when my mouth tastes of her pussy and her mouth tastes of my cock) while I wondered if my poor cock was going to leak its 47 day load.

Thankfully not, though it was touch and go I'm sure. Mistress said something about 'maybe letting me cum over the weekend', but I'm guessing I should take that with a pinch of salt. Still, I've only cum four times since April 1st 2019... with just over two months until the end of this chastity year, so who knows.

I must say, I was very impressed with Mistress yesterday, even though the ballcrusher was clearly hurting me more than I expected Mistress didn't flinch. A few years ago I'm sure it would have been quite different, but yesterday Mistress continued applying pressure to the plate (although she couldn't do much without me flinching) and I loved how she asked me if I could take one more minute with it on. That was a long minute... and of course I loved that she straddled my face while I was in pain, that was awesome! :)

Thinking some more about the ballcrusher, I'm wondering if the fact that it was June and probably a lot warmer than it is now might have had something to do with it? Obviously in the summer heat my balls are a lot looser than they are right now... maybe an answer is to put them through the back plate and then tie them so that they can't pull back one at a time?

And probably a good idea would be for Mistress to use lube on my cock, since she couldn't do much with it because it was so tight. We'll give it another go in a few weeks and see how we get on this time.

Just browsing 'Keyheld' and I found a really good new blog that I've never seen before called Suddenly Subbie, check it out HERE

My latest story 'Anna's Cuckold' will be posted tomorrow morning.

Some Observations...

Just looking at my Literotica pages for my 'Robert_Anthony' stories, it's curious that the story which has the most views (Thirty Seven Days, 128,400) is in turn the lowest rated. It also has the most comments by some margin (65).

The story which has the second most views (126,600) is also the second highest rated.

Of the 32 stories published, the two I published this last weekend are currently sitting 28th and 29th by rating (but I think they will rise a bit in a few weeks, Literotica apparently has some bot thing which weeds out dubious votes).

The three stories with the lowest rating are all ones which were posted in the notoriously hateful 'Loving Wives' category. Stories of similar content which were posted in the 'Fetish' category instead have fared much better. Between them, these three stories account for 141 comments!

Twenty eight out of thirty two stories have a score of at least 4 out of 5.

My top rated story is called 'Once a Month Ch3'; this was written in 2017, part 2 was written in 2014 and part one in 2011. It seems that part four is due in 2020. In fact I believe I suggested I would write the next part in three years in the comments...


Looking at the stories written as 'Malibuman666';

Ten out of fifteen chapters of 'Everything Has a Price' are rated 'HOT' (higher than 4.5/5)

My old Literotica account has 72 stories versus 32 for the new one, but 30 of those have been posted since 2011 (which means they were old stories that had to be re-written from hard copy).

Once a Month Ch3 is the best rated of all my stories (over both accounts) but only by .03/5, by contrast the bottom three stories on the Malibuman666 page all have ratings in the 3.9s, which places them all higher than the bottom four 'Robert_Anthony' stories. The worst rated story (Thirty Seven Days), has a score of 3.55/5.

Return of the Ballcrusher...

Week two of my weight loss programme and again I lost weight and got to choose a toy to play with. Last week I chose the cock whip, mainly because it's a nice simple thing to start with, but this week I went all out and brought back the ballcrusher...

Way back in June last year (no I can't quite believe that either but HERE is the post) we had a really great first experience with it. It wasn't painful, but it did provide intense pressure on my balls. Unfortunately, since then we've tried it 2 or 3 times and for some reason I just couldn't get my balls to stay in the damn thing without pulling out!

So today I was pretty determined to make it work, it took several goes but finally we did it, however to get it to grip my balls I had to do it up tighter than is ideal. I mean the idea really is that you have it so tight and then after a little while you do it up and then when you get used to that level of pressure you do it up again and so on.... and then when you can't take any more, you do it up one more time and then take it off. ;)

(Actually I also decided to wear a cock ring as well since I figured it would help to stop my balls pulling back... not sure if it did or not to be honest.)

