I've long been, not 'against' exactly, but...perhaps slightly dismissive of those who espouse the very long term denial periods. But now I find that I very much would like Mistress R to ruin a far greater percentage of my orgasms and rarely let me cum properly at all. Of course this kind of adds up to the same thing, so I guess what I'm saying is that despite what I may have said in the past, I would now very much like to experience (and feel that I'm ready for) long periods of denial and frustration.
I must admit that these days proper orgasms are often too intense to be genuinely pleasurable, and I really hate the time it takes to get sufficiently horny again after being allowed one.
Some lovely teasing for me this morning and a very unexpected purchase too. We popped into Ann Summers this afternoon and while Mistress was trying on a couple of things I happened to notice a cool glass butt plug in there, not too big, not too small...just what I was looking for in fact. Looking forward to trying that one out in the near future!!!
Saturday, 15 March 2014
Friday, 14 March 2014
Full time Femdom is not on the cards...
An anonymous comment was left on the blog in the last few days which suggested that we could include in our contract something to the effect that 'whenever possible I should call Mistress R 'Mistress', as this will allow our Femdom life to permeate further into our vanilla life'.
This had occurred to me actually, but for a couple of reasons I didn't suggest it. Firstly while part of me likes the idea of it, I'm not actually sure I want that kind of relationship. I would actually rather stay on an equal footing in my marriage and I personally believe that is best for our marriage. I know there are people out there, possibly even reading this who want to live it 100% and I say if that's what works for them then that's great.
I also know that Mistress does not want that kind of relationship, she does not want a 24/7 slave, and she is no more likely to read 'Uniquely Rika' than she is to watch my 'Alien' quadrilogy box-set. That's just the way it is. She does enjoy having me be permanently submissive in the bedroom and she does like controlling my cock, but she simply doesn't want me to be a submissive husband.
I actually agree, I don't think it would work for me either. What I would like is for Mistress to be able to flick the 'domme' switch on whenever she wanted to, for example as I believe I mentioned the other day, I would love for her to come up to me while I was doing something completely un-sexual, maybe playing my guitar or writing on my laptop or something... and just order me to worship her pussy, feet or ass for a few minutes and then when she's had enough to just leave me alone again, throbbing and desperate.
But as far as us being 24/7, I really don't think so.
Big news on the weight loss front, I have quit my Slimming club because I am not getting on with it any more. All I am doing, and have been doing for the last few months is paying them to weigh me and then leaving. The meetings are really not my thing, and never were and are doing nothing to motivate me whatsoever. So Mistress and I have drawn up a new strategy which will hopefully get me moving in the right direction again. I'm pleased to say I've kept the vast majority of the weight I've lost off, it's just that I've been going up and down the same few pounds now since the end of last year and I think it's time to try something fresh. I'm actually really looking forward to it and feeling very positive about it, kind of how I was when I first went to Slimming World. Plus now the weather is starting to pick up I am looking forward to getting out on my bike and walking during my dinner hour to help the process along.
This had occurred to me actually, but for a couple of reasons I didn't suggest it. Firstly while part of me likes the idea of it, I'm not actually sure I want that kind of relationship. I would actually rather stay on an equal footing in my marriage and I personally believe that is best for our marriage. I know there are people out there, possibly even reading this who want to live it 100% and I say if that's what works for them then that's great.
I also know that Mistress does not want that kind of relationship, she does not want a 24/7 slave, and she is no more likely to read 'Uniquely Rika' than she is to watch my 'Alien' quadrilogy box-set. That's just the way it is. She does enjoy having me be permanently submissive in the bedroom and she does like controlling my cock, but she simply doesn't want me to be a submissive husband.
I actually agree, I don't think it would work for me either. What I would like is for Mistress to be able to flick the 'domme' switch on whenever she wanted to, for example as I believe I mentioned the other day, I would love for her to come up to me while I was doing something completely un-sexual, maybe playing my guitar or writing on my laptop or something... and just order me to worship her pussy, feet or ass for a few minutes and then when she's had enough to just leave me alone again, throbbing and desperate.
But as far as us being 24/7, I really don't think so.
Big news on the weight loss front, I have quit my Slimming club because I am not getting on with it any more. All I am doing, and have been doing for the last few months is paying them to weigh me and then leaving. The meetings are really not my thing, and never were and are doing nothing to motivate me whatsoever. So Mistress and I have drawn up a new strategy which will hopefully get me moving in the right direction again. I'm pleased to say I've kept the vast majority of the weight I've lost off, it's just that I've been going up and down the same few pounds now since the end of last year and I think it's time to try something fresh. I'm actually really looking forward to it and feeling very positive about it, kind of how I was when I first went to Slimming World. Plus now the weather is starting to pick up I am looking forward to getting out on my bike and walking during my dinner hour to help the process along.
Wednesday, 12 March 2014
A few more details of the contract...
A quiet last few days here, but now that Mistress's period is finished it was lovely to be able to taste her sweet pussy again and to make her cum. Mistress then teased me really nicely as I told her how much it would turn me on to have her randomly demand ass or pussy worship from me when I am least expecting it, not even touching my cock and leaving me throbbing and aching.... :)
I have a piece of paper in front of me on which the notes for our contract have been scribbled. There's nothing greatly changed, but there has been a bit of clarification, a bit of upping the ante, and a little bit of rule tightening. The main points are these:
I must kiss Mistress's feet every day.
I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission.
I am not allowed to cum without permission.
I am not allowed to beg to be allowed to cum - ever!
I am allowed to ask permission to touch my cock, but this will be for Mistress to decide.
I am allowed to ask to be allowed to worship Mistress's ass, but this will be for her to decide.
I am to fold and present Mistress's towels for her every day.
Mistress decides how many (also, when and how) ruined and full orgasms I receive. There is no minimum or maximum number in any given week, month or year.
When we are in bed I must always refer to Mistress as 'Mistress', also when ever I am performing any act of worship or anytime that she refers to me as 'slave'. (Mistress does not wish for me to call her Mistress day to day at the present time).
Every time I am allowed to cum I am to swallow as much as possible of it.
And finally, one rule that was relaxed has now been reinstated: I am no longer allowed to ask for penetration.
This rule was originally imposed right at the very start of our chastity journey. It was relaxed in the tail end of last year, pending Mistress's review if she thought I asked too often. Mistress has decided that as I am now being granted penetration more regularly than used to be the case, allowing me to ask for penetration is no longer necessary.
We are planning to sign our contract on the 1st April, there may be some minor additions or alterations before then depending on how Mistress feels it suits our requirements.
I have a piece of paper in front of me on which the notes for our contract have been scribbled. There's nothing greatly changed, but there has been a bit of clarification, a bit of upping the ante, and a little bit of rule tightening. The main points are these:
I must kiss Mistress's feet every day.
I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission.
I am not allowed to cum without permission.
I am not allowed to beg to be allowed to cum - ever!
I am allowed to ask permission to touch my cock, but this will be for Mistress to decide.
I am allowed to ask to be allowed to worship Mistress's ass, but this will be for her to decide.
I am to fold and present Mistress's towels for her every day.
Mistress decides how many (also, when and how) ruined and full orgasms I receive. There is no minimum or maximum number in any given week, month or year.
When we are in bed I must always refer to Mistress as 'Mistress', also when ever I am performing any act of worship or anytime that she refers to me as 'slave'. (Mistress does not wish for me to call her Mistress day to day at the present time).
Every time I am allowed to cum I am to swallow as much as possible of it.
And finally, one rule that was relaxed has now been reinstated: I am no longer allowed to ask for penetration.
This rule was originally imposed right at the very start of our chastity journey. It was relaxed in the tail end of last year, pending Mistress's review if she thought I asked too often. Mistress has decided that as I am now being granted penetration more regularly than used to be the case, allowing me to ask for penetration is no longer necessary.
We are planning to sign our contract on the 1st April, there may be some minor additions or alterations before then depending on how Mistress feels it suits our requirements.
Monday, 10 March 2014
Contract update..
Tonight Mistress and I have started work on our contract, it's not massively long but it's good to get it all down on paper so we know exactly where we stand. Thanks to everyone who left suggestions, some of your ideas have been taken on board. One thing which is now more rigid is that I will be licking up my cum every time!