So, this time was a different experience to the first time since Mistress couldn't really do it up any more - in fact she had to loosen it, and it was more a case of 'withstanding' the pain. Mistress did straddle my face while I had it on and that was really nice, it certainly took my mind off it briefly anyway! Mistress licked and slapped my cock about and then she asked me if I could stand another minute with it on. I made it and then once she started to undo it it was hard to tell if it was getting tighter or looser... then it felt like my cock was getting much harder, as if the pressure in my balls was stopping the blood getting to my cock. Mistress said I looked pretty hard the whole time, but it definitely felt a lot different once the crusher came off altogether.

It was painful, but then painful can be oddly enjoyable, although I will concede the first time was more fun (Mistress did point out that I could have asked her to stop, I have to admit that didn't really occur to me even though it was quite 'a lot' - as people have taken to saying lately). I don't want to give up on it and I'm trying to work out what was different about the first time. Oddly enough, the only thing I have come up with is that the first time I put lube around the holes, but I didn't bother after that because I didn't think it was necessary. Now I'm wondering, even though it seems counter-intuitive, if the lube might not have made my skin a little tacky and stopped my balls sliding out so easily? It's definitely worth a try...

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After Mistress had her 8th orgasm this month, we finally got around to reviewing our Chastity & Femdom contract; this is something that was planned for the end of November I think...  but at least we've done it now.

In the end we haven't changed any of it, but it was interesting to read it because it refreshes the memory and there were a couple of bits in there which we had both forgotten about. Mistress asked if I wanted to change the part about me not being allowed to ask for penetration, but this has been the case since 2011 (although it was relaxed a bit for a time) and I am used to this being under Mistress's control now. To be honest, it doesn't happen all that often... but I'd rather have it rarely and know that Mistress wants it to happen than any other way. To be honest it quite often seemed like Mistress was uncomfortable when I was inside her and if I feel like she's not enjoying it it just doesn't work for me, chances are then that I would go soft anyway, so much better that she decides.

Anyway, so nothing has changed, but reading it did remind me that there have been times over the last year when Mistress did (for instance) randomly decide to paddle and whip me for her own amusement (rather than as a punishment for something specific) and randomly have me worship her ass and these are the things that I hope we can build on. I would love it if Mistress occasionally had me worship her pussy while she was getting dressed, even if she just had me kneel in front of her and kiss it once or twice. So little trouble really, but it would mean a lot to me... but I understand that it's 'thinking about it', and for this reason Mistress and I have decided that we will review our contract every three months in future.

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Over the last 24 hours I've been 'blessed' with some more comments on 'Anna's Cuckold' (nothing on 'Submitting to Mika' though). I've noticed that 'STM' has had nearly 10,000 views while 'Anna's Cuckold' has had just over 6000. Odd then that that story has all the comments, I think putting 'Cuckold' in the title is perhaps a mistake as it seems to draw the wrong sort of people and affects the score.

Anonymous said: Get a divorce! Any man with respect would file for divorce and give the ex the house as it will be she who will be stuck with mortgage, taxes and repairs.

Red_wood said: Nicely written story, enjoyed it. Small snapshot into their lives with no character background makes it interesting and at the same time , would like to know more. I would like to see David get his balls back, but looking at your story list, guess not. Keep up the writing,

Justincbenedict said: You have such a gift! Loved all your stuff since you wrote as "Malibuman666" and of course you capture the whole aspect of a man fantasizing about being forced to just lick the twat and then jack off on her feet...I always get such a kick out of your writing!

I also noticed a couple of new comments left on 'A Broken Marriage Redefined' which was a story I wrote back in June 2017 (Wow, really - I thought it was last year!)

Suckerman said: I so understand how Paul feels as she was talking to him. My only criticism is Paul had 6"a tiny fraction ABOVE what is now recognised as average (5.8") it would have been better at 5" or perhaps 4.5". But still great 5*

CdCindy1 said: I love this story! This is what I truly wish would happen with my wife. I want her to get fucked by well-hung men, I would then eat their cum from her pussy, I would lick and suck their cocks clean (then swallow another load directly from the tap), and then they would fuck my sissy man-pussy while my wife watched and called me her sissy faggot cuckold husband. It would be even better if she dressed me in sexy lingerie and make-up. Please tell us more stories like this one. This is so hot that I stroked my hard cock, shot a big load into my hand, and then ate it all up. Yummy Yumm