Saturday, 8 March 2014
No session, but still good...
For reasons I won't go into here our Femdom session was postponed until probably the 23rd of March, however, Mistress and I still went to bed this afternoon and after making her cum with my tongue she set about teasing the shit out of my cock. She started using her hands and mouth but after a while she bent over the side of the bed and pulled a bottle of lube and a hairbrush out of her drawer (afterwards she told me she was looking for the cock whip but couldn't find it).
At first she continued stroking my cock and using the bristles on the brush to scratch my cock, then she used the back of the brush to slap my cock with. Then she poured some lube onto her hands and started stroking my cock. For the next ten-fifteen minutes she teased me really good, standing over me and giving me a great view of her gorgeous pussy and ass, then sinking down onto my cock and riding me, then riding my face. I really didn't want it to end and really thought she was seriously thinking about letting me cum (or ruining me at least).
In the end she did neither, after teasing me with her beautiful ass for the last time she lay down next to me and told me I could either choose 60 seconds of gentle stroking, during which time she would allow me to continue squeezing and toying with her ass as I had been throughout the session... or I could choose thirty seconds of much harder teasing.
Since I thought the thirty seconds would get me much closer to the edge and to a possible orgasm, or ruined orgasm... I chose that. Mistress pumped my cock hard and then started slapping my cock and balls pretty hard (as she had throughout the session, no wonder they ache a little now!). Thirty seconds was over way too quick and as she pulled her hand away I was left massively frustrated and throbbing.
As we lay together afterwards Mistress brought up the subject of our contract and we discussed the details we had thought of so far. Some of them are not pertaining to chastity or Femdom exactly, but relationship things. I still think that's quite a good thing and I think formally recognizing chastity and Femdom as part of our wider relationship is a great idea.
Oh yes, before I went down on Mistress she mentioned one of my posts on here and said she got the impression that I was suggesting that I was being allowed to cum too often. She teased me about that a little bit and then suggested that maybe she should just make sure that more of the ones she did allow me to have were ruined... sounds good to me!
At first she continued stroking my cock and using the bristles on the brush to scratch my cock, then she used the back of the brush to slap my cock with. Then she poured some lube onto her hands and started stroking my cock. For the next ten-fifteen minutes she teased me really good, standing over me and giving me a great view of her gorgeous pussy and ass, then sinking down onto my cock and riding me, then riding my face. I really didn't want it to end and really thought she was seriously thinking about letting me cum (or ruining me at least).
In the end she did neither, after teasing me with her beautiful ass for the last time she lay down next to me and told me I could either choose 60 seconds of gentle stroking, during which time she would allow me to continue squeezing and toying with her ass as I had been throughout the session... or I could choose thirty seconds of much harder teasing.
Since I thought the thirty seconds would get me much closer to the edge and to a possible orgasm, or ruined orgasm... I chose that. Mistress pumped my cock hard and then started slapping my cock and balls pretty hard (as she had throughout the session, no wonder they ache a little now!). Thirty seconds was over way too quick and as she pulled her hand away I was left massively frustrated and throbbing.
As we lay together afterwards Mistress brought up the subject of our contract and we discussed the details we had thought of so far. Some of them are not pertaining to chastity or Femdom exactly, but relationship things. I still think that's quite a good thing and I think formally recognizing chastity and Femdom as part of our wider relationship is a great idea.
Oh yes, before I went down on Mistress she mentioned one of my posts on here and said she got the impression that I was suggesting that I was being allowed to cum too often. She teased me about that a little bit and then suggested that maybe she should just make sure that more of the ones she did allow me to have were ruined... sounds good to me!
Friday, 7 March 2014
Feedback on Literotica...
Since I can't sleep, I thought I would check out my Literotica pages and see if anyone's left any new feedback lately...
Thirty Seven Days
ANONYMOUS: Oh wonderful. So he's married to a worthless whore who seeks to turn him into a fag. How could I possibly miss the eroticism in that? What's next, he'll have to take it up the ass in order to get the cage off? Stories like these should end with either the whore or the nutless wonder's death, so someone can get out of the 'relationship'. I don't pretend to understand all of human nature, I get that some truly stupid things happen that are beyond my ken, but I'd die before submitting to that nonsense.
ANONYMOUS: She has no control. You don't need her. Remove the cage. You don't need a key - it's simple and a fool can do it. Grow a spine and realize she has no love or respect for you and is simply using you to satisfy her own sick, perverted amusement. Throw her out and change the locks. All done. The rest of this is unbelievable garbage.
Once a Month
ANONYMOUS: Glad you stopped writing, because this had not a single worthwhile thing in it.
Katherine's New Game
ANONYMOUS: The only thing he cleaned up...was her blood, after he broke her nose, blackened her eye and threw her out on her ass. Because who would stay with a whore who treated him like that?
A Game of Tease and Denial
ANONYMOUS: How about you get up and throw her out? Seems like the perfect answer to someone who wants to abuse and humiliate you. Adios!
Everything Has a Price - Chapter 15
ANONYMOUS: Perfect. I'm down with submissive but hate humiliation. This is incredibly realistic (if I had superhuman self-control) and I like the open ending. I'm choosing to think that it stays at the control level. Well done, this is great for people who don't understand sub guys.
ANONYMOUS: Now's your chance. This woman has demonstrated by her actions that she simply wants to use you for her own perverse entertainment. How does it feel to be a thing? Yeah - thought so. Time to get dressed, pack a bag and leave this self centred, manipulative bitch. She cares not one iota about you other than as her toy. You'd be a fool to stick around. Divorce her and search for someone who might actually love you.
More Fun With Dice
ANONYMOUS: Obviously not signing this crap! Cut the cage off - it's so easy. Smack the bitch in the mouth, leave and find yourself a good life far away from the manipulative, skanky whore. Why would he possibly do anything else? Even to contemplate doing otherwise is a load of horse pucky.
Out of Your Hands - Chapter 3
TRACYINDALYNN: To submit is beautiful. If what you write is true. You are a beautiful man for giving your Goddess everything she deserves. If only I could find a man as worthy as you! Thank you for sharing your life with us.
Owned - Chapter 3
ANONYMOUS: Just divorce her. You are being treated as an object, as her toy, her plaything. I don't see any man putting up with that behaviour. Pack up and let her play with herself. This is a self-centred, abusive, manipulative bitch and you need to leave her in your dust.
Owned - Chapter 8
ANONYMOUS: Sounds like my slut mom and sissy dad, only at my house I fuck them both and let some of my friends use them as well.
NOROPES: To imagine the scent of real cock for the first time and then mixed with Mistress. Then accepting that her pussy is creaming on a dominant man's larger cock while you carry large aching balls. The acceptance. The humiliation. The degredation.
ANONYMOUS: By now any man would have stood up and thrown the abusive bitch to the kerb. Why would anyone stay with someone who degraded and humiliated them? This stupid bitch would be out on her ass in a heart beat. This isn't remotely or stimulating. She'd treat the dog better.
ANONYMOUS: I can't agree, unless you are making a difference between a man and a wimp. The guy asked for what she is doing to him and seems to like it. The author has any and all right to write anything that does not insult my intelligence. I could not see myself putting up with this, but then I would never ask for it. I'm not going to have a tizzy about some guy getting what he asks for when there are stories where this type of crap is delved out without consent.
The Anniversary
ANONYMOUS: Hope she enjoyed...the divorce. She earned it!
Gotta love the trolls, and I take it as a twisted kind of compliment that so many people seem to think my stories are a factual account of my life!
Thirty Seven Days
ANONYMOUS: Oh wonderful. So he's married to a worthless whore who seeks to turn him into a fag. How could I possibly miss the eroticism in that? What's next, he'll have to take it up the ass in order to get the cage off? Stories like these should end with either the whore or the nutless wonder's death, so someone can get out of the 'relationship'. I don't pretend to understand all of human nature, I get that some truly stupid things happen that are beyond my ken, but I'd die before submitting to that nonsense.
ANONYMOUS: She has no control. You don't need her. Remove the cage. You don't need a key - it's simple and a fool can do it. Grow a spine and realize she has no love or respect for you and is simply using you to satisfy her own sick, perverted amusement. Throw her out and change the locks. All done. The rest of this is unbelievable garbage.
Once a Month
ANONYMOUS: Glad you stopped writing, because this had not a single worthwhile thing in it.
Katherine's New Game
ANONYMOUS: The only thing he cleaned up...was her blood, after he broke her nose, blackened her eye and threw her out on her ass. Because who would stay with a whore who treated him like that?
A Game of Tease and Denial
ANONYMOUS: How about you get up and throw her out? Seems like the perfect answer to someone who wants to abuse and humiliate you. Adios!
Everything Has a Price - Chapter 15
ANONYMOUS: Perfect. I'm down with submissive but hate humiliation. This is incredibly realistic (if I had superhuman self-control) and I like the open ending. I'm choosing to think that it stays at the control level. Well done, this is great for people who don't understand sub guys.
ANONYMOUS: Now's your chance. This woman has demonstrated by her actions that she simply wants to use you for her own perverse entertainment. How does it feel to be a thing? Yeah - thought so. Time to get dressed, pack a bag and leave this self centred, manipulative bitch. She cares not one iota about you other than as her toy. You'd be a fool to stick around. Divorce her and search for someone who might actually love you.
More Fun With Dice
ANONYMOUS: Obviously not signing this crap! Cut the cage off - it's so easy. Smack the bitch in the mouth, leave and find yourself a good life far away from the manipulative, skanky whore. Why would he possibly do anything else? Even to contemplate doing otherwise is a load of horse pucky.
Out of Your Hands - Chapter 3
TRACYINDALYNN: To submit is beautiful. If what you write is true. You are a beautiful man for giving your Goddess everything she deserves. If only I could find a man as worthy as you! Thank you for sharing your life with us.
Owned - Chapter 3
ANONYMOUS: Just divorce her. You are being treated as an object, as her toy, her plaything. I don't see any man putting up with that behaviour. Pack up and let her play with herself. This is a self-centred, abusive, manipulative bitch and you need to leave her in your dust.
Owned - Chapter 8
ANONYMOUS: Sounds like my slut mom and sissy dad, only at my house I fuck them both and let some of my friends use them as well.
NOROPES: To imagine the scent of real cock for the first time and then mixed with Mistress. Then accepting that her pussy is creaming on a dominant man's larger cock while you carry large aching balls. The acceptance. The humiliation. The degredation.
ANONYMOUS: By now any man would have stood up and thrown the abusive bitch to the kerb. Why would anyone stay with someone who degraded and humiliated them? This stupid bitch would be out on her ass in a heart beat. This isn't remotely or stimulating. She'd treat the dog better.
ANONYMOUS: I can't agree, unless you are making a difference between a man and a wimp. The guy asked for what she is doing to him and seems to like it. The author has any and all right to write anything that does not insult my intelligence. I could not see myself putting up with this, but then I would never ask for it. I'm not going to have a tizzy about some guy getting what he asks for when there are stories where this type of crap is delved out without consent.
The Anniversary
ANONYMOUS: Hope she enjoyed...the divorce. She earned it!
Gotta love the trolls, and I take it as a twisted kind of compliment that so many people seem to think my stories are a factual account of my life!
Just a quick one...
Hello everyone... apologies for the lack of posts of late. I haven't really been in the mood and there hasn't really been anything terribly blogworthy to report if I'm 100% honest. Staggeringly, despite me not posting anything I've still been getting 2000+ views a day, so I'm glad that you guys are still finding entertainment here even when I'm not posting... although it does rather raise the question of whether I'm particularly adding anything by posting of course!!!
Still no progress on the contract front, though I'm hopeful that we will get it sorted and signed by our third Chastity Anniversary (as Mistress Marie suggested). I hope you've all been keeping up with her blog, certainly a LOT going on there of late! If not, click the banner on the right side of this blog to find out what's been happening.
Still no progress on the contract front, though I'm hopeful that we will get it sorted and signed by our third Chastity Anniversary (as Mistress Marie suggested). I hope you've all been keeping up with her blog, certainly a LOT going on there of late! If not, click the banner on the right side of this blog to find out what's been happening.
